The Nesting Dolls (32 page)

Zack smirked. “You know how erotic dreams are – everyone just kind of swims together.”

I turned so I could see Zack’s face. “What does Kym look like anyway?”

His expression was noncommittal. “Nice-looking, I guess – not as nice-looking as you.”

“That was the right answer,” I said.

He tapped his temple with his forefinger. “That’s why I earn the big bucks.”

The doorbell rang. “That must be Kym with a y,” I said. “I should have put on makeup.”

“Kym with a y doesn’t wear makeup.”

I groaned. “Now I really hate her.”

I opened the door to a red-headed bodybuilder with a brush cut, rosy cheeks, and a killer handshake. “You must be Joanne,” he said.

“And you’re Kym,” I said. “You have no idea how glad I am to meet you.”

I stood aside to let him come in. After he’d taken off his boots and jacket, Kym rubbed his hands together. “This warmth feels good. I had a cold walk from home.”

“Where do you live?”

“In the old nurses’ residences down by the General.”

“Nice digs,” I said.

“They are,” he agreed. “Hardwood floors, high ceilings. Big rooms. Neighbourhood’s a little sketchy, but you can’t have everything. How’s Zack this morning?”

“Trying to do too much, but I don’t say anything.”

“Very wise,” Kym said. “Why don’t I go spiff him up? Give you a break.”

On the way down the hall, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and decided I could use a little spiffing up myself. Taylor was already in her studio so I showered in her bathroom, and helped myself to her copious supply of beauty products. The result was a decided improvement. I made coffee, tried to call Taylor, but her cell wasn’t on, so the dogs
and I walked through the snow to her studio. This time when I knocked, my daughter came to the door instead of inviting me in. “Troubles?” I said.

“No. I just want to work on it for a while before you see it again.”

“Fair enough,” I said. “Isobel’s coming over.”

“That’s good. She can come out here and read while I work. She’s interested in that poetry book you got me for my birthday.”

“That’s okay with Isobel?”

“Yeah,” Taylor said. “She and I like doing separate things together.”

“I underestimate you,” I said.

Taylor frowned and turned back to her canvas. “It evens out.”

“Meaning?”

She gave me the Sally smile. “Sometimes we underestimate you.”

Kym met me by the hall linen closet when I came in. “I changed the sheets,” he said.

“Our washing machine’s getting a workout,” I said. “I just changed those sheets last night.”

“I know, but Zack still has a fever, and clean sheets feel good.”

“I’m enjoying them too.”

“Zack tells me you’re still sharing a bed – despite the coughing and sweats and chills.”

“That’s part of the deal, isn’t it?” I said.

Kym nodded. “So they tell me. I’d better check on Zack. He wanted to shave.”

“Why don’t I go in and keep him company with that,” I said. “He must be the last man in the world to use a straight razor.”

When I went in, Zack was wearing a robe and sitting in his wheelchair shaving.

Being a paraplegic is expensive. Zack’s bathroom was, in the phrase of the day, “universal,” which meant it could be used by pretty much anyone whatever their physical limitations. We had been adamant about not having the bathroom look like a hospital, so all the features Zack needed to function independently had been incorporated into an innovative design that was sleek and beautiful.

I sat down on the edge of the bathtub. “Need anything?” I asked.

“Just someone to talk to,” he said. “What are you up to today?”

“I thought since Kym and the Wainbergs are going to be here for a couple of hours, I’d get all my errands out of the way. We’re supposed to get more snow this afternoon, so I thought you and I could crawl into bed and watch Tim Burton’s
The Nightmare Before Christmas.”

Zack rinsed the soap off his razor. “I thought we were living The Nightmare Before Christmas.”

“This version has songs,” I said. “And it’s funny.”

“Bring it on,” Zack said. He placed his razor back in its case, and turned his chair towards the door.

“After you’re settled, I’m going to pick up groceries,” I said. “Anything strike your fancy?

“Do we have any more of that chicken soup?”

“No, but I can make some. No problem at all. And I have to hit the mall – briefly. Mieka called, and the Core Rec Centre has seven boys between ages of fourteen and seventeen on their list and not a single present for that age group. I thought I’d get some Sports Mart gift certificates.”

“Wise choice. Sports Mart has neat stuff. Jo, I’d like to make a donation too. Falconer Shreve’s had a good year, and when I was a kid, I spent a lot of hours in places like the
Core Rec Centre. The Christmas party was always a big deal. Give me a minute to find my chequebook.”

When the Wainbergs arrived, I told Isobel that Taylor was in her studio and that Pablo Neruda’s
Odes to Common Things
was somewhere on her desk. Isobel’s face lit up. “I love Neruda,” she said before dashing off to get the book.

Noah’s complexion was usually ruddy with health, but that morning, he was grey and careworn. After Isobel wandered down the hall to Taylor’s bedroom, I poured him a cup of coffee. “Are you okay?” I said.

“I’m fine. I guess none of us is getting any younger. How’s the man in your life?”

“His nurse, Kym, whom I am delighted to discover is a strapping young man, is here to keep track of him and decide when he’s ready to confront the world again.”

Noah added cream and sugar to his coffee. “Delia will be relieved to know that Zack’s being well taken care of.”

“How about you?” I said.

“I have broad shoulders, and we seem to be moving in the right direction. Did Zack tell you that Nadine Perrault and I agreed to call off the private investigators?”

“He did, and it’s good news. As the needlepoint pillow my grandmother gave me says, ‘Least said, soonest mended.’ I keep the pillow in my office at the university. It’s been very helpful over the years.”

Noah gave me a sidelong glance. “If they handed that pillow out to new lawyers, the litigation rate in this country would drop by 90 per cent.”

“Would that be a bad thing?”

He smiled. “I don’t get a vote. A lawyer who doesn’t practise is a eunuch.”

I sat down opposite him. “Well, I’m not a lawyer, and I think that as a husband and father you’re handling this very
well. One way or another, you and Delia are going to have a permanent relationship with Nadine. You don’t want to start out under a cloud of accusations and counter-accusations.”

“Agreed. There’s been enough ugliness. It’s time to turn the page. Nadine and I discussed something along the lines of an open adoption.”

“But Jacob would live with you and Delia.”

Noah’s blue eyes flashed. “Absolutely. That issue was never on the table. Nadine’s a realist. She knows that if this case came to court, she’d lose.” The tension left his face. “The point is that there isn’t going to be a court case. Nadine was remarkably open about her mental state. Mourning Abby is taking a heavy toll. Nadine says she’s exhausted and is having difficulty concentrating. We agreed that Jacob deserves better.”

“He does,” I said, “and so does Nadine. Finding out the hard way that she isn’t capable of giving Jacob what he needs would only be another blow for her. My children weren’t as young as Jacob when their father died, but I still cringe when I remember how badly I failed them during those first months. It was all I could do to get out of bed in the morning.”

Noah looked at me hard. “That doesn’t sound like you.”

“I
wasn’t like me,’ I said. “I know what Nadine’s going through because I’ve been through it. And it’s more than just the loss of a partner you love, it’s believing that the death was absolutely arbitrary – a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.”

“I don’t think I ever heard how your husband died.”

“The newspapers called it ‘The Good Samaritan Murder.’ Ian was coming back to Regina from a funeral in Swift Current. There was a blizzard. The driver of a stranded car flagged him down and when Ian got out to help, the driver and her boyfriend beat him to death with a tire iron.”

Noah stared at his coffee cup. “I’m sorry, Jo. I didn’t know.”

“For months, the authorities treated Ian’s murder as a chance occurrence – a case of someone being in the wrong place at the wrong time.”

“Like Abby.”

“Exactly,” I said. “And, Noah, you have no idea how terrible it was. I’d been so certain that I could build a cocoon around our family by cooking balanced meals, observing the speed limit, and making regular appointments for us all to get our medical and dental check-ups. Losing Ian to what seemed like an existential blowout made me question the underpinnings of my life.”

“And you think that’s what Nadine’s going through?”

“I do. Abby was a woman who left nothing to chance; yet she was raped and murdered by a stranger in a strange city. When something like that happens, the old safe world disappears, and there’s nothing to hold onto – at least that’s the way it was for me.”

“Nadine says she’s dreading going back to the house she and Abby shared. I suggested she stay in Regina for a while. She could spend time with Jacob and get to know us a little better.”

“How does Delia feel about that?”

“I haven’t asked her,” Noah said. “I’m hoping to enlist Zack’s support.”

As if on cue, Zack wheeled into the room, Pantera at his side.

“Enlist my support in what?” he asked.

“Noah thinks it’s time to be conciliatory towards Nadine,” I said. “I agree. A little kindness at this point will ease tensions, and we could all use that.” I kissed his forehead. “I’d better get moving. The sooner I leave, the sooner I can come home.”

“I’m for that,” Zack said. “Hey, you forgot the cheque.”

He handed me the envelope and I dropped it in my bag. Pantera looked anxious. I patted his head. “Take care of Zack,” I said. “If anybody suspicious shows up, remember your command and
push.”

Since the evening of the Luther concert, our holidays had been short on comfort and joy, but the sheltered world of UpSlideDown offered both in abundance. Mieka and the girls had decorated the tree with children’s mittens, scarves, and toques – all donated, all destined for good homes. The air smelled of brewing coffee and fresh baking; in the background, very softly, a
CD
of children’s songs was playing one of my favourites, the lullaby from Humperdinck’s
Hansel and Gretel
. No child was crying. No child was screaming. No child was having a tantrum. It was a fragile peace, but it was good enough for me.

Mieka was standing at the entrance to the kitchen talking to a young woman wearing a Saskatchewan Roughriders ski jacket and toque. When my daughter spotted me, she motioned me over.

“Mum, this is Lisa Wallace from the Core Rec Centre,” she said. “Lisa, this is my mum, Joanne Shreve.”

I reached into my bag. “Perfect timing,” I said, handing her the gift certificates. “I was just dropping these off for the teenaged boys on your list.”

“Thanks,” Lisa said. “Adolescent boys like to swagger, but they’re still just kids, and they look forward to the Core Rec party.”

“And I have a cheque from my husband.” I held it out to Lisa.

“This is a godsend,” she said. “With the recession we’ve had a lot of corporate donors pull out.”

“Zack’s a trial lawyer,” I said. “I think every year is a good year for them.”

Lisa eyed the envelope. “Would it be rude if I peeked to see how good?”

“Be my guest,” I said.

She ripped open the envelope and glanced at the cheque. “Wow,” she said. “That’s more than generous, Joanne. We’ll send your husband a tax receipt, of course, but until I get it in the mail, please tell him we’re very grateful.”

“When Zack was growing up, he spent a lot of time in places like Core Rec. I guess it all comes around.”

Lisa looked thoughtful. “It’s surprising how often it does,” she said. She zipped her jacket. “I’ll see you at the party, Mieka. Nice meeting you, Joanne, and thanks again.”

“My pleasure.”

“Lisa has a tough job,” I said.

“She does,” Mieka said, “and she gets paid zip, but she believes in what she does. I believe in what she does, too. She and I have talked about opening an UpSlideDown in the Core. Minimal charge, but mums and dads would have to stay in the playroom with their kids, the way parents do here.” Mieka took my arm. Her eyes shone, and her tone was fervent. “The idea is first for the kids to have fun and second for parents, who are often very young, to learn parenting skills. Nothing heavy-handed – just learning by observing and doing. The mums and dads who come to UpSlideDown are always telling me how watching other families helps them figure out how to handle problems or to realize that a behaviour that was worrying them is perfectly normal.”

Mieka’s excitement about the project was infectious. “So is this an idea you and Lisa are just kicking around or has it gone further?”

“We’ve drafted a business plan, and we’ve found the property we want. Remember that old school-supply shop on 4th Avenue?”

“Markesteyn’s?”

“That’s the one. It has a big warehouse area in the back, so it would be perfect for us. And Lisa’s brother’s an engineer. He’s checked out the building. He says it’s solid.”

“Good buildings don’t come cheap.”

“We’re working on that.”

“Zack knows people with deep pockets. Maybe you should talk to him.”

“He’s been pretty sick. I don’t want to rush him.”

“Neither do I, but this is exactly the kind of project he’d enjoy. Just wait a couple of days till he’s back to normal. Actually, it might be something he and I could work on together.”

Mieka rubbed her hands together gleefully. “Let’s talk about it. As you probably noticed, I’m pretty stoked about this.”

“I noticed,” I said. “And it makes me very happy. Now, why don’t you buy a potential investor a cup of coffee?”

“My pleasure,” Mieka said. “By the way, you just missed Nadine.”