Heart Two Heart (5 page)

My cold energy when mixed with fear and pain
changes to an extremely unique scent that excites and pleases the
skinwalkers similar to what catnip does to cats. Pau looked over at
Waylon again and realised he was enjoying my energy more than he
was comfortable with. Then he looked at my face and decided that
soon, very soon I would be taking a severe nose dive into
crazy.

In an effort to avoid an even more
uncomfortable situation Pau cleared his throat and suggested that
he and I take a walk alone. I agreed and we headed outside to walk
the Vegas strip. Initially we walked in silence while I pulled my
tattered and crazy mind together. I was having a hard time focusing
of late and was beginning to believe that my time on earth was just
about over. When I felt in control I finally turned and looked at
Pau and said

“I know that you think you were helping. I
know you can tell that I am unraveling quickly and will probably
lose myself sooner rather than later. As strange as it is, in some
ways you are like a brother to me. Me born a chupacabra and you
born a skinwalker. Natural enemies. Yet, we found peace and
acceptance in our shared suffering. But you must understand it’s
too late even for my eternal heart to pull me back from the banks
of insanity. I’ve gone too long with my heart screaming for him
only to go unanswered, You know as well as I do that the only end
for me is a final ending. There can be no happily ever after.
Without an end, I will become that which we all hate and I’ve been
falsely accused of being most of my adult life a camazotz.”

I watched as Pau searched my face wanting to
believe my words were a lie. Then I saw the resignation and truth
of my words reflected back at me. I could tell that he started to
realize that I was right, that I’d been left to suffer without my
eternal heart for too long and that now there was no turning back.
Someone preferably Pau or Gaho was going to have to put me out of
my misery and save the world from what would happen once I
completely snapped.

I’d come to this meeting tonight with one
goal in mind. It hadn’t been to punish or shake my finger at Pau’s
bad attempts at being cupid. It had been to convince him that I was
becoming dangerous to myself and to the human and skinwalker
populations of the world. My mind was coming apart and it was
precariously white knuckle hanging on to the last bit of sanity. It
was no longer an “IF” I went off the deep end scenario it was a
“WHEN”. With that in mind I said to Pau

“Pau, if you have ever loved me as a friend,
you need to be the one to send me to the next plane. My survival
instincts will never allow me to do this on my own. Please Pau
consider what will happen if you allow me to walk away tonight.
Think of your loved ones and the threat I will pose to them WHEN I
go off the deep end.”

I watched his sharp mind process my words and
knew that while it caused him severe pain to admit the truth he
knew that I was right. He knew that my heart was damaged beyond
repair and that the kind and humane thing to do was to help me to
move out of this life and into the next. I saw his head droop down
and his eyes filled with moisture as he said

“I love you Taini. I haven’t said it too many
times to your face but you are not like a sister to me, you are my
sister. I will do this for you because I hate to see the pain your
heart is in. I only wish I’d done something before it was too late.
”

He reached into his pocket and pulled out a
map and a red pen. He placed the map on the top of a taxi and used
the red pen to circle in a location on the map. He folded the map
back up and placed the pen back in his pocket before turning to me
and saying

“I will do it because I love you. I am going
to have to borrow a Samurai sword from a friend who lives in Los
Angeles. I can fly there and run back in no time at all. Meet me at
that location at exactly sunrise and I will give you a painless way
into your next lifetime.”

Then to my surprise Pau pulled me in closely
for a warm embrace.

I was still tossing and turning around in bed
when I heard someone pounding on my door. I pulled it open prepared
to see a very angry Seraphina and was shocked when instead my mum
and pop stood on the other side.

Based on the sour look on my mum’s face I’d
to assume that she had already talked to Seraphina and didn't agree
with my choice. I looked over at my pop and could tell that he was
being very careful to keep his feelings to himself, which was not
an easy task. I pulled the door completely open and motioned for my
mum and pop to come in then I said in a my best formal voice

"Mother, father do come in"

Then dramatically swept my hand behind them
as they stepped over door threshold. Mum stepped in first, and
immediately went to sit in the armchair in the seating area of the
suite. Pop followed but instead of sitting he stood behind mum. I
could tell that my mum was holding her tongue and was just waiting
until she had my full attention before starting her rant at me. I
followed behind my pop and took the seat opposite of my mum. The
minute we were all settled in mum clucked her tongue then got down
to business

"Ulric, you absolutely cannot even consider
spending a single moment of your precious life with that selfish
evil woman. Your father and I discussed this at length and we
forbid you from seeing her."

I heard my mum’s words but was confused by
her meaning. How did she know who my eternal heart was? Why in
god’s name would she want me to stay away from her? My face
scrunched in confusion and I asked her

"What are you talking about? How did you hear
about my eternal heart and why would you try to keep me away from
her? She may be my only chance at love."

I watched as my mother looked over her
shoulder at my pop then who looked perplexed then she said

"Ulric, your eternal heart is Taini the
camazotz. It has always been her and always will be. She is the
woman that ripped you from my womb and kidnapped you. She nearly
got you killed in the process. She's clinically insane and Pau and
Waylon should have never helped her survive the skinwalker
attack."

My mum’s words only served to confuse me
more. She knew… both of them knew… they knew my eternal heart
survived but they allowed me to grow up thinking that I’d lost my
chance at true happiness and love. They called her selfish but what
of their behavior. I was angry and I couldn't stop the growl from
erupting from my chest. I looked into my mother’s eyes and I said
more forcefully than I intended to

"Mother, you have no right to choose my
life's path. How dare you condemn me to a life of meaningless
motions? Before I saw my eternal heart yesterday I felt like the
world had a film over it that I was forced to see everything
through.

I don't care who she was or what she did. She
is my eternal heart and I deserve the chance to decide on my own to
accept or reject her. I hate that you tried to take the decision
away from me.

Go home! Both of you and take Seraphina with
you. I have to figure this out on my own and I sure as hell won't
put up with any of you interfering."

I stood up and quickly moved to hotel door. I
looked back and pop was clearly trying to help my mum to her feet.
It looked like she wanted to say something but pop was cautioning
her against it. They walked in silence towards the door. Mum
stepped out first, pop asked mum to go over to Seraphina's room and
told her he would be there in a few minutes. The moment mum was out
of sight pop dropped his defenses and said

"Gaho and Pau have known Taini many years.
They both swear that she never wanted to be evil. The war and the
horrors she lived through changed her and things just got away from
her. She suffered terribly at the hands of the Nazi’s and the
skinwalkers they controlled. She never really managed to heal.
Don't judge her or your mother too harshly.

They both have their reasons for not liking
each other. For what it's worth, you have my blessing and approval
with whatever you choose. I would never have wanted to live without
your mother. I can't imagine the choice you have in front of
you.

I love you Ulric and so does your mother.
We'll be here for you when you need us. Promise you will call us
despite your mum’s hasty words"

He paused long enough for me to nod my head
before continuing.

"Find Pau. He will know how to put you in
contact with Taini. Don't waste much more time before you do. Your
mother was right about one thing. Taini is nuts and always has been
but soon it will go well beyond that. They call her a camazotz but
Pau and Gaho assure me she has not yet become one. That however is
only a matter of time.

You need to understand something. See, when a
chupacabra’s life essence calls for its eternal heart and doesn't
get a response it believes it is being rejected. Rejection after a
while takes its toll on a chupacabra’s heart and can drive them
completely and irreparably insane.

Trust me when I say that Taini heart has
waited far too long for yours. Chances are she is in significant
mental and physical pain. Not to mention that now that she knows
you are aware of her existence and have still not touched her heart
she will go rapidly downhill."

Then my pop leaned in hugged me and placed a
kiss on my forehead before he turned and went down the hallway
towards Seraphina's room. I watched as he knocked. I closed my door
and grabbed my cell to call Pau. Pau answered on the first ring. I
didn't want to waste time on pleasantries so I said

"Pau, I just spoke with my pop and he said
you know where she is. You need to tell me. Please Pau. You know
Taini is my eternal heart and I know you and Waylon saved her."

I waited for Pau to answer me but he remained
silent. I could feel my temper rising and I was becoming desperate
to hear his response. Just as I was about to scream into the phone
he said

"Easy Ulric. I was never going to keep her
from you. Open the desk drawer next to the bed. Do you see the
folded map?"

I pulled open the door and saw a piece of
paper folded in fours. I opened the paper and saw it was a map of
the desert. I looked at the map and saw both a red and green circle
so I said

"I have it. What do you want me to do with
it?"

He cleared his throat and said

"Be at the red circle at least an hour before
sunrise. Taini will show up before sunrise. Grab her and do
whatever is necessary to get her to the green circle. Then just
keep her there until sunset. Waylon and I will join you tomorrow
night."

Then before I could even ask a single
question he hung up. I tried to call him back several times but
just go his voice mail. I looked at the clock and realised I’d less
than four hours until sunrise so I decided to shower, shave and
pack a bag of necessities. When I was finished I stepped out of the
hotel room and quickly fed before taking off into the desert.

I had the phone pressed tightly up against my
ear hoping to hear my son’s voice. My eternal heart was sitting in
my lap but was sleeping since she had cried herself into a fitful
sleep. When the phone first rung I’d expected it to be one of my
tribe saying they found my son. I’d felt my heart drop into my
stomach when the voice on the phone said they had my son and that
if I ever wanted to see him alive I would need to kill the
camazotz.

I’d tried to reason with the female on the
phone and explain that my tribe was a small peaceful tribe and that
we were incapable of fighting the camazotz. The kidnapper said she
didn't care, then she did something that made my son cry out in
pain. My body instinctively grew hard and angry. I felt my grizzly
bear push forward and try to take control. My eternal heart awoke
in my lap just in time to hear me growl out

"You son of a bitch! I'll do it! I promise! I
will grab every able bodied skinwalker in my tribe and we will do
our best to make sure the camazotz dies. Just promise me you will
give me back my son."

I could hear my own heart beating loudly and
my eternal heart was whimpering and looking at me with confusion
written all over her face. Finally the female spoke clearly happy
that I’d agreed

"Wonderful Óscar that was an excellent
decision on your part. I have just texted you a location. She will
be there just before sunrise. There may be a male nagual with her
ignore him if possible.

I am pretty sure you can't kill him but don't
push the issue and try too hard. Just make sure no matter what it
takes or how many skinwalkers die for the cause that before you
leave tomorrow the camazotz dies first.

Oh and bring several very sharp swords so
that you can cut off her head and put it in a box. When you are
done I will give you instructions on where to send it and then I
will give you back your son.

And Óscar, I don't like your little brat so I
suggest you don't try any tricks. Just be sure to kill the
camazotz. If she is still somehow alive tomorrow I will take great
pleasure in killing your son."

I know that it was my idea to ask Pau to do
this for me but no… well, I found myself second guessing that
decision. I was a superior creature and needed to overcome these
issues not wilt and give up like a weakling. I’d never in my life,
taken the easy way out and I realised I wasn't going to now
either.

If there was magic that kept Ulric's heart
from aching there had to be magic that would keep my pain at bay as
well. I made a bunch of calls and had several excellent leads. I
debated on whether or not to let Pau know about my change of heart
but decided he would figure it out when I didn't show up.

I made my final arrangements on the internet
and smiled to myself at my cleverness. Then, I pulled my few paltry
belongings together and went down to the lobby of the hotel and
quietly checked out. I asked the bellhop call a taxi that could
take me to the airport. I was headed to Haiti to see a very good
voodoo priestess. With any luck by this time tomorrow I would have
a new life.