Just Make Him Beautiful (8 page)

“Regardless of that, all I know is,
she
hasn’t given
me
any
pussy since then
,
and a brotha got needs
.
S
hit!” He grabb
ed
his dick.

I don’t know if that was an invitation for me to say something or what. The only thing Ray ha
d
allowed me to do
wa
s jerk him off
,
and
I don’t
even
know if he had ever thought about sticking his dick in me.
I kn
e
w he like
d
the way my butt look
ed
because sometimes when I jerk
ed
him off, he
would
ask me to take my pants off
,
so he can see my butt while I jerk
ed
him off.

“Yo
,
b
aby
boy,” Ray whispered.

“Huh
?
”

“You ever fucked a girl before?” he asked in a genuine tone.

“
Ewww, n
o
.
”
I frowned my face up. Just the thought alone, I felt like throwing up.

“Ah
,
b
aby
boy, you don’t know what you missing
,
y
o
,” he replied
,
still pulling on himself. “Dayum, I’m horny as
a
muthafucka.”

I really wanted to feel what it felt like to have a dick in me. Although a part of me was scared
,
another part of me wanted to experience what Robin ha
d
been telling me
about
.
You see,
Robin lost her virginity when she was twelve
,
and she
made
it s
ound like the best feeling you
could
ever have.
I felt n
ow was my chance and wasn’t about to blow
it
. 

I climb
ed
down off the bed and started taking all my clothes off while my back was facing Ray.
As I pulled my drawers down, I bent all the way down to my ankles so
he
could get a better look between the crack of my virgin ass.
He had his eyes close
d,
but I knew he was still awake because
,
as I looked over my shoulder,
his eyelids were fluttering and
he
began
to masturbate.

“Hey
,
Ray,” I whispered.

Ray stopped playing with himself
.
It was
as though he
’d
fallen
a
sleep
,
but something told me he was playing possum
because no one
could
fall to sleep that fast
.

“Hey
,
Ray,” I whispered again.

Ray moaned and open
ed
his legs wide, allowing the covers to fall f
a
rther down his torso
.
  I
saw
his swollen dick laying against his leg.
I looked over on the dresser to see what I could use so my butt wouldn’t be so dry once I tr
ied
to stick
his
dick up in me
.
H
opefully it wouldn’t hurt as bad. Robin told me that once I decide
d
to let a brotha up in me, make sure they ha
d
some Vaseline and a condom.
I knew Ray had some condoms
,
but I didn’t know where they were
.
  I really didn’t care because it
wasn’t
like he could get me pregnant
,
and I wasn’t worried about no d
isease
s
,
this be
ing
my first time.

I grabbed the petroleum jelly jar off the dresser and sat it on the floor next to our bunk bed. I climbed in between Ray’s legs and pulled the cover all the way off. I kneeled the
re
looking at his beautiful piece of wood throbbing and moving on its own. I reached and grabbed his hard penis and began to slowly move my hand up and down his shaft.

Ray beg
an
to moan and squirm like he always did.

After a minute or so of playing with
his penis
in my hand, I lean
ed
down and placed the tip of his penis in my mouth. As soon as he entered my mouth, his body started to jerk. I knew he was enjoying it
.
I didn’t want him to
c
um
,
so I took him out of my mouth.

Once his jerking and breathing had calmed down, I took him in my mouth and this time,
I let it go in
as far as I could without choking. It was amazing how warm his dick felt in my mouth as I proceeded to go up and down on his manhood.

S
uddenly, I began to taste this salty substance coming from him. I knew that was pre-c
um
,
based upon what Robin had told me about her first experience in sucking a dick. And as much as I enjoyed sucking my brother
off
, my jaws were beginning
to hurt.
Besides, give me a break
…
this was my first time sucking a dick.

I
then pulled
him out of my mouth and began to masturbate him as I leaned over and took a big glob of petroleum jelly and put it up in and around my butt hole. Ray lay there very quietly
,
but again, I knew he was awake because when I had him in my mouth, I
had
looked up at him and caught him looking down at me. He then closed his eyes shut real fast
,
and probably thought I didn’t see him.

Once I was sure I had enough petroleum jelly up in my ass, I straddled Ray and slowly began to sit down on him as I guided his dick up in my ass. I barely got the head in and I could feel
the pain
,
but I closed my eyes tight, gri
t
my teeth
,
and sat all the way down on it. 

T
he pain that shot through me almost caused me to fall out. I
’d
never felt that kinda pain before
.
I thought
getting
banged
in the mouth
by Junior
hurt
,
but
that
didn’t come close. I sat still
,
trying to get the pain to go away
,
or at least that’s what Robin told me
would happen
if I just sat still
on it
.
I also knew I had to relax my ass muscles as much as I could
,
to help decrease the pain.

Several minutes had gone by
,
and
now
the pain I once felt was turning into pleasure. So
,
I slowly began to move up and down
on my brother’s manhood.

“Dayum
,
b
aby
boy
!
W
hat you doing?” he asked
,
like he was just waking up from a deep sleep and didn’t know what was going on.

I whispered as I looked down into his eyes,
“I’m just giving you what you want and need
,
to say thank you for what you did for me today
.
”

“You know this shit ain’t right,
b
aby
boy,” he whispered as he cupped my ass with the palm of his hands and tried to slide himself
up in me as far as his manhood would go.

“You like the way it feels
,
Ray?” I whispered.

“This ain’t right
,
b
aby
boy
,
”
he whispered back
,
still grinding on my ass.

“That’s not what I asked you
,
Ray
,”
I whispered
.
  I tightened
my ass cheeks on his manhood.
“I asked you if it felt good.”

“Dayum
,
b
aby
boy
!
Y
eah,
you feel real good
,
b
aby
boy
,
f
a
real
.
” Ray
looked like he was
trying to control
his urge
to c
um
.

I always knew when Ray was about to
c
um
.
H
is body would squirm
,
and then he
would
take short breaths
,
and then his body would start jerking
,
and
within seconds
he would squirt his
nut
. 

“You ready to nut
,
big brotha?” I asked
,
moving up and down on him at a faster pace.

Before Ray could even respond, his body began to squirm
,
and then he started tak
ing
deep breaths
,
and just like that, he squirted his nut
all
in me
.

I watched the ecstasy on his face
a
s I
t
hr
ew
my head back and felt the ecstasy of having
him
nut in me
.

I began stroking myself the way I
’d
stroked Ray
,
and I too climaxed
for the very first time.
I can’t begin to explain how amazing that felt and what an impression it left on me at such a young age.

*

The
weeks had flown by
.
I wanted to be around my big brother every second of the day.
Chile
, I was so sprung
,
I hadn’t spent any time with my best friend Robin
.
Every time she call
ed
, I g
a
ve her the same excuse of being
o
n
punish
ment
and not being able to come out.
Truth of the matter was
,
I was hanging around Ray
whenever
he allow
ed it
. You see, Ray didn’t mind me being around because he liked dicking me down.

He even brought me several pairs of female panties to wear, all in different colors
.
B
lue, red, black, yellow, white
…
you name it,
I
had it.
His favorite color was the yellow panties because I was so light
-
skin
ned
.
H
e liked the contrast of the yellow panties against my skin. When we were home alone, he would ask me to put them on and put on a fashion show for him. I really enjoyed that because I would play my Patti Labelle CD and
“
cat
-
walk
”
from one side of our bedroom to the other
.

Ray would lie on his bunk and play with himself until I tried on every pair
,
and then
h
e
would lean me up
against the wall
,
slide the panties to one side
, h
awk
and
spit right in the crack of my ass
,
and then stick his manhood up in me.