Authors: Walter Dean Myers
To Constance
Autumn in Harlem.
Fume-choked leaves, already
Yellowed, crack in the late September
Breeze. Weeds, city tough, city brittle,
Push defiantly along the concrete edges
Of Malcolm X Boulevard. On 137th Street
A toothless sidewalk vendor neatly stacks
His dark knit caps beside the plastic cell
Phone covers. Shadows indistinct in August heat
Now deepen and grow long across
The wide streets. Homeless men sniff the air and
Know that somewhere the Hawk stirs.
Harlem is not an easy place
To grow old, and so the young
Are everywhere,
Pouring from the buses, city dancing
To the rhythms of the street,
City dancing to the frantic spin of life
In the fast lane.
Here we see a busy school yard
Black, brown, and tan forms
Painting the illusion of music
With their bodies, ball-dancing between the
White lines of the court.
Young Damien Battle, comfortable in stride and gesture
Wearing his seventeen years easily around broad
Shoulders, saunters at the unhurried pace of
Hero knowing that the space that
Opens before him is his due.
Beside him, perhaps a half step
Behind, his friend Kevin chatters easily.
They are young and proud and Black
For them life is a ripe orange
Succulent and sweet, ready to be devoured
And here are Sledge and Chico
Rivals from the other side of the Avenue
Their tribe is the more familiar
We have seen them on every corner
Of every city in America. They make us walk
Faster. They make us think of locked doors.
Of differences we would like to deny.
Do Sledge’s eyes meet Damien’s?
Does he sneer as he spins his basketball
On one brown finger as if it was the World?
Does he speak?
Does he speak?
We listen as Sledge’s mocking voice
Lifts itself above the background clatter
“Yo, Chico, check it out.
Yo, Chico,
There goes Damien, sliding and gliding
Past the court. Just strolling
And rolling his eyes
Away from the action
So we can’t get the satisfaction
Of him peeping our dazzle.”
“Peeping your dazzle?” Damien replies,
White toothing all over Sledge.
“I thought I was scoping the
Frazzled chumdom of a downtown clown.”
“My game is my name,” Sledge replies.
“Call it if you want some.”
Damien shakes his head
“Yo, Sledge, if talk was walk my man you would be
Halfway round the world. You’re confusing game with
Lame and Ball with stall. But at the end of the
Day your rap is weaker than your play.”
Sledge comes chest to chest with Damien.
His eyes are slits that carve into the flesh.
“Yo, Damien, Listen up, man
Your mouth is shouting and your lips are pouting
Like you’re somebody’s girlfriend
Running off to double latteville
’Cause you know you ain’t got the heart
To start no get down with me.”
Damien scoped the scene and weighed it
Sledge’s crew was throwing signs
And gritting teeth
They wore their colors but Damien didn’t
Know what was beneath those jackets
“Yo, Sledge, we’ll get it straight one day,”
Damien said. “Just the two of us.
Not now, not here, but we’ll know when
We got to do what it looks like we got to do.”
A brief conversation, hard looks in the air
Damien walks away and Sledge stares.
No big thing.
No big thing.
Just two seventeen-year-olds
Checking out a manhood jam.
Damien and Kevin make their way out
Breathing easier as they start up to Sugar Hill
The late summer shadows accentuate the edges
Of the hood, define it in shape and size
Yes, and darkness
The shadows on the corner shift as they walk by
Sharp eyes weigh their pockets from the distance
Heavy sisters weighing down the white brick
Stoops watch the passing scene
As they have for a hundred years
“Yo, Damien, how you read Sledge?
Is he just about being a fool
Or do you think that his brain
Is twisted enough to find something
Cool in that lip and drip world he’s sliming In?”
“Sniff the hood, my man,” Damien said. “The bad with the
Good. Some guys are banking on their reach
Going for the stars, scoping on the great,
Some see they can’t reach and all they got is hate
To lift them from misery of the day and there’s
Nothing you can say if their eyes don’t see
The prize the way you do. That’s the hood, bro,
That’s the way it flows and it don’t make
No never mind if you find yourself
Off the glory ride and slipping with the tide
Like Sledge. Hate is what the man
Got and if it’s not boss he’s got to toss it
Anyway. This is a concrete Apple.”
“Damien, so are you saying
You’re ready to fly?
Cop some getaway like all the other sleek
Birds winging through distant trees with just
An occasional peek
Now and then and a slanted rap about
Old school memories?”
“Who knows, man?” Damien said, checking out a tall
Brother working on his gangster lean.
“You’re talking about
What tomorrow will bring, and what tune the hood will
Sing. You’re talking and I’m listening, but
There’s no clear message glistening on my Horizon.”
“Yo, you’re sliding deep but my brain is still
Creeping on the surface,” Kevin said. “Break it on
Down or push it on. It don’t make no never mind.”
“My moms was asking me to do the same layout
But that’s all played out when you don’t
Know which way the wind is blowing
Or which way you’re supposed to be going
My folks are laying lines on me like
They’ve written out the part and all
I got to do is get to a place called Start
And follow the road to fame and glory—
A PhD in mucho buckology
Two point five kids and a quick apology
To the starving folks in East Ain’tGotNothingVille
While I look down from Sugar Hill and tell
Myself how phat my program is.”
“Sounds righteous, my brother,
Best listen to your mother
Now what I need is for you to feed
Me the name of the female lead
Is the right chick a light chick?
Some straight-haired honey
With a little money and a skinny little nose
Pointing away from her toes?
Or could it really be a girl with some kink to her curl?
A midnight mama with some snap and some sway
Like that treetop sister ’cross the way
Walking like the Queen of the Avenue
Could she interest a lord like you?”
Damien looked, he had seen her before
He knew her name, but not much more
“Yeah, I see her,” he said. “She’s the quiet kind
I don’t know her game, or what’s in her mind.”
“And if you found her in your net,” Kevin asked,
“What then? Would you throw her back?
Or could she be a midday snack?”
“Yo, Kevin, you know I have a plan
And you know I have Roxanne. I’m not into
Fast foods or the easy line
Although I have to admit the lady’s
Fine as she needs to be but can
She satisfy the brain or the heart
I don’t know.”
“Damien, Main Man, that girl might not satisfy
Your brain or your heart,” Kevin said. “But, Lord knows,
There are parts of me that find her
Delightful. We should catch
Her and offer her our sweet company.”
“No,” Damien said. “She might be light, I haven’t
Spoken more than a word or two with her. But
She walks darkly, as if her mind weighs down
Her steps.
When we’ve spoken it was just puffs of air
Syllables that weren’t there
When we said them and left nothing
On the memory.
I don’t know what she thinks
Of if she thinks of anything so profound
That it would interest me, and I’m not a snob
But she’s a depth I have not sounded.
I wonder what a movie of her life would be
What images come to fill the screens
Of her mind?”