Rafe (20 page)

I know what I have to do to win my Snowflake back, I just hope it fucking works.

Chapter 20

Lucy

I’m back home, sitting on my loveseat in my apartment, reading a book on my Kindle. I finished reading Liam, God I miss that boy. Today I’m reading about a kick ass biker named Braxxon from Crystal Spears ‘Seize Me’ (Breakneck Series). Now this guy is freaking hot as hell, even though he is very demanding. I have been reading a lot since I broke up with Rafe. Between work and the girls it’s the only thing that’s keeping me going. I have read roughly twenty books that range from rock stars (which hurt by the way) to hard ass sexy bikers and some very sweet, flower giving book boyfriends. Don’t judge me.

How many books do you read in a week? Yeah, that’s what I thought.

I have been working so many hours that Mia and Milly actually threatened to get me fired if I didn’t take a break, so as of today I am on one week’s vacation. They can be mean girls when they want to. I have been spending time with all of my friends while avoiding Max Point and instead have been going to Kenzie’s games with Trin and Zach. She has been on fire this season. We went to a few away games, which was so fun. I am really happy that Zach is so supportive of her and can see day by day that he is falling more in love with her. I know that they have said it to each other because Kenzie told me over coffee one morning. She said she was worried about telling me after everything that happened with Rafe, but I told her she was silly for not telling me. She deserves to be happy; all of my friends do.

I got to spend time with Jack and Jordan as well, which has been interesting. We went to a gay club and I was actually hit on by a guy, can you believe that? He said he thought I was gay and that I would like to try out a guy to see what I am missing. Jordan is the perfect fit for Jack, they are so funny together and they both adore each other. I don’t think they have said the ‘L’ word yet but I know how Jack feels. I have told him to stop wasting time and just tell Jordan how he feels because you don’t know when life can take a nasty turn.

The door opens and I hear Tru before I see her.

“Where is the bestest sister in the whole frickin’ world…Oh there you are,” she says. Rounding the corner, she is all big smiles. She jumps into my lap and I almost drop my Kindle. God, she is hyper tonight, she must have been on the Red Bull again.

“Hey, baby sis. What are you doing here?” I ask her. She smiles at me and kisses my cheek.

“Jackson was called into work so me and the girls decided it’s time for a girls night out and it’s happening right now, so move that sexy ass of yours and get changed.” Oh God, I am so not in the mood to go out but my sister doesn’t like being told no. Tru pulls me out of the seat and drags me to my room, where Trinity and Kenzie are pulling clothes out of my closet.

“Girls, really, I don’t want to go out. Where are you going, anyway?” Trin and Kenz turn their backs on me and Tru explains.

“We are going to Max Point and before you freak out, Inside Noise is doing a gig at another club. Jax said that a small local band are singing tonight. Max is trying them out so it’s going to be a quiet girl’s night, ok, Juicy?” I offer her a small smile and nod yes. They all scream and we all start getting ready. We are going smart casual tonight; I’m wearing a pair of faded blue jean shorts with a black sparkly camisole. I have decided to wear my high tops that have a wedge heel.

I text Maisey and ask her to meet us there.

Me:
We are going to Max Point tonight, meet us there, chica.

Maisey:
Will Do. I’m glad you have decided to have a night out it’s not good being cooped (yes pun intended) up all the time.

Me:
I know we are heading out now, Cya in a bit. Loves ya Missy

“Hey, Monty is gonna meet us there. I am all ready, so are you girls ready to go? The quicker we get there the quicker we can have some fun and the quicker I can come home to Braxxon,” I wink at them.

“Who the fuck is Braxxon?” Kenzie asks, with a touch of annoyance in her tone. I run from my bedroom and fetch her my Kindle. I wave it in front of her.

“Braxxon is a super
fucking hot biker I’m reading at the moment, chill out.” Jeez, what’s her problem?

We all grab our bags and head for the door. There is a waiting cab for us and we take off towards Max Point. Even though the girls told me that Inside Noise won’t be here tonight, I can’t help the feeling in my stomach that something isn’t right tonight. I just can’t put my finger on it.

We pull up outside Max Point and see Kyle on the door and smile at him.

“Well if it isn’t Little Lucy, how you been, babe?” God, this man is hot and sweet to boot.

“I have been ok, considering.” I shrug and he nods. He stamps my hand and I dread to look at it so I don’t, “Thanks, Kyle.” I walk into the door with the girls hot on my heels. I head straight for the bar, but before I can ask for a drink Tru pushes past me and calls Jackson.

“Hey, baby. What can I get you ladies to drink?” he asks, then leans over and kisses my sister. I have learned from spending time with him that Jackson has two younger twin sisters, Poppy and Piper, who are just ten years old. He really cares for my sister; I just hope he doesn’t hurt her.

“Tru, honey, put the boy down so he can get us our drinks. Well, no alcohol for your girlfriend, Jax.” I wink at him and he laughs. Her age doesn’t bother him at all and I know that he isn’t pressuring her into anything, she will be eighteen soon. “Can I have a vodka and Coke please, Jax?” He nods and takes the girls’ orders. I look over to the stage and relief washes over me.

On the stage there are two mic stands with two black guitars and there is a very pretty black piano at the back of the stage. I don’t know what the band is called as no name or symbol is showing, but I know it isn’t Inside Noise because of the lack of a Phoenix symbol anywhere. I turn back to the girls and see Tru sucking face with Jackson again and I smile at how happy my baby sister is. We take our drinks over to a booth and talk until the DJ turns the volume up and the room starts to fill up with people out to have a good night dancing and drinking with friends. After a few more drinks, we hit the dance floor. Thank God for my shoes, I won’t be breaking my neck tonight. We dance for a while and then the DJ announces that it’s time for the band. Everyone stops dancing and turns towards the stage. I see three figures walk across the stage and the hairs on the back of my neck stand up again. Fuck, I know this feeling. I turn to the girls and Tru wraps her hands around my waist from behind me and I see Jax doing the same to her. Trin and Kenzie and Maisey have formed a wall around me. I look over Maisey’s head and see Gunner, then Zach and Skeet and Beck.

Fuck me, they set me up. Fucktards.

I try to pull out of Tru’s embrace but I feel another set of hands slide around my waist and I turn to see Jackson holding me to my sister. He gives me a sweet smile and nods to the stage. Tears spring in my eyes as I slowly turn back to the stage to see Rafe standing in the center watching me. Reeve is standing to the left of him and Ryder is sitting at the piano; they are all looking right at me.

“Hey, everyone. As most of you know, we are Inside Noise.” There are more than a few cheers and screams. “This isn’t a normal gig for us, this is a personal Inside Noise gig. You see, I fell in love with a girl many years ago. I believe we were maybe thirteen years old when I actually saw her for the first time, even though I had known her all my life. We never got together despite my feelings because douche bag boyfriends got in the way.” There were a few boos from around the room. Rafe smiles at me, “I know, but I found her again and we fell in love. But like all true love stories go, the couple falls in love but the guy fucks up and guess what?”

“You fucked up,” A
voice comes from behind us all and we turn to see Izzy sitting on the bar, smirking. Swinging her legs back and forth, she smiles at me and I return it. I turn back to Rafe.

“Yes, Iz, I screwed up big time, but I want her to take me back she knows how much I love her. You see ladies and gentlemen, she is my Inside Noise. And what does that mean, you are all thinking? Well, you see, the Phoenix boys were brought up around music, and I mean loud, heavy rock music. Our dad Johnny was the drummer for Black Angel.” More screams and cheers. “He was awesome…”

“Damn straight he was!” Reeve shouts, and people laugh.

“Anyway, we were always running around the house screaming and singing, playing our guitars or drums. And our mom, whom we never really listened to, used to say, ‘Inside voices boys’. But our dad had always told us that music comes from inside us, inside our hearts. Our music beats inside of us. So now you know the meaning behind our name Inside Noise, so when I say that,” he points to me and I wipe the tears away and give him a small smile. “Lucy Cooper is my Inside Noise, you understand me.”

I still have tears rolling down my cheeks. I go to step forward but Rafe shakes his head at me and mouths ‘No.’ Déjà vu, anyone?

“I was told that I needed to show Lucy how I felt about h
er,” he takes a deep breath, “It was my only hope.” On that note, Rafe and Reeve start the song and Ryder joins in on the piano. I can’t stop the gasp that escapes my lips. The people that are in front of me turn at the sound and the all part a way leading to Rafe. I step forward while Rafe sings ‘Only Hope’ by Switchfoot, which is from my favorite movie. I stop in front of Rafe as he sings the song to me, tear flowing freely down my cheeks. During the break in lyrics, Rafe mouths ‘I love you’ and I return my own declaration of love to him. My sexy Rafe smiles creeps across his face.

The song finishes and I wipe the tears way from my face. Rafe jumps down off the stage and stands in front of me, smiling down at me.

“Hey, Snowflake.” He wipes a stray tear away.

“Hey, Rafe.”

“Baby, I’m so sorry I…” I cut him off my bringing his lips to mine. The crowd screams and cheers and I laugh into Rafe’s mouth. He tastes so good, it’s been weeks since I have kissed him but it feels like years. He runs his tongue along my bottom lip so I open for him, taking his hot wet tongue into my mouth. I moan and Rafe pulls away.

“Snowflake, we need to stop, babe. People are watching.” I rest my forehead on his chest, breathe his scent in and he pulls me tight against him.

“I missed you so much,” I say, against his black button down shirt.

He kisses my head, “I missed you too, baby.” I feel more arms go around me and see Tru and Maisey hugging us. We pull apart just enough to speak to everyone. Reeve jumps off the stage.

“About fucking time, Juicy.  We were gonna kick his sorry ass out of the band if he didn’t sort his fucking head out,” He winks at me and I laugh. Gunner slaps Rafe’s shoulder,

“Fuck with her again and that one punch I gave you will triple in number, ok bro?” Rafe nods. Hang the freak on, what punches? I frown at Rafe and he shakes his head’ no’.

Rafe takes me to the back room so we can have a long talk and get everything out in the open. Rafe sits on the couch and pulls me into his lap.

“Baby, I can’t express much more how sorry I am, but I do need to tell you that I found out Dani set us up a few days after you left me. Nikki, the girl from that night, came to me asking to go out on a date. It turned out that she was a friend of Dani’s. You and the girls pissed her off at the mall one day and she wanted revenge.” I smile remembering that day. “But listen, it’s over and I want us back together, baby. I really need you in my life; my life sucks without you.”

I take a deep breath and tell him how I feel, “What happened really hurt, Rafe; you ripped me in two. It was worse than Dallas because I actually loved you…” He cuts me off.

“Loved me?” He looks like a kid who just dropped his ice cream.

“Rafe, I still love you, babe and I think I always will. I have wanted you for years, just like you said out there on stage tonight. The time we spend apart killed me. I just wanted to kiss you hear you and feel you but I couldn’t find it in me to face you. It hurt thinking you might have moved on.” He goes to speak but I stop him by placing my finger on his lips.

“You belong to me, Rafe Phoenix. Always have and always will, babe. Do you think we should go back out there with everyone and do some celebrating?” Rafe shakes his head no and pulls me in for a super-hot kiss. Our tongues dance to the beat of our hearts and I can feel his hard on pressing against me so I grind down. Rafe moans, so I do it again.

“Baby, you wanna do that here? Because I haven’t been inside you for a long time and I can tell you now that I won’t last and I want to be able to take my time with you. Can you wait until we get home?” I shake my head no and he groans again, flipping us so that I’m now flat on my back on the couch with Rafe nestled between my legs. We don’t need foreplay, as I already wet for him after his amazing performance earlier and his kisses just now. He unbuttons my shorts and pulls them down my legs, along with my panties. He lifts my camisole up over my breasts and pulls my bra down, forcing my breasts to push up. He runs his fingers through my lower lips and rubs my juices all over my clit. I jerk from his touch and he sucks a nipple into his mouth and my body arches into his mouth.

“Rafe, now baby. I need you inside of me,” I say breathlessly. He sits up on his knees and removes a condom from his wallet. He hands me the little foil packet. I burst out laughing and Rafe smiles at me. On the condom packet it says, ‘I love Inside Noise,’ but instead of the word love, it’s a red heart.