I saw Asia rol her eyes behind Asher’s back and
wondered how far-fetched his plan real y was. It didn’t
sound like Jake’s authority would be questioned any time
soon. Tucker nodded his thanks and took me by the arm,
steering me back through the club. I assumed he knew how
to find the Wasteland and fol owed obediently.
Before we left Club Hex I caught sight of Asher again. He
was at the bar talking to Asia and leaning in close. I saw his
tongue dart into her ear as his hand traveled up her thigh
and guessed what she must have used to barter the
information from him.
It occurred to me how devoid of trust or loyalty this place
was. Everything was built on a foundation of lies and
deception. It was impossible to tel who was working with,
sleeping with, or manipulating whom.
I realized at that moment that even if I lived in luxury as
Jake’s queen, I was never going to survive here.
18
Portal
“YOU should go back,” I said to Tucker as we trudged
through the dingy tunnels. “This was my idea. I shouldn’t
drag you into it. Tel Jake I ditched you and you lost sight of
me. Asia wil back you up.”
Even as I spoke the words I knew it was too late for Tuck
to turn back. If he returned to Hotel Ambrosia without me,
Jake would unleash his fury on him.
He must have known that too, but al he said was “You’re
not goin’ out there alone.”
“I won’t let Jake hurt you,” I told him. “No matter what
happens.”
“Let’s not think about that now.”
Tucker set off ahead of me at a swift pace. I had no
choice but to fol ow.
We didn’t have to go much farther than the club district
We didn’t have to go much farther than the club district
before the terrain started to change dramatical y. The air
became suddenly sultry and the landscape barren as a
desert. It seemed as if al color and life had been sucked
away, leaving nothing but an empty gray husk. Fog swirled
overhead, blotting out whatever it was that passed for sky
down here. We had left the confining tunnels behind, but we
were stil trapped in a strange dimension that had no
beginning or end. The worst part was the ever-present
sound; al around us the air was fil ed with the muffled
wailing of lost and wandering souls. I could feel their
presence as they moved past us, like a ripple of heat in the
already-stifling atmosphere. I couldn’t see them, they were
nothing more than a passing shimmer in the air, but I knew
they were there and nothing could drown out their
preternatural cries. A horrible, suffocating sense of
desolation washed over me, as if my soul were being
tugged from my body. My heart beat faster and I felt an
overwhelming urge to stop. In response Tucker took hold of
my hand and picked up his pace.
“I’m tired, Tuck,” I heard myself say.
“Don’t slow down,” he whispered. “This place has that
effect on people. We have to keep moving.”
The Wasteland didn’t seem to affect Tucker in the same
way. Maybe it was because his time in Hades had lent him
immunity. Or maybe it was because I was an angel and
could sense the acute despair of every soul around me.
“If we linger too long the Trackers have a much better
chance of picking up your scent,” Tucker added.
I’d forgotten al about them. I knew as an angel I gave off
I’d forgotten al about them. I knew as an angel I gave off
the crisp, clean scent of rain that might be camouflaged in
the smoky atmosphere of the clubs but would be
unmistakable out here in the open.
“Are you going to tel me who the Trackers are?” I was
stil having problems regulating my breathing. Tuck took
one look at my face and shook his head.
“Not right now.”
“Come on,” I urged. Tucker seemed to have assumed a
protective role since leaving the hotel that he wasn’t about
to relinquish without a fight. “I’l be better off if I know.”
Tuck sighed. “Trackers hunt down souls that have
wandered off into the Wasteland.” He kept his explanation
succinct as if there was already too much to focus on
without the added effort of conversation.
“Do the souls end up back in the clubs?” I asked naively.
“Not exactly.”
“They’re thrown into the pit, aren’t they?” I said. “It’s okay,
Tucker. I’ve seen it.” I was on the verge of elaborating,
tel ing him to stop trying to spare me from the harsh
realities when Tucker stepped lightly in front of me and
clamped his hand over my mouth.
“Do you hear that?” he asked.
“Hear what?”
“Listen.”
We stood in silence for a moment until I too heard the
sound that had made Tucker stop short. It was a voice,
breathy and high-pitched, like it belonged to a young girl. It
was cal ing my name. “Bethany!” the voice wailed.
“Bethany, it’s me.” The childlike voice drew closer.
“Bethany, it’s me.” The childlike voice drew closer.
I waited with baited breath as a gust of hot wind swirled
around me. Tuck’s hand dropped to his side.
“Who are you?” I asked shakily. I felt a presence in the
wind, caressing me with long tapering fingers.
“Don’t you remember me?” The voice sounded forlorn
and yet there was something oddly familiar about it.
“We can’t see you,” Tuck said boldly. “Come out of the
shadows.”
“It’s okay,” I encouraged. “We won’t hurt you. We’re on
your side.”
I watched openmouthed as the figure of a girl emerged
out of the swirling fog and began to take shape before me.
At first she was just an outline, like an artist’s rudimentary
sketch that hadn’t been properly fil ed out, but as she came
into focus and I looked more closely, I knew exactly who she
was. The powdery blond hair, the pert upturned nose, the
pouting lips were al achingly familiar. Her hair was matted
and her cheeks hol ow, but there was no mistaking her. Her
blue eyes were stil luminous, their brightness a sharp
contrast against the grime smudged across her face. She
stared at me with such despair that I felt al of her sadness
seep into me and thought my heart would break.
“Taylah,” I whispered. “Is that you? What are you doing
here?”
“I could ask you the same thing.” She smiled absently.
Taylah was dressed, much as she had been in life, in a
fitted top and tight denim shorts. She was barefoot and
through the dust I could stil make out chipped nail polish.
“Were you kidnapped too?” I asked. “Did Jake bring you
here?”
Taylah shook her head. “I was judged, Beth,” she said
softly. “And my soul was sent here.”
“But how?” I said in a hoarse whisper. I was having
trouble grappling with what she was trying to tel me.
“After I died on the floor of the girls’ bathroom, I heard
voices al around me. They were weighing up my sins,
calculating my good deeds. And then I was fal ing.”
I wanted to ask what had happened in her past to land
her in this place, but I couldn’t get the words out. It would
have been tactless in the extreme. But I knew it had to be
some kind of mistake. Taylah was just a girl. She could be
shal ow, catty, and competitive sometimes, but those
weren’t exactly heinous crimes. She was capable of being
cruel to those who didn’t inhabit her glittering world of
tanning and Pilates, but I’d also seen her capable of
kindness. I couldn’t imagine her doing anything seriously
immoral.
“I know what you’re thinking,” she said, looking
shamefaced. “You’re wondering what I did to end up here.”
“You don’t have to say anything, Tay.”
“No, it’s okay,” she said. “I’m here because I was never
taught to believe in anything. I didn’t understand what was
important in life.” She hesitated, her blue eyes glazing over.
“I only cared about having fun; I never cared about anything
real. I sinned and never thought twice about it.”
I looked at her expectantly but it took some minutes
before she mustered the courage to speak again. “I did
something terrible. Wel , I didn’t exactly do it, but I did stand
by and let it happen.”
“Let what happen?” I asked.
“A couple of years ago there was a hit and run in Venus
Cove and little Tommy Fincher was kil ed. He was out
playing catch in the street. It was al over the papers but
they never found the driver. Tommy was only ten years old.
His parents never real y got over it.”
“What’s al this got to do with you?”
“I was there when it happened.”
“What? Why didn’t you report it?” I was confused.
“Because the driver was my boyfriend at the time. He
was drunk and I should never have let him behind the wheel
… .” she trailed off helplessly.
“You covered for him? Why?”
“He was a senior and I was fifteen. He told me he loved
me. Al the girls in my year were jealous. I was so obsessed
with him I couldn’t tel right from wrong.”
I didn’t know what to say to her. The sin of omission was
a serious offense. There were some who believed a
bystander who al owed an injustice to take place was as
guilty as the perpetrator himself. Taylah’s only defense was
her youth and inexperience. Evidently it hadn’t been enough
to exonerate her.
“What happened with the guy?”
“Toby and I broke up a few months later when his family
moved to Arkansas.”
“Why didn’t you speak up then?”
“I thought about it but I lost my nerve. It wasn’t gonna bring
the kid back anyway. I was worried about my reputation and
what people would say about me.”
“Oh, Taylah,” I said. “I wish you’d had someone to help
you through it. You must have felt so alone.”
She seemed so different from the girl I’d known. The old
Taylah had been too busy fussing over her hair to worry
about questions of right and wrong. I guess she’d found
enlightenment now, only it was too late.
“You know how I knew I was in Hel , or
Hades
, as his
royal asshole likes to cal it?” she continued. “It wasn’t
because of the flames or even the torture. I knew where I
was because of the total absence of love. You can’t stay
here, Beth. This place is only about hate. You end up hating
everyone but mostly you hate yourself. It’l eat you up.”
“Aren’t you scared to be out here alone?” Tucker asked.
“I guess so.” Taylah shrugged. “But I had to cut and run. I
couldn’t stand the clubs anymore … being mauled by the
demons like a piece of meat.”
Her words served as a reminder to Tucker, who looked
around nervously.
“We need to keep going.”
“Walk with us,” I said to Taylah, reluctant to part with her
again so soon.
We crept on through the barren Wasteland, Taylah
trailing beside us, occasional y disappearing and then
reemerging from behind the blanket of fog.
As we walked a passage from the Bible floated back to
me:
And there came out of the smoke locusts upon
the earth … and it was commanded that they
should not hurt the grass of the earth, neither any
green thing, neither any tree; but only those men
which have not the seal of God on their
foreheads.
How swift was God’s wrath. Youth and lack of
understanding did not preclude one from judgment.
Suddenly my purpose on earth had never seemed clearer.
“So you’re an angel, huh?” Taylah said. “Should have
guessed from al that clean livin’.”