The Perfect Mess (15 page)

Chapter 26

“I know it’s only been four days but you have no idea how good it feels to be able to touch you, to have you here in person,” Ben said as he twined his fingers with Landon’s as soon as the cab was driving them away from the airport. Landon grinned as he leaned close and pressed his lips to Ben’s.

“You have no idea how good that feels,” he whispered and Ben was already thinking about how good something else was going to feel as soon as they were back at his place. “Marry me,” Landon said and Ben’s head pulled back as he searched Landon’s face.

“Oh, Jesus! You don’t seem that drunk,” he said and Landon shook his head.

“Haven’t had a drink all day. Or anything to eat. I’ve been too nervous and excited. Marry me,” he repeated and Ben fell back against the seat.

“You’re really asking me?” He mumbled and Landon nodded as he raised their hands to his lips and kissed Ben’s hand.

“I realized I should have asked before I left. I don’t ever want to be without you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Ben,” he said gently and Ben glared at the driver through the rear view mirror as he shamelessly stared back at them as they waited at a red light.

“That’s so fast,” Ben murmured and Landon frowned.

“Are you saying no?” He asked slowly and Ben shook his head.

“I’m just saying it’s really fast,” he said and Landon smiled as he pulled Ben’s lips to his.

“That’s worked really well for us, so far,” he said and Ben rolled his eyes.

“We didn’t have a choice before,” he argued and Landon shook his head.

“We did too! I gave you the choice the second night and you chose not to waste any time and we did everything on fast forward. And it worked,” he said and Ben cringed.

“We had nothing to lose then and it only had to work for a few months. Marriage is supposed to be forever. And I’d want it to be forever with you,” Ben said and Landon grinned.

“See. I want forever with you too,” he said as he tapped his forehead against Ben’s then pecked at his lips. “I’ve never felt like I really lost anything until I let go of you four days ago and didn’t know when I’d see you next. I don’t ever want to feel that again,” Landon said and Ben sighed as he fisted his hand in Landon’s shirt and pulled him closer. God, he smelled so fucking good and everything felt so perfect and right, now that Ben could feel him again.

“We have time now,” Ben argued and Landon shook his head.

“We don’t have to waste it though. I know that there isn’t going to be anyone else and I don’t want to spend another day of my life not belonging to you in every way and knowing that you’re mine too,” he said and Ben had to hold onto Landon as all the air left his body in a rush. How could he argue with that? Landon was right. He was perfect and he was offering Ben exactly what he had dreamt of.

“Would you hurry up, we’re almost there,” the driver urged and Landon gestured toward the driver as he raised a brow at Ben.

“You heard the man,” Landon teased and Ben gave them both stern looks before he sighed and threw his hands up.

“Yes,” Ben said. “I’ll marry you,” he added as Landon grabbed the driver’s shoulder and shook it excitedly.

“He said yes!” Landon said before he turned to Ben and gathered his face in his hands. “You said yes!” He whispered as his lips covered Ben’s. The kiss was perfect and tender as Landon’s tongue slid lazily around Ben’s until the car jerked to a halt.

“Mazel tov!” The driver said loudly as he parked. “We’re here,” he said and Ben wasn’t sure if he wanted to punch the man or hug him.

“I can’t wait to tell Michelle!” Landon said as he pushed the door open and offered Ben his hand. “Is she here?” He asked and Ben nodded as he shoved a wad of cash at the driver and took the handle of one of Landon’s suitcases.

“Yeah,” he muttered. “Her and Jason were supposed to meet us for dinner. I can’t wait to tell her either but I wanted to be alone with you for a while,” Ben complained and Landon shook his head as they got in the elevator.

“Nope. We tell them first then we’re not seeing anyone for a few days. I’m not going to dinner later. I’m not going anywhere that involves either of us in pants,” he said firmly and Ben felt his lips tilting into a grin. He was starting to like Landon’s plan much better.

“Fine. We give them our news and then it’s sans pants for days,” he said and Landon nodded decisively.

“If I don’t have your cock on or in some part of my body in ten minutes or less, we’re going to have a serious problem and I don’t plan to let it out of my sight any time soon.” The doors opened and Ben had to adjust the front of his pants before he could walk. He followed as Landon went to Michelle’s door and not his and knocked. Ben strategically stood behind the suitcase as the door opened and Michelle squealed as she reached for Landon. He hugged her tightly before kissing her forehead then set her away from him so he could give Jason a quick hug.

“I’m back. I’ve asked Ben to marry me and he’s said yes,” Landon announced and Michelle’s eyes almost fell out of her head as she swung toward Ben. He nodded and her jaw dropped. Landon clapped his hands together and everyone looked at him. “So, we’re getting married as soon as we work out the details. Well, we’re going to go have sex for a few days and discuss the details. Bye, kids!” He said as he turned toward Ben’s door and Michelle rushed around him and held her hands out.

“Wait! You asked him to marry you?” She asked in utter disbelief and Landon nodded. She looked at Ben. “You said yes?” She asked again, in more disbelief as he nodded. Landon grabbed her shoulders and moved her two steps to the side.

“I need to go have sex with your brother now. A lot of it. For days. I’d suggest you let us get into his apartment before we start,” Landon said slowly and Michelle’s lips pulled in and Ben could almost hear the pressure building as a surge of questions rushed from her brain to her lips. “Ben, you’d better open this door. Unless you’d like to try it from the outside,” he warned and Ben was too happy to reach past him with the key.

“We’ll see you in a few days,” Ben said firmly and Michelle opened her mouth to argue and Jason’s arm reached out and he grabbed her hand.

“For the love of God, let them go before we have to hear any more about them having sex,” Jason demanded and Michelle turned to scold him and he pointed back. “I’m so fucking happy for them and glad they’re about to smash their penises together but I don’t need any details. Now, let them go.” He said as he pulled her away and Landon saluted Jason as he backed through the door.

“Thanks but in the future, we gay men like to avoid penis smashing as much as you straight men,” he said and Jason rolled his eyes as he slammed Michelle’s door shut. Ben laughed as he stumbled through his door and just got the suitcase through when it shut behind him. “Finally!” Landon sighed in relief as he pushed Ben against the door. “Want to do this here or try to make it to the bed?” He asked as Ben picked at the buttons of Landon’s shirt.

“Here is fine. We haven’t tried it with this door yet.” He said as pulled Landon to him.

Epilogue

“Up you go, Princess!” Landon said as he lifted Bea off of his shoulders and onto the top bunk of her bed. She reached for Ben and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed his cheek loudly before she offered her cheek to Landon for a kiss. He gave it a loud kiss and she kissed his before crawling for her pillow and doll.

“So, tomorrow, when Aunt Michelle comes home from the hospital, I’ll have a new baby cousin?” Bea asked and Landon nodded.

“That’s right. She’ll finally be able to walk around like a person and not a duck!” He said and Bea smiled.

“She looked like she was going to explode yesterday!” Bea said before a giant yawn poured from her. Landon chuckled softly as he pulled the blanket up to her chin.

“Poor Michelle has to carry Jason’s strapping babies,” Landon said wearily and Ben’s groan was part warning.

“Which of you carried me?” Bea asked and Landon pointed at Ben.

“He did,” he said then howled when Ben slapped his hand.

“No!” Ben said loudly as he pushed Landon aside. “A lovely friend helped us bring you into the world and one day, when all kinds of boring, complicated things make more sense to you, we’ll tell you everything you want to know.” He gave Landon a hard look. “Daddy was just joking and I’m sure he didn’t mean to confuse you,” Ben said and Landon cradled his hand and pushed his lip out, then offered his hand for a kiss. Bea kissed away his wound and he nodded.

“I was being silly and I love you very much, Princess Bea!” He said and Ben teased her nose with the end of one of her braids.

“And I love you too. Sleep well!” Ben said and Bea nodded before she rolled on her side and tucked her hands beneath her cheek. Landon grabbed Ben’s hand behind his back as they both backed out of the room. Ben pulled the door almost shut before he turned to Landon and pushed him toward their room. “It’s bad enough that we have to worry about her understanding why she has two daddies but you have to go and make me the mommy?” He complained as he walked through the bathroom shedding his clothes. Landon bit his lip as he locked the door then turned on the monitor so they could see and hear into Bea’s room.

“Do we need to do a little role playing to reaffirm your masculinity? I’m willing to be tortured tonight,” he said as he leaned against the bathroom door and worked at the buttons on his shirt and Ben rolled his eyes.

“And terrify Bea when she hears you screaming?” He asked and Landon pulled his lips in to keep from laughing.

“You could gag me,” he offered and Ben shook his head as he turned down the duvet on the bed.

“God, don’t think I’m not tempted. Then, I’d have to worry less about what’s going to come out of your mouth,” Ben teased and Landon kicked off his boxers before he walked into the room.

“I’ll be more careful about what I say around Bea and I promise that if anyone has to be the soccer mom, it’ll be me,” Landon said as he crawled onto the bed. Ben did his best to appear serious as he folded an arm behind his head and watched Landon.

“Fine. But if I come home and find you drunk in the middle of the afternoon and wearing yoga pants, we’re going to have a problem,” he stated and Landon growled softly as he rubbed his lips against Ben’s.

“But how cute would my ass be in yoga pants?” He murmured and Ben shook his head as he pushed his hand through Landon’s hair.

“Your ass is so much cuter without pants and wine is loaded with calories,” he warned before his tongue slid past Landon’s lips and twisted with his. When Landon raised his head the mood was much more serious.

“Tonight will be our last quiet night for a few days, we should probably take advantage,” he said as he dropped his hips and ground against Ben. He nodded in agreement.

“Yeah. I think it’s really great that you’re always so sweet about having Michelle and Jason’s boys over the first few nights after she comes home from the hospital,” Ben said gently as he rolled Landon onto his back. Landon shrugged.

“It’s not a big deal. I enjoy the boys and the chaos is fun when you know it’s just for a few days,” he said then groaned as Ben’s lips cruised over his collar bone and down the center of his chest.

“That doesn’t mean that you don’t deserve a little reward, something to show that I appreciate your patience,” Ben murmured. His tongue traced Landon’s nipple and Landon hissed as he bucked beneath Ben.

“I wouldn’t say no to being appreciated,” he said hoarsely. Ben hummed as he licked and sucked his way down Landon’s chest and stomach. Ben slipped lower and inhaled, pulling in Landon’s scent as his lips pressed into Landon’s sack. Landon’s eyes rolled and he was just about to let his brain shut off when a thought bloomed. His brows pulled together as he propped himself up on his elbows. “Hey. Do you think we should have another?” He asked and Ben was still for several seconds before he looked up at Landon.

“You understand what I was about to do to you, right?” He asked and Landon’s lips curved into a drunken grin.

“Yeah and I’m really looking forward to it,” he said and Ben gave him a pointed look. Landon shrugged. “I was just wondering and this is the last quiet evening that we’re going to have for a few nights. And I was pretty sure I was about to forget to mention it,” he added and Ben blinked up at him.

“So, you thought now was a good time to discuss having another child? When I was about to use my mouth and hands to make copious amounts of come pour from your body? You thought you’d toss out a conversation about another baby?” Ben asked carefully and Landon’s grin got goofier.

“Remember what we learned in Sex Ed? Any time semen is involved a baby is possible,” he repeated and Ben shut his eyes and Landon knew he was processing and praying for patience. “We don’t have to have a full blown conversation now I just thought I’d get the ball rolling,” he explained and Ben grinned.

“You were about to get fully blown and I was just getting to your balls,” he said and Landon patted him on the back. It was rare for Ben to turn something around into such a dirty phrase.

“Well done!” He said as he smiled down at Ben. “You may begin blowing and my balls are ready to be appreciated,” Landon announced with a flourish and Ben shook his head as he rested his chin in his hand and got comfortable.

“No, no!” He said as he waved for Landon to continue. “You wanted to introduce the conversation and get the ball rolling, by all means, do,” Ben insisted and Landon sighed as he sat up.

“With the new baby coming and our place about to be full of boys, I just thought it might be good to spend the time with them thinking about what it would be like if we had one,” he explained and Ben chewed on his lip thoughtfully.

“I don’t know. Boys are such a handful. They’re loud and destructive and all over the place…” he complained and Landon nodded in agreement.

“I don’t think those are necessarily bad things,” he said as he traced between Ben’s shoulder blades. Ben nodded.

“Not always but things have finally settled down with Bea. I don’t feel like we’re overwhelmed all the time and now and then it feels like we know what we’re doing. Do you want to start over with all of that?” He asked and Landon shrugged.

“I really don’t know. Sometimes, everything feels so perfect and balanced. Other times, it feels like we’re still missing a piece and not quite complete,” he explained and Ben sighed as he rubbed his cheek against Landon’s thigh.

“I can see that,” he said. “I just don’t know if I’m ready to give up any more than we already do right now. I know it sounds selfish but Bea gets a lot of time and attention and now and then, I miss just being able to ride your cock in the middle of the afternoon on the couch. I wouldn’t change a thing about our lives now, I’m happier than I ever thought possible but sometimes I miss the freedom. We’d have a lot less with another baby,” Ben said and Landon laughed softly as he guided Ben’s hand to his hard-on.

“I totally get that. I miss just being naked all over the place and eating your ass whenever the mood hit me.” He fell back on the bed and moaned happily. “Oh, God, do that!” He gasped as Ben began to stroke and settled his shoulders between Landon’s thighs. “I know we only had a few years alone but I love everything about our life and want more of us,” he hissed as Ben’s tongue swirled around his hole.

“I want more of this,” Ben said. “Can you promise me more time for this if we have another baby?” He asked before his lips closed around Landon’s puckered bud. Ben sucked and Landon’s shoulders came off the bed as his hands closed around Ben’s head.

“No. I can’t promise more. I can promise to try. Mother of God, I’ll try!” He covered his mouth as Ben’s tongue pushed against his entrance and the hand wrapped around his length tugged firmer and faster. “We should definitely be doing more of this,” Landon admitted just before his brain disconnected.

Ben explored Landon’s ass so thoroughly with his tongue and then fingers that it wasn’t long before he was writhing on the bed as come poured from the head of his erection while Ben milked his prostate. Ben quickly coated his cock with Landon’s come before sliding smooth and deep into his ass. Landon squeezed tight around Ben, causing him to groan and roll his hips faster. Landon knew Ben was close and just needed to be pushed over the edge.

“Fuck! That’s so good!” He purred as he coated his fingers in the come on his stomach then pushed them into his mouth and sucked. Ben groaned and drove deeper. “More.” Landon commanded as he clenched tighter. “Come in my ass and then let me lick your cock clean,” he said and Ben gasped as he thrust deep and then froze. His eyes were unseeing and his mouth fell open on a silent scream before he bucked his hips hard twice and then began to convulse above Landon. A flood of heat filled Landon’s passage and Ben’s head fell back and Landon shivered as a tremor of pleasure rippled through his groin. He sensed that Ben was ready to collapse on him and Landon quickly flipped them so that Ben was on his back and he slowly slid off of Ben’s length. He crawled down Ben’s body until he found Ben’s cock. He moaned happily as he licked and sucked him clean, savoring the sweet and only slightly bitter taste of Ben’s come until he was pushing at Landon’s shoulders and begging him to be finished.

“You’ve always wanted more,” Ben said breathlessly. “Just promise me that we’re not going to stop connecting like this. I need to be able to feel and taste you,” he said and Landon grinned as his heart felt like it was about to push through his chest. Ben smiled cockily as he gabbed a handful of Landon’s hair. “You can have whatever you want as long as we’ll still fuck like this,” he said and Landon laughed.

“I will always want you,” he promised as he draped his body across Ben’s and found the corner of his neck. “There has never been a moment when I didn’t,” Landon added and Ben’s arms tightened around him. “But let’s see how the next few days go and how we feel after we’ve had four boys in our house,” he said and Ben laughed.

“That may kill this whole conversation,” he warned. “I’ll feel so bad for Michelle if this one’s a boy. I don’t know if she can survive another and she wants a girl so damn bad,” Ben said and Landon exhaled loudly as he considered the entire situation. Jason and Michelle kept trying for a girl and she kept giving birth to boy behemoths. The last baby, Braeden, weighed in at 9 pounds and 7 ounces. She never wanted to know what she was having because she’d spend the pregnancy either excited or disappointed and dreading another boy. Not that she didn’t love every child she had. Michelle was an incredible mother and Jason was a relaxed yet surprisingly strict at times sort of dad.

“She’ll spoil Bea even worse if this is a boy and they agree that they’re done,” Landon warned and Ben nodded in agreement.

“You know that’s the truth,” he said drowsily as his hands stroked Landon’s back soothingly.

“At least we have a little more control over the outcome depending on what we decide to do,” Landon said and Ben shook his head.

“If we’re going to do this again, I’d really like the baby to be yours. Bea is mine and I’d want one that was a piece of you if we had another,” he stipulated and Landon’s eyes began to sting.

“But we could have two girls,” he said and Ben snorted.

“That would be such a blessing. I’m a little afraid of boys, if I’m honest. Especially after seeing everything Michelle and Jason go through,” he admitted and Landon laughed.

“I don’t think they’re as bad when you’ve just got one or two,” he said and Ben shrugged.

“Probably not. But I’d be a lot more excited about another baby if it was you this time,” he said and Landon nodded.

“Ok. If we do this again, I’ll be the donor,” he agreed. “And if we don’t have another, my life will still be full of more love and joy than I ever imagined. And I’ll still be completely in love with you,” he said and Ben hummed happily.

“I love you so much. Sometimes, I still pinch myself to make sure all of this is real,” he admitted. His voice was drifting away and Landon’s body felt heavy and he couldn’t keep his eyes open.

“This is a dream, Ben. You and all of this is a dream,” he murmured as his consciousness faded.