became deeper and more regular, and I knew he’d fal en
asleep. I sat cross-legged on his bed, watching over him as
a mother might over a sick child. I stayed that way until
weak beams of predawn light fel over the rumpled
bedclothes and Xavier’s eyelids began to flutter.
“Rise and shine, dol face!”
Who did that voice belong to? Xavier wasn’t awake yet
and he hadn’t moved or spoken in his sleep. It didn’t sound
like him anyway. I looked around me, but Xavier’s room
was empty apart from the two of us. A metal ic sound like a
door opening made me jump and a doorway materialized
in the room, a dark figure leaning against the frame.
Suddenly I knew what was happening. My two worlds were
blurring, which meant I had to act quickly. I had to get back
right now or Jake would wonder why I wasn’t waking up. But
why was it so hard to tear myself away?
“Sweet dreams, my love,” I whispered to Xavier. I bent
down to press my specter mouth against his forehead. I
didn’t know whether he felt anything or not, but he stirred in
his sleep and mumbled my name. I saw that his face had
cleared and he looked more peaceful. “I’l be back as soon
as I can.”
I forced myself to return to my body and blinked away the
sleep to see Jake watching me intently. He was dressed in
a fitted suit jacket over skinny jeans and looked slightly
rumpled. The sting of disappointment always fol owed my
return to Hades, but with Jake there it was even worse. I
couldn’t summon the energy to drag myself out of bed and
face another day as bleak as the last. So I decided to stay
curled under the covers, at least until Hanna came to coax
me out. Jake seemed undeterred by my lack of response.
“I didn’t realize you were stil asleep. I only dropped by to
give you this token of my affection.”
I groaned and rol ed over.
Jake casual y tossed a long-stemmed rose on the pil ow.
“Could you be any more cliched?”
He feigned indignation. “You real y shouldn’t insult me.
That’s no way to talk to your other half.”
“You’re not my other half! We are nothing except
enemies,” I said.
Jake put one hand across his heart. “Now, that hurts.”
“Is there something you want?” I demanded angrily. I
couldn’t believe I had cut short my visit for this.
“Someone’s in a foul mood,” Jake commented.
“I wonder why?” Sarcasm was hard to avoid when he
was being deliberately obtuse.
Jake laughed softly, his bright eyes boring into mine. He
slid closer to me so fast that I barely noticed the movement
until he was bent over me, dark hair fal ing over his
shoulders. His face was beautiful in the dim light, his
features refined. I was surprised at my ability to register his
beauty while at the same time hate him with as much
strength as there was left in my body. His bloodless lips
parted, and I heard him breathing fast. His black eyes slid
over my body, but instead of leering as I expected, he
frowned.
“I don’t like to see you so sad,” he murmured. “Why won’t
you let me make you happy?” I looked at him with surprise.
Not only did Jake persist in invading my personal space
whatever the hour, his insistence on describing the two of
us as a potential couple was becoming disturbing. “I know
you haven’t developed an emotional attachment toward me
just yet, but I think we can work on it. I was thinking it might
help if we took our relationship to the next level … ,” he
trailed off meaningful y. “We both have needs, after al .”
“Don’t even suggest it,” I warned, sitting up and glaring at
him. “Don’t you dare.”
“Why not? It’s a perfectly natural expectation. Besides, it
might improve your mood.” He rubbed his thumbs in slow
circles up and down my arms. “My skil s are legendary. You
don’t even have to do anything. I’l take care of you.”
“Are you delusional? I am
not
having sex with you,” I said
in disgust. “Besides, why do you need that from me? Don’t
you have your cal girls on speed dial?”
“Bethany, my dear, I am not asking for sex. That’s not
what I’m about. I can have that anytime. I want to make love
to you.”
“Stop saying that stuff and get away from me.”
“I know you find me attractive. That much I remember.”
“That was a long time ago, before I knew what you are.” I
looked away, barely attempting to hide my contempt.
Jake straightened and glared at me. “I’d hoped we could
come to a mutual arrangement, but now I see you might
need an incentive to help change your mind.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“It means I need to find a more creative approach.” There
was an underlying threat in his words that frightened me,
but I wasn’t about to let him know that.
“Don’t bother. It won’t make any difference.”
“We’l see.” My conversations with Jake always seemed
to go the same way. He started by propositioning me with
something and when I fended him off, he turned vindictive.
We seemed to go around in circles. It was time to try a
different strategy.
“Too much would have to change for me to even consider
it,” I added. I hated that I was getting caught up in his
manipulative games, but I had no other choice.
Jake’s face lit up with anticipation.
“Such as?”
“For starters you’d have to start respecting my privacy. I
hate the way you barge in here unannounced whenever you
feel like it. I would like a key to my own room. If you want to
see me, you need to ask first.”
“Fine. Consider it done. What else?”
“I want to be able to move around freely.”
“Beth, you don’t seem to understand how dangerous it is
out there. But I can tel the hotel staff to back off. See? I can
compromise.” He trailed a finger along my bottom lip and
smirked, pleased with the new developments.
“There’s one more thing. I want to go back—just for an
hour. I need to tel my family and Xavier that I’m al right.”
Jake laughed. “What kind of idiot do you take me for?”
“So you don’t trust me?”
“Let’s not play games. We both know each other too wel
and you’re no good at lying anyhow.”
I noticed a shift in his countenance and knew I shouldn’t
have mentioned Xavier. It always set him off.
“Have you noticed that time’s passing and nothing’s
happening?” Jake asked. “I don’t see a rescue team on the
horizon. Want to know why? Because it’s an impossible
mission. It might take them centuries to crack the right
portal, if they ever do. By that time, Xavier wil be nothing
but a maggot-ridden pile in the ground. So you see, Beth,
you don’t have a choice. If I were you I’d seize the day,
make the most of the opportunities in front of you.
Everything down here is yours for the taking. I’m offering
you a chance to be queen of Hades. Everyone would bow
down to you. Think about it, that’s al I’m asking.”
My stomach twisted into a knot. I didn’t know how long I
could hold out against Jake. He was so unscrupulous. I had
no idea what tactic he’d spring on me next. He’d been
around too long for me to have any hope of outsmarting
him. I just had to make sure he didn’t get into my head. It
was my only weapon. I had to stay true to myself and
remain spiritual y stronger than him. I closed my eyes and
focused on inviting positive thoughts.
I tried to visualize how my release from Hades might
come about. I imagined Gabriel and Ivy storming through
the gates of Hel and carrying me to safety. Their
enveloping wings, soft as satin yet powerful enough to
crush through wal s, would shield me. I imagined Xavier
with them, only transformed as an angel so that he had his
own beating wings. They reared behind him vibrating with
his power. Xavier was glorious in the form of an immortal.
Any man who saw him would pledge his undying loyalty.
The vision of the three of them, glowing agents of Heaven
coming for me, was the only thing that worked to calm my
fears.
On the downside, it made me painful y aware of my own
wings, bound tight beneath my clothing. I’d been so caught
up in my troubles that I’d neglected to think about them. I
wriggled uncomfortably, longing to set them free. Jake
regarded me with a suspicious gaze.
“You wil succumb to me, Bethany,” he said, sweeping
toward the door. “It’s only a matter of time.”
14
Messenger
THE next time I managed to project it was raining heavily at
Byron. The noise of the rain on the roof drowned out al
other sound. It fil ed the eaves and poured off them in
streams. It flattened the grass as if someone had been out
there with an iron and turned the garden beds to slush. The
noise woke Phantom from his sleep and drew him to the
French doors to see what the commotion was about.
Satisfied it was nothing that required his intervention he
returned to his beanbag and sank down with a prolonged
sigh.
Some sort of meeting was taking place. Gabriel, Ivy, and
Xavier sat around the dining table. It was littered with pizza
boxes and cans of soda—something rarely seen in our
house. They must have run out of napkins because they
were using a rol of paper towel. It told me that no one could
muster the motivation for the usual routines, and cooking
and shopping had been the first to go. Gabriel and Xavier
sat across from each other, both as immobile as stone.
Suddenly Ivy rose from the table and began to stack dishes
and put the kettle on, flitting from kitchen to dining room, her
white-gold tresses swinging in time with her movements.
Whatever they’d been discussing it was clear they’d
reached an impasse. They were al waiting for inspiration—
for someone to come up with an idea that hadn’t yet been
considered. But their minds were as exhausted as they
were, and it seemed unlikely. At one point, Gabriel opened
his mouth, as though a new idea had struck him. But then
he changed his mind about sharing it and his face became
distant once again.
Everyone froze when the doorbel broke the deafening
silence. Phantom pricked up his ears and would have
rushed to the door if Gabe hadn’t ordered him to stay with a
silent gesture. Phantom complied, but not without
registering his protest with a low whimper. Stil no one
moved and whoever was at the door rang again, longer this
time and more impatiently. Gabriel bowed his head and
sighed when his celestial gift gave him a sneak preview of
the visitor.
“We should probably get that,” he said.
Ivy gave him a questioning look. “I thought we agreed—
no visitors.”
Gabriel frowned for a moment as he zeroed in on the
thoughts of whoever was waiting on our front porch. “I don’t
think we have a choice,” he said eventual y. “She’s not
planning to leave without an explanation.”
Ivy looked as if she weren’t entirely comfortable with
Gabriel’s directive and would have liked time to consider it
further, but the tension in the room was so great that she
pressed her lips together and went to get the door. My
sister stil moved with swanlike grace, her feet barely
touching the floor. In contrast Mol y stomped into the room
with her face flushed and her strawberry curls bouncing on
her shoulders. When she spoke, it was with her usual direct
candor.
“Final y,” she said angrily. “Where the hel have you al
been?”
I was happy to see that Mol y hadn’t changed a bit, but