Authors: Kristin Hannah
The boy looked up. “Is my maman here?”
Vianne met Mother Superior's even gaze with one of her own. “His name is Jean Georges Ruelle, Mother. I would speak to you alone if we could.”
Mother clapped her hands and a young nun appeared to take the boy away. When they were alone, Mother Superior sat down beside Vianne.
Vianne couldn't corral her thoughts and so a silence fell between them.
“I am sorry about your friend, Rachel.”
“And so many others,” Vianne said.
Mother nodded. “We have heard terrible rumors coming from Radio London about what is happening in the camps.”
“Perhaps our Holy Fatherâ”
“He is silent on this matter,” Mother said, her voice heavy with disappointment.
Vianne took a deep breath. “Hélène Ruelle and her elder son were deported today. Jean Georges is alone. His mother ⦠left him with me.”
“Left him with you?” Mother paused. “It is dangerous to have a Jewish child in your home, Vianne.”
“I want to protect him,” she said quietly.
Mother looked at her. She was silent so long that Vianne's fear began to put down roots, grow. “And how would you accomplish this?” she asked at last.
“Hide him.”
“Where?”
Vianne looked at Mother, saying nothing.
Mother's face drained of color. “Here?”
“An orphanage. What better place?”
Mother Superior stood and then sat. Then she stood again, her hands moved to the cross, held it. Slowly, she sat down again. Her shoulders sagged and then straightened when her decision was made. “A child in our care needs papers. Baptismal certificatesâI can ⦠get those, of course, but identity papers⦔
“I will get them,” Vianne said, although she had no idea if it was possible.
“You know that it is illegal to hide Jews now. The punishment is deportation if you're lucky, and lately, I believe no one is lucky in France.”
Vianne nodded.
Then Mother Superior said, “I will take the boy. And I ⦠could make room for more than one Jewish child.”
“More?”
“Of course there are more, Vianne. I will speak to a man I know in Girot. He works for the Åuvre de Secours aux Enfantsâthe Help the Children Fund. I expect he will know many families and children in hiding. I will tell him to expect you.”
“M-me?”
“You are the leader of this now, and if we are risking our lives for one child, we may as well try to save more.” Mother got abruptly to her feet. She hooked her arm through Vianne's, and the two women strolled the perimeter of the small garden. “No one here can know the truth. The children will have to be coached and have paperwork that passes inspection. And you would need a position hereâperhaps as a teacher,
oui,
as a part-time teacher. That would allow us to pay you a small stipend and would answer questions about why you are here with the children.”
“Oui,”
Vianne said, feeling shaky.
“Don't look so afraid, Vianne. You are doing the right thing.”
She had no doubt that this was true, and still she was terrified. “This is what they have done to us. We are afraid of our own shadows.” She looked at Mother. “How will I do it? Go to scared, hungry women and ask them to give me their children?”
“You will ask them if they've seen their friends being herded onto trains and taken away. You will ask them what they would risk to keep their child off of that train. Then you will let each mother decide.”
“It is an unimaginable choice. I'm not sure I could do it, just hand Sophie and Daniel over to a stranger.”
Mother leaned close. “I hear one of their awful storm troopers is billeted at your house. You realize this puts youâand Sophieâat terrible risk.”
“Of course. But how can I let her believe it's all right to do nothing in times such as these?”
Mother stopped. Releasing Vianne, she laid a soft palm against her cheek and smiled tenderly. “Be careful, Vianne. I have already been to your mother's funeral. I do not want to attend yours.”
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On an ice-cold mid-November day, Isabelle and Gaëtan left Brantôme and boarded a train to Bayonne. The carriage was overflowing with solemn German soldiersâmore so than usualâand when they disembarked, they found more soldiers crowding the platform.
Isabelle held Gaëtan's hand as they made their way through the gray-green uniforms. Two young lovers on their way to the beach town. “My maman used to love going to the beach. Did I ever tell you that?” Isabelle asked as they passed near two SS officers.
“You rich kids see all the good stuff.”
She smiled. “We were hardly rich, Gaëtan,” she said when they were outside the train station.
“Well you weren't poor,” he said. “I know poor.” He paused, let that settle between them, and then he said, “I could be rich someday.
“Someday,” he said again with a sigh, and she knew what he was thinking. It was what they were always thinking: Will there be a France in our future? Gaëtan slowed.
Isabelle saw what had captured his attention.
“Keep moving,” he said.
A roadblock had been set up ahead of them. Troops were everywhere, carrying rifles.
“What's going on?” Isabelle asked.
“They've seen us,” Gaëtan said. He tightened his hold on her hand. They strolled toward the swarm of German soldiers.
A burly, square-headed sentry blocked their way and demanded to see their passes and papers.
Isabelle offered her Juliette papers. Gaëtan offered his own false documents, but the soldier was more interested in the goings-on behind him. He barely glanced at the documents and handed them back.
Isabelle gave him her most innocent smile. “What's happening today?”
“No more Free Zone,” the soldier said, waving them through.
“No more Free Zone? Butâ”
“We are taking over all of France,” he said roughly. “No more pretense that your ridiculous Vichy government is in charge anywhere. Go.”
Gaëtan pulled her forward, through the amassing troops.
For hours, as they walked, they were honked at by German lorries and automobiles in a hurry to get past them.
It wasn't until they reached the quaint seaside town of Saint-Jean-de-Luz that they were able to escape the gathering Nazis. They walked along the empty seawall, perched high above the pounding surf of the Atlantic Ocean. Below them, a curl of yellow sand held the mighty, angry ocean at bay. In the distance, a lush green peninsula was dotted with houses built in the Basque tradition, with white sides and red doors and bright red tile roofs. The sky overhead was a faded, washed-out blue, with clouds stretched as taut as clotheslines. There were no other people out today, neither on the beach nor walking along the ancient seawall.
For the first time in hours, Isabelle could breathe. “What does it mean, no Free Zone?”
“It is not good, that's for sure. It will make your work more dangerous.”
“I've been moving through Occupied territory already.”
She tightened her hold on his hand and led him off the seawall. They stepped down the uneven steps and made their way to the road.
“We used to vacation out here when I was little,” she said. “Before my maman died. At least that's what I've heard. I barely remember.”
She wanted it to be the start of a conversation, but her words fell into the new silence between them and went unanswered. In the quiet, Isabelle felt the suffocating weight of missing him, even though he was holding her hand. Why hadn't she asked him more questions in their days together, gotten to know everything about him? Now there was no time left and they both knew it. They walked in a heavy silence.
In the haze of early evening, Gaëtan got his first glimpse of the Pyrenees.
The jagged, snow-dusted mountains rose into the leaden sky, their snow-tipped peaks ringed in clouds. “
Merde
. You crossed those mountains how many times?”
“Twenty-seven.”
“You're a wonder,” he said.
“I am,” she said with a smile.
They continued up, through the dark, empty streets of Urrugne, climbing with every step, moving past the closed-up shops and bistros full of old men. Beyond town lay the dirt path that led into the foothills. At last they came to the cottage tucked into the dark foothills, its chimney puffing smoke.
“Are you okay?” he asked, noticing that she had slowed her step.
“I will miss you,” she said quietly. “How long can you stay?”
“I have to leave in the morning.”
She wanted to release the hold on his hand, but it was difficult. She had this terrible, irrational fear that if she let go of him she would never touch him again and the thought of that was paralyzing. Still, she had a job to do. She let go of him and knocked three times sharply in rapid succession.
Madame opened the door. Dressed in man's clothing, smoking a Gauloises, she said, “Juliette! Come, come.” She stepped back, welcoming Isabelle and Gaëtan into the main room, where four airmen stood around the dining table. A fire burned in the hearth, and above the flames a black cast-iron pot bubbled and hissed and popped. Isabelle could smell the stew's ingredientsâgoat meat; wine; bacon; thick, rich stock; mushrooms and sage. The aroma was heavenly and reminded her that she hadn't eaten all day.
Madame gathered the men together and introduced themâthere were three RAF pilots and an American flier. The three Brits had been there for days, waiting for the American, who had arrived yesterday. Eduardo would be leading them over the mountains in the morning.
“It's good to meet you,” one of them said, shaking Isabelle's hand as if she were a water pump. “You're just as beautiful as we've been told.”
The men started talking all at once. Gaëtan moved easily into their midst, as if he belonged with them. Isabelle stood beside Madame Babineau and handed her the envelope of money that should have been delivered almost two weeks earlier. “I'm sorry about the delay.”
“You had a good excuse. How are you feeling?”
Isabelle moved her shoulder, testing it. “Better. In another week, I'll be ready to make the crossing again.”
Madame handed Isabelle the Gauloises. Isabelle took a long drag and exhaled, studying the men who were now in her charge. “How are they?”
“See the tall, thin oneânose like a Roman emperor?”
Isabelle couldn't help smiling. “I see him.”
“He claims to be a lord or duke or something. Sarah in Pau said he was trouble. Wouldn't follow a girl's orders.”
Isabelle made a note of that. It wasn't a rarity, of course, fliers who didn't want to take orders from womenâor girls or dames or broadsâbut it was always a trial.
She handed Isabelle a crumpled, dirt-stained letter. “One of them gave me this to give to you.”
She opened it quickly, scanned the contents. She recognized Henri's sloppy handwriting:
Jâyour friend survived her German holiday, but she has guests.
Do not stop by. Will watch out for her.
Vianne was fineâshe had been released after questioningâbut another soldier, or soldiers, was billeted there. She crumpled the paper and tossed it in the fire. She didn't know whether to be relieved or more worried. Instinctively, her gaze sought out Gaëtan, who was watching her as he spoke to an airman.
“I see the way you're watching him, you know.”
“Lord big nose?”
Madame Babineau barked out a laugh. “I am old but not blind. The young handsome one with the hungry eyes. He keeps looking at you, too.”
“He'll be leaving tomorrow morning.”
“Ah.”
Isabelle turned to the woman who had become her friend in the past two years. “I'm afraid to let him go, which is crazy with all the dangerous things I do.”
The look in Madame's dark eyes was both knowing and compassionate. “I would tell you to be careful if these were ordinary times. I would point out that he is young and engaged in a dangerous business and young men in danger can be fickle.” She sighed. “But we are cautious about too much these days, and why add love to the list?”
“Love,” Isabelle said quietly.
“I will add this, though, since I am a mother and we can't help ourselves: A broken heart hurts as badly in wartime as in peace. Say good-bye to your young man well.”
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Isabelle waited for the house to go quietâor as quiet as a room could be with men sleeping on the floor, snoring, rolling over. Moving cautiously, she eased out of her blankets and picked her way through the main room and went outside.
Stars flickered overhead, the sky immense in this dark landscape. Moonlight illuminated the goats, turned them into silver-white dots on the hillside.
She stood at the wooden fence, staring out. She didn't have long to wait.
Gaëtan came up behind her, put his arms around her. She leaned back into him. “I feel safe in your arms,” she said.
When he didn't respond, she knew something was wrong. Her heart sank. She turned slowly, looked up at him. “What is it?”
“Isabelle.” The way he said it frightened her. She thought,
No, don't tell me. Whatever it is, don't tell me.
In the silence, noises became noticeableâthe bleating of goats, the beating of her heart, the tumbling of a rock down a distant hillside.
“That meeting. The one we were going to in Carriveau when you found the airman?”
“
Oui?
” she said. She had studied him so carefully in the past few days, watched every nuance of emotion cross his face, and she knew whatever he was going to say, it wouldn't be good.
“I'm leaving Paul's group. Fighting ⦠a different way.”
“Different how?”
“With guns,” he said quietly. “And bombs. Anything we can find. I'm joining a group of guerrilla partisans who live in the woods. My job is explosives.” He smiled. “And stealing bomb parts.”