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‘Here we are, Natasha,’ he said, taking me in his arms again and lowering me onto the coats. He lay beside me and unfastened the buttons on the front of my nightdress then caressed my breasts and stomach. Everything he did sent tingles of desire through me. Aroused with yearning, I untucked the shirt from his trousers and ran my hands over the soft bare skin of his back. He smelt fresh, like lemons.

In one fluid movement he sat up and tugged his shirt over his head, sending his neat hair in all directions. I reached up and smoothed it down again, giggling as I did so.

‘Still laughing, beautiful Natasha?’ he whispered, unbuckling his pants and pressing his naked flesh against mine. Every part of me burned when he moved over me.

I held his face in my hands knowing that I would never love another man the way I loved Valentin.

TWENTY
Moscow Times
, 4 September 2000

The Defence Minister announced today that the war heroine Natalya Azarova, whose remains were recently discovered in Orël Oblast, is to be given a funeral with State and military honours. The funeral is to be held in the newly consecrated Cathedral of Christ the Saviour.

According to Professor Yefim Grekov of Moscow University, who has written a book on Natalya Azarova, the granting of a State funeral, and a Russian Orthodox one at that, is a sign of the massive changes that are taking place in the country. ‘Choosing the Cathedral of Christ the Saviour for Natalya Azarova’s funeral ceremony is highly symbolic,’ he claims. ‘Last month the Russian Orthodox Church canonised Tsar Nicholas II and his family, eighty years after they’d been brutally executed by the Bolsheviks. The Church declared them to be martyrs, even though during the Soviet period the Tsar and his family were considered criminals. Now Natalya Azarova, whose memory was once sullied by the suspicion that she was a foreign spy, is to be honoured in the highest possible way.’

The original cathedral was built to give thanks to Christ for saving Russia from Napoleon. Under Stalin, the beautiful church was demolished with the intention of building a ‘Palace of the Soviets’ in its place. Due to geological problems and a lack of funding, the palace was never built and the site was turned into a public swimming pool. After the fall of the Soviet Union, the Russian Orthodox Church received permission to rebuild the cathedral in all its glory and over a million Muscovites donated money to the project.

‘It is quite extraordinary,’ says Professor Grekov. ‘In a country riven with economic and social problems, wars and terrorism, symbols of the past have become more important than ever. The government anticipates that a beautiful heroine from the Great Patriotic War is exactly what the Russian people need to inspire them again.’

Natalya Azarova’s body will lie in state for five days, under the watch of a guard of honour. The public will be able to pay their respects during this time. As the remains are skeletal, the coffin will be closed, but the sapphire brooch she received from Stalin — and from which her call sign, Sapphire Skies, was derived — will be displayed on a cushion on top of the coffin. Also displayed will be her Gold Star medal, recognising her as a Hero of the Russian Federation, the honour that was denied her for so many years.

Lily showed the
Moscow Times
article to Oksana.

‘I’ll check with Doctor Pesenko,’ Oksana told her, ‘but Svetlana seems well enough to go to the funeral. I’m sure she would want to.’

But when Lily put the question to Svetlana that evening a troubled look clouded the old woman’s face. She remained quiet for so long that Lily began to worry that she was feeling unwell again. When Svetlana finally spoke her voice was heavy with grief.

‘Natasha loved the Motherland and its people. She fought and died for them alone. I’m glad that they now know she didn’t forsake them and she was never a German spy. But as for everything else, the hypocrisy of it is disgusting.’

Hypocrisy? That wasn’t a sentiment Lily had expected and she wondered what Svetlana meant. Was she angry that the government had refused to recognise Natasha as a national heroine for so many years and might only be doing it now for political reasons? But Svetlana said nothing more and Lily didn’t want to push her.

‘I think if she doesn’t at least watch the funeral broadcast, she’ll regret it,’ said Oksana on the way home. ‘They were like sisters. I’m going to speak to Polina and see if we can use a private room at the hospital that has a television set.’

‘Good idea!’ said Lily. ‘The funeral’s scheduled for Friday week. I’ll take the day off work so I can watch it with you.’

Oksana said good night to Lily in the elevator but telephoned her apartment half an hour later. ‘I’ve got some news that I couldn’t wait to tell you,’ she said.

‘What?’

Oksana drew a breath. ‘I’ve just finished speaking with my contact who’s been trying to find out where Svetlana lived before she came to us. He’s met with nothing but dead ends. As you discovered in Professor Grekov’s book, Svetlana Novikova was listed as “missing in action presumed dead” in 1943. The survivors of the three women’s air-force regiments get together every year on the second of May in a park in front of the Bolshoi Theatre. Svetlana has never attended or set the record straight. Even her parents believed that she’d been killed in the war right up until their own deaths in the early 1970s. The Svetlana we know has been living under a false name, which she hasn’t disclosed to us. I suspect she doesn’t want to go to the funeral because someone — one of the other women who trained at Engels with her or Valentin Orlov — may recognise her.’

‘I did wonder about that,’ said Lily. ‘Why would she have wanted everyone to continue thinking she was dead?’

Oksana clucked her tongue. ‘My guess is that she is afraid of something. I only hope that she’ll tell us one day soon what that something is.’

‘I have a lot of respect for the elderly who lived through the war,’ Polina told Lily and Oksana on the day of the funeral. ‘Natalya Azarova must be an important figure for them.’

Polina had allocated the women a private room in the hospital and provided them with tea-making facilities and cut sandwiches. Oksana helped Svetlana into an armchair and propped her up with cushions. ‘Listen,’ she said, stroking Svetlana’s hair, ‘we are going to watch the broadcast of Natasha’s funeral because, while it might bring back painful memories, it will help you say goodbye. You will regret it if you don’t. The way you’ve described Natasha to us, we can see how deeply you cared for her.’

Svetlana looked into Oksana’s eyes and didn’t make any protest. Lily turned on the television. Natasha’s coffin was surrounded by bouquets of roses, carnations and asters. Priests in white cloaks sprinkled holy water and intoned prayers. Lily couldn’t take her eyes off Valentin Orlov, who stood alongside the President and the Prime Minister. He was stony-faced and solemn, but now that Lily knew his story she sympathised with the heaviness he would be feeling in his heart. Wasn’t the fact that he’d searched for Natasha all these years a testament to his undying love?

Behind General Orlov stood the men and women veterans of the air force and other dignitaries. The President gave the eulogy, saying that Natalya Azarova represented a generation of heroic young men and women who gave their lives for Mother Russia. Many of the veterans wept as he spoke. Lily knew that no matter how much she learned about the war, she would never fully be able to imagine the horror those people had lived through. It was beyond comprehension.

Heroes were no longer interred in the Kremlin wall, and after the ceremony the coffin was driven in a black Mercedes hearse to Novodevichy Cemetery. The streets were lined with people throwing red carnations before the procession. To Lily’s surprise, while there were many elderly people among the spectators, most of the crowd were her age or younger. It seemed the newspaper report was true: Natasha was bringing the nation together.

Before her coffin was placed in the ground, she was given a three-volley gun salute and a squadron of air-force planes swept overhead. A military band played the Russian national anthem. Even if Lily had never met Svetlana and learned the intimate details of Natasha’s life, she would have been moved by what she was seeing on the screen.

When the broadcast finished, Svetlana sat motionless in her chair, her fists curled in her lap. Lily glanced at Oksana. Perhaps making Svetlana watch the funeral hadn’t been a good idea after all. She remembered how after Adam’s death, before she sold their beach cottage, she kept looking at things that had belonged to him: his surfboard; his clothes in the wardrobe; the signed T-shirt from Kelly Slater, the famous American surfer. She’d hoped that by staring at Adam’s possessions, she could desensitise herself to the sadness. But it never worked. Perhaps there were certain kinds of pain that remained raw forever.

Svetlana started to cry. ‘All these years I thought …’

Lily rubbed Svetlana’s arm and waited for her to continue, but she didn’t. Perhaps sharing the truth would be the final closure for her, not the funeral.

‘Svetlana, you said that Natasha would have been disgusted by the hypocrisy. I don’t think you meant the church, because Natasha was a believer. I also don’t think you meant Valentin or her comrades, because they’ve clearly never forgotten her. Whose hypocrisy were you referring to?’

Svetlana straightened herself and emotion animated her again. It was like watching a flat tyre being pumped up. ‘The hypocrisy of the State,’ she hissed. ‘The utter hypocrisy of the government.’

‘Ah,’ Oksana said. ‘Because they wouldn’t give Natasha the benefit of the doubt all these years even though she sacrificed her life for her country?’

Svetlana shook her head. ‘No,’ she answered sharply, ‘because it was the government that killed her.’

A shiver ran down Lily’s spine. ‘What do you mean?’

Svetlana raised her eyes to Lily’s and enunciated every word clearly. ‘It wasn’t the Germans that executed her. Government agents killed her mercilessly without a trial. The President and Prime Minister may not be aware of that, but someone in the government must know the truth. It will be there somewhere, tucked away in their files.’

Lily froze. She was now privy to information that could get her into trouble. Russia was more open than it used to be but possessing that sort of knowledge still put her and Oksana in danger. But she couldn’t stop at this point. She had to know what had happened.

‘The government killed Natasha?’ she repeated. ‘But, Svetlana, why would they have killed one of the Soviet Union’s best pilots in the middle of a war?’

TWENTY-ONE
Kursk, 1943

I
n the spring of 1943, the German forces prepared for an attack on Kursk, a city south of Moscow. They called in air units from France and Norway as well as from parts of the Russian front. The Luftwaffe wanted to regain their supremacy in the skies, but the Soviet Air Force was now a foe to be reckoned with. We were experienced in combat and our factories were producing planes rapidly and of improved design.

As a squadron commander, one of my roles was to train the new pilots who joined our regiment. I chose for my wingman a sergeant by the name of Filipp Dudko. I had perfected two manoeuvres: one was a climbing spiral that I used to evade attack; and the other was a snap roll that tricked a pursuing plane into overshooting and so becoming my victim. I needed a wingman who could stay with me no matter what I did. Filipp had quick reflexes, but something about him concerned me. Once, when we were on patrol, I spotted German Focke-Wulfs strafing a supply road. I led the squadron to a higher altitude so we could swoop down on the enemy aircraft. Our attack resulted in a fierce dogfight. Filipp kept my rear covered and we were able to scatter the planes. I was pleased with his performance, but when the squadron returned to the airfield and the pilots recounted the fight, Filipp was puzzled.

‘Was there a fight?’ he asked. ‘I thought it was an impromptu training exercise.’

He hadn’t seen the enemy planes.

‘It’s a common problem with inexperienced pilots — and even experienced ones,’ Colonel Smirnov assured me. ‘Dudko will develop the ability to see approaching planes with practice. At least he didn’t get himself separated from you or move into your firing position. You’ve made a good choice with him.’

There weren’t bunkers at our new airfield, which had been hurriedly built in anticipation of the push, and we were billeted in a village that had been liberated from the Germans. The house where Svetlana, Dominika, Alisa and I were staying was next door to where Valentin and Colonel Smirnov were billeted. I could see Valentin’s room from the attic of the house and sometimes I climbed up there to wave to him. Once, as a joke, he made signals to me using a mirror. But Colonel Smirnov caught him and threatened to throw him in the guardhouse. Valentin and I were in love but we were in the middle of a war. There were rare moments when we snatched a swim together in a river or made love, but most of the time our minds were engaged in fighting the enemy. I wanted to defeat the Germans quickly so that we could return to Moscow and begin a new life together.

The house where we were billeted was owned by a woman named Ludmila who treated us with kindness. She put flowers in our room and gave us more food than the air force paid her for. She was fascinated by the idea of women combatants and when Alisa and I returned to the house at the end of the day she would ask us about our missions. If either of us had shot down a plane, Ludmila would want a blow-by-blow account of the fight. Nothing pleased her more than the idea that we’d killed Germans. At the same time she would fret, ‘They shouldn’t have sent young girls like you to the front.’

One day, when Svetlana and I were about to go to the bathhouse to clean up, Ludmila called to us. ‘Come, I want to show you something.’ She led us to a house on the outskirts of the village. ‘My sister lives here,’ she informed us, knocking on the door.

A woman younger than Ludmila answered and introduced herself as Rada. I thought that we were there to collect eggs or berries, but Rada had another reason for inviting us into her home. She showed us into the kitchen where the fire had been lit. Sitting by it was a young woman. Her head moved erratically from side to side and her tongue hung out of her mouth. In the apartment building in the Arbat where I had lived with my family, there had been a boy like that; he’d been born with the umbilical cord wrapped around his neck.

I expected Rada to ask us if we could obtain something for the girl — clothing, medicine, some item of food not available in the village. Instead she reached up to a shelf and handed us a framed photograph. It was a picture of a young girl about sixteen years old; a true Slavic beauty with high cheekbones and long blonde hair.

‘That was Faina before the war,’ Ludmila said.

Rada wiped her hand over her face. ‘My beautiful Faina, my beautiful girl,’ she said, her voice breaking.

Svetlana and I looked to Ludmila for an explanation.

‘When the Germans occupied our village they would take Faina to the woods,’ Ludmila said. ‘Rada used to try to hide her but the Germans threatened to kill the whole village, children and all, if she wasn’t surrendered. Even on the day of their retreat, the Germans couldn’t leave Faina alone. They raped her and then bashed her head with a rock.’

The story made me sick to the stomach.

Ludmila pointed to the pistols that Svetlana and I wore on our belts. ‘Promise me something, my courageous daughters. If either of you is ever in danger of being captured, you must shoot yourself rather than be taken prisoner by those monsters.’

Faina’s story made Svetlana morbid. In our room that evening she asked me, ‘Could you do it? Could you kill yourself?’

I didn’t tell her that I’d come close to having to do so a few days earlier when my plane was shot down and I’d had to crash-land in German-held territory. I just managed to pull myself from the wreckage when I heard trucks and voices heading in my direction. Fortunately for me, Filipp had seen me go down and landed his plane next to my wrecked one. I’d squeezed myself onto the floor of his cockpit and he’d whisked me away before the Germans arrived.

To steel their nerves and intimidate the enemy, the pilots in our regiment liked to paint emblems on their planes. The high-scoring aces painted crosses on their cowlings to represent the kills they’d made, while others painted tiger stripes or jaws with sharp teeth. One of the pilots offered to paint a sapphire on my fuselage but Colonel Smirnov forbade it.

‘The German command knows who you are, Comrade Lieutenant. Believe me! German men do not like to be bested by women and there is a high price on your head. Keep the advantage of anonymity on your side. Your talent as a pilot is more useful to the Motherland than your celebrity.’

It wasn’t only the Germans we had to fear. Each regiment had attached to it a political officer. Their role was to make sure that everything we discussed was in keeping with Communist ideology and no one was voicing ‘incorrect opinions’. When I was with the 586th regiment, the political officer was a woman. Although she disseminated Communist material and gave classes in ideology, she was also concerned about how we coped with separation from our families. In Stalingrad, we’d had a male political officer who, while not concerned with our emotional states, wasn’t particularly attentive to our beliefs either. At our new airfield, the political officer was a man named Lipovsky and I didn’t like him. He watched everything I did. ‘You are old enough to progress from Komsomol membership to full Communist Party participation,’ he told me one day. ‘Why have you not done so?’ Potential Party members had their backgrounds checked thoroughly. If I were to apply for Party membership, my father’s record would be uncovered. Fortunately, Colonel Smirnov intervened.

‘Let her focus on the war first,’ he told Lipovsky. ‘You can see that she fights like a good Communist for the Motherland. When the war is over, she can think about politics.’

With Lipovsky lurking around, I had to be careful. I was discreet about my little icon of St Sofia, which I kept hidden in my pocket. I crossed myself before take-off only when I was sure that Lipovsky wasn’t looking. I couldn’t afford trouble.

In the middle of July our regiment was moved closer to Orël to assist the Soviet ground forces’ advance on German lines. Every inch of land was fiercely contested. We kept pressure on the enemy. One day we would gain air supremacy, then the next day the Germans would win it back. We flew so many sorties a day that I felt like a coiled spring that was being pulled tight. Valentin and I had hardly a moment together. Sometimes we would snatch a kiss and then part with a smile that said ‘after the war’.

Colonel Smirnov called the regiment together one evening to tell us that the Germans had brought to the battle one of their best aces, the Black Diamond. He was an efficient killer with over ninety victories to his name.

The colonel explained his technique to us. ‘The Black Diamond avoids dogfights,’ he said. ‘He uses the element of surprise and moves perilously close to his target before firing, preventing the pilot from taking evasive action. Of course, I don’t encourage the newer pilots to adopt the Black Diamond’s technique. Debris from the plane you’ve destroyed can catch you too. The Black Diamond has gone down a few times, but only because he’s been hit by debris. He’s never been downed by one of us.’

One day Filipp and I were flying on patrol with Alisa and her wingman when we spotted German Junkers accompanied by fighters heading towards our troops. We had the advantage of altitude and I instructed Alisa and her wingman to engage the fighters while Filipp and I attacked the bombers. I couldn’t protect Filipp forever. He needed combat experience. I ordered him to get into the firing position and to take aim at the outermost Junker. I saw he kept his nerve and waited until he was in a good position before firing. He hit the Junker, which burst into flames and broke apart. Flaming debris spun to the ground.

‘Don’t stare at it,’ I told him over the radio. ‘Watch your back.’

I passed above the bombers and turned around, intending to help Filipp make another strike on the Junkers. Something made me look rearwards. Approaching from behind was a Messerschmitt that hadn’t been part of the fighter formation. Where had he come from? Out of the sun? I knew who it was. I was glad Filipp wasn’t with me: he would have missed seeing the Black Diamond for sure. Unfortunately for the German ace, he had chosen for his target a pilot who had spotted him in plenty of time.

I turned my plane hard before he was close enough to take a fatal shot and swung around behind him. The hunter was now the prey. ‘So you don’t like to fight, Black Diamond?’ I said. ‘You like to have it your way.’

The Black Diamond threw himself around the sky with me on his tail. I was determined to down him. The Black Diamond sensed that too. He tried to lure me over the frontline and closer to the ground, where I’d be vulnerable to anti-aircraft fire.

I pushed my plane to maximum speed, lined the Black Diamond up in my sights and hit my gun button. The bullets sprayed along his fuselage. At first I thought they hadn’t penetrated the armour but then smoke began to pour out of the engine and the Black Diamond’s plane went into a dive.

I flew upwards to avoid fire from the ground and circled to see what had happened. The Messerschmitt was heading for a field a short distance over the line. Why doesn’t he bail out, I wondered. Then I realised that the Black Diamond intended to save his plane and land it. At that speed he’d surely be killed.

To my astonishment he landed without it breaking up. I circled again and saw him climb out of the cockpit, unhurt. But there weren’t any troops to protect him where he had landed. He watched me swooping towards him and, with no escape possible, straightened himself, presenting his chest to take my fatal bullets.

At the beginning of the war, downing an enemy plane was enough of a victory. Now the war was a bloody battle where every factor counted. But as I approached, I saw that the Black Diamond was a handsome man. Not in an Aryan way; instead, he was tall and dark like my brother, Alexander, had been, with a broad chest and hefty legs like tree trunks. He lifted his hand to his forehead and saluted me. I switched on the fire button, but I couldn’t press it. I held the Black Diamond’s gaze for a moment, then I returned his salute and climbed high into the sky.

The shock of the encounter wore off when I returned to the airfield, and the magnitude of my blunder hit me. Valentin had returned from another mission and he and Sharavin were examining the damage to his plane. I taxied alongside them. Valentin’s Yak was riddled with bullet holes and the tail badly dented. It was a miracle he had made it back to the airfield. I didn’t know if I had been unable to shoot the Black Diamond because of his resemblance to my brother or whether simple weariness had clouded my judgement. But I realised that in not finishing him off, I had left a dangerous beast roaming in the forest; one that could kill my beloved Valentin.

When I wrote out my report, I didn’t claim the Black Diamond as a victory, although to have done so would have earned me another medal and much glory. When Alisa asked me about the plane I had pursued, I told her that it had got away.

My error in judgement had left me with much to worry about. Only the previous week news had come to us that some inexperienced pilots of Pe-2 bombers had accidentally attacked our own ground troops. Those responsible had been shot as traitors. I’d known that those pilots hadn’t betrayed the Soviet Union. Most likely they’d made navigational mistakes because they weren’t used to the intensity of combat. If anyone had seen me spare the Black Diamond — nearby ground troops, talkative peasants, a pilot on another mission — and Lipovsky found out, I’d be shot too.

Early the following morning, I was called into readiness-one and sat in the cockpit of my plane with Svetlana next to me on the wing. The heat of the day hadn’t reached its peak and we took turns reading to each other from
Anna Karenina
, although we skipped the parts where the characters ate lavish meals. We missed Ludmila and her cooking. At our new base we were back to eating in a mess bunker and sometimes, when the fighting was intense and it was difficult for supplies to reach us, we had soup with bread for all our meals. Lately, we had only had bread and soup once a day. It was not enough sustenance for us to maintain the strength we needed for fighting. Our airbase was surrounded by fields of sunflowers that had gone unharvested, and the pilots and mechanics alike would gather the seeds in our breaks for the cook to add to the bread. We collected mushrooms and berries too, but it was risky to venture into the forest in case of mines.

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