Take a Breath (Take 1) (11 page)

   “Oops, sorry to interrupt guys, I just needed another top up.”  

 
  Jake quickly snaps out of it and looks at Mike, “That’s ok
buddy, help yourself.  I need to excuse myself.” 

    Jake hurries out the door and I go
into
the fridge and grab a beer for Mike.  “Here you go big
fella.”  I sit down at the table with my wine and Mike joins
me.  

 
 “That looked pretty intense Ana.  I hope you don’t mind me
saying this and I need to get right to the point. Jake loves
you.”  

 
  I knock out a laugh, “Yes, we are a family, been together
through thick and thin for nearly a year now.”  

 
  Mike frowns, “I think you misread what I said.  He loves
you Ana.  I see the way he looks at you, the way he always looks
at you.  It’s not hard to see from an observer and I’ve been at
this game far too long to not notice when someone’s in
love.”  

    I nearly spit my drink out.  “You must be mistaken Mike, he doesn’t see me that way.”  

   “You love him?”  

    I sigh, “Yes.”  Mike’s expression widens in shock.  

   “Well, that was easier than I thought.”  

 
  I feel emotionally drained all of a sudden.  “I’m tired of
fighting it Mike, tired of keeping it hidden; tired of the constant
knots in my stomach when I see him knowing that he can’t be
mine.”  

    Mike gently grabs my hand, “Did you know I’ve known that boy for nearly 18 years now?”  

    I shook my head, Jake had never mentioned it.  

 
 “I was a good friend of his father’s and he was only a teenager
when I met him.  He was a bit of a rascal and had a very carefree
attitude until he met Matthew’s mother and she became pregnant.  I
put him on the straight and narrow and Mr Sensible was born from that
moment on.  His life was probably very boring, very simple until
you came into his life.”  

    I straightened up, “Me, what have I done?”  

 
  His smile widened, “My dear, you have brought life back into
him.  I’ve never seen Jake like this before.  I can see it
eating away at him, his obvious feelings towards you.  It’s fun to
watch, but he does need a good kick up the backside.”  

    I let out a giggle, “So you don’t think it’s all wrong him and me?”  

 
 He shakes his head, “Of course not, your mother was completely
wrong for him, I was quite shocked when I met her and couldn’t
understand why he eventually moved her in especially as I could see
Matthew wasn’t too keen either.  That is of course until I met you
and it all clicked into place.”  

 
  I laughed at that one, “Mike, please surely you’re not saying
that he moved my mother in just to be close to me?”  

 
 This time he nods, “That’s exactly what I’m saying.  He’s
not a predator and his intentions were always honourable towards you, I
could only imagine he wanted just to be with you, protect you even if
it did torture him in the process.”  

 
  I opened my mouth in shock, “Mike, no you must be wrong. 
He loved my mother and wanted to marry her.”  

 
  He shook his head again, “That was a grave mistake on his
part.  I think he was trying to kid himself that he could make it
work with her even though it was a lost cause.  Sorry, I don’t
want it to sound mean towards your mother, but they were not right for
one another.  I tried to talk to Jake about this and even
suggested that he picked the wrong Sinclair, but he nearly ripped my
head off.”  

    I was about to ask more when Alison walked in.  

   “There you are Mike, I was looking for you.  Ana, you look upset, everything ok?”  

   “Yes, sorry just boring Mike about my mother.”  

    She looked concerned, “Yes, that was a shock that she left.  Have you heard from her?”  

 
  Well, if you count that sorry excuse for a letter as hearing
from her, then yes.  “Only to say she was sorry but other than
that, nothing.”  She wanders over to Mike and he protectively
places his hand on her shoulder.  

 
 “Well, you are her daughter, I’m sure she will be in touch at
some point once she has sorted herself out.”  

    Mike lets go of my hand and nods to me in understanding.  I nod back and he smiles.

   “Let me get you a drink my darling.”  

 
  Mike gets up and taps Alison on the bottom and she yelps. 
I burst out laughing and Alison is blushing.  “It’s lovely to see
that,” I say looking at them both in awe.  

   “Married 27 years and she still sets my heart alight.”  

 
  Alison looks dreamy into Mike’s eyes heartened by his words as
they lightly kiss each other.  I’m caught up in quite a tender
private moment between the two of them and have to excuse myself before
everyone finds me a blubbering mess. 

I
nip to the toilet and also use my time to gather myself and check on my
makeup.  I come outside to find a few people have already left and
Jake is there talking with James and Mike.  He looks at me again
and I feel weak at the knees.  When am I ever going to be able to
control myself around him?  I see in the corner of my eye that
Mike is looking at Jake and then looking back at me.  He winks and
whispers something in Jake’s ear, which Jake seems offended by and
shrugs him off.  

   “Just keeping it real Jake.  I better go find my lovely wife as it’s time to head on out.”  

 
  James completely oblivious heads over to me and gives me a kiss
on the cheek and with an impish grin he states, “Remember what I said
Ana; if you ever feel the need just call me ok?  I’ll be there
waiting.  You look delicious in that dress, I just want
to…”  

 
 “I think you’ve said quite enough now James.”  He spins his
head round to find Jake hovering over him.  

   “Ok sir, just telling Ana that she is always welcome for a night out with me,” he declares.  

   “Yes, I know exactly what you are up to now scram.”  

   “Ok, ok, I’ll go.  See you next week then.”  

 
  James heads out the door and I look up into Jake’s eyes, “Are
you always going to do the caveman act with me?”  The side of
Jake’s mouth sneaks up,          “The caveman
act.  You think I’m acting like a caveman?”  

   “Don’t you think you’re acting like a caveman Jake?”  

 
 “Don’t pull the analysing crap on me I’m just protecting you from
the wolves.  They descend quite rapidly when you’re
around.”  

 
  I look into his eyes and smile, “So you’re protecting me now are
you?”  I bring a finger up to my lips, waiting for his
answer.  

   “Stop doing that Ana.”  

   “Doing what Jake, what am I doing?”  

   “That thing with your lip.”  

 
 “What thing with my lip, do you mean this?”  I gently wet my
finger and stroke the bottom of my lip back and forth before opening my
mouth and biting it.       
 “Fuck.”  

    Jake storms off and I start laughing.  

   “So where’s Mr Grumpy going off to now?”  

 
  Tony comes into the living area with Mike and Alison.  “I
think he just needs the little boy’s room, he’ll be out in a
bit.”  

   “We are going to say our goodbyes now and head off but I’ll wait for Jake before we go.”  

 
  I gave Alison and Mike a kiss on the cheek and excused myself to
go into the kitchen to start cleaning up.  I’m gathering all the
paper plates when Tony walks in.  

   “I’m going off now too.  I just wanted to say…”  

    At that point Jake comes bounding in through the door and Tony quickly shuts up.  

   “Did you have a good time Tony?”  

 
  I know Jake doesn’t give a damn if he has or not, he just wants
him out of his kitchen and away from me.  

   “Yes sir, thank you, I was telling Ana I was leaving.”  

   “Ok, great we shall see you next week then yes?”  

 
  At that point I feel quite sorry for Tony; Jake is definitely
being alpha male and showing him who's boss.  

   “I’ll show you out.”  

    Tony comes and kisses me on the cheek which makes Jake clench his teeth together. 

   “Call me anytime.  I’ll see you soon.”  

    I say my goodbyes and Tony along with the remaining guests, head out the door. 

I’m
just finishing stacking the dishwasher with glasses when Jake walks
in.  Standing near the table with a dishcloth in my hand, I’m
frozen to the spot.  For a few seconds nothing is said, just the
same intent look in his eyes I see time and time again.  His face
turns predatory as he heads straight for me.  Before I know it he
has grabbed me and his lips head straight for mine in a ferocious
embrace.  He runs his hands through my hair and starts kissing the
side of my neck.  I let out a moan, “Oh, Jake.”  He lifts me
up onto the table and my dress rides up.  

   “I’ve been waiting all night for this moment.  I never want to wait this long again,” he whispers.  

 
  I’m frantically trying to unbutton his jeans and I rip at his
shirt.  He growls in my ear and then I hear the tearing of another
pair of panties being ripped apart from me.  He puts his hand down
on my sex and enters one finger inside me and I gasp.  

   “So wet for me Ana, so ready for me.”  

   “Always,” I stutter back.  

 
 “You have no idea how hard it’s been for me ever since I knew you
felt the same way I do.  It’s always been painful for me before
but since your drunken confession it’s been unbearable.” 

 
  I wonder what he means for a moment but then he kisses me again
and reaches up to my clit to stroke it, all my thoughts
forgotten.  I go wild at his touch and I feel I’m going to fall
apart with a climax any moment.  

   “Don’t come yet Ana, I want to feel you around me.  I love the way you feel.”  

 
  My head is spinning and the urge to feel my release is
palpable.  “Please Jake, please.”  I hear a slight laugh when
he releases his hand and he quickly thrusts his throbbing erection deep
inside me.  I gasp aloud.  

   “Shit, Ana, you’re so tight.”  

 
  He moves gently and it’s killing me.  “Faster Jake,
faster.”  I’ve been waiting so long for him to take me hard ever
since that wall.  I need it like my lungs need fresh
air.  

   “I don’t want to hurt you Ana and you’re going to make me come quick.”  

 
 “Jake please, just fuck me.”  With that he spurs on letting
it be known just how fast he can fuck me.  I’m starting to see
stars as I know my climax is near building and building.  A moan
escapes me as I can feel myself tightening around him.  

   “I can feel you’re close. You need to come for me Ana, now.”  

    I lose control at his command and I’m screaming his name.   

   “Fuck, Ana.”  

 
 Jake seems to be racing faster still as my body is convulsing
around him.  It’s not long before Jake makes a glorious guttural
sound as he finds his own release.  I feel his hot cum inside me
and the feeling is exquisite.  Words fail me how anything can be
as good as this feels right now.  This is my version of heaven
right here. 

We
are lying on the table panting, trying to calm down from the massive
high of the most amazing animalistic sex.  Before I can stop
myself the words are out, “Please don’t leave me this time.”  His
understanding sinks in as he answers.

   “Ana, I told you, I can’t leave you alone anymore.  I can’t stay away, your pull is too much.”  

    He breathes heavily in my ear.  “Really, you’re not going to fight me?”  

   “No, I can’t do it anymore.”  

    He lifts himself off me feeling the loss of his skin on mine and he quickly pulls his trousers up.  

 
 “Sorry about your panties.  I seem to be making a habit of
this.  I’ll have to buy you some more.”  

    I smile, “You mean more rippable ones?”  

 
  He laughs, “Yes, sounds good to me.  I completely lose it
around you, oh and don’t ever do that thing with your finger again in
public.”  

 
  I quickly remember what he’s referring to and put my finger up
to my lips.  “What do you mean this?”  

 
  He lets out a growl, “Yes, and stop it, or I might have to take
you on the table again and where I really want you is in my
bed.”  

 
  I feel like I’m walking on clouds at the moment.  I’m so
happy to hear that he wants me.  I will not think about tomorrow,
I just want to cherish this night.  All the worries and the
preparation for today was all worth it in the end.  I got what I
have always wanted.  Jake.

I scoot my bottom down to move off the table when Jake raises his hand.

   “Hold on a Sec.”  

 
 He rushes to the toilet and comes back with some tissues and
gently wipes me down.  I’ve never had this before; it was kind of
weird but nice.  He disappears and comes back to help me
down.