Risking It All (20 page)

“What?
”

“Should I repeat myself?”

“
So
now you want to call it quits? You want to call it quits after all this? Julissa, I have feelings for you. This is not just some fli
ng
for me.”

“I know. Pull over,” Julissa instructed.

“What?” Quinton looked at her as if she was crazy.

“Pull over. Right here,” Julissa pointed to a driveway leading into a secluded playground. Quinton pulled over, slowly.

As he pulled into a parking space, t
he dim street lamps shone on both their faces, illuminating the dark exterior of the Range Rover.

“I don’t want to argue, Quinton. It doesn’t make sense what we’re arguing about.”

“Well, let’s not argue. I just want to apologize for putting you…and me…in such an uncomfortable situation.”

Julissa didn’t want to hear another word about their uncomfortable situation, so she reached out and placed her index finger on Quin
ton’s lips. “Ssshh. Less talk.”

Her fingers trailed down from his lips, chest, and rested on the bulge in
his pants. She unzipped him,
unbuckle
d his pants, and freed his dick. “This is what I want tonight.”

“Julissa…are you gonna…do you wanna have sex right
here?” His erection grew under her palms
.

“Precisely.”
Julissa
wrapped her finger
s
around his erection and stroked him
up and down.

Quinton turned the key to shut of
f
the car motor. “Oh, God…yes.”

They leaned into each other
to kiss, and
he
pulled her onto his lap.

“I can’t believe you’re doing this.
Gosh, you are so incredibly hot,
”
he whispered
.

He kissed her neck and shoulders, and
pull
ed
down the straps to her dress and bent his head to suckle
her nipples
.

She moaned, and
moved herself against his erection.

His lips moved up to her neck and he began licking and sucking.

“No hickeys, please Q…,” she whispered.

He chuckled, softly, and met her glaze as he lifted her skirt. He developed an even bigger smile on her face when he realized that she wasn’t wearing any panties.

“Sexy.
”
His fingers found her center and entered her slowly.
He penetrated her with a single digit
.

She arched her back as he play
ed with her clit
.

“Q,
please…
” She needed him inside of her, fulfilling her.

Quinton reached behind him,
into his back pocket and flipped open his
wallet. He pulled out a condom before tossing it onto the dashboard in front of them. Using the auto controls on the side
of the driver seat, he leaned
the seat back and down, so that the position was just right for fucking. He tore the condom open
with his teeth, and
placed
it over
his throbbing erection.

“I want you to take what you ne
ed.”
He placed his hand
s on her waist, but did nothing
but wait for her to initiate everything.

“Q, I can’t…I don’t…” Julissa had never ridden anyone in her life before. Missionary and a couple deviations from missionary was all she knew…and was all that Michael did with her. That first day that she had been with Quinton had been the first time that she had ever had
sex in that many new positions
.

Quinton placed his fingers back on her clit and began rubbing. “You need this
, don’t you?
Don’t you want to come?
”

“Yes.”

“Then
take what you need,” he coaxed her.

She lifted herself and sat down slowly over his erection. The sensation felt so good to them that they both moaned on contact
.
She slid down on him until all nine inches
were
deep inside her pussy. “Show me how you like it.”

“It’s easy. Just move the way you want to.” He leaned forward and reached for the keys in the igni
tion, turning it slightly. Then
he reached over her
to his sun visor and pulled
a CD out and pushed it in the player. “It’s easy. Like dancing.”

He closed his eyes and rested the back of his head on the seat.

Julissa had no problems with dan
cing and as they both listened
to
the calming R&B music
, she moved up and down and back and forth over his erection, causing intense pleasure for herself. “Is that good? For you, I mean?”

Quinton op
ened his eyes. “Oh, yeah.
”

“I want you to come.”

“Lissa…I will come. You
get yours, don’t worry about me. I will
come.”

Julissa pumped and rocked on him.
S
he
found the perfect position to keep her pelvis in to give maximum contact to her clit
, and
b
rought herself to climax. As if driven by her release, he came
, gripping her ass checks, shuddering, and calling her name.

Quinton had Kleenex in the backseat of his R
over, which
they used that to clean up. After letting the windows down to clear th
em of the fog
he pulled off, heading towards the hotel.

When they were inside, Julissa had every intention to leave after she had changed back into the clothes she had left her house in, but Quinton was sitting down on his couch, in front of the television set, looking at the black screen.

“Lissa, there is something that I need to tell you.”

Julissa stopped in her tracks, clutching her handbag to her chest. “I’m listening.”

“Sit down, please. You make me nervous when you look frightened like that.”

Julissa sat down on the couch beside him.

“When I first saw you walk in the ballroom downstairs, you triggered s
omething that I have never
felt before. I just couldn’t explain it, then, but now I know what it is. The fact that you are an extremely beautiful women and I can’t keep my eyes and hands off you is only the half of it. Your mind, body
, soul…I can’t resist any of it.”

“Okay.” Julissa didn’t know what to say. She had a feeling this conversation would come.

“And then our agreement we made was that we would get to know each other better. We’ve gotten to know each other very well within the past weeks, so much so, that we cannot keep away from each other, even if it means breaking some hearts.”

No, she didn’t want to break Michael’s heart.
No matter what he’d done to her, he couldn’t ever let him find out about this.

Quinton shifted
on th
e couch.
“Lissa, I’m afraid that I won’t be a
ble to keep my promise to you about
coming between you and Michael.”

Julissa shook her head
.

“I can’t keep my promise, Lissa, because I want you to myself.”

“Quinton, please…I’m engaged now. Things were different when we made those promises. I’m more than Michael’s girlfriend. I’m his fiancé. We’re going to be married.”

“Is that what you wan
t? Is he what you
really
want?” His voice quivered and he
waited for her to answer. When she didn’t, he said, “Don’t live you
r
life in vain. Do you think that you would be here with me if you wanted to spend the re
st of your life with him
?”

“If I knew then…when we shared our first kiss…what I know now, I would have never involved myself with you. I thought I was living my life in vain until Michael proposed.”

“Then, why then, are you here with me now?”
He was agitated.
“Why did you come to me
after you became his fiancé?”

The question was like an arrow through her heart, but Julissa knew precisely why. She lusted after Quinton, and wanted him in the naughtiest of ways. A relationship could not be based on just sheer sex. She’d been warned about this.

“Do you want me to leave?
” she asked.
“
Do you want to call it quits?”

“Why would you ask me something like that? I meant what I said when I told you that I want you to myself.” Quinton got up and began pacing back and forth in front of her. “Do you love your fiancé?”

“Yes,” Julissa whispered. Michael would always be her first and there was no changing that.

“Are you in love with him?”

She shook her head in confusion. “What’s the difference?”

“Believe me, there’s a difference. W
hat are your plans, Lissa?” He threw up his hands in exasperation. “Do you plan to marry him and we just keep fucking
as if everything is all good?”

“
Do you want to know the honest truth?” She crossed her arms over her chest. “I thought you’d fuck me one good time and then get tired of me.
We were attracted to each other and I wanted to just fuck so we could get each other out of our systems.
I never thought
that we would end up like this.”

“I never wanted you as a one night stand, Julissa. I’ve never once hinted for us to have something like that, and I think you know that.”
He sat back down on the couch beside her.
“Tell me your plans as it stands right now
. Do you want to marry
your fiancé and fuck me on the side, too?”

“I don’t know.
Look, we should stop if thi
s i
s too much for you to handle.” Her frustration was evident in the tone of her voice
.
She was confused. How could she have let it gone this far?

“I don’t want to stop, baby. I can’t stop now. You’ve become a part of my life and I fear losing you.”

“Are you asking me to choose?” Julissa asked.

“Yes. I mean, no…I don’t know. When I told you that I would be with you however I can, I meant that. If you must marry your
fiancé
’…” Quinton did not finish, which was proof enough that he was talking nonsense.

A
secret affair.
She
could never do that. It was selfish. What was Quinton asking her to do? D
id he want her to himself or did he want to continue their affair?

“Q, we all know that things can’t happen that way.
I don’t want to hold you back any longer. You are too good of a man.
”

“Julissa, I need to tell you something else.” He lowered his head.

“What?”

“I have a girlfriend.”

“
Excuse me
?” Did she hear him right? Did he just say that he had a girlfriend?

“When I met you, at the rehearsal, I had a girlfriend. Of course, we are separated and have been for the past three months, but we never officially broke up with each other.”

She frowned.
“Are you serious?”

“I’m serious.
W
e’
ve only been dating for about seven months. I called it off with her three months ago due to some problems we had been having and she convinced me that she would change, so we called it a separation. So, that’s why I say that we never officially broke up.”

All Julissa heard was ‘I have a girlfriend’.
That same statement rung
in her ears over and over again. How could she be so stupid? He was using her. Using her to make up the time that he wasn’t with his girlfriend.

“Julissa?” He reached out for her hand.

“Don’t touch me!” She snatched her hand away.

“I knew this wouldn’t be good.” H
e dropped his hands in his head.

“When were you going to tell me?”

“I didn’t think it was that important. That relationship is over to me. It was over three months ago, before I even met you.
I just needed to get that off my chest. It’s been nagging me for a while. I want to keep nothing about me hidden from you.
”

“So, what are your plans, Quinton? You want to keep your gir
lfriend while still fucking me?
” Her
h
ands went to
her hips.
“Well, that’s not going to happen, buddy. It’s time to stop living lies. We won’t be seeing each other anymore, Quinton.” She walked towards the door and pulled it open.