Girl from Mars

GIRL FROM MARS

TAMAMARA BAHC

Translated by

Shelley Tanaka

First published as
Marsmädchen
by Tamara Bach
Copyright © Verlag Friedrich Oetinger, Hamburg 2003
First published in Canada and the USA by Groundwood Books in 2008
English translation copyright © 2008 by Shelley Tanaka

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Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Bach, Tamara

Girl from Mars / Tamara Bach ; translated by Shelley Tanaka.
Translation of: Marsmädchen.
ISBN-13: 978-0-88899-724-1 (bound).
ISBN-10: 0-88899-724-8 (bound).
ISBN-13: 978-0-88899-725-8 (pbk.)
ISBN-10: 0-88899-725-6 (pbk.)

Cover illustration by Hadley Hooper
Design by Michael Solomon
Printed and bound in Canada

“This small town hasn't got room for my big feelings”
                                    — Björk, “Violently Happy”

Für Mams
und Julia, Anke und elis

PART I

1

Name ___________________________

Address _________________________

Date of birth ______________________

Place of birth  _____________________

Height  __________________________

Weight __________________________

Hobbies _________________________

Favorite drink  ____________________

Favorite food _____________________

Favorite film ______________________

Favorite song _____________________

Favorite actor  ____________________

Friends  _________________________

Likes ___________________________

Dislikes  _________________________

What I wish for you  ________________

Name:
My name is Miriam.

Age, date and place of birth:
I am 15 years old. Fifteen.

Address:
The town where I live is small and pretty. In the summer tourists come here to visit the church and the old fortress and wander through the streets of the old town. It's nice here in the summer. You can spend an evening sitting in a meadow overlooking the valley and admire the view over a bottle of wine. You can swim in the quarry during the day and sneak into the local pool at night. In summer you don't have to do much of anything at all. It's enough just to be here.

In the winter, though, this town is too small, and it's so cold the town itself freezes up. It's in the middle of nowhere, and suddenly everybody forgets about the church and the fortress and the old town. They even forget about themselves. They hide out instead.

I'm not a winter person.

I am Miriam. Fifteen. Blonde. Brown eyes. Average height, average weight. Daughter, sister, the person who sits beside you at school.

I'm Miriam, I'm tired, and that's it. No more, no less. Ordinary.

Likes and dislikes
.

I dislike sports. My mother says I'm lazy. My math teacher says I'm not stupid. Sometimes I'm like this and sometimes I'm like that.

I stare at the book in front of me. We're all making these books about ourselves and passing them around to our friends to fill in the lists, maybe add pictures if they want. This fall they combined classes because our old class was too small, so now we're in a new class with new
people. One of the new people passed her book to me and yesterday she got mad because I've had it for two solid weeks without giving it back, so I promised I'd give it back to her today.

You're supposed to describe yourself as accurately as possible.

Why does she want to know so much about me?

I leaf through the book. It's already half full. You can write whatever you want, but most people have just listed their favorite things, their likes and dislikes. Maybe stuck in a nice photo of themselves. Like this one of Bille. As if she actually looks like that. Fredi has covered the whole page with some kind of weird writing that's supposed to look like graffiti. Fredi, who has never held a can of spraypaint in his entire life.

Tap, tap, tap. Drumming my pen on the book. I have to give it back today.

What I wish for you
.

I wish...

I wish I knew what to write.

Okay, imagine a girl. A stunning, talented girl that everyone admires. A girl people talk to and smile at. A girl who loves to smile herself.

Now imagine a girl that nobody likes, maybe because she smells funny or has a weird laugh.

I'm somewhere in between. Kind of pretty, according to my mother or the old guy who works at the newsstand. And kind of ugly, according to my brother Dennis and his friend Alex.

I am fairly smart according to my math and French marks. But if you look at my marks in history and chemistry, I'm the biggest idiot around.

So what are you, then, when you're always in the middle, not one thing or the other, neither fish nor fowl?

Boring, that's what.

So what should I write?

Friends
.

Ines is sitting under the sink in the girls' washroom, copying out her math. Suse is sitting on the john smoking her third cigarette. She's talking about her new boyfriend. She only met him a couple of days ago, but now they're an item. His name is Martin, and she says he's really sweet and has a great body. He's eighteen and drives a Volkswagen Golf. A red one with a good stereo system — “He's picking me up in it later.”

I imagine Martin. I can't see his face, because he's wearing a baseball cap and it's pulled right down over his forehead. He's wearing a beige or white sweater with writing on it, and pants of some kind. Behind him is his Volkswagen. Martin pulls Suse to him and she lets him. He kisses her.

Then he takes her hand and leads her to his car. She gets in. You can see the school reflected in the car windows. Then they drive away. You can hardly see Suse as the car drives off into the sunset. Maybe they're driving to the sea. Maybe to the mountains. Maybe he has his own apartment...

“What are you doing?” asks Ines.

So I show her the book.

“Ah,” she says. Makes a face. “Whose is it?”

“Carola's.”

“So, Carola does have friends,” Suse laughs. “And apparently our Miriam fits right into the lovely Carola's yummy little inner circle.” She sticks her finger down her throat and pretends to gag.

“So, you don't really like her?”

“No, not really,” Ines says, and turns back to her math homework.

Friends. When our class was split, Ines and Suse went into the same class as me. I guess we belong together. We're friends. Or something like that. After all, we're sitting here together in the girls' washroom the way we do every morning.

Outside it's winter, and it's cold. Every morning is the same. Doesn't matter if it's Monday or Thursday. Five days of the week are exactly the same, because they are school days, and they don't make a difference. Every morning before class Suse and Ines and I sit here in the handicapped stall, the biggest one in the washroom. Suse always sits on the toilet and Ines sits under the sink, and we just sit here because it's cold and boring outside and so we smoke and wait...for something to happen.

7:23 a.m.: Can I copy your math homework?

7:30 a.m.: God, I'm tired.

7:35 a.m.: You little kids better move your butts!

7:45 a.m. (Bell rings): Just one more smoke — I'll be with you in a minute.

That's what it's like. That's what we call friendship.

Tap, tap, tap. Banging my pen on the book again.

Suse grabs the book out of my hand. She flips through it and laughs. Then she takes a drag of her cigarette and flips through some more.

“Yeah, right! In your dreams!” she laughs.

Ines looks up.

“What?”

“Kai writes here that he wishes he were a babe magnet. Can you believe it?”

“Give it back!”

Suse resists a bit, but she gives me the book.

I flip back to my page. The bell rings. Ines swears.

“One more smoke,” Suse says.

I get up and look in the mirror over the sink, at me and Suse and Ines in the corner. I'm in the middle. I see myself standing there, looking in the mirror.

This is me. Blonde hair, brown eyes, average height, average weight. Every day the same.

It's winter and here I am, every day the same.

2

If a fairy godmother came and granted you three wishes, what would you wish for
?

World peace. A cure for cancer and AIDS. A healthy planet.

No, now for real.

I'd wish for two thousand more wishes. Then for an alarm that tells me when I've reached wish number 1,999, so that I can wish for another two thousand wishes.

Actually, I'm perfectly happy the way things are.

Ha-ha.

But if I could wish for something that was just for me, and if I knew no one would judge me and say, “What?! You mean that was your wish?” then I would want...

There's this girl in the twelfth grade. I'd like to be just like her. She's tall and has wonderful eyes and hair and hands and stomach and breasts and...

I don't know. She's just beautiful. Not just because she was born that way. Look at her. The way she stands there.
For her it's just normal, but no one in this school — no, no one I've ever known — can stand as beautifully as that. And then maybe take a step to the front, just like that. And she moves her hands when she talks, and talks with her hands. It looks beautiful. And her voice is beautiful. Very deep. She speaks clearly and always knows what to say. She's in a band, too. I've seen her at a concert. And she has an unbelievable voice.

I'd like to be like that. Just like that. Beautiful. But not because I'm wearing the right outfit or makeup. Just because I am beautiful.

And I would also like to be really smart. Speak several languages and know more about politics. Like Florian. He knows everything about politics. But I don't think he just watches the news. He also reads five different newspapers and
Spiegel
and
Stern
and
Focus
and I don't know what else.