Glitsky 02 - Guilt (49 page)

Diane was in the post-delivery room. She squeezed Christina's hand. 'It's all right,' she said. 'You're allowed to cry. He's beautiful. Handsome, I mean.'

'Beautiful,' Christina said.

Jess Yamagi leaned over her, laid a finger against the baby's cheek, brought his hand up to Christina's shoulder. 'I'm going to let you hold him for a couple of minutes, Chris, but his temperature is a degree or two low, which is perfectly normal. We're going to put him under the lamp and warm him up until he's stabilized.'

'And then what?'

'Then we wash him off and bundle him up and bring him to you. Meanwhile, you get a little rest if you can.' He squeezed her shoulder. 'You did good, Chris. Great job. You, too, Diane.'

Christina couldn't take her eyes from her baby who seemed to be staring back at her. She'd always thought that infants were born with their eyes closed, but her son was wide-eyed, memorizing her.

A nurse appeared and showed Christina the little plastic hospital tag they put around the baby's ankle
-Baby Boy Dooher.
Her husband's name startled her slightly, but the tag was already made up. It wasn't so important it had to be changed right away. 'Everybody worries we're going to mix up their children in the nursery, so we show you this to put your mind at ease,' the nurse went on.

'All the babies get one,' Diane volunteered.

Christina was staring through the mist down at her son. 'I'd know this guy anywhere. I could pick him out of a thousand other babies.'

The nurse smiled again. 'I know you could, sweetheart.' Then, picking him up, 'He'll be back in no time, don't worry.'

It wrenched her to have the baby taken, but it wouldn't be for very long, it was a normal procedure. She turned to Diane, the rock, and squeezed her hand again, the fatigue kicking in.

She'd just close her eyes for a minute…

Like the rest of life, it was simplicity itself if carried off with grace and assurance. Dooher was the natural father of the child, the legal father. He had as much right to be here as Christina did.

'I'm sorry I'm so late,' he said to the nurse at the admitting station after he'd presented his ID, proving that he was who he said he was. 'I'm just in from the airport. I've been back East all week. I knew this would happen when I was out of town. I knew it. How is Christina?'

The nurse double-checked his ID, then Christina's admitting record, verifying that yes, he was the husband, they lived at the same address. They were careful here – babies had been known to disappear.

Looking up, satisfied, the nurse seemed to see Mark for the first time, the nervous father. 'Your wife got moved to her room a couple of minutes ago, Mr Dooher. Room 412, right down that hallway. She's resting now, doing fine. And congratulations, you have a baby boy.'

Dr Yamagi diagnosed the Lieutenant to be on the edge of hysteria. His blue eyes were dilated in his dark-skinned face. An unusual combination.

But the man – Glitsky – wasn't here about genetics. He'd come in through the emergency entrance, always a fun place on a Saturday night. Probably so that he could park as close to the hospital as possible. Waste no time.

'Yes, I delivered the Dooher boy,' Yamagi said, 'maybe forty-five minutes ago.'

'Is the mother all right? Christina?'

'Yes. She was, anyway. Why?'

Glitsky didn't answer that question. He had his own. 'Have you seen the father – Mark Dooher? Has he been here?'

Yamagi shook his head. 'No. Christina had a friend helping her. Diane.' This name didn't seem to register.

'I'd like to see them. Talk to her.'

'She may be resting.'

Glitsky nodded. 'I'll wake her up.'

The doctor rode up the elevator with the silent Homicide Lieutenant. They passed the nurse's station without a word, and Yamagi escorted Glitsky into the maternity wing itself, past the double doorway that segregated the new mothers from the sick and the injured.

This was the happy part of the hospital, with bright stencils decorating the walls and the hallway filled with flowers and balloons and, somehow, a sense of optimism.

Glitsky noted it all, but little of it registered. Yamagi pushed open a door at the end of the hall – Room 412. The overhead light was turned off, but Glitsky recognized Christina in her bed, her eyes closed.

Under a directional light, another woman was reading Modern
Maternity.
She looked up when the men entered, breaking into a welcoming smile at Yamagi, then a questioning glance at Glitsky. She dropped her magazine into the carry-all shoulder purse on the floor next to her chair. She stood up.

'Hi, doctor. She's sleeping.'

'No, that's all right, Diane. I'm awake.' Christina was already pushing herself upright, getting ready to hold her son. 'Is the baby here?' She opened her eyes, trying to get focused. She took in Diane and Yamagi, then blinked, as though having trouble with her vision. 'Lieutenant Glitsky?'

He nodded. 'Ms Carrera.'

'What are you doing…?' She came straight up, grimacing with effort. 'My son! Is my son all right?'

'He's fine,' Yamagi answered reassuringly. 'We'll have him in here in a couple of minutes.'

Christina leaned back, relief all over her.

Yamagi came up to the bed. He held the switch to raise one end of it, propping Christina into a more comfortable position. 'You get some rest?'

She nodded. 'A little.'

'You ready for your boy?'

'Please.'

'Okay. I'll pass the word and they'll bring him along. Then: 'Lieutenant, is everything here okay for you?'

Glitsky had already checked the corners. It was a private room with no place to hide. Mark Dooher wasn't here.

'Good.' Yamagi looked at his watch. 'Christina, be sure to ask for help if you need anything. They'll wheel in another bed if you want Diane to stay. I'll be back first thing in the morning. You want me to show you the way out, Lieutenant?'

Glitsky didn't like this. He didn't know what had happened with Farrell. Dooher knew Christina had come here, and yet – apparently – he hadn't. Something wasn't right, maybe a lot of things. 'I'd like to stay on a minute. I have a couple of questions.'

This wouldn't have been Yamagi's choice, but Christina read the indecision in his face and spoke up. 'It's okay with me.'

Yamagi yielded. 'I'd appreciate it if you kept it short then. All of you.'

As the door closed behind the doctor, Glitsky took a step toward the bed. 'Have you seen your husband? I was sure he was coming here.'

'Why would he be here? He doesn't know I'm here.'

Glitsky considered that. He had to tell her. 'Yes, he does. Your mother told him.'

A long, dead moment as it sank in.

Dooher didn't go right in to see Christina. He needed to see her, all right, to explain things, but he wanted to find his baby first. That would make it all clearer.

He looked through the glass and read the identifying tag. Baby Boy Dooher was under the warming light. A tiny red heart was stuck to his chest, keeping track of his temperature.

He pushed open the door to the newborn nursery. Inside, he stood quietly – the proud new father, overwhelmed with emotion, a little lost.

A pretty young nurse approached him. 'Can I help you, sir?'

In the role, Dooher gave her his best smile, shading it with a touch of self-deprecation. 'My new boy. I saw him through the glass in there. I just got here – I missed the birth. I wonder if I could hold him a second? It's the Dooher baby?' He had his identification out again, and this nurse, too, looked it over, then handed it back to him.

But she was shaking her head. 'It's against the rules, technically. I'm sorry.'

He sighed, heart-broken, met her eyes. At home, he' d showered and shaved, then dressed with casual elegance. He looked good and he knew it. 'Well, I certainly don't want to break any rules.'

The nurse looked into the adjoining spaces, around behind her. She leaned in toward him. 'I'll get you a mask,' she said. 'We'll make an exception. You'll have to wash your hands.'

They were going to be bundling the boy up right now. His mother had asked for him. Would Mr Dooher like to take the baby in to his wife?

'That would be great,' he said. 'I'd like that.'

What he'd do, he thought, was act like she'd never left him, like it had never happened. He would let her know that he understood what had happened – her emotions had gotten the better of her and she'd given into panic.

She'd be vulnerable right now and he didn't want to scare her away. He would be kind and gentle, solicitous. He had to prove to her that she could trust him. She had always been able to trust him. Whatever he might have done, he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.

But the situation would also work to his advantage. He'd walk into her room and she'd see him holding the baby. He had gotten to their son in the hospital without her knowing about it. She couldn't have stopped him, whatever she had done.

A message would get delivered there, now, wouldn't it? He wouldn't have to say a thing.

She would come back to him. They wouldn't ever have to mention these past couple of days. This was how training worked. There had to be periods of pain, of testing, of finding out how far the chain would go until you felt it choke.

Well, Christina had found out.

Dooher didn't remember the births or much of the infancy of his other children. He'd been putting in yeoman hours when they'd been born – in those days men went to work. They didn't change diapers.

So the size of this baby surprised him – so small, nearly weightless.

They had wrapped it tight, it arms cocooned in its blue blanket. The nurse he'd charmed earlier escorted him out of the nursery, reminding him to keep the neck supported, to cover the head and shield it from any drafts while they were in the hallway.

At the door to 412, Dooher turned to her. 'Would you mind if I just go in alone and surprise her?'

Who could say no to such a reasonable request?

Christina was looking past Glitsky. The door was beginning to open and it would be the nurse with her…

No. This couldn't be.

In her dreams, something like this would happen. But this wasn't a dream.

Dooher stopped inside the door. 'Well, look at this, a little impromptu party. Corporal Glitsky, of all people.'

No one said a word. Dooher made sure the door was closed behind him. His eyes swept the room and alighted on Diane Price.

'Who's this?' he asked.

Christina spoke up protectively. 'She's a nurse practitioner here, Mark. She helped with the labor.'

Dooher accepted this. 'Well, thank you very much.' A shift of focus. 'And how are you, Christina?'

She forced herself to speak calmly. 'I'm fine, Mark. It went all right. No real complications.'

'I'm glad.' A pause. 'Though it wasn't exactly how we planned, was it?'

'I'm sorry,' she said. Her eyes never left her son. 'I don't know what happened yesterday, Mark. I guess I lost sight of things for a minute.'

'I guess so. That happens sometimes. Moments of stress.' Another silence.

'Can I have my baby, please? I have to feed it.'

'Actually,' he smiled at her, 'it's not just your baby, it's
our
baby, isn't that right?'

'Of course, that's what I meant. It's our baby. I meant our baby.' She held out her hands. 'And he's hungry, Mark. Thank you for bringing him in, but I'll take him now, okay?'

He shook his head. 'No, I don't think so. Not quite yet.'

He didn't even recognize her!

Diane wasn't prepared for the wave of anger that swept over her. He looked – impossibly – the same as she remembered him from college.

And now he stared directly at her and saw nothing.

She wasn't there.

It all flooded back – the experience was etched in acid. Afterward, she had been curled up on the top of her bed, great pain down there. Too hurt for tears.

This couldn't have happened to her. Her blouse, torn open, had been still around her shoulders – a distinct memory. She remembered lying there in a fetal position, holding the scrap of her blouse collar in her fist, as though it offered some protection. He'd ripped the rest off.

He was pulling up his pants, tucking himself in. She could still hear the sound his breath had made. He'd said nothing.

When he looked down at her, just like now, she hadn't been there.

She found herself speaking in the same even tones Christina had been using. 'The baby needs to be fed, sir.'

He didn't like the diversion. Snapped at her. 'I'm talking to my wife.'

'The baby needs to be fed,' Diane repeated.

This time Dooher glared at her. 'Who are you? Do I know you?'

Glitsky broke in. 'Give her the kid, Dooher.'

A disappointed expression. 'Not right yet, private. Christina and I have a few things we've got to work out first.' He turned to her. 'I want you back home.'

Christina was glued to the child. 'I was upset, Mark. With the hormones, I guess. I got scared. Of course I'll come back. You're the father. I'd never think of raising the boy without his father.'

It seemed to anger him further. 'You're just trying to get your hands on this baby, aren't you, Christina? You'd say anything now, wouldn't you?'

'No, that's not true. But the baby
is
hungry, Mark. He hasn't eaten yet.'

Christina had re-introduced Diane to Glitsky, so he knew who she was. It would complicate matters if Dooher realized it. Glitsky had his gun inside his jacket. He'd drawn it only occasionally in his career, and had never fired it at a person.

If this turned out to be the first time, he wanted to know what was behind his target. He moved to his left.

'Stay where you are!' Dooher backed up a step. A wider angle on the room. 'Whatever you're trying to do, it's a bad idea.'

'I'm not doing anything.'

'You're moving. I don't want you to move.'

'And if I do, what then? Are you threatening to hurt your baby if I do, is that it?'

It didn't faze him. 'I'm holding my child, Sergeant. That's all. What are you doing here?'