Highland Secrets (English Edition) (20 page)

“What are you doing here?
”, I croaked and swallowed the huge lump that blocked my throat.

Adam
came towards me. He looked disgruntled. Instead of greeting me, he lowered himself down towards me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. His manly odor hit me and seemed to warm up my entire body. I took a step back nervously to move away from him as he was disconcertingly close to me.

“I have to talk to you.” There was something about the
grumpy way in which he said it that made me feel insecure. I rummaged about in my handbag for the key and put it in the lock.

“Your car is in a no-parking zone”, I informed him.

“I know.” As he didn’t show any sign of leaving, I assumed that he wouldn’t care if it was towed away. I shrugged my shoulders and opened the door and let him step past me into the house.

As I was now not alone, I even dared to empty my mailbox. Otherwise, I was always worried that it might contain something similar to the parcel Molly had sent me. However, aside from the electricity bill, the telephone bill and what was most probably a letter of
rejection from the National Portrait Gallery of Scotland in Edinburgh who I had applied to after I had finished my degree, the mailbox was empty. I left all of the letters sealed and walked in front of Adam and up the stairs to my small apartment.

Even though I had cleaned up, I still worried about what Adam would think about my hom
e. It was a lot more common than Glenoak Hall where he lived. I immediately sent Adam into the living room where he made himself comfortable on my sofa. I had easily had enough space on the tiny piece of furniture when my gran came to visit, but Adam was big and broad-shouldered and almost took up the whole of the two-seater sofa which seemed to make him even more intimidating.

I was intrigued about what he wanted to say to me, because we didn’t necessarily part on amicable terms. Did the police need to speak to me again or did Adam have questions? However, if I still had to make an official statement, then I
would have definitely received a letter. I was also told that they had everything they needed from me. Yet, I wasn’t just intrigued why he came, I was also angry because he had turned up just when my life was getting back on track. And if it wasn’t enough that he had ignored me for a month, my pulse was beating fast, my nipples had immediately become erect upon seeing this man and my stomach was doing somersaults. He hadn’t done anything else but turn up at the front door of the house unexpectedly and arouse a great desire and nervous feeling inside me.

I focused on getting the instant coffee into the filter and operating the coffee machine correctly. My hands we
re shaking as I did this because I was all too aware of Adam’s presence. I couldn’t allow him to cast his spell over me again.

“So, what are you doing here?
”, I asked and I was proud of my controlled and frosty voice. I put the tray with the coffee cups down on the living room table and remained standing in the middle of the room with my cup in my hand. I took a deep breath. Yes, he had a huge presence on the tiny sofa in this small room. Damn it, the gaze that he was giving me gave me a throbbing sensation right between my legs.

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How are you?”, he asked calmly.

“Good, thanks for asking.
Since when has that interested you? I didn’t matter to you up to now.”

Adam
appeared to tense up. “I’m sorry.”

“Yes, I’ve heard that a lot recently.”

“Don’t you want to sit down?”

What and succumb to your erotic attraction when I come near you? “No thanks.”

“You make me nervous when you stand there like that.”

“Then don’t look at me.” At least not like that. His eyes
were staring intensely into mine. He looked pleadingly and desperate. It looked as though he hadn’t had a shave for days, but that made him even more exciting and made me even more angry. However, I couldn’t look away. I didn’t want him to become aware that my body was craving his body again. So I endeavored to stare at him with a look full of hate.

“I wanted to apologize to you. I shouldn’t have just sent you away like that, but I was so confused.”

I snorted angrily. “Tell me about it. I was the one who was kidnapped, tied up and tortured with non-stop porn films.”

“I didn’t mean it like that. I was confused because of my feelings for you.”

“Sorry?”, I said and I almost dropped my cup.

Adam
got up and came towards me. He put his fingers around my upper arms and looked at me wistfully. “What I said to Molly was true. And what I said to my father’s painting”, he added.

I winced upon hearing the name Molly. But wait a second.
Had he just admitted that I did mean something to him?

“I tried to suppress my feelings for you. But the more I tried to do that, the more I longed to be able to touch you. I miss you Linda!”

I pulled myself away from him and moved backwards into the corridor. “And how many female tourists have you said that to in the last month?” My voice was shaking as I said it. Adam MacLeod was actually standing in my living room and was begging me to forgive him because he missed me. I didn’t know what to think. But my heart fluttered in my chest.

“Nobody. I have
never said that to a female tourist. These women meant nothing to me, you know that.”

“But with me it’s different?
”, I emphasized every word sarcastically so that he could hear that I didn’t believe a single word he was saying.

“You have to believe me. I constantly think about you. It fee
ls like I’m being eaten up inside. I have never felt like this. About anybody. It just took me a while to realize it.”

I shook my head frantically
.

Adam MacLeod
couldn’t have feelings like this. Actually, maybe he could have feelings like this, but he would never admit it. He would fight against it until it killed him because he could never trust me.

“Why can’t you trust anybody? Are you scared that I might lie to you exactly like your ex-wife?”
Why can’t I trust anybody? Could I trust Adam? I looked at him and thought about the things he had said and about the fact that he was in London. Did I have any reason to trust him?

“Trust is something that is built up slowly in a relationship. If you asked me if I could trust you enough to be in a relationship with you, the answer would be yes.”

That was an argument that I couldn’t counter, because it was correct. However, he had left me in the lurch when I needed him. I looked at him regretfully. “You just left me in the lurch.”

“I know”, he said. And I’m sorry. I’ve never been good at these things. But maybe you can teach me how to be?”

He came towards me and I retreated again and shook my head even more vigorously. “No. Stay there.”, I said and lifted my hand in defense. “It’s not going to be like that. Did you think that after all the time that has passed that you could just come here, say a few nice words to me and I would throw myself into your arms?”

Adam
moved even closer and this time I couldn’t retreat any further because I was up against the wall. I pushed his chest with both my hands, but he didn’t move. Instead, he gave me this broad grin that always made me feel wet straight away. The sexual energy that was building up between us was really tangible and I cursed my nipples that had become erect longing for his touch.

Yes,
I longed for this man. I wanted to explore every inch of his unbelievably erotic body with my tongue and I wanted him to silence the pulsating throbbing sensation between my legs, but I couldn’t let it happen. And I couldn’t believe him. Why should this man suddenly show genuine interest in a woman and in me of all people?

“That’s exactly what I thought, aye.” The corners of his mouth warped into a mischievous grin.

“I’ve moved on, Adam. You should go now.”

Adam moved away and frowned in anger. “You’ve moved on? What does that mean?”

“It means that there’s another man.”

He clenched his fists and his eyes displayed a mixture
of disappointment, despair and hate. I pressed my back closer to the wall. “I don’t believe you.” He sounded almost menacing.

“His name is Tom and we work together”, I interjected in my defense. He didn’t need to know that Tom and I had just
arranged to meet for a first date. But I had to somehow get rid of Adam. The fear I had that he would disappoint me again was too great. However, telling a lie had never felt as bad as it did now. I was struggling to make a decision, because I would have loved to snuggle up to Adam and just enjoy what little he could offer me, but the fear I had was stronger.

Adam
moved another step towards me. He gazed at me with ice-cold fury that made me shudder and a burning desire that made me tremble with lust. He laid both his hands to the left and right next to my head and held me captive. His warm breath blew into my face and his aftershave enveloped me. I closed my eyes in despair. If I was to succumb to these deep blue eyes, then I would be doomed.

“Adam, please”
, I pleaded quietly.

“Does he arouse the same feelings in you that I do?
”, he asked with a dangerous undertone. His nose stroked across the sensitive skin of my throat and my lower abdomen started to tense up. I could feel the stream of moisture that soaked my panties. Adam had laid his lips on my fiercely pounding pulse. “I can feel your pulse racing when I touch you.” He took my hand and put it on his chest in which his heart was beating so heavily and quickly that I had no other choice but to believe everything he had said. This man really felt something for me.

I let out his name with a last rebelling gasp. “Adam …” I wanted to say: Go! Leave me alone! I am much too afraid of the feelings that you arouse in me. But I couldn’t. I craved this man as much as the air that I breathed. I loved Adam MacLeod. I had felt like this from the moment we met.

Adam’s full soft lips floated over mine. “Does he kiss you like I do? Does he made you quiver and tremble?”

My breathing speeded up and every cell in my body reacted to Adam and what he said. Desire blazed in his
eyes that was no way inferior to the desire in mine. Adam looked at my lips and then at the frenzied raising and lowering of my chest.

“
Linda Sands, I can’t live another second without you. I have never been so certain as I am now. I love you”, he whispered hoarsely with excitement.

My knees gave way and Adam caught me. I was lost. My resistance had been completely broken. “Come on, kiss me you idiot”, I whimpered and put my arms around his neck.

I didn’t have to tell Adam twice. He pressed his mouth against mine with great passion. He gave me a firm and proper kiss and triggered what felt like an inferno in me. Our tongues danced an erotic tango. The taste of Adam clouded my senses and I moaned. Adam detached himself from me with a quiet sigh. Drops of sweat had formed on his forehead.

“Darling, it’s not going to be gentle. I hope that’s alright, but I can barely control myself.” With these words, he pulled my blouse over my head
and opened my bra. When his eyes fell upon my breasts, Adam let out a tormented groan. “My God, I totally forgot how unbelievably hot your breasts are.”

“I’m disappointed”, I gasped and stretched my heavy tender breasts out to him. “How can you forget them?”

“It could have only happened because I was constantly thinking about your incredible lips.” He kissed me and nibbled on my lower lip.

I pulled his shirt over his head and started to take his belt off. “So it was my lips.”

“I must admit”, he gasped and pushed me in the direction of the open bedroom door, “it was the reddish gold locks that you’re hiding underneath this skirt. He impatiently tore at the zip on my pencil skirt. I took off my skirt and cried out alarmed as he threw me roughly onto my bed.

“Nice bedroom by the way”, he said incidentally.

“You didn’t even look at it.”

“That’s true”, he said laughing and took off his jeans. “Enough small talk.”

Adam also tore my panties from my hips and carelessly threw them away. I inhaled the fresh air that whizzed past my wet private parts. Adam’s eyes darkened at the sight of me lying naked in front of him. “I’m in heaven.”

I couldn’t stop giggling and I pulled him down towards me by his shoulders. We had a
good long kiss and each kiss stirred up the desire between us even more. My hands stroked his muscular shoulders expectantly, went down to his back and kneaded his firm backside. I lifted my hips towards his and pressed my throbbing private parts against Adam’s shaft. “Do you Scots never wear underwear?”

“Never”, Adam growled
mysteriously. He kissed down my warm neck, stopped for a moment at the top of my breasts and then licked the sweating skin between my bosoms. I reared myself up towards his caresses. He kneaded my breasts with his hands. He then rubbed the hard tips with his thums and pressed them together softly. A sweet pain spread to the rest of my body and hit my lower abdomen which lifted up all by itself and pressed against Adam’s erect penis.

“Girl, you make me crazy”, he moaned. He took one of my nipples deep in his moist mouth and sucked so hard on it that I felt a tingling sensation shoot through my body and my clitoris
twitched. Adam’s pelvis picked up the rhythm in which I was rubbing myself against him and stimulated my pleasure pearl even more.