Suppressed (Suppressed Saga) (28 page)

The bed sank down as he sat in front of me and let out a heavy sigh.

“
Do you feel better now?”

“
No,” I shook my head and looked down at my knees. “I’m sorry I said that. I didn’t mean it, I was just mad.”

“
I know, you’ve been stressed. Eric told me you passed out.”

“
That’s not an excuse though. I shouldn’t have said you made my life harder. If anything you make my life easier, I don’t think you realize how much easier you make it.”

I looked back up at him; he was still watching me but not as intently as he was before. His eyes had softened up a little and he leaned forward spreading my knees apart to lie between them. As his face got closer my heart rate sped up.

“
It’s fine. I’m not mad. You’re allowed to have a little rant every now and then.”

His warm hand brushed the side of my face and grasped the side of my neck. “Now kiss me because I haven’t seen you in days.”

A smile slowly crept to my mouth and I went forward. I felt better already the second he started to kiss me. I sat up and pushed him down on the bed, crawling on top of him. His hands grabbed at my waist to hold me tight to him and I was just getting ready to lift off my shirt when there was a knock at the door and a voice called out Seth’s name.

I looked down at him as he let out a long breath and rubbed his forehead, “Stephan”

“
I have a feeling he’s going to get on my nerves.” I said slowly.

“
He’s not that bad.”

I rolled off him and lie on my back. “That’s the same thing you said about Eric and look how much I can’t stand him.”

Seth got out of the bed and started towards the door. “Well Stephan is different; he really is a nice guy. He just got wrapped up in the wrong thing because of what he is.”

The door swung open and there stood my new roomy. He was very skinny and very, very tall, like jolly green giant tall. There was barely any hair on top of his head but I could see a few wisps of bright red hair. For some reason I felt like he should be wearing glasses.

“
Seth, can I talk to you for a minute?” he said. His tone was so proper and well put together.

I got off the bed, “I’ll go out to the living room so you all can talk.”

I didn’t understand what they would need to talk about. They had been in a car together for a couple hours, didn’t they talk on their little road trip?

I made my way down the hall and came out into the living room. Amy was still sprawled out on the couch and Lance’s whole body was on the kitchen table. There really wasn’t anywhere for me to go. The front door was still open and through the glass door I saw Eric sitting outside on the porch smoking a cigarette. Hopefully he wasn’t mad at me too. Then again I really should care.

I stepped outside and sat down next to him on the steps. “Why do you smoke?” I asked randomly.

I had smoked a few times in high school and maybe a couple times in college. It was only if I was drinking and I always took one from someone else; I’ve never in my life bought a pack of cigarettes. I actually thought it was quite disgusting and didn’t know why I even did it on the rare occasions I had.

“
Truthfully, I hate it. I’ve quit about fifty times but always seem to end up smoking again.” He was staring out into the dark. The sun was coming up a little and you could faintly see the pink light above the trees.

“
If you hate something then don’t you think you should stay away from it?”

I felt his eyes come on me and at the same time I shut mine. Why did I say that? Of all the things I could have said, I said the one thing I shouldn’t have.

He laughed coolly, “You know what, you’re right.” The cigarette flicked out of his hand into the lawn.

“
I quit. Maybe you should take your own advice and stay away from things you hate.”

When I opened my eyes I saw him stand up and take off inside. I wasn’t going to apologize to him for what I said earlier or what I said just now. Things would be better if he started to hate me like I hated him.

The next morning I woke up feeling better than I did the night before. Seth being back had a lot to do with that and I hoped he wasn’t planning on having to go away again anytime soon.

When I got out of the bathroom from brushing my teeth I came out into the commotional kitchen. Seth was against the counter watching Eric and Lance argue over cooking. Like me, Lance had no idea how to cook so I didn’t know why he felt the need to put his two cents in. Eric looked like he was about ready to whack Lance upside the head but Lance didn’t back down even with the look he was giving him. He knew Eric wouldn’t touch him.

Seth was bouncing with laughter and then his eyes lit up when he saw me walk in. He pushed himself off the counter and came over giving me a quick kiss. My eyes went over to the table where Amy and Stephen were having what looked like a friendly conversation. I was a little uneasy at seeing this. Seth said Stephan was an alright guy but until he proved it to me I wasn’t going to let my guard down around him.

I decided to go over and sit down next to them. “What are you all talking about?” I asked moving my eyes between them.

“
Stephan was just telling me about his job. I didn’t know that Seth worked with scientists.”

I looked at Stephan with forceful smile, was he trying to make my brain hurt? How was I supposed to come up with a lie to go along with this?

“
He works with all kinds of people.” I said trying to survive this conversation.

Luckily she changed the subject and I was let off the hook.

“
So do you think you all are going to come back to Maine for Spring Break?” she asked.

This topic was just as horrid.

“
Maybe, I’m not sure yet. Lance probably will but where I graduate in May I have to really concentrate on school.”

“
Oh, well are you going to come home this summer?”

I shook my head, “No, I think I’m just going to stay here till I figure out what I’m gonna do.”

She laughed a little, “You’re going to live here with Seth and Eric?”

The way she said it made me cringe inside, “I guess you could say that.”

She gave me a strange look that I didn’t understand. The conversation ended as everyone else sat down and started to eat. As I looked around I realized we were a strange group sitting here around the table. There were two clueless humans who didn’t have a care in the world, an alchemist who was in between two sides of war and didn’t know which way to turn, two demons; one was fighting like hell to make sure our lives were normal and the other could care less what happened. Then there was me. I was caught between the human world and the underworld not knowing what to do or who to trust. I think I was worse off than any of these people sitting here.

Amy spoke up bringing my attention to her, “We have to get ready and leave, my flight leaves at eleven.”

“
Alright well –“

“
Why don’t you get Lance to take you to the airport?” Seth said from beside me.

I move my gaze over to him and tried to tell him with my eyes that I didn’t think it was a good idea. He just ignored me and kept looking between Lance and Amy waiting for their answer.

“
I can take her, it’s no problem.”

I clenched my teeth and smiled, “Okay then, that’s settled.”

Seth’s hand went to my thigh and squeezed it, I smacked his hand away but he just put it back on there like it didn’t faze him.

A little while later Amy and Lance left for the airport. I was a little sad to see her go but it was a relief not having to hide anything and try to keep her out of the house.

Seth and Eric were in the kitchen discussing something to do with Graham so I walked out back to the deck. I really didn’t feel like listening about the guy who wanted to kidnap me.

When I slid the glass door closed I turned around to see Stephan leaning over the railing looking out into the tree infested back yard.

I leaned against the railing beside him, “So, having fun yet?”

“
Life is never fun.” He said humorlessly.

I cut my eyes at him and watched him skeptically, “What do you mean?”

“
Life is about decisions. Some decisions are hard to make.” I kept quiet as his head turned to face at me, “But you know all about that, don’t you?”

I bit my lip as my heart started to race. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

He let out a small laugh and looked back to the woods. I didn’t know why he was saying this or how he even knew something so secretive but I wanted him to stop.

“
So why did you go to the good side?” I asked trying to hide the fact that he had bothered me.

“
There is no good side; there is only survival. We’re all monsters just trying to survive. Sometimes you need to change things up to make it to the next day.”

“
So that’s why you switched sides, to survive?”

“
Something like that. Things were no longer in my favor working for Declan. I had to get out, now I can’t turn back no matter what.”

“
But you’re here now.” I pointed out.

“
Only because it’s my fault Graham is after you. It was planned for me to go to Xander’s side. Seth is the one who came to get me and because of that, you are in danger.”

Well I guess that was nice of him. He could have just stayed hidden with Xander and let Graham take me. Maybe he wasn’t so bad after all, he had remorse.

“
Do you know why Declan wants me?”

He shook his head, “I don’t. Graham doesn’t know either.”

I looked at him taken back, “What? I thought –”

“
He doesn’t know why Declan wants you but he doesn’t care. He thinks he can figure it out on his own and keep you for himself. He always has been a little eccentric and self centered.”

Hearing this information did nothing but leave me confuse and frightened. Graham really must be crazy to come after me without knowing what was so special about me. For all he knew I could just be a love interest of Declan’s; though I highly doubted that seeing as I’ve never met him.

“
Cam?”

I turned around and Seth was standing at the open sliding door. He cocked his head for me to come in. I gave Stephan a small smile and then headed into the house. Eric was waiting at the kitchen table, I take it I was supposed to sit down and join their conversation.

“
What’s going on?” I asked.

Seth sat down between me and Eric. “We just wanted to go over a few things with you.”

I waited for either one of them to get the conversation started.

“
Tomorrow, Stephan and I are going to find Graham. You’re going to go to school like you normally do and hopefully everything will be over and done with by tomorrow night.”

I looked to them both skeptically, “What are you going to do to him exactly?”

“
Kill him.” Eric answered.

“
You’re going to kill him?” There was a tiny squeal hidden in there somewhere.

Eric rolled his eyes, “He’s been trying to get you for weeks to do God knows what, are you telling me you really care what happens to him?”

“
No, but…just shut up, I don’t need your opinion. Do whatever you want with him.” I stood up and started to walk down the hall.

I heard Seth snap something at Eric but didn’t stop to listen to what it was. It’s not that I really cared if they killed Graham. They could kill him in the most painful way possible for all I cared. If he got a hold of me it’s not like he would give me any mercy. The way they talked about killing someone was just so cold, like they didn’t care. Or rather the way
Eric
talked about killing.

As long as I no longer had Graham coming after me I would be happy. Hopefully after tomorrow it would all be over and I would only have to worry about one person, Declan. Unfortunately he was the worse of the two.