Authors: Dan Simmons
The Hollow Man
For an instant Bremen was sure that the plane had exploded, that some terrorist bomb had been triggered, so brilliant was the flash of white light, so loud was the sudden screaming of a hundred and eighty-seven voices in his mind.
A hundred and eighty-seven minds suddenly reminded of their own mortality by the simple routine of an aircraft taking off
The fragments of language cut Bremen like so many shards of dull steel; the images lacerated and sliced. Bremen opened his eyes and saw the cabin as normal as it could be, sunlight streaming through the window to his left, people lounging and reading and dozing … but the panicked images kept coming, the vertigo was all too great, and Bremen was pummeled by the sounds and textures and discordant colors of a thousand uninvited thoughts
The Hollow Man
is totally alive and brilliantly focused. Although Simmons is very clearly his own man—no writer in American popular fiction is able to mix the real and the unreal in quite the same proportions—think of what would happen if Thomas Harris and Pete Dexter decided to collaborate on an SF/Horror novel, and you’ll be in the ballpark.”
“Dan Simmons is a breathtaking writer.”
BOOKS BY DAN SIMMONS
Song of Kali
* The Fall of Hyperion
Entropy’s Bed at Midnight
Summer of Night
* The Hollow Man
Children of the Night
Fires of Eden
* The Rise of Endymion
* Available from Bantam Books
THE HOLLOW MAN
A Bantam Book
Bantam hardcover edition / October 1993
Bantam paperback edition / October 1993
Grateful acknowledgment is made for permission to reprint the following:
“Elegy for Jane,” copyright © 1950 by Theodore Roethke. Reprinted by permission of Doubleday, a division of Bantam Doubleday Dell Publishing Group, Inc
Illustration from Foundations of Mechanics by R. Abraham and
J. Marsden. Copyright © 1978 by Addison-Wesley Publishing Company
Inc. Reprinted by permission of the publisher
“The Hollow Men,” from
Collected Poems, 1909–1962
by T. S. Eliot. Copyright © 1936 by Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, Inc. Copyright © 1964, 1963 by
T. S. Eliot. Reprinted by permission of the publisher
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Copyright © 1992 by Dan Simmons
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he author would like to thank the following people for turning an impossible task into a merely difficult one:
Sue Bolton and Edward Bryant for reading the book that was written rather than the one that was expected by others. Tabitha and Steve King for the long, cross-country reading marathon … and for the helpful words that followed. Niki Gernold for demonstrating the mechanics of telepathy. Betsy Mitchell for showing the courage of our shared convictions. Ellen Datlow for liking (and buying) the story that began it all, lo these ten long years ago. Richard Curtis for eschewing obfuscation via quintessential professionalism. Mathematician Ian Stewart for provoking a passionate response from a mathematical illiterate. Karen and Jane Simmons for their love, support, and tolerance as I perversely kept trying to turn a merely difficult task back into an impossible one.
In addition to these wonderfully alive people, I must thank several who are no longer with us:
Dante Alighieri, John Ciardi, T. S. Eliot, Joseph Conrad, and Thomas Aquinas
All of whom have explored, far more eloquently than my powers would ever allow, the obsessive theme of—
Wandering between two worlds, one dead
The other powerless to be born
Thou shalt prove how salty tastes another’s bread, and how hard a path it is to go up and down another’s stairs.
Eyes I dare not meet in dreams
In death’s dream kingdom
These do not appear.
—T. S. Eliot,
The Hollow Men
remen left the hospital and his dying wife and drove east to the sea. The roads were thick with Philadelphians fleeing the city for the unusually warm Easter weekend, so Bremen had to concentrate on traffic, leaving only the most tenuous of touches in his wife’s mind.
Gail was sleeping. Her dreams were fitful and drug-induced. She was seeking her mother through endlessly interlinked rooms filled with Victorian furniture. Images from these dreams slid between the evening shadows of reality as Bremen crossed the Pine Barrens. She awoke just as Bremen was leaving the parkway, and for the few seconds that the pain was not with her, Bremen was able to share the clarity of sunlight falling across the blue blanket at the foot of her bed; then he shared the quick vertigo of confusion as she thought—only for a second—that it was morning on the farm.
Her thoughts reached for him just as the pain returned, stabbing behind her left eye like a thin but infinitely sharp needle. Bremen grimaced and dropped the coin he was handing the tollbooth attendant.
“Something wrong, pal?” Bremen shook his head, fumbled out a dollar, and thrust it blindly at the man. Tossing his change into the Triumph’s cluttered console, he concentrated on pushing the little car up through its gears while shielding himself from the worst of Gail’s pain. Slowly the agony faded, but her confusion washed over him like a wave of nausea.
She quickly gained control despite the shifting curtains of fear that fluttered at the edges of her consciousness. She subvocalized, concentrating on narrowing the spectrum of what she shared to a simulacrum of her voice.
Hi, yourself, kiddo
. He sent the thought as he turned onto the exit of Long Beach Island. Bremen shared the visual—the startling green of grass and pine trees overlaid with the gold of April light, the sports car’s shadow leaping along the curve of the embankment as he followed the cloverleaf down to the road. Suddenly there came the unmistakable salt-and-rotting-vegetation scent of the Atlantic, and he shared that with her as well.
. Gail’s thoughts were slurred with the static of too much pain and medication. She clung to the images he sent with an almost feverish concentration of will.
The entrance to the seaside community was disappointing: dilapidated seafood restaurants, overpriced cinder-block motels, endless marinas. But it was reassuring in its familiarity to both of them, and Bremen concentrated on seeing all of it. Gail began to relax a bit as the terrible swells of pain abated, and for a second her presence was so real that Bremen caught himself half turning
to speak to her in the passenger’s seat. The pang of regret and embarrassment was sent before he could stifle it.
The driveways of beach homes were filled with families unpacking station wagons and carrying late dinners to the beach. The evening shadows carried the nip of early spring, but Bremen concentrated on the fresh air and the warmth of the low strips of sunlight as he drove north to Barnegat Light. He glanced right and caught a glimpse of half a dozen fishermen standing in the surf, their shadows intersecting the white lines of breakers.
, thought Gail, and Bremen nodded, although he had actually been thinking about Euclid.
Always the mathematician
. Gail’s voice faded as the pain returned. Half-formed sentences scattered like the spray rising from the white breakers.
Bremen left the Triumph parked near the lighthouse and walked through low dunes to the beach. He threw down the tattered blanket that they had carried so many times to just this spot. A group of children ran past, squealing as they came close to the surf. Despite the cold water and rapidly chilling air, they were dressed in swimsuits. One girl of about nine, all long white legs in a suit a year too small, pranced on the wet sand in an intricate and unconscious choreography with the sea.
The light was fading between the Venetian blinds. A nurse smelling of cigarettes and stale talcum powder came in to change the IV drip and to take a pulse. The intercom in the hall continued to make loud, imperative announcements, but it was difficult to understand them through the growing haze of pain. Dr. Singh arrived about six
. and spoke to her softly, but Gail’s attention was riveted on the doorway where the nurse with the blessed needle would arrive. The cotton swab on her arm was a delightful preliminary to the promised surcease of
pain. Gail knew to the second how many minutes before the morphine would begin to work in earnest. The doctor was saying something.
“… your husband? I thought he would be staying the night.”
“Right here, doctor,” said Gail. She patted the blanket and the sand.
Bremen pulled on his nylon windbreaker against the chill of coming night. The stars were occluded by a high cloud layer that allowed only a bit of sky to show through. Far out to sea, an improbably long oil tanker moved along the horizon. Windows of the beach homes behind Bremen cast yellow rectangles on the dunes.