One Step Too Close - Coffin Nails MC Louisiana (Gay Biker Stepbrother Romance) (Sex & Mayhem Book 6) (35 page)

Jed must have hit
himself on something because he swore with a hiss and then a squeak of leather
resounded in the darkness.

“I didn’t want to do it
over the phone. And there was no good opportunity. I’m talking about Jess. And
the baby. Your son. You wanna be with them. I get it. You deserve to have a
normal life. You can’t be expected to go down with the ship. I mean, I’m the
ship.”

Ryder felt the floor
crumble under his feet as panic settled in his gut. “What? Jed, what the fuck?
We are not ending this, I don’t want you dead!”

“That the only reason?
That’s the only thing holding you back? You’re worried that I will kill myself
after all?” Jed’s voice was stiff and seemed to come from farther away. “Now
that the whole blackmail thing is over… A lot of things came together that
night. Don’t worry. I can live with a broken heart.”

Ryder could hardly
breathe, and he lost the last of the air in his lungs by pushing Jed back hard.
“Stop.”

“It’s true! You’ll be
getting back with Jess. You have this possibility to lead a normal life. I’m
holding you back. I love you so much, but I can’t do this. I want you to be
happy. You will always have problems with me.” Jed must have hit the light
switch with his back, because a dim yellow lamp came on. His eyes had a glossy
shine to them, and he cowered in the corner, close to a small TV propped on the
wall.

Ryder shook his head,
following him immediately. He put his hands against both the walls, caging Jed
in place. “You know shit. Where did that even come from, huh? I never said I
wanted to go back to her!”

“Axe says everyone knows
you love her. And now there’s the baby… I can’t give you shit. You’ll only have
this
with me.” Jed spread his arms slightly, pulling Ryder’s attention
to the contents of the room. “Hidden away. There will be no tits or pussy. Just
you and me. You’ll practically be gay.”

Ryder slammed his fist
into the wall and looked at the tiny room, which was mostly filled by a simple
frame of a double bed with a thin mattress covered by a fitted sheet. Apart
from that and the mounted TV, there was a dresser in the corner with some
tissues, condoms, and what looked like packets of lube on top. With naked walls
and no bedding to speak of, this room really was just a place to get your rocks
off and get going.

Jed’s words rang in
Ryder’s head even as he faced Jed again. “We’re on a run with the guys. What do
you want me to do? Book into a hotel together?”

“No…” Jed took a step
closer, staring at Ryder with an intensity that made his eyes even bluer. “I
just want you to think about it. To be truly ready. Are you all in, or are you
just dipping your toes?”

Ryder swallowed hard as
his Adam’s apple turned into a rock. “Yeah, but if I have tits and pussy, I
can’t have you.”

“You won’t. I can’t be
your bit on the side.” Jed shook his head and walked up even closer, until he
ran his knuckles over Ryder’s chest, the touch opening a burning hole in
Ryder’s ribcage. “That would destroy me.”

Ryder shook his head.
“Then why are you asking? I’d always choose you over anyone else. We’ve always
been together.”

“Because I don’t want to
pull you into something that will wreck your life. I’d always be there for you.
Just not in this way.” Jed stood on his toes and gave Ryder a little kiss as if
pushing him away with his words, yet still pulling him in with his body. “Think
about it. You could get married. With me, it will always be about hiding. The
guys will wonder why you stopped fucking girls. This isn’t going away.”

“You are
not
wrecking my life. I can make my choices, and that means I can punch Axe so hard
he fucking forgets he ever saw us together,” hissed Ryder, feeling all the
hairs on his skin go erect.

“So is this the choice
you’ve made? Bringing me into some gay fuck room?” Jed raised his eyebrows, but
didn’t seem displeased. He hooked his thumbs in the belt loops of Ryder’s
jeans. This sudden shift in the atmosphere made Ryder stall, confused.

“Yeah. Can’t really
afford the Hilton.”

“That’s kinda sweet,
actually. Just freaked me out. I thought this was some weird way for you to
push me toward other guys. So that I’d stop obsessing over you if I taste some
other cock.” He pulled Ryder close enough for their chests to touch.

Ryder scowled and put
his hands on Jed’s hips. The image of Jed sucking on someone else’s dick wormed
its way into his brain and wouldn’t go away. “Ew, what the fuck? Why would I do
that? You’re mine.”

A smile spread over
Jed’s lips. “It wouldn’t help anyway. I’ve never met a guy more perfect than
you. So… how gay are you exactly?” He nipped on Ryder’s lower lip, making
Ryder’s cock twitch in his jeans.

“I’m very gay for you,”
whispered Ryder, nuzzling Jed as he savored his warmth. His mind was on a
single track and it was speeding up.

Jed purred under Ryder’s
jaw, and held his hand, just to push it against the erect cock in his jeans.
“You wanna find out about the prostate?”

Ryder gasped but held
on, sensing the warmth radiate even through the thick denim that was now
probably soaked by Jed’s scent. His mind was confused with the question, and
only after a few seconds it began to sink in what it really was about. Ryder’s
face flushed as he thought about that cock near his ass. It terrified him that
he had not the slightest idea how to respond now that he was put on the spot.

The way Jed’s hands slid
around his waist, and down to squeeze his ass wasn’t making talking any easier.
“It can feel so fucking good. I bet you’d be so tight around my cock.”

Ryder swallowed hard,
looking straight into that handsome face that had gotten so smug all of a
sudden. The slight rasp in Jed’s voice went straight to Ryder’s dick, and he
couldn’t help but shiver at how big Jed’s hands felt after having only been
groped by women. “I bet you really want to feel that,” he said, still on the
fence about this. He was curious. He wanted Jed. He’d just never really
considered this an option, never fantasized about this.

“I wanna know how it
feels. To be swallowed up by you this way.” Jed looked up as he slid his hands
under Ryder’s belt, under the waistband of his briefs, and down to squeeze his
ass harder. “I don’t ever want anyone else, so it’s not like I’ll get to
experiment with anyone else.”

Ryder gasped and nipped
on Jed’s cheekbone, leaning into him. “What if I don’t like it?” he asked,
unsure what he’d do.

“We’d stop. No pressure,
babe.” Jed gave him the dreamy eyes and a kiss. “I want
you
. Any details
are just a bonus.”

Ryder smiled, sensing a
hot buzz underneath his skin. “Yes,” he whispered, tangling his arms around
Jed’s neck. He was gonna do it. He would be taking the last step down a way he
never thought he’d go, and he was both excited and afraid, but doing it with
Jed truly meant no pressure. It wasn’t just a phrase with Jed. He was free to
explore without shame or awkwardness. There was no uncomfortable power play
that he’d feel with any other man. Just him and Jed, getting their rocks off
whichever way they pleased.

Jed opened his lips,
inviting Ryder for a long wet kiss that would seal their fate forever. There
was no going back. It would be just Jed and him. No Jess, no other girls, no
other guys.

But he needed to break
it apart before things got too heated. After a whole day on the road, he didn’t
feel like the freshest, cleanest man out there, and that was one of the reasons
why he’d decided to go with a bathhouse for this evening. The last thing he
wanted to think tonight was how Jed felt about his body odor. “Bath first?”

Jed looked around,
looking as if he just got pulled out of a wet dream and wasn’t happy about it.
“There’s a bath here?”

“It’s called a bathhouse
for a reason,” said Ryder, trying not to laugh too awkwardly. “For men only,”
he added, looking into Jed’s eyes.

The grip on Ryder’s ass
tightened. “Oh. Like a… gay spa?”

Ryder snorted and hugged
him. “No. Like a Roman bath. You know, Jacuzzi, a pool, I’m pretty sure you
could book a massage, but I’ve seen no facials on the me—” He scowled and
bumped his forehead against Jed’s arm. It came right back to him how he wrote
Jed that he wanted cum on his face.

Jed snorted, clearly
reading his mind. “No facials? You sure? I might want one. Damn. All that hot
cream… good for the skin.” He pulled his hands out of Ryder’s pants and hugged
him tightly.

Ryder pulled down the
zipper of Jed’s jeans. “That’s not on the house.”

Jed grinned and pulled
off his T-shirt. “No. It’s on me.”

Ryder started undressing
as well, without ever looking away from his handsome lover. “Romantic.”

“Take it or leave it.
I’m not good with words.” Jed shrugged and pushed his shoes off, before quickly
taking off his pants and briefs and revealing a half-hard cock. Even now it
seemed bigger than usual when Ryder assessed it in terms of his own ass, but he
made a point of not looking away.

“I’m pretty sure you’re
good with something else,” said Ryder and slowly scooted down to pick up the
towels he’d dropped earlier.

Jed stretched, but Ryder
was sure he was just showing off his body. “Yep. Something no girl can give
you.”

Ryder laughed and
quickly shed his clothes, not even caring where on the matte tiles they landed.
He just wanted to be as naked as Jed was and hop in head-first. “Let’s leave
girls out of this, okay? I want it to be just us.”

Jed wrapped a towel
around his waist and tossed their few valuables into the safe. “Yep. There sure
as fuck won’t be any girls. Especially in a gay sauna.”

Ryder let out a laugh
and fastened the towel on his hips. “What if you see someone prettier than me?”

Jed looked him up and
down. “I don’t see that happening.”

Ryder grinned and opened
the door, though his hand was already sweating a bit around the key. He could
do this. They were out of town, and there was no way any of their buddies would
be caught dead in a gay venue, so they were good.

As they walked out into
an empty, non-threatening corridor, Jed curled his hand around Ryder’s. “I’ve
never been anywhere like this,” he whispered.

Those fingers were so
warm Ryder just couldn’t deny himself holding them. He brushed his thumb over
Jed’s fingers and locked the door, trying to ignore a moan coming from across
the hallway. Clearly, people didn’t just come here for bathing. “Me neither.”

Jed looked up at him,
all starry-eyed as they walked toward louder music and damper air. “You’re my
first in everything.”

For a few seconds, Ryder
didn’t know what to say. He didn’t want to ruin the vision Jed had about their
relationship, didn’t want to hurt him, but it still stung deep in his chest
that he hadn’t told Jed the truth about his own gay experiences before they got
together. He kissed Jed on the lips and walked past the remaining rooms,
enjoying the warm tiles under his bare feet as they neared the source of the
ambient beat. There were also voices, and as they came into a washroom with two
rows of showers, a young guy looked back at them from beneath a stream of water
that caressed his round buttocks. Ryder immediately pulled Jed closer, standing
between him and the guy. Even here, the light was strangely dim, like in a
nightclub, and the white tiles gave an eerie glow, as did Jed’s teeth when he
smiled.

Ryder gently pinched
Jed’s nose and looked at two dispensers at the wall next to the shower. One for
shampoo. The other? Lube.

He cleared his throat as
he suddenly imagined Jed fucking him right here, with the guy watching. He’d
never want this to happen in real life, but he couldn’t help wondering how it
would feel.

Jed gave him a quick
glance before pulling off his towel, but he didn’t seem all that confident with
the unknown man so close. He still went for it, and quickly got under the
water. A part of Ryder wondered if it wasn’t risky to be here with the club
tattoos on their backs, but then again, the place had a no-photo policy, and he
doubted anyone could sneak in a camera under the tiny towel anyway.

“You okay?” whispered
Ryder, quickly pouring himself enough shampoo to wash them both. He was
freaking out at the idea of Jed not liking his smell. He wanted to be
desirable, especially since here Jed actually had options, other men to look
at.

Jed only answered once
the other guy left. “Fine, it’s just so different to see guys be so out there
with their junk, and available, you know what I mean?”

Ryder nodded and quickly
massaged all the liquid soap into his skin, making sure not to leave anything
out, including his now very half-hard cock, balls, and the ass crack, though he
backed away against the wall for that one, suddenly self-conscious about anyone
seeing him touch himself there.

Jed’s hungry gaze
followed Ryder’s every move as he took his time washing as well. His body was a
feast for the eyes, tan, lean, and tattooed. “You think guys are gonna check us
out?” he whispered.

Ryder wasn’t sure he
liked that idea, but he nodded, scrubbing his head with the shampoo. The scent
of soap bit into his nose, and he looked at Jed for a few seconds before
walking under the direct stream of water. It flowed down his naked body, taking
away all the dirt and leaving only rosy skin.