Loving Reese (Tremont Lodge Series Book 2) (15 page)

“Thank you for the money. Thank you for not trading your love for me with a love for money.”

“There’s nothing that would make me trade my love for you.”

I walk toward my dad and reach for his arm which tenses upon first touch. Then I throw my other arm around the man I’d known my whole life as dad and hug him. He hugs back, and to the casual observer, our embrace looks like a normal
goodbye
, but to us, the sentiment is so much deeper—and I hope it’s enough to carry me through the rest of my life, for I may never see John Prentice again.

When he is gone, I wipe away the remaining tears and Lawson holds open the door. “Thanks, Lawson,” I say.

“For messing up your summer?” he asks, grinning.

“No, for giving me a happy memory with my dad.”

“Any time. Now, shouldn’t you be meeting Finn or something?”

Finn is waiting at the base of the ski lift. I see him before he sees me, the bright setting sun blocking his view. He looks so handsome dressed in plaid shorts and a blue v-neck t-shirt with a
Detroit Tigers
baseball cap shielding his eyes. A large smile crosses his face when he sees me. He holds out a single red rose. “This is for you, my lady.”

“Wow! I didn’t know we were exchanging gifts,” I say.

“Well, you were supposed to bring a gift, too. How
are
we going to rectify this problem?” I plant a kiss on his cheek. “Hmm…not good enough,” he says, pouting. I kiss the other cheek. He shakes his head
no.

“How about this?” I wrap my arms around Finn’s neck and pull my body as close to his as possible. I kiss each cheek again and end on his lips, kissing soft and long, stopping only to inhale and take another breath.

“Are you going to open your eyes?” he asks.

“I don’t think so,” I say, laying my head on his chest.

“How come?” He holds up my chin until I’m forced to open my eyes and look at him. “Because then this dream might end, and I don’t want it to end.”

“It’s not a dream, Reese. I’m right here. All you have to do is accept me, for who I am now, for the mistakes I’ve made in the past, for who I’ll be in the future. I’m right here waiting for you.”

“I do. I want you, Finn.”

“Good. Then we agree, and your gift is accepted.”

We take the next ski lift to the top of the mountain though we’d have our pick as no one else is here tonight. We watch the sunset as we ride up the mountain, the lodge growing smaller in the distance. I try to capture this moment in my memory bank to add to the other good memories of this summer, for there really have been many. And though I know it’s important to tell Finn about my dad, this isn’t the right time.

When we get to the top of the mountain, Finn grabs hold of my hand and leads me down the path away from the old restaurant. I know where we’re going…our secret grassy spot down the mountain a bit but still with an amazing view of Tremont City below. By the time the blanket is laid out, the city is coming alive with twinkling lights in the homes and businesses, but none can rival the twinkling stars in the sky above us. We lie on our backs next to each other.

“First one who finds a shooting star gets to give a dare,” says Finn, grinning devilishly.

“You’re naughty,” I say. We lie still for a long time, just watching the sky, discounting airplanes overhead from shooting stars. Finn brushes my hair with his fingers until my ponytail falls out. “Tell me about the baby,” I whisper.

He sighs. “Two summers ago Sam and I tried to see if we had enough in common to forge a relationship. I thought we might. She’s really not as much of a bitch as she seemed. She’s…different now—a lot more closed off from the real world. Anyway, it wasn’t working as well as I thought when I got that picture of her and Lawson in bed together. Then a month after she left, I got a call. She told me she was pregnant. She told me the baby was mine, though there was never a paternity test. For all I know, Lawson was the father.”

“What’d you do?” I ask, turning on my side to face Finn, his butterfly calling me closer.

“I freaked out a little. I didn’t want to be a dad. She came up to see me, and we agreed she would keep the baby, and she and I would have to see if we were meant to be.”

“You started dating again?”

“We tried, but there wasn’t a whole lot of trust left on my side. I drove out to see her and we went to a few doctor’s appointments together. Then one night in October—she was four months pregnant—she called me in the middle of my set, freaking out on the phone. She said she was bleeding, and they’d done an ultrasound and the baby wasn’t alive and that she’d have to…” He closes his eyes and inhales before continuing. “And that she’d have to deliver the baby dead.”

“Oh no,” I say.

“So, I drove out to see her again and went with her to the hospital. Her parents were spitting mad at me. They pretty much disowned her anyway after that night, too.”

“That’s why they weren’t at the wedding.”

“Yes. Anyway, after that whole ordeal, we didn’t really talk much. She dropped out of my life. I dropped out of hers. That was that except for some minor social media following.”

“Until she showed up this summer and wanted you back.”

“I guess that’s probably an accurate assessment. Like I said, she’s not quite right anymore, but Anthony seems like a nice enough guy, and if money is her new goal, then I hope it makes her happy. I really do.”

“Look!” I sit up and point to the sky behind Finn. “There’s a shooting star.”

“No fair,” he says, “You distracted me by making me talk so long.”

“Totally fair. And I get to issue the dare.”

“Dammit. I had a good one, too,” he says, smirking. He sits up and scoots closer, putting his arm around me. “But go ahead. I’m ready.”

“Finn.” I reach out and stroke his butterfly, kissing it gently. “I dare you to take that job on the cruise ship next spring, and I dare you to take me with you.”

“Reese. Don’t. You know Ted wants you to stay here. Whether I go or not, I haven’t decided, but…”

“But I’ve decided. I want you to go. The opportunity might never come around again, and if music is your passion, then you need to take the next step. And if you want me, then I want to be with you…on the cruise ship. It’s time for me to leave Tremont Lodge again—at least for a little while. It will be good for me to take a break. Ted will understand, and Lawson, as much as I hate to admit it, is quite capable of handling things here.”

Finn tucks a lock of my hair behind my ear, puts his hand on the back of my head, and pulls my mouth onto his, the coolness of the night heating up around us. “I take that dare, Reese Prentice. I don’t care where we go, as long as we’re together. I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

“Hey! Look, another shooting star,” says Finn.

“If you’re a good boy, I may let you give me that dare anyway,” I say.

We lie on the ground, tangled in each other, forgetting the problems of our pasts, and focus on the here and now. Because maybe a
focus on the present
is the answer I’ve been missing all along.

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Seventeen-year-old Mae is convinced that the consequences of her poor decisions have caused the untimely deaths of her dad, sister Laura, and grandma who all die within a year, no matter how ludicrous her thoughts seem to those she loves. The solution? Run away so no one else she cares for gets hurt (even if she has to keep a GPS tracker on her phone at all times).
Desperate to earn her diploma and salvage something of her life, she transfers schools when people get too close. After switching to Woodson Prep with only two months to go until graduation, Mae keeps her goals in sight. But when she meets Ty, the "perfect boy" with his own secrets and a relentless interest in Mae, she must decide if she can stop running from the past and still protect those she loves.

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Chapter 1:

To know me is to die. I mean, to
really
know me, like when you know I can run for hours without so much as a water break, or that cinnamon sugar doughnuts are my weakness, or that my dad gave me a whole different name. But I don’t let people get that close. I’ve learned the hard way. Too many people die in my life. Grandma said I was only unlucky.

“It’s not your fault all those people you love die. It’s just bad luck that you’ve had to deal with grief so young. Not fair at all,” she’d said. That was right before she died on my seventeenth birthday and right after my sister Laura, my dad, and my dog Petie.

I direct Mom Number 4 toward the front door of the high school. I always get a new mom when I transfer schools. I have yet to find a school that allows a seventeen-year-old to register herself. I wanted to graduate in Ohio, but too many people started asking questions. They weren’t important questions. Just stuff like, “How come I can’t ever come over to your house?” or “Why won’t you ever talk about yourself?” or when I do, “That’s not what you told so-and-so.” I had to leave. To let people into my life isn’t an option anymore. But, there’re no worries anyone will start to ask questions here. It’s already March. That diploma is as good as mine. Then I can enroll in online college and try to salvage something of my pathetic life.

Mom 4 is a crackhead. It’s not the first time I’ve had a Mom that was a drug addict. They’re easy to find, standing on the street corner pretending not to be desperately looking for someone to give them a fix. They’re agreeable. All they want is my money. I have plenty of that. This Mom seems a little rougher around the edges than most. I had to rouse her from sleep wedged between the 7-11 and an ethnic grocery store downtown. She was curled like a ball using her own body temperature as a blanket. When I shook her a little, she started screaming. “I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry,” as she rocked back and forth. It took her a few minutes to process that I wasn’t the person she was apologizing to. Then she seemed embarrassed, even patting her hair down as if she could make herself look presentable. After a short discussion, neutral-colored concealer for the spots on her face, a brush through her hair, and a spritz of cheap cologne, Mom 4 was transformed. Right now she shakes as she reaches for the buzzer that will admit us to Woodson Prep School. I imagine she’ll get more drugs as soon as I’ve paid her.

“Wait!” I say before she pushes the button. “Take a deep breath. Remember the plan. You’ll be fine.” I look straight in her eyes. “Your name is Liza Tatum. I’m your daughter. My name is Mae. I’m a senior, straight-A student. I need to be put on the college track. Okay? That’s very important.” She shakes her head
yes
. Her eyes scream: “I’m high.” Damn. I should have bought eyedrops. “We moved to Illinois from Ohio. You have all my records right here.” I shove a folder with my transfer records into her hands. I know I could purchase a diploma on the internet. For the right amount of money anything can be bought, but it’s important to me to earn this diploma on my own merits. “Now smile.” She does, only to reveal a mouth with a missing front tooth and stained teeth. “Maybe you should smile with your mouth closed.” She nods. I push the buzzer.

Down the hall we see who must be the secretary waving us into the office. Her white-gray hair pulled in a tight bun at the nape of her neck and reading glasses on the tip of her nose tell me she’s been around a long time. Most likely she’s been the secretary since the school was built, which according to the imprint on the outside of the building, was 1975.
Woodson Prep Private School.

“Hello. Come right in. You must be Mae. Such a lovely name. I’ve been thinking about you ever since your mom called to talk about registration. I have a sister named Mae. My name is Mildred Baker.” I knew I was careless to blurt out
Mae
when I called last week. I usually choose something common like
Ashley
or
Emily
. When Mrs. Baker asked me my name,
Mae
came spewing out
.

“Please have a seat. I’ll page Principal Williams and take your records.” I hand them to her.

“Welcome to Woodson,” says Principal Williams when he emerges from his office. He’s a thin man with squinty eyes, like one of those people who’s always suspicious, “What brings you to Illinois all the way from Ohio?” he asks Mom 4 as he looks over my records. Her eyes are bulging like she’s been asked to answer a question that if she answers incorrectly will send her to prison.

“My…job. I’m a…lawyer.”

“What kind of law do you practice?” asks the principal.

“The kind that gets crackheads off the street.” She starts laughing like she’s manic. I squeeze Mom 4’s hand to remind her who is paying the bill.

“Can I have my schedule?” I ask before she can say anything else stupid.

“Sure.” Principal Williams studies Mom 4 but doesn’t ask any more questions. He looks over my records again. I’ve taken great care to make sure the classes I take at each school will match up to the classes at my new school. Graduating with an education, not just a piece of paper, is important to me. “Looks like you’ve been in the college track, coming from public schools. Hmmm. You’re moved around a lot, Ms. Tatum.”

“Yes, Sir. Mom’s work, you know?” I point to Mom 4 who smiles with her mouth closed. Thank goodness. A lawyer with missing teeth? I think not. “Everyone in this school is in the college track. That’s the beauty of private schools. We have higher standards than public schools.” He pauses. I shake my head in agreement, though I think that’s a bunch of crap. “We also have higher expectations of the behavior of our students. Though we allow students to enroll without a lengthy screening process which is most obvious by out allowance of students to enter with only two months of school remaining…” This time he stares down Mom 4. “We still expect students to adhere to school rules with no exceptions. Is that understood?”

“Yes, Sir,” I say.

“Mrs. Baker, give Mae our student handbook to take home to look over the electives offerings. Once those are plugged in, we’ll have you all set to start classes. You can begin as early as tomorrow.”

“Thank you. Tomorrow will be perfect. Do you need Mom to sign anything?”

“Yes. Mrs. Baker has some forms. There’s also a student coming to give you a tour.”

“Actually, Mom has an appointment at 1:00, so if she can sign now I can study a map of the school.” I do that all the time I want to add.

Mrs. Baker shows Mom 4 where she needs to sign. The pen shakes in her hand. “Liza Tatum” I whisper in her ear.

“Hey, Mrs. Baker.”

I turn around. A young man with bright blue eyes and hair the color of a surfer’s stands behind me with a grin as wide as the Pacific Ocean.

“Hi, Ty. This is Mae Tatum,” says Mrs. Baker. “Thanks for coming down, but it looks like the tour will have to be rescheduled.”

“No problem,” he says extending his hand to me. I take it. “Nice to meet you, Mae. First hour starts at 8:00, so if you can be here at 7:30, I’ll show you around.”

“Thanks.” I look to the ground. Making eye contact with hot guys is never a good idea. They ask too many questions. Questions lead to knowledge. Knowledge leads to relationships. My relationships lead to death. I don’t care what Grandma said about just having bad luck.

“Oh! Oh! Oh, please,” I hear next to me. Mom 4 is bracing herself on Mrs. Baker’s desk. She’s turning five shades of red. Her hand starts shaking.
“No, no, no,”
she keeps muttering.

“Are you okay, Ma’am?” asks Principal Williams. And then she bolts. I don’t know what to do. So much for blending in.

“Bad sushi,” I add before grabbing the student handbook and running out the door behind her.

I fumble with the keys to unlock the door to my car. As soon as Mom 4 is inside she passes out on the backseat. I hit the gas and accelerate out of the parking lot before anyone else sees us. Sarah was right. Running away wouldn’t be easy. I don’t know what the hell just happened. I could use my best friend to help me figure this out. But putting her life in danger is not an option.

“You’re paranoid,” she’d say. “People don’t die because they know you. Coincidences, really bad coincidences are all. I know it sucks. I know it hurts, but pull yourself together. You are driving everyone away by your crazy talk.” That was the last conversation we ever had. She was right after all. I
was
driving everyone away, and killing some of them, too. I left to protect them.

I pull into the Walmart parking lot, crack the window open, and lock the crazy lady inside. After fifteen minutes I return with Mom 4’s goodie bag. I’m not a heartless daughter. I try to leave the moms with more than my money: comforts like a blanket, slippers, flashlight, and snacks. Mom 4 is still sleeping, so I drive through town and back to the corner I found her on. I look at the dilapidated buildings. Each building has one more broken window than the next, some boarded up with cheap plywood, some with jagged glass, some with pretty flower curtains blowing in the wind showing an owner’s attempt to replicate suburbia despite the poverty that pours from the neighborhood. I wonder what happened to Mom 4 to send her to this hell hole. I know my payment today won’t make a dent in her life. That makes me sad. She looks so peaceful now. I can’t keep her, though. I can’t keep anyone anymore. I open my water bottle to douse her face.

“What the hell?” She bolts upright.

“Look, I don’t know what happened back there, but it’s time to go.”

“I’m sorry, so, so sorry.” She keeps repeating it over and over, but I don’t think she’s talking to me.

“Here’s your money.” I hand over $150 in cash. “Please do yourself some good and use it for food and shelter. You deserve more than this street corner.” I hand her the bag, too. She clings to me like a child that’s been frightened by a bad dream. I don’t mind, though. It reminds me of Mom’s hugs.

Chapter 2:

I drive back to my two bedroom apartment. It has everything I need: a couch, a kitchen, a shower, and a toilet. I bought the couch and a coffee table at a garage sale when I drove into town last week. The old guy who sold it to me took pity on me when he saw my small Toyota Camry and drove the furniture to my new apartment. I don’t live in seedy downtown, but it’s not exactly suburban living, either. It’s the kind of neighborhood where no one asks questions about a young girl securing a month-by-month rent on her own, over the phone no less. All the landlord wants is the rent paid on time. I’ll keep them out of my business by paying them early. I don’t know too many seventeen-year-old girls who could live alone. But a lot of eighteen-year-olds do it, so why not one year younger? I don’t have a choice. It is what it is. Such is life.

I lay on the couch that acts as my bed to look over the school handbook. There are only 200 kids in the whole high school. Maybe I should have chosen a larger school, but I wanted to be within an hour of home this time but not so close Mom will know I’m here. That’s one reason I chose a private school, less chance of running into kids that may know me from track or cross country meets. Other than electives, most of the kids in my first period English class are going to follow me from class to class. When the same group of kids shuffle through the hallways to lockers and back to the same classroom, there’s a lot more opportunity to get to know people. And this is something I definitely don’t want to do. When I decided to run away at the end of my junior year, I vowed I’d never let anyone get close to me again.

I look over my choice of electives: band, chorus, fitness, wood shop, home economics.
I choose fitness and chorus. Dad used to say when I started singing that the angels stopped what they were doing to take notes. Now Dad’s my angel. I killed him. I didn’t
literally
kill him, but I might as well have. That’s what guilt does to you. He and Mom used to fight all the time…about me and what I did. They couldn’t agree on how to handle the situation. So one day Dad just moved out. Mom was pissed.

“So that’s what you do when things get tough? You leave. Nice example you’re setting for your girls,” I remember her screaming at Dad’s truck as it backed out of our driveway. But at night I could hear her crying through the bedroom wall. I knew how sad she was that Dad was gone. And if I hadn’t done it, if I’d made a different choice…none of this would have happened. Two weeks later I was helping Dad hang curtains in his new apartment when he lost his balance on the ladder and fell through the glass kitchen table underneath him. He didn’t die right away, but after being in a coma for a week with a head injury, Mom pulled the plug. He died in about forty-five minutes. It was all my fault.