Sabrina Fludde (24 page)

Later, standing at the tiller with Sir Henry, Abren asked about the sea. She had been looking for a first glimpse of it around every bend in the river, but hadn't even caught a whiff of salt. Sir Henry said that it wasn't far now – but first they had to get through Gloucester.

Abren hadn't known that Gloucester existed, let alone lay ahead between her and the sea. But no sooner had Sir Henry told her about its significance in the river's history than she saw it up ahead, and felt it drawing them out of the river's quiet havens into public view. Chimneys, spires and roofs appeared, roads and pavements and towing paths where curious passers-by stopped to stare. Abren saw offices and factories, apartment blocks and houses, caught a glimpse of warehouses, saw a busy road bridge up ahead and a lock beyond it, with massive wooden gates. Here a crowd stood watching the
Princess of Pengwern
making her way downriver.

Abren couldn't wait to carry on past the lock, saying goodbye to Gloucester as quickly as possible. But Sir Henry shouted for the sail to come down, the anchor to be dragged, and the
Princess of Pengwern
poled round so that he could steer her out of the fast-flowing centre of the river, towards the lock gates. A bell rang in the lock-keeper's cabin, and the traffic stopped to let the road bridge rise and let them through.

‘What's going on? Why aren't we carrying on down-river? Where are we going?' Abren asked.

Sir Henry didn't answer. His bowler hat in place, he steered the
Princess of Pengwern
into the arms of the lock. Its massive wooden gates, built to withstand tons of water, crashed shut behind them, cutting them adrift from their journey. Abren felt as if the lock's concrete walls, stretching high above her, were a prison cell – and the lock-keeper her gaoler.

‘What are we doing?'
she cried out.

Nobody heard her. They were too busy watching the water level rising and the
Princess of Pengwern
moving up and up until they could suddenly see where they were going – into a dock with pleasure cruisers berthed in rows, and warehouses converted into shops. The water in the lock filled up to the top, and the
Princess of Pengwern
prepared to inch out into the dock. A little tug came and helped her, leading her across the harbour basin to berth beside a tall sea schooner. Washing hung from the schooner's rigging, and the tang of the sea wafting off it was unmistakable.

The sea at long last!
Abren strained to catch a glimpse of it down the dock, as if its breaking waves lay somewhere just beyond the schooner.

‘We'll stop for lunch,' Sir Henry told them all. ‘Stock up on provisions and stretch our legs. Then meet back here at two o'clock, and make our way down the canal. If we're lucky, we'll get a sunset sail on the Severn Sea. But if not, we'll moor the night at Sharpness ready for the morning.'

The others were excited – but Abren only heard the one word.

‘Canal?'
she gasped. ‘But what about the river?'

‘The river's treacherous between here and the sea,' explained Sir Henry. ‘Full of rip tides and quicksands. Only the most experienced master mariners would have sailed down it in the old days, even when the trows were manned by crews who knew the river like the back of their hands. And that excludes us, I think we'd all agree!'

He looked round at them, everybody grinning as if they did, indeed, agree.
We've done the best we can
, the general opinion seemed to be.
And it's been a wonderful experience! And we'd like to make it to the sea, so let's go by canal. Given what you say about the river, it makes good sense
.

It might have made good sense to everybody else, but not to Abren! She turned away. To her it seemed like
giving up
. Bentley spoke for the rest of them, thanking Sir Henry for their great adventure. But he didn't speak for Abren.

She disembarked at the first opportunity, making off down the wharf as soon as their backs were turned. She didn't know where she was going, and didn't really care. What she wanted was time alone, to think. She wandered past old customs buildings, corn merchants and flour mills which now were turned into restaurants, hotels and shops. At the end of the first dock she found a second one, and between the two of them she came across a church with a bell hanging over it and an open door.

‘The Mariners' Church,' said the notice nailed to the door, ‘welcomes travellers.'

Abren slipped inside, wondering what sort of welcome she could expect. Inside she found a simple, bright room which was cosy but worn, its smell of
polished wood reminding her of the cabins on the
Princess of Pengwern
. She sat down on a pew with a bursting cushion, and lost herself in questions about her journey and why it had suddenly gone all wrong.

Over her hung a tapestry commemorating centuries of men, women and children who had lived and worked upon deep waters. Abren stared idly at its woven sunshine and gulls, boats and fish, flowers and stars, sunrise and sunset. They reminded her of her little comfort blanket, and she absent-mindedly fingered its frayed edge. At the bottom of the tapestry was a row of figures woven in every imaginable size, shape, costume and colour, all holding hands and dancing over waves which looked like wild white horses.

Abren looked at them, and remembered the picture in the library book – the one of the girl who had reminded her of herself. Now she saw herself again in these dancing figures. Saw the child who'd arrived in Pengwern not knowing who she was. The one who'd lived with Bentley and been his cousin from away. The one who'd hidden in the limbo-land beneath the railway bridge. Who'd found out all about her past by reading a poem picked up off the floor.

She saw the child who always blamed herself, even when things weren't her fault. And she saw the child who'd made it through. Made it without cutlasses and amber tea and mountain bees. Made it despite everything.

Abren left the church, knowing that her journey hadn't gone wrong. She'd reached its end, that was all. The end of the story, with all the jigsaw pieces put together,
and the start of a new one
. Without a backward glance, she hurried between the docks, knowing exactly what she was going to do.

Back at the
Princess of Pengwern
, nobody was about. Abren took off her little blanket and left it with a note, saying that where she was going she no longer needed charts. Then she untied the coracle from the stern of the trow, hauled it over her back in just the way Sir Henry had done on the town walls, and waddled off like a turtle.

At the end of the wharf, she slipped through a passage between the lock and the main road, found a footbridge beyond it and slid down to the river. Here she dropped the coracle into the water, holding on to the towing rope and prepared to jump in, steadied by the paddle.

‘Where d'you think you're off to this time, then?'
a voice said.

Abren looked up the bank, and there was Phaze II. He stood with his arms folded over his chest, his expression suggesting that Bentley might forgive her for walking out on him last Christmas – and now doing it again –
but he had had enough!

‘It's not that I want to walk out on you,' Abren said, blushing at being caught. ‘It's just that I've got to go. There's a new adventure waiting for me up ahead!
'

‘Perhaps you're not the only one who's waiting for a new adventure,' Phaze II said.

‘Perhaps I'm not. But this one's mine. I've got to make it on my own. And it's going to be dangerous! You heard Sir Henry,' Abren said.

‘You heard him too!'

‘I know I did.
But I've still got to go
.'

Phaze II glared at Abren. She thought of all the things she didn't know about him, starting with his real name, and ending here with his wanting to come too.

‘You can't just leave me. You don't understand. Our stories belong together,' he said.

‘I'd let you come if I only could. Believe me, I would.' Abren jumped into the coracle.

Feeling guilty and wretched, she pushed it out from the bank and left Phaze II behind. He stood and watched as she clutched the paddle, trying to remember what Sir Henry had taught her. She turned her eyes away from him and fixed them straight ahead. If she looked back, she would go back. And then she'd never make this all-important journey which was hers alone. Never dance the dance or find the new adventure.

Abren paddled on determinedly. The tide was at its highest, on the turn and ready to help her on her way. It got hold of the little coracle and whisked it down-river with no chance of turning back and very little need for paddling skills. Abren smelt the sea again – not a distant whiff, but full and strong and waiting for her up ahead.

She lifted her head and smiled a smile like Pen's – there for all the world to read and impossible to shift! The world viewed from the river was a wondrous place, full of life and colour, ever changing, ever bright. She saw a reedy sandbank where herons dipped, and a spring-green woodland where walkers threw sticks to their dogs. Saw meadows full of cattle and swaying wild flowers, and the sky stretched over everything like an enamelled jewel.

Only when Abren reached a graveyard of old trows did a shadow fall over the journey. At first she couldn't make out what those shapes were, half-rotting among the brambles, disfiguring the bank. But then she saw the stark remains of a massive hull, and realised that
this was what the
Princess of Pengwern
must have been like before Sir Henry rescued her.

The coracle carried her away from it – but the shadow remained. Abren passed a lonely flatland without a soul in sight. Saw a train against a bare cliff. Saw a church without a village, and a power station built upon an empty shore, on the edge of a silent lagoon where nothing stirred and nothing grew.

The river was widening all the time, twisting and growing, and the shores were disappearing like distant lands. Abren drifted on, feeling strangely gloomy and unsettled, despite the smile still stuck across her face. The afternoon was closing in, the sun was lowering in the sky and the coracle felt heavy and tired. For some reason, it seemed to drag rather than dash. The sea felt close – but the coracle seemed to hang back.

Abren gripped the paddle doggedly and twisted it through the water. A lock came into view – a great black thing protruding into the river and blocking her view. She imagined Sir Henry's canal beyond it, and looked in hope for the mast of the
Princess of Pengwern
. But for all that she longed to see her friends again, she found the lock empty as she drew level with it.

She carried on, strangely disappointed for a girl who'd wanted to make this journey on her own. The tidal current took her round the end of the lock – and she found herself facing the Severn Sea. The land fell away and the estuary opened out, as pale and silky as a huge pearl. In the distance Abren could see a bridge stretched over it. The last bridge on the river – and soon she would have left it behind! Abren looked at its copper cables, shining mint green in the evening sun.
The bridge seemed to stretch for ever, with no visible starting point or destination.

Suddenly she began to cry. Maybe there were cars upon that bridge, travelling on for ever, and people too. But it looked so empty from down here on the river. Not a soul in sight not even another boat. Abren drifted towards the bridge and the white-topped waves all around her ran lonely lives against the setting sun.

Abren rocked and bobbed and drifted on, feeling lonely too. The bridge drew close. Beyond it was the Severn Sea, and behind her was the river. She had nearly made it, at last! Nearly done what she'd set out to do! She turned to take a final look back upriver towards Plynlimon.

Here I am
, she thought, as if the mountain man could see her even here.
I made the journey, and you didn't stop me!

It should have been her final triumph, but the moment just felt empty, with no one to share it. In the distance, Abren could have sworn she heard the mountain man having the last laugh, as if he could have told her that even if she won there'd be a price to pay. A price for everything!

Abren raised her fist at him, clenched as if to say that no matter what – alone or not – he could never keep her down. And, suddenly, as if the last laugh were hers after all, she saw something in the water. It bobbed behind the coracle, travelling in its wake, caught up in its long towing rope.

It couldn't be – and yet, unbelievably, it was …

Phaze II
.

How he had done it – jumped in after Abren and survived a towing-rope ride along this wild stretch of
river – Abren would never know. And neither, in the long years yet to come, would Phaze II ever be able to explain it. But that was what he'd done.

Abren let out a cry. She hauled him in, just about avoiding capsizing the coracle in her hurry to get him on board, punch the life back into him and wrap him in a great wet bear-hug.

Phaze II.
Her friend
. What, how, why …?

‘Yours isn't the only river flowing out of Plynlimon,' Phaze II said. ‘And it isn't the only river in this estuary. There are other rivers too, and other stories to be told.
And mine is one of them.'

It was his final word – at least for now. He settled back in the coracle, plainly exhausted but thoroughly pleased with himself. Abren sat beside him, and the last bridge loomed far over their heads. They had reached it without noticing. Its veil of copper cables shimmered in the fading light, and the coracle slipped under them as if under soft, green angels' wings.

This was the moment when the river ended and the sea began. The moment which Abren had waited for. She threw away her paddle and took Phaze II's hands. Moved out into the sea, and its waves leapt under her like wild white horses. The air was clear and heady, like vintage sea wine, and Abren could hear ‘her' tune again.
Hear it playing for the dance
.