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“Trust me,” I whisper as he starts to come back up, leaving my panties at my knees as he kisses my hip bone, “they fucked themselves up worse than you ever could.”

“I doubt it,” he murmurs, once again tracing some of those disgusting marks.

When I try to push him away, he doesn’t budge. Instead, he lowers his head again, this time kissing down my middle instead of to my thigh. When his lips brush my clit, it pulses and throbs, and I moan.

“I’m going to make you forget it’s even there,” he says before latching on.

I try to spread my legs wider, but my panties at my knees keep me restrained, causing the intensity of his mouth to be so much stronger as he works me over, owning me as primal sounds rumble from his chest.

My hands go to his hair, holding him there as his body stays just off mine in a push-up position. It doesn’t feel like enough but it feels like too much at the same time.

My back arches, pushing into him, pushing me closer to his mouth as he continues to drive my mind into a frenzy. Everything on me gets too tight, almost leaving me on the verge of breaking, or so it seems. Then suddenly, it explodes, and ecstasy washes over me as my body trembles—actually trembles.

Chase doesn’t stop until I’m begging him to because it’s all too sensitive… almost painful. Finally, he tears his mouth away from me and lazily kisses his way back up, slowly dragging his lips across my skin.

When his lips find mine again, I can barely kiss him because I’m out of breath… as though I just ran a marathon or something. He grins against my lips, when I have to break the kiss to drag air into my starving lungs.

“Tell me that doesn’t bring back good memories,” he says as he pulls back, brushing a piece of hair from my face.

I run my hands along his shoulders as thunder rumbles across the sky, and my eyes lock with his as a slow smile starts to spread.

“Either my memories are rusty, or you’ve gotten a hell of a lot better at that.”

He smirks before reaching between us, and I pull one leg up as he pulls my panties off it, freeing my legs so he can settle in between them.

“When you tell me what happened, I’ll show you some other areas I’ve improved in.”

My smile dies immediately, and he studies my eyes as my lips tense. In only my bra, I feel exposed now instead of intimate. He’s the first guy to see me in this context. In the past, when I was still trying to be intimate with people, I kept my shirt on. With Chase, I forgot I’m not the pretty sixteen-year-old girl whose life was once better than most.

“Let it go, Chase,” I whisper, hoping he stays on top of me instead of revealing the scars again.

“If you want me, Mika,
you
are going to have to let it go,” he says, brushing his lips over mine. “I’m not getting inside you until I know who did that to you and what happened. And trust me, you want me inside you.”

Heat licks at my insides as I squirm beneath him, and my legs slide up and wrap around his waist.

“Again, my memory may be rusty, but I recall you being a little less patient than that,” I murmur while tilting my hips and pressing myself against his bare torso.

A groan passes through his lips, but he just narrows his eyes at me.

“I was a horny teenager back then. I’ve grown up a little, and I can promise you I’ll impress you with more than just my patience. Why won’t you tell me?”

Thunder booms as though it’s an omen of things to pass, and I blow out a breath while wrapping my arms around his neck.

“If you’re not going to wow me with your alleged skills, then let’s order pizza before the power goes out. I hate eating in the dark.”

He doesn’t look happy about that, but he pulls me to my feet. Immediately, I turn away and shimmy my shirt back on before pulling my panties back into place. He leaves his shirt off, and he watches me hurry through the process of covering up. I look around for my shorts, but remember he took them off in another room.

He orders pizza, and by some miracle, the power stays on in spite of the storm. He keeps looking at me questioningly, and I keep tugging at my shirt reflexively. When he opens the fridge, he frowns while looking in.

“Why do you have a gallon of water, a pint of half-and-half, and two jugs of orange juice, but nothing else?” he muses, possibly trying to make light conversation.

It’s not a light conversation topic, though. Explaining my limited pantry and fridge choices goes into the complicated enigma that is me these days. It’s an adopted lifestyle of necessity, not of choice.

Too deep.

Too soon.

Too much.

“I like to keep my options limited since I’m on a diet,” I lie. It’s a stupid lie since I’m about to eat pizza with him, and he’s definitely seen me not eat like someone on a diet.

He cocks an eyebrow, letting his gaze rake over me. I’m still in just my panties and my T-shirt. “You don’t need to be on a diet,” he says idly, then opens the freezer without looking inside it. “And I don’t think strawberry ice cream fits into a diet. Why are you lying to me?”

I shouldn’t have lied. It was a terrible lie.

“I’m a takeout whore,” I say around a sigh, to which he laughs. It’s not a lie, but it’s not the truth either. I wish I could keep my house stocked with groceries. But that… gets messy.

All those expiration dates are a daunting problem, and feeling like I’m in a race to finish it all before that date… Well, life sucks with a full fridge.

Turning around, I go to find my shorts, but just as I start to pull them on, he’s jerking them out of my hand and tossing them over his shoulder.

“It’s easier to torture you this way,” he murmurs while stepping closer, sliding his hands over the skin of my hips and slipping his fingers just below my panty line.

I stare up, watching his eyes as he watches me, waiting for me to spill secrets I never will.

“Do you like what you see when you look at me?” I whisper softly.

His brow furrows in confusion.

“You know I do.”

My hands stay at my sides as he starts to run his hands over my ass.

“Then don’t ask me to give that up. A lot has happened in twelve years, Chase. Don’t ask me to give up the way you look at me when it’s the first good thing that’s happened in a really long time.”

I clear my throat when emotion wads up in it, and his hands pause. His eyes study mine intensely, as though he’s trying to decipher what that means. The doorbell rings, startling me, and he bends to press a kiss to my lips before heading toward the front door.

I go hide in the kitchen as his voice carries through the house.

“Um… Chase James? You live here?”

“My girl does. How much?”

“Whit lives here?”

Freaking small towns.

“No,” Chase says, annoyed. “You going to give me the fucking pizza and price or interrogate me all night?”

“Sheesh. Sorry. Just thought you were with Whit. Is she single now or what?”

“Fucking eh, dude. Yes, she’s single. Good luck getting her to date a guy who isn’t legal yet. Pizza. Now. Keep the change.”

The door slams, and I stifle a smile as Chase walks back in holding the hard-to-procure pizzas in his hands.

“Hayden hasn’t changed one bit,” I muse as he puts the pizzas down on the bar and grabs a paper towel.

“Everyone wanting to know everyone’s business? That’s never going away,” he grumbles.

 

Chapter 31

 

CHASE

 

As she finishes eating her second slice of pizza, she turns and throws away her crust. I watch her, just as I have been doing all night. Everything is mounting up and causing me to have more questions.

Everything Whit was drunkenly asking is grating on my nerves now. Mika used to be very much a control freak. Overly so. Judging by her over-zealous writing room upstairs, she’s still a meticulous note-keeper and control freak.

So why would she specifically request to not be involved with any of the numbers and schedules at the bowling alley? And why no food in the house? She loves cooking. Always has. She was the first person to ever cook anything for me. Hell, she’s the one who taught me how to cook for myself.

And what the fucking hell happened to her stomach? Those were cuts. Someone definitely fucking cut her to pieces and did enough damage to scar her for life. Was that all at once or over a period of time?

I can tell she doesn’t want to talk about it, and I know what it’s like for someone to try and pry dark secrets out of you. What sucks is that I always told Mika the stone cold truth. She saw it. I took her into that hell and she saw what I went through.

It didn’t change the way she looked at me. It didn’t change the way she loved me. It didn’t change a fucking thing, and it made me love her that much more. It’s also the reason I knew I was the one who had to walk away when reality came crashing down.

She’d hate me by now if I had made her live through that hell until the day my mother finally died. I couldn’t just leave her though. She might have not deserved me looking after her, but I couldn’t have dealt with the guilt if I hadn’t done all I could.

My father? Well, when he dies, he can rot in hell with no guilt on my end. At least my mom kept me alive when I couldn’t fend for myself, and she also made sure I had clothes, even if they were ratty and used.

“So what’s up with your parents?” I ask quietly.

“Dead,” she says without looking at me, and I grimace.

“Sorry.”

“Dad’s better off. He had a stroke just before I turned eighteen and he usually didn’t even know when someone was around. He just died within the past year, but it was a blessing. He didn’t want to be like that. No one does.”

She says it like she’s detached… emotionless. I’ve never heard her sound like that. This is the same girl who cried over a random dead bird we found on the roof one summer. I had to bury that fucking bird and let her say a prayer for it.

“I always liked Milton,” I say softly. “He never treated me like the James boy.”

“Until he told you that you weren’t good enough for me,” she says coldly.

“That wasn’t on him, Mika,” I say on a heavy breath. “We were living in a fantasy bubble and you know it. I don’t want to go back to that conversation. What happened to your mom?”

She tenses, and her lips thin like she’s pissed. “She died. Nothing special about her death.”

She’s twice as cold this time, as though she’s angry at me for even asking while not giving a damn about her mother’s death. It’s actually a little disconcerting.

“That’s vague,” I point out in a very non-abrasive way.

She shrugs. “I don’t want to talk about it. How about your parents? How’d they die?” she asks with the same chilly edge, as though she’s trying to verbally stab me for asking about her family.

“Mom finally overdosed. Dad isn’t actually dead. Just in prison. He finally ripped off the wrong guy. As far as I’m concerned though, he’s dead to me.”

She nods stoically, as though she’s drifted into another place. Definitely need to shift this subject. I feel like I’m losing her.

“Where all have you worked? I finally got to look you up, since I had your pen name. Saw the publishing thing started a few years ago.”

“Five years ago,” she says softly. “It’s the only job I’ve had. Mom wouldn’t let me work anymore when I lived there. She wanted control over my money so that I couldn’t save any more up.”

She sighs heavily, and I cock my eyebrow.

“What about college? Where’d you go?”

She looks up at me with pain in her eyes that I don’t understand.

“I didn’t go to college. Why are you asking so many questions about my past?”

That really makes no fucking sense. Why wouldn’t she go? She never talked about college, but it’s because we only talked about the impossible future we dreamt up. Without that dream, I wouldn’t have made it through my early teen years.

And five years? She only got her first job five years ago? As a writer? She never showed any interest in writing anything but letters to me.

“Just trying to learn a little about what happened to you after me, Mika. Why is college a sore spot?”

She doesn’t answer. She grows increasingly irritated by the second. When she starts biting her nails, I frown. She never chews her nails. Or didn’t. She always talked about how disgusting it was.

Trying to stop thinking about who Mika was versus who Mika
is
isn’t an easy task. I shift the conversation again.

“How about you and Aidan? You two seem tight these days.”

Her look softens, and a small smile curves her lips. “We are tight. Aidan’s had my back for a while now. Maybe he’s had to have it too much, but I hope not.”

Cryptic. Vague. Annoying.

“I feel like I know less about you the more we speak rather than getting to know you better.”

Her smile drops again. “What happened to you after me? Before you left this place and found your own life?” she asks calmly, as though she’s proving a point.

The difference is, I’ve already told her about all my scars and it doesn’t faze me to tell her again.

“Dad fucked up and stole from a couple of rich summer guys. One happened to be a judge. I moved in with Blake, but went to check on Mom every day while I worked at Blake’s father’s shop with him. His dad was retired and rebuilt cars as a hobby. It was decent money and Blake and I slept in the apartment above the garage. Partying, working on cars, and saving up my money became a routine in between checking on my mom. Nothing much to tell.”

Her eyes drop to the counter for a second before she finally looks up at me again. The look there is flat, devoid of anything besides coldness.

“The last time I saw my mother we fought. She got… well, she got hooked on pills. My uncle made her a mess so he could steal from her, and we couldn’t make her better.” She takes a slow breath before adding, “My mother committed suicide in a holding cell the night she almost killed me.”

The blood in my veins turns to ice, and I stare at her in shock. Yeah, Jessica was a bitch, but she was never that far gone.

“In short, my life took a turn for a while,” she goes on when I can’t even form a single sentence in response. “College wasn’t possible. Can we just stop talking about it now?”

“How’d she almost kill you?” I ask before I can stop myself.

“She knocked me off a second-floor landing during one of her fits because I wanted to move out. End of discussion. I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”

She stands abruptly, and I look down at the pizza that I no longer feel like eating. It never occurred to me even once that her life would be less than perfect when I wasn’t in it.

She goes to drop down on the couch, and I move to join her, warily gauging her mood. When I sit down and wrap my arm around her shoulders, she tenses but doesn’t knock my hand away.

She flips through channels too quickly, making it hard to even read the titles, and she blinks rapidly like she’s trying to stave off tears or something.

“Want me to channel surf?”

She shakes her head. “If you let it sit on a channel for too long, I’ll have to watch whatever show is on until it’s over. Not just the one show but the entire series. Series aren’t allowed. Not unless they’re complete. It’s only safe to watch a movie I’ve already seen.”

The fuck does that mean?

“Mika, I—”

“I don’t want to share any more secrets tonight, Chase. Please don’t ask,” she says in a strained whisper.

She finally settles on a channel that is just starting to play
Breakfast at Tiffany’s
, and she exhales heavily as it begins while pushing the remote away. We sit in silence as she watches the TV and I watch her, trying to decipher the enigma she’s become.

I want to know what happened to her. I want to know why she’s so closed off about it. I want to know everything there is.

But she doesn’t want to talk, and it’s her past to reveal. Instead, I pull her closer until she slowly starts to relax against me, resting her head on my chest. The second the movie ends, her eyes flutter shut, and I sigh while kissing the top of her head and scooping her up.

She’s still in her T-shirt and panties because I really thought we would do a lot more before the night ended. Sex is now the last thing on my mind.

Carefully, I walk her up the stairs, thinking over the night and how rough it started out, before turning good… Now it’s ending all wrong. As soon as I lower her to the bed, she stirs and grabs my hand.

“Stay with me?” she asks quietly, not opening her eyes. “The way you used to.”

Letting go of her hand, I kick off my jeans. I never put a shirt back on, so I’m just in my boxers when I slip into bed beside her. She immediately wraps around me, almost lying on top of me, and I hug her to me before kissing her head.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me,” I whisper, brushing my lips over her forehead.

She sighs while kissing my chest, but she doesn’t move other than that.

“I’m glad you weren’t. I would have become your darkness instead of your light.”

Even though I have no idea what that means, I don’t question her. Maybe Aidan can give me some answers if he’ll stop hating me long enough to let me ask questions.

 

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