Missing Joseph (5 page)

“And does—” She worked at saying the name and betraying nothing as she said it. “Does Missus Spence never hear any mischief being made?”

“Not from her cottage. It's too far behind the Hall, she says. And when she makes rounds, no one's ever there.”

“Ah.”

They were silent. Brendan shifted his weight. Icy soil crackled beneath him. A gust of night wind soughed through the chestnut's branches and blew at the back of Polly's hair where the scarf couldn't manage to hold it in place.

“Polly.”

She heard both the urgency and the plea in his voice. She'd seen them before on his face when he asked to join her at her table in the pub, appearing as if with preternatural knowledge of her movements each time she went to Crofters Inn for a drink. Now, as on those other occasions, she felt her stomach knot and her limbs grow cold.

She knew what he wanted. It was no different from what everyone wanted: rescue, escape, a secret to cling to, a half-formed dream. What did it matter to him if she was hurt in the process? On what account book was ever written the payment exacted for damage to a soul?

You're married, Brendan, she wanted to say in a tone that combined both patience and compassion. Even if I loved you—which I don't, you know—you've got a wife. Go on home to her now. Climb into bed and make love to Rebecca. You were willing enough to do that at one time.

But she was cursed with being a woman not naturally given to either rejection or cruelty. So instead, she said only, “I'll be off now, Brendan. My mum's waiting supper,” and she headed out the way she had come.

She heard him following. He said, “I'll walk with you. You shouldn't be out here alone.”

“It's too far,” she said. “And you've just come that way, haven't you?”

“But on the footpath,” he said with an assurance suggesting he believed his answer was the height of logic. “Across the meadow. Over the walls. I didn't walk along the road.” He matched his steps to hers. “I've got a torch,” he added, pulling it out of his pocket. “You shouldn't be walking at night without a torch.”

“It's only a mile, Brendan. I can cope with that.”

“So can I.”

She sighed. She wanted to explain that he couldn't simply take a walk with her in the dark. People would see them. They'd misunderstand.

But she knew in advance how he would respond to her explanation. They'll just think I'm walking to the Hall, he'd answer, I go out there every day.

What an innocent he was. How imperfect was his understanding of village life. It would matter little to anyone who saw them that Polly and her mother had lived twenty years in the gabled lodge at the mouth of the drive that led to Cotes Hall. No one would stop to think of that, or to think that Brendan was checking on the Hall's renovation in anticipation of moving there with his bride.
Assignation by night
, the villagers would label it. Rebecca would hear of it. There'd be hell to pay.

Not that Brendan wasn't paying already. Polly had little doubt of that. She'd seen enough of Rebecca Townley-Young throughout their lives to know that marriage to her under the best of conditions would not be a particularly nurturing affair.

So among other things, she felt sorry for Brendan which is why she allowed him to join her at Crofters Inn in the evening, which is why she now just kept walking along the verge, with her eyes fastened on the steady, bright beam from Brendan's torch. She didn't attempt to make conversation. She had a fairly good idea where any conversation with Brendan Power would ultimately lead.

A quarter of a mile along, she slipped on a stone, and Brendan took her arm.

“Careful,” he said.

She could feel the back of his fingers pressing against her breast. With each of her footsteps, the fingers rose and fell, acting the part of distant cousin to caress.

She shrugged, hoping to disengage his hand. His grip grew firmer.

“It was Craigie Stockwell,” Brendan said diffidently into the growing silence between them.

She drew her eyebrows together. “Craigie what?”

“The carpet at the Hall. Craigie Stockwell. From London. It's a ruin now. The drain in the basin was plugged with a rag. Friday night, I should guess. It looked as if the water had run all weekend.”

“And no one
knew
?”

“We'd gone down to Manchester.”

“Doesn't anyone go inside when the workmen aren't there? Check things're in order?”

“Mrs. Spence, you mean?” He shook his head. “She generally just checks the windows and doors.”

“But isn't she supposed to be—”

“She's a caretaker. Not a security guard. And I imagine she's nervous out there alone. Without a man, I mean. It's a lonely spot.”

But she'd frightened off intruders at least once, Polly knew. She'd heard the shotgun herself. And then a few minutes later came the thudding of two or three frantic, shouting runners, and the gunning of a motorbike afterwards. The word went out to the village after that. People didn't mess Juliet Spence about.

Polly shivered. The wind was rising. It blew in brief, frigid gusts through the bare hawthorn hedge that bordered the road. It promised a heavier frost in the morning.

“You're cold,” Brendan said.

“No.”

“You're shivering, Polly. Here.” He put his arm round her and drew her snugly next to him. “Better, isn't it?” She didn't reply. “We walk together at the same pace, don't we? Have you noticed that? But if you put your arm round my waist, it's even easier going.”

“Brendan.”

“You haven't been to the pub this week. Why?”

She didn't respond. She moved her shoulders. His grip remained firm.

“Polly, have you been up Cotes Fell?”

She felt the cold on her cheeks. It insinuated itself like tentacles down her neck. Ah, she thought, here it comes at last. Because he'd seen her there one evening last autumn. He'd heard her petition. He knew the worst.

But he went on easily. “I find I like hiking more and more every week. I've been out to the reservoir three times, you know. I've done a long tramp through the Trough of Bowland and another near Claughton, up Beacon Fell. The air smells so fresh. Have you noticed that? When you reach the top? But then, I suppose you're too busy to do much walking.”

Now he'll say it, she thought. Now comes the price I'll have to pay him to hold his tongue.

“With all the men in your life.”

The allusion was a puzzle.

He shot her a glance. “There must be men. Lots, I'd guess. That's probably why you've not been in the pub. Busy, aren't you? Dating, I mean. Someone special, no doubt.”

Someone special. Without consideration, Polly gave a weary chuckle.

“There
is
someone, isn't there? A woman like you. I mean. I can't imagine a bloke who wouldn't. Given half a chance.
I
would. You're terrific. Anyone can see that.”

He switched off the torch and put it in his pocket. Freed, his other hand grasped her arm.

“You look so good, Polly,” he said and bent closer. “You smell good. You feel good. Chap doesn't see that needs his head examined.”

His steps slowed then stopped. There was reason for this, she told herself. They had reached the drive at one side of which sat the lodge where she lived. But then he turned her to him.

“Polly,” he said urgently. He caressed her cheek. “I feel so much for you. I know you've seen it. Won't you please let me—”

A car's headlamps caught them like rabbits in its beam, not coming along the Clitheroe Road but bumping and jolting along the lane that led beyond the lodge up to Cotes Hall. And just like rabbits, they froze in position, Brendan's one hand on Polly's cheek, his other on her arm. There could be no real mistaking his intentions.

“Brendan!” Polly said.

He dropped his hands and put a careful two feet between them. But it was too late. The car came upon them slowly, then slowed even more. It was an old green Land Rover, mud-spattered and grimy, but its windscreen and windows were perfectly clean.

Polly turned her head away from the sight of it, not so much because she didn't want to be seen and gossipped over—she knew that nothing would spare her that—but so she wouldn't have to see the driver or the woman next to him with her blunt greying hair and her angular face and, Polly could see it all so vividly without even trying, with her arm stretched out so that the tips of her fingers rested on the back of the driver's neck. Touching and twining through that slicked-back, undisciplined, ginger hair.

Colin Shepherd and Missus Spence were having another lovely evening together. The Gods were reminding Polly Yarkin of her sins.

Damn the air and the wind, Polly thought. There was no justice. No matter what she did, it came out wrong. She slammed the door behind her and drove her fist into it once.

“Polly? That you, luv-doll?”

She heard the roll of her mother's heavy footsteps trundling across the sitting room floor. The sound of wheezing accompanied this, as did the clink and clatter of jewellery—chains, necklaces, gold doubloons, and anything else her mother saw fit to deck herself out with when she made her wintertime morning toilette.

“Me, Rita,” Polly answered. “Who else?”

“I dunno, luv. Some good-looking chappie with a sausage to share? Got to keep yourself open to the unexpected. 'At's my motto, that is.” Rita laughed and wheezed. Her scent preceded her like an olfactory harbinger. Giorgio. She sprayed it on by the tablespoon. She came to the door of the sitting room and filled it, so large a woman that she ballooned out in a shapeless mass from her neck to her knees. She leaned against the jamb, working hard to catch her breath. The entry light glistened against the necklaces on her massive chest. It cast a grotesque Rita-shadow on the wall and made a fleshy beard of one of her chins.

Polly squatted to unlace her boots. They were thick-soled with mud, a fact that did not escape her mother.

“Where you been, luv-doll?” Rita jingle-jangled one of her necklaces, an affair of large cat heads fashioned in brass. “You go for a hike?”

“Road's muddy,” Polly said with a grunt as she forced off one boot and worked on the other. Their laces were sodden, and her fingers were stiff. “Wintertime. You forget what it's like?”

“Wish I could, I do,” her mother said. “So how's things in the metropolis today?”

She pronounced it metro-POH-lis. Deliberately. It was part of her persona. She wore a guise of spurious ignorance while in the village, an extension of the general style she adopted when she came home for her winters in Winslough. Spring, autumn, and summer, she was Rita Rularski, reader of tarot, thrown stones, and palms. From her shopfront in Blackpool, she foresaw the future, expounded on the past, and made sense of the troubled, fractious present for anyone willing to part with the cash. Residents, tourists, holiday-makers, curious housewives, fine ladies looking for a giggle and a thrill, Rita saw them all with equal aplomb, dressed in a kaftan big enough to fit an elephant, with a bright scarf covering her grizzled brambles of hair.

But in winter she became Rita Yarkin again, back in Winslough for a three-month stay with her only child. She put her hand-painted sign on the verge of the road and waited for custom which seldom developed. She read magazines and watched the telly. She ate like a docker and painted her nails.

Polly glanced at these curiously. Purple today, with a tiny strip of gold crossing each one diagonally. They clashed with her kaftan—it was pumpkin orange—but they were a decided improvement over yesterday's yellow.

“You tiff with someone this evenin', luv-doll?” Rita asked. “You got an aura shrivelled to nothing, you do. That a'nt good, is it? Here. Lemme take a look at your face.”

“It's nothing.” Polly made herself busier than she needed to be. She banged her boots against the inside of the woodbox next to the door. She took off her scarf and folded it neatly into a square. She put this square in the pocket of her coat and then brushed the coat itself with the flat of her hand, removing both speckles of lint and nonexistent splatters of mud.

Her mother wasn't to be easily side-tracked. She pushed her huge mass from the door-jamb. She waddled to Polly and turned her round. She peered at her face. With her hand palm-open and an inch away, she traced the shape of Polly's head and her shoulders.

“I see.” She pursed her lips and dropped her arm with a sigh. “Stars and earth, girl, stop being such a fool.”

Polly stepped to one side and headed for the stairs. “I need my slippers,” she said. “I'll be down in a minute. I can smell supper. Have you done goulash like you said?”

“Listen here, Pol. Mr. C. Shepherd a'nt so special,” Rita said. “He got nothing to offer a woman like you. Do you not see that yet?”