Missing Hart (16 page)

I fear losing that which I can’t live without.

It’s the knowledge that I don’t want a future without you standing by my side that tells me that this is forever. Before you the future was murky at best; now it’s a wonderland that I can’t wait to explore with you.

I love you baby.

-DC

Love Letter Number Seven-Saturday

Kitten,

You’re almost home baby! In less than twenty-four hours we’ll be in each other’s arms again, and from that moment we won’t be separated like this ever again.

You’re sound asleep as I sit here writing this. I got mesmerized watching the gentle rise and fall of your chest after you fell asleep, memorizing the way that you look right now so that it could hold me over for the time that we’re apart. I never sleep as well without you in the bed as I do when you’re here, right where you belong.

My beautiful and amazing girl, you are my every secret wish come to life.

All of my love,

-DC

From Me, To Him

My Dillon,

Nothing that I write is going to come close to being as beautiful as your letters to me were. Before you I had no idea what it meant to be loved completely, but you’ve changed all of that. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have you in my life, but I do know that I am never ever giving you back. You are the best thing that has EVER happened to me and I love you and everything that you are.

Today is the last day of vacation and I went snorkeling with my family. Seeing all of that underwater beauty made me miss you terribly because it was you that I wanted to be exploring with. I had fun, but it wasn’t as fun as it would have been if you’d been there. The world is always richer and more vibrant when I’m with you-even if we’re just in the drive thru line at McDonald’s.

I never believed that I would ever find someone that I would love who could love me back, but you proved me wrong. Before we met, if I were to have written down every characteristic that I wished a man would have, I would have been describing you. The most amazing part of that is the fact that, for all the secret wishes that I had, not only did you bring them to life, you surpassed them and made me realize that I hadn’t been brave enough to wish for all of the things that I really wanted. I wish for big things now, and that’s because I know my future has you in it. You gave me wings.

I loved reading all of your letters more than I can even tell you. I will treasure each and every one forever. You’re my better half and I can’t wait to be whole again, back where I belong-in your arms.

My beautiful and amazing man, I love you. Thank you for giving my life meaning and true happiness. You make my heart sing and I can’t wait to meet our future together!

Your kitten—

Dominique

Seven long and miserable days passed without Dominique, each one seemingly longer than the day before. I had missed her like she was an oxygen supply that I was being deprived of and it made me grumpy and short tempered. I wanted to be on vacation with her, enjoying the view when she wore her bikini and holding her each night as we drifted off to sleep.

If it weren’t for the fact that I had stayed busy working my ass off on the new landscape installation, I’d have been climbing the walls. Even thought I came home exhausted each night it had been a hell of a challenge to fall asleep without having at least spoken to her before bed. My schedule was so wonky and she was so busy with her family that we had only managed to talk on the phone twice.

The eternity that passed as I waited for her return was finally over. In just a few hours I would be finished at work for the day- (for the night really since it was already after five) and when I got home, she would be there.

I was as keyed up and anxious as a child on Christmas morning. I had missed her beyond all reason and I needed to see her, to touch her and hold her in my arms. The knowledge that she was going to be waiting for me made me work at super speed, and the rest of the team struggled to keep up. Two hours later Rick called it for the day and we all got to leave. I’d already told him days ago that I would be in a rush to leave today so with a cheerful wave I took off running for my truck.

The sight of her car in my driveway was a balm for my soul. She was back and life could return to normal. I ran from my truck to the front door, swinging it open to find her running toward me from the kitchen with an enormous smile on her face.

“Baby,” she giggled, “I missed you so much!”

Nothing else mattered now that she was back in my arms. We had survived the seven days intact and would never have to go through such a significant amount of time apart again. Scooping her up into my arms I covered her mouth with mine and kissed the hell out of her as I walked us toward my bedroom. Since the first night that we’d made love, the longest we had gone without being together physically is two days. She was reticent at first to have sex while on her period, but after I showed her that it felt just as good for both of us and it didn’t bother me at all, we didn’t let it get in the way.

The truth is that once she was used to the idea of it, she had been relieved. She wanted to make love as often as I did, if not more. Many afternoons I came home from work to find her waiting for me with a condom in hand, and I was always ready to go when I saw that look on her face. My first condom stash had gone quickly and we’re now well into the second. We like to joke that we’re keeping the Magnum portion of the Trojan brand in business, but recently Dominique has started to make noises about going on birth control so that we can forgo condoms entirely.

My stance on that is that it’s her body and if she doesn’t want to be on something I am happy to take care of it by wearing condoms. Do I want to be skin to skin with her with no barrier? Hell yes I do. Am I terrified that it will feel even better than it already does and I’ll never be able to leave my bed? Secretly, yes. Sometimes I feel as if the condom is the only barrier between me and absolute insanity while being inside of her body is concerned. I take great pains to be gentle and loving with her at all times. Knowing what her father did to her and how that skewed her view of sex, I feel responsible to always make it clear to her that we’re making love. Setting her down gently on the bed I crawled on top of her, staring at her face as I did so.

“I missed you so much kitten. I’m so glad you’re home with me where you belong.”

She shivered beneath me, a full body affair that I felt pass through her. Blushing shyly she responded, “Clearly I missed you, too. Life isn’t as good without you in it every day. Promise me that we’ll never have to be apart for that long again, ever.”

Pulling my shirt up and over my head, I dropped back down over her and began kissing her neck.

“I promise that we will never be apart like this again Kitten. You’re my life and from now on where you go, I go.”

Wrapping her arms around my neck she pulled me closer to her and buried her face in my chest. After a moment of silence she said, “I missed this smell like crazy. When you come home after working outside all day you smell delicious.”

I chuckled because she mentioned that often. It seemed that my natural scent mixed with sunshine, deodorant and sweat made my girlfriend crazy with lust and I wasn’t about to complain about it.

Capturing her mouth with mine I kissed her gently as we pulled each other’s clothes off. Spreading her legs I found her wet and ready for me, and my mouth watered as I slid down her body and sank my tongue into her soaking channel.

She panted and moaned, thrashing on the bed as she held my head in her hands and thrust against my tongue, calling my name out over and over as I devoured her. She was hot and so swollen that I knew it wasn’t going to take anything to get her off. Clearly she hadn’t been taking care of her own needs while we were separated but for that matter, I hadn’t either.

The thrusting of her against my tongue increased and was quickly followed by a little cry as she came. I groaned when she pulled my hair so that I would bring my mouth back to hers so that we could kiss, loving that little twinge of pain that I was hit with when she had no control of herself and didn’t remember to be gentle.

She bit my lip gently before sliding her tongue into my mouth, and the feeling was so intense that my erection jerked. Reaching between us she fisted it in her hand, rubbing my aching tip against her wetness.

I startled when the pressure of her hand changed to the pressure of her wet channel as it gripped the head of my shaft. Bracing my arms on either side of her I started to pull out, but she was having none of that. She wrapped her legs around me to hold me in at the same moment that she slid her hands down my back and cupped my buttocks in her hands, pulling me in deeper. For a moment I lost all ability to think or be rational because I couldn’t even remember why I wanted to stop myself from getting used to the feeling. Before I could utter a word I was thrusting in hard, burying myself to the root inside of her. I heard a feral groan break the silence of the room and it broke me out of my fugue like state when I realized that the sound had come from me.

“Kitten,” I groaned, “I’m not wearing a condom and I need to be.”

If anything, she held tighter.

“No. I need to know what it feels like to have nothing between us. I’ve thought about nothing else all week. It’s a safe time of the month and as long as you pull out, it should be fine.”

I’d cut off my right arm for this beautiful girl, but my conscience chimed in loudly that getting her pregnant wouldn’t be the right thing.

“Baby, you could get pregnant.”

She pulled me in harder, gripping me from root to tip inside her tight hot core.

“I’m not going to get pregnant. Just this once baby, let me feel you. If the worst that happens is that we do get pregnant right now, I’m not going to be upset about it. Would you be?”

The little pulses of her against my shaft were making me insane, but my answer came straight from the heart.

“No Kitten, I wouldn’t be upset. I fully intend to have a family with you. Just this once I’ll do what you’re asking, but I am going to pull out when it’s time. I’m ready for children whenever you are, but the choice has to be yours.”

Her beautiful sigh touched my soul, and when she arched below me and said thank you, I lost any remaining resistance and began to thrust in and out of her.

Whoever the idiot was that decided to claim that condoms didn’t change the feeling of being inside someone needed to have their head examined. It was an otherworldly experience being inside of her bare, and I struggled to keep from coming before she did.

The gentle creaking of the bed and mattress beneath us began to get louder and more intense, and I threw myself into her harder than I ever had even as I tried to retain some semblance of control. Reaching behind me I hooked my arms under her knees and pushed her legs back toward her armpits. She hissed and cried out, her nails digging into my back as she let out the loudest cry I’d ever heard from her.

“Oh god, oh god, oh god, oh god… Don’t stop baby!”

I was stunned by how turned on she was by this newer and wilder version of our lovemaking, and it felt right to work my hips harder into her. I heard how wet she was and it made me thrust faster, desperate for the release that I could feel coming.

Her head thrashed on the pillow beneath her head as little pleas and moans broke forth from her mouth.

“Harder… oh god, baby, HARDER!”

Grabbing her hands from my back, I settled them on her legs so that she was holding her own knees back. Once she had control of that, I grabbed her hips in my hands and pulled her up a little bit off the bed so that I could go deeper.

Her tight sheath creamed around me hard as I thrust home over and over again, and I was helpless to look anywhere but at her as I watched her breasts jiggle up and down as I continued pumping.

“Please, baby, please, oh please, oh please… Dillon!”

She let out a little scream at the same moment her sex clamped down around me like a vise, and I absolutely lost it in that moment. I tried to pull out but she shrieked and begged me not to. “Please, come in me!”

There was no fight left in me, so desperate was I to come with her. The room filled with the sound of us both crying out for each other as we each came, and I spent myself inside her as she milked me for every drop of the strongest and most staggering release I’d ever had.

I slumped over her as the last of my come pulsed its way from my shaft into her tight heat, burying my face in her neck as I breathed in her scent. Every ounce of energy that I’d had was spent entirely inside of her and I needed a moment to get myself together.

She sighed and gave a moan of appreciation as her legs and arms wrapped around me and held me to her tightly.

“I’ll never be away from you for seven days again, but I have to tell you, that was the best welcome home EVER.”

I chuckled at that as I nuzzled her neck, lethargic from my release but also reluctant to pull out of her. Grabbing her hips I held her in place as I rolled over so that I was beneath her and thus less likely to crush her.

The way she snuggled into me was a thing of beauty and I couldn’t wait to get to the point where she could move in with me and we could always be together. I fell asleep still buried inside of her with a smile on my face and in my heart.

I woke up sometime later to the feeling of her lips wrapped around me. I’d been having the loveliest dream about her that, now that I was awake, turned out not to be a dream. She really was in my bed and judging by how hard I was, I’d been buried in her mouth for some time.

Pushing her hair back from her face, I smiled at her when she looked up at me. Her guileless blue eyes stared back at me with a look of pure love as she hollowed out her cheeks and twisted her head as she worked her mouth up and down.

“God, Kitten,” I whispered, “I love you so much. Come up here and kiss me.”

Shaking her head, she sucked harder. My toes curled at the same moment my hands fisted in her hair, and I had to force myself to gentle my touch.