October Breezes

October Breezes

By

Maria Rachel Hooley

October Breezes.

Copyright ©2009 Maria Rachel Hooley

Cover ©IStockphoto.com/Jesper Elgaard

ISBN 1448646065

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Sometimes nothing is as it seems. That's what I remember thinking last October--six months that might as wel have been a lifetime ago. That was before I lost my best friend. The night everything changed, Devin and I sprawled across a round concrete picnic table long enough for me, but his feet dangled over the edge.

Although I lay with arms propped behind my head, Devin rested on his side, an elbow supporting him.

The smal town of West Martin was barely a dot on the Ilinois map—a dot trying hard to fashion a bed-and-breakfast image instead of a boring lakefront community with two high schools, ten churches, and a handful of fast food restaurants, none of which offered much entertainment. As such, most teens like us, hung out in Lucy Park. Tonight, however, a cold front had lowered the temperature to 25 degrees, and most people had stayed inside. Stil, we preferred the cold and liked the way the lights barely iluminated the darkness.

"Is your mom going to kil you? It's already after 11."

“She’s out with her fiancé, remember?” I lifted my hands to my mouth and blew on my fingers.

“Cold?” He scooted closer.

More on the inside than the outside,
I thought. The wind carried a distant burning smel--firewood--and I inhaled deeply, savoring the remembered warmth. “I don't know why she's agreed to marry the jerk.” I shook my head. “He’s going to leave her—

maybe not tonight, but some time.”

“Wel, maybe you should lighten up.” Devin tickled me.

“Maybe he'l hang around.”

“Right. My dad didn’t. He left years ago, and the other guys my mom dates haven’t bothered, either. Why would this one be any different?” Cold air brushed my stomach where my shirt had puled up. I tugged it down.

“He’s a different person. Maybe you should get to know him and stop growling.”

“Easy for you to say,” I snorted. “Both your parents live under the same roof.” I roled my shoulders, trying to move from the unforgiving concrete cooling my back. “You never wonder which state you’re going to see on the post card your dad sends. That

‘See you soon’ is quite a closing, don’t you think? It’s not ‘I love you.’ It’s ‘I’l see you soon.’” Tears seasoned my voice, deepening it.

Devin leaned over me, his fingers dabbing the tears.

“Sorry--I should’ve kept my big mouth shut.”

“Yeah, you should have. But since you’re my best friend, I’l let you live.” I swalowed hard, rubbing the concrete to take my mind off Devin's frown.

He scrutinized my expression, knowing lately I’d gotten good at acting indifferently. If I couldn’t trust my parents, I didn’t know if anyone else was safe, either. He finaly lay back. “I’m glad you let me live. Did you get your driver’s license yet?”

“Tomorrow—and it’s not soon enough.” I shifted closer, resting my head on his chest. “You make a great pilow.”

Leaves crackled distantly as someone headed toward our table. Curious, I sat up and saw Kelin Morgan and Tyler Rutherford sauntering into view.
Gee, the proud crowd coming
out for a visit
, I thought. Kelin, tal and broad-shouldered, sported his unbuttoned letter jacket and a dark sweater. The street-lamp's far-off glow highlighted the short blonde hair feathering his face, framing his square jaw and blunt chin. Next to him, Tyler seemed diminished by his best friend's stature; he barely topped my height.

Stil, thanks to his free-weight addiction, his chest seemed every bit as broad as Kelin's but without the quarterback's glory.

Kelin and Tyler stopped as they spotted us. Our gazes locked, and I looked away before embarrassing myself before two popular guys—and Devin. Swinging my legs over the table's side, I scooted from Devin, wondering what the jocks would make of us lying together.

“Helo, Skye,” Kelin said. As he spoke, steamy funnels diffused into the air. Devin quickly sat up, hovering. "Devin," Kelin added on.

I waited for Devin to break the silence thickening like smoke, but my best friend remained quiet as though sizing them up.

Shoving his hands into his pockets, Kelin stared intently at me. Tyler glanced from me to his best friend, frowning.

“Hey, Kelin. Tyler,” Devin said with forced pleasantry.

He scooted to the table's edge as wel, intentionaly putting his body between them and me.

"We were looking for some friends," Kelin said. "But I guess they aren't here." He gave me one last glance before they turned around and left. As the rustling of leaves faded, Devin lay back down.

“That was weird,” I muttered, blinking at where Kelin and Tyler had stood.

“The hel it was,” Devin snorted, shaking his head.

Frowning, I looked at the ful moon, mesmerized. "What’s that supposed to mean?” I asked.

“They were here because they thought we were....doing something… and wanted a closer look.”

I roled my eyes. “But we’re best friends. That’s al.”

Devin nodded, propping his arms behind his head. “I don’t think Kelin and Tyler knew who was here.”

“Yeah, wel, it’s not like they know who I am, anyway—

not with al the cheerleaders like Becca. I don’t exist to them.” I lay back down and again rested my head on Devin's chest, listening to his heartbeat.

Devin laughed holowly. “Then why did he look at you like that?”

“You said it yourself. He didn’t expect to find us here,” I replied.

“That’s not it. He was looking at
you.
He has eyes like most other guys, Skye.” Devin wrapped his arm around me.

“You’re beautiful, and that’s why you’re likely to be his next toy if you’re not careful. Stay away from him.” His heart rate sped up.

My stomach felt funny when he said that, like I had shot down a sharp incline. “He said helo--that’s it.”

Devin tapped the concrete and stil gazed far beyond me, at the stars I had once believed to be jewels. “What’s gotten into you?” I jumped off the picnic table and started to walk away when he stopped me, his fingers trying to grasp my arm but missing.

“Skye, wait.” He swung his long legs and huge feet over the table's edge and jumped down.

“It’s been a long night.” I walked toward the car.

“Come on,” he said, his hand clasping my forearm. “I’m a guy. I know how it works. I don’t want to see you get hurt. That’s it.”

“The only thing he said was ‘helo.’” I looked at Devin’s fingers around my arm and wiled him to let go.

“What happens when it’s more than that?” he asked softly, standing so close our bodies were barely separated. “What happens when he asks you out? He doesn’t have a reputation because he’s a great guy. His brains are in his pants, and he’s thinking with them right now.” As he looked at me, his hair fel into his eyes.

“Thanks for the helpful advice,” I replied, jerking from him.

“Wil you take me home, or do I have to walk?” I wiled myself not to shiver.

Devin dug the keys from his pocket. “I’l drive you,” he said quietly. “It’s over a mile to your house; the last thing you need to do is walk.”

“Thanks, mother.” I stalked to his Ford Escort, opened the door, and climbed inside. Leaning against the headrest, I replayed what had just happened and wondered if Kelin had been checking me out.

Devin backed out. “Why do you always do that?” he asked, keeping his gaze ahead, his voice even.

“Do what?” I sat up and watched his fingers tap the steering wheel repeatedly.

“Get defensive? What’s wrong with me wanting to protect you?”

I gritted my teeth, angry without understanding why. “I can take care of myself. I already have one mother, and I don’t need another.”

He gripped the steering wheel tightly. “I know, but I don’t want to pick up the pieces Kelin leaves behind.”

“So don’t.” I looked out the opposite window.

“Damn it, Skye!” Frustrated, he shook his head. “That’s not what I meant.”

I leaned back against the seat. “Wel, you can just relax

‘cause nobody is going to hurt me. Nobody’s ever going to get that close.” I closed my eyes and shoved my hands into my pockets, trying to warm my fingers.

“Yeah, maybe that’s just as bad,” Devin whispered.

* * *

“What book?” he asked, leaning against the next locker, his arms folded across his chest, covering a Queensryche tee-shirt.

“Does it matter? Like I ever read,” I snorted, looking in the smal mirror hanging on my locker door. A few hairs fel to the side and I brushed them into place and pouted to check my lipstick.

“Maybe,” he said. “Which book?”

I scowled. “
To Kill a Mockingbird.
As if I care what they do to mockingbirds.”

Devin repeatedly thumped his forehead against the locker.

“It’s a good book, Skye; you ought to read it.”

“It’s old. He didn’t even buy a new one.” I puled the dog-eared copy from my locker, wondering if it was going to come apart. “He said something about this being sentimental.”

Devin took it, opened it, and flipped to the back. He stared at the page for a moment. “What’s his name?”

“Jim, Slim, Richard. Hel if I remember.” I jerked out my algebra book, a spiral notebook, and a pencil.

Devin grabbed my shoulder and lightly shook me. “Come on--you know his name. Wil it kil you to use it?”

“Warren Jacobs.” I squinched my nose. “Happy?”

“No, not realy.” He slid his arm around me. “Skye, I know you’re pissed as hel at your dad for leaving, at your mom for agreeing to marry Warren, and at Warren for…wel…ju st ‘cause.

You never used to be like this. It’s like you hate everybody, but al that hate isn’t going to knock sense into your old man.” He drew me to him, fitting my head just under his chin. As my head rested there, a few bumps prodded my cheek. "Ouch," I said and puled away.

"What've you got on?"

Shrugging, he reached under the t-shirt neckline and puled out the necklace I'd made out of hemp and shels when Mom had taken us to the Mississippi coast two summers ago. "Sorry 'bout that."

Grinning, I touched the shels. "You stil wear that?"

Nodding, he said, "Yeah, I like it."

I looked at the novel. “I wish he hadn't given me this.”

“Read it.” He smiled.

I sighed and set the novel in my locker as the first bel rang. “I knew you'd say that.” I blinked at Devin’s empty hands.

“Where are your books?”

“Don’t need ‘em for biology. We’re discovering where babies come from.” Devin’s tone dripped with forced stupidity.

“Mr. Taylor was afraid we might have questions, so we’re watching a video. Man oh man.” He roled his eyes and regarded my books wistfuly. “I’d rather be in algebra.”

I laughed and patted him on the back. “Pay attention. You might learn something.”

“Like how to sleep with my eyes open?” he retorted, heading down the hal.

I strode toward Mrs. Swanson’s room, when a different voice caled me. “Skye--wait up.”

I turned and found Kelin darting toward me. Instead of stopping, I upped my pace, forcing him to run. I could hear the legs of his wind pants rubbing with every stride. He caught me and slowed to match my gait. “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you didn’t want to talk.”

“What gave you that idea?” I asked, quickening my steps more.

“You didn’t stop. Look--I just wanted to talk. Nothing major.” He darted into my path, stopping me. He jammed his hands in his pockets.

Three freshmen girls sped past, giggling as they glanced at him. “What about?” I forced myself to gaze at his face and found pale blue eyes focused on me. Swalowing hard, I realized I only came to his shoulders. His aftershave--Obsession--washed over me. Wearing a black sweater and jeans, he looked like a model.