Let Me Just Say This (18 page)

“I am not! You hit her and you know it. She cries to me all the time, how miserable she is, how you don't love her, how she didn't know what to do.”

The security guard walked up to them.

“Ma'am you will have to quiet down.”

“Kevin, is what she said true?” Mr. Bookman asked.

“No sir. We have problems like anyone else and we argue, but nothing major. Look our concern needs to be Cheryl, not what some lonely woman with no friends has to say.” He directed his comments towards Dee.

Mrs. Bookman came and hugged him. “It will be ok, she will be just fine.”

The nurse came and said something to Kevin and while the nurse rushed towards the back, Kevin took his time.

He walked into her room and saw the tubes running from her face. The monitors were beeping in time with each other and there was a huge bump on her forehead that now looked purple and red.

“Make sure you do whatever you have to,” Kevin said. He walked back out and saw all of the faces of her family and friends. He walked past them and straight out the doors.

Dee was on her way back in when she saw him leaving. She walked up to him.

“You lying son-of-a-bitch! You know damn well you are the cause of her being here. She couldn't stand to be near you any longer. She did what she thought she had to do. If she dies, it will be you that I blame.”

Kevin grabbed her by the arm. “Keep your stupid thoughts to your damn self. No one cares what you think. You are supposed to be her friend, and here you are not even asking me if she is ok. You are nothing more than a two bit tramp, who doesn't want to see anyone happy. Cheryl's thoughts are screwed because of you, not me. Putting in her head all of that crazy shit!”

“I am her friend. You couldn't even have a conversation
with her unless you were putting her down, calling her names. You don't even know that I know what you called her. A rag-a-muffin, is the term I believed you used. So you just might want to take your goddamn hands off of me before I have your ass arrested!”

Kevin came back into the hospital and he along with the rest of the family waited for nearly four hours until the doctor finally came out.

“Cheryl is waking up now. She will be groggy but she should be fine.”

The doctor pulled Kevin aside.

“We will need to address the suicide issue with her when she wakes up. I recommend that she seek treatment before she leaves.”

“Thanks doctor, but I am not worried about that right now. I will think about that when she is fully awake.” Kevin walked back to Kayla, Donnell and her parents.

Dee snuck in and sat beside Cheryl.

She began to talk, “Girl, I am here. Don't scare me like that no more. I am going to kick your butt when you wake up. Don't do this again boo; you know I am always here for you. I love you like my own sister, what would I do without you in my life? You know a lot of shit about me and who would keep me straight when I go crazy? You are such a hussy.” She said through laughter and tears. “You just wanted someone to pamper you, didn't you? You know you can come home with me, just don't leave me Cheryl. You all I got girl. I know I'm being selfish, but please don't leave me. Girl, just get better, you got me in your corner. Don't worry, I'm not leaving.”

Kevin walked in and told her to leave.

Mr. and Mrs. Bookman were just walking in as Dee said, “Well, I'm sure her family wants to visit with her too.”

Mr. Bookman commented, “She looks so peaceful.” He said as he stroked her forehead and kissed her softly.

After five days, Cheryl was released and the kids had rearranged her room and pulled the covers on her bed back for her. Kevin was spending less and less time at home. He didn't bother to pretend anymore. The only time he went to their room was when he was drunk. When Cheryl first got home he was drunk and without asking, crawled into bed early one morning and had sex with her, then got up and walked out. Cheryl wondered if that was supposed to make her feel better, because it did just the opposite. She supposed the girlfriend must have been on her period or something. Why else would he even sleep with her?

A nurse that Kevin decided to hire came by every day to check on her and told him that her mood was declining. The nurse said she would have to let the doctor know. Nurse Vint came by one day and brought the doctor with her. Cheryl had been crying off and on for the past three days and the nurse was alarmed by it.

“Cheryl, what's wrong today?” he asked.

“I don't want to be here.”

“Ok, where would you like to be?”

“Not here.”

“Anywhere in particular you want to go?”

“Just not here. I can't even sleep anymore.”

“When was the last time you had a good night's sleep?”

“About a week ago. I'm just tired.” She said as she
rubbed her eyes.

“I bet you are. Would you like to have something to help you sleep?”

“Only if it makes me sleep forever.”

“Forever?”

She didn't say another word. Instead she hung her head and stared at the bedcovers. She heard the doctor tell Kevin that she was suicidal and needed to get some help. She heard Kevin's voice. “What in the hell is wrong with her now?” he said as he stormed into the bedroom.

“There is no need to be hostile.” The doctor said from behind him. “I think we should talk outside. They both walked back into the hallway. The door closed and the conversation continued to move away from her bedroom. Minutes had passed when suddenly the door flew open and Kevin approached her bed. Not waiting for someone to ask, he started talking.

“Look you need to get your ass together. This is some bullshit and you know it. I am not going to keep feeding into this shit, do you hear me?”

She began talking, to no one in particular, just talking; “I feel so lost. I feel so alone. I'm unhappy, and no one understands the pain I am in. It's like….like my soul is gone. My heart hurts and there is no sun or even the hope of sun. Everything is just so dark, I can't take it anymore.”

She hung her head and cried.

The doctor came to her bedside and took her hand, “As you can see, she is extremely distraught. She is very suicidal and we need to get her to sign herself into the hospital.”

Kevin got more attitude. “She doesn't need to be in any hospital. She needs to be home with her family.”

The doctor pulled Kevin to him. “Mr. Goldman, you can see she is in no shape ….”

Kevin cut him off and kneeled down beside her. “You hear them? They want you to sign yourself into a hospital. What about the kids, what about me? You don't really want to do that do you?”

She didn't look up. She let the tears continue to fall.

The doctor spoke up. “Cheryl we want you to get the help you need. You can come with me and talk to someone who will listen and hear what it is you need to say. Do you want to come with me and do that?”

She nodded her head yes.

“Cheryl, you have got to be kidding me.” Kevin half-laughed. “You can rest right here and I'll send somebody over to listen to whatever it is you want to say. How can you even think about doing this to me?”

“Mr. Goldman, we will need for you to sign…”

“Like hell I will! All she needs is rest.”

“What she needs is help. If you don't sign her in, she could very well succeed in taking her life the next time.”

“Well then I guess if she does that it was meant to be, now aint it doc?”

The doctor pressed on, “Mr. Goldman, can you guarantee me that she won't?”

“Ask her yourself,” he shouted. “Cheryl, you won't try this again will you? What about me and the kids?”

She shrugged her shoulders.

The doctor spoke up again. “We need your 100% guarantee that this won't happen again. Can you give us that? If not I can sign her in under an emergency hold for at least 72 hours.”

Cheryl shrugged her shoulders again.

“I think it is in her best interest to be admitted.” The doctor said.

“Cheryl, don't let them do this. I will get someone to take care of you.”

She covered her face and cried harder.

“Look doctor, I need to speak to you,” Kevin said as he yanked the door open and the doctor followed behind him.

“Who in the hell do you think you are! I know what is in her best interest, not you! How dare you tell my wife that she needs to be in some damn hospital?”

“I did no such thing,” he said calmly.

“You have her believing she needs to be there. She needs to be home with her kids.”

“Sir, she needs to be where she can't be a threat to herself.”

“She won't be.”

“Can you be so sure, she isn't?”

“That's because she is confused. She will be fine. I will hire someone to look after her.”

“No offense, I am sure you mean well, but you are not equipped to handle…”

“What the fuck you trying to say?”

“Kevin is there a problem?” Unannounced, Cheryl's mom had arrived.

“Mrs. Bookman, they say she is a threat to herself and want to take her to the hospital.”

“Oh, that won't be necessary. We can take care of her. Where is she, I will talk to her.”

The doctor had a look of exasperation on his face.

“Of course we will need you to sign a release; releasing me from liability in case something was to happen.”

“No problem, where are the papers?” Kevin asked. The doctor went to his car and came back with papers in his hand. He placed them on the table behind the sofa. Kevin went over and signed the papers while the doctor looked on. He picked up the phone and called the agency that he had hired right after Cheryl had the kids.

“Yes, I will need someone for at least a couple of weeks. My wife is recovering and I don't want to leave her alone. If they could be available 24 hours a day, that would be appreciated. Not a problem. Tonight if at all possible. Thank you.” He hung up and called Rebecca. “I need to see you.” He went upstairs and looked in on Cheryl; who was sleeping and Mrs. Bookman was in the chair looking at her.

“All she needs is some rest Kevin,” she said.

“That ain't all she needs. I need to run out. Do you need anything?”

“No, take your time, I will be fine.”

“Thanks mama, there is food in the fridge, and anything else you might need; well, you know where it is. I'll be back in a little while.”

“Take your time.”

Kevin walked downstairs and saw a brown Toyota stop in front of the house. The nurse was approaching the house.

“Mama, the nurse is here,” He called upstairs before going out to meet her. He told her what he wanted her to do. They agreed on the payment and he told her that his mother-in-law was upstairs and he would be gone for a while.

He drove over to Rebecca's house and as soon as the door opened he began his tirade.

“How could she do this? Does she know how this makes me look? A man in my position?”

“Really Kevin?” she questioned.

“I am pretty sure everyone knows we sleep in separate bedrooms. Now her family knows I want a divorce. She is doing all of this so that I can't leave her ass. Don't you see? This is a plan of hers. How could I walk out on her now?”

“Let me ask you something Kevin. Do you love her?”

“No.”

“Not even a little bit?”

“Fuck no! I love one person and that one person is standing in front of me. I want you to be my wife. That's why I gave you this ring. Now it seems like I can't leave her now, how would that look? “

Rebecca took a deep breath before she spoke, “I don't want you to do anything that makes you unhappy. I am here for you. I knew you were married when we first started our relationship three years ago. I know that you love me because of this ring. You need to do what is right to make her stronger and do what is right for everyone.”

“See, this is exactly why I love you.” He said while pulling her close.

“Baby I love you too,” she said.

“Rebecca, I need you.”

She pushed him back against the sofa and sat on his lap. She slowly unbuttoned his shirt and began to kiss and suck his nipples.

“Baby, you are making me hard,” he moaned.

She continued the assault on his most sensitive area. She moved her hips slightly, just to feel his manhood grow harder.

“You want this Kevin?” she purred.

He could only nod his head; as words escaped him at the moment. She stood before him and while she pulled his pants down, she undressed in front of him. Her breasts fell from her lace bra, and she cupped them in her hands. He had his member in his hand. She turned around and bent down, stepping out of her panties. Her juices were running down her leg. He pulled her down on him.

“Ohhhh” she said as his hard penis entered her. “Let me do all the work” she said.

She rode him like a prized horse at the show. She worked her body slow then faster, faster then slower. He loved every minute of this. She threw her head back and he pushed himself into her further. His hands covered her breasts.

“Oh yes!” she screamed out.

“You like it rough, don't you.”

“Yes!”

“You want it harder?”

“Mmm-hmmm.”

“Tell me!”

“Yes Kevin. Fuck me harder! Fuck me baby!”

“That's right. You want all of this don't you?” He pushed his hips up into her. Her hips met his.

“Yes.” He rose up and turned her over. “I want you from behind. Give it to me,” He said while slapping her ass. He pushed back into her while grabbing her hair.

“Whose is it?”

“Yours!”

“Say my name!”

“It's yours Kevin!”

“Do you want more?”

“Yes!” she cried out. He withdrew from her quickly and plunged into the forbidden zone.