Family Drama 4 E-Book Bundle (105 page)

‘Yes, she's perfect, a bonny bouncing baby, definitely.' As he spoke George Wheaton gave a warning look to his wife before glancing quickly at Ruby, who was standing alongside them at the glass partition that fronted the nursery where all the swaddled newborns were lined up in their cribs like fresh produce in the shop window. Only the names on the cribs identified which one was which.

Babs and George stood side by side gazing adoringly at the baby tagged as ‘Baby Blakeley, Girl', but instead of looking at her daughter Ruby was determinedly looking the other way. She had no intention of connecting any more than was absolutely necessary with the infant from whom she would soon be separated for ever.

‘They all look the same to me, and anyway why would I want to look at her? It's not as if I'm keeping her. She's not mine.' Despite her barely disguised frustration at her situation Ruby shrugged as if she didn't care.

‘Have you definitely made your mind up then?' Babs asked. ‘Have you spoken to anyone about adoption?'

‘I haven't said anything and I'm not going to while I'm still in hospital. They all think I'm a poor little war widow so they're being really nice to me. Not like Gracie, the girl at the other end of the ward who's just had an illegitimate baby. They're so horrible to her and now she's got to go back to the mother-and-baby home that's just like a prison.'

‘Well, it's going to be hard for you too, Ruby, whatever you do. You do know that, don't you? Giving a baby up is hard for anybody.'

‘Yes, I know that. I'm not stupid you know.'

Ruby could feel a surge of anger rising up in her. It was as if they didn't think she was capable of realising the enormity of her situation at that moment. She had given birth to a baby she was going to give away and never see again: a beautiful and perfect baby girl who, under different circumstances, would have been her pride and joy.

Despite her youth and circumstances Ruby had felt a maternal surge the moment she had held her daughter for the first time. She had tried to fight it, and had been fighting it every minute since, but it was still there.

‘I know you're not. I was just making sure you do what you want to do. If it's any consolation, Uncle George and I both think that giving her up is the best thing you can do for both of you. Other than marrying the father, of course.'

Ruby's head swivelled sharply. ‘No. Oh, you haven't told him, have you? I don't want Johnnie Riordan having any part of my life. Or hers.' She paused. ‘Not that he'd want to.'

‘Of course we haven't said anything – not to anyone. Not a soul – but we do want you to be sure you know what you're doing. Adoption is for ever. You can't change your mind sometime in the future.'

‘I know. It's the best thing to do and it's what I'm going to do, but I don't want to do anything until we've left here. I couldn't bear to be treated like Gracie has been. They've been so nasty to her and she's had no visitors. Not one.'

Babs shook her head. ‘That must be horrible for the poor girl. I'll go and have a word with her on the way out. If the nurses think George and I know her they might be nicer. It's wrong, I know, but …'

‘That's a kind thought, Babs,' George said before turning to Ruby. ‘Have you chosen a name for this little one yet?'

‘Why would I do that? There's no point in me giving her a name and then someone changing it as soon as they take her.'

Babs and George Wheaton exchanged glances.

‘We have to talk to you in private, Ruby. There's something we have to tell you. The nurses have said you can come outside with us for a walk, so we'll go somewhere private.'

Being a doctor himself, George had been able to pull strings that allowed both him and his wife to visit ‘his niece' freely in the nearby maternity home where she'd gone to have the baby. It was another thing that annoyed Ruby on Gracie's behalf.

Babs pushed George's wheelchair as they made their way along the main corridor to the double doors that led out into grounds. As they walked they all made stilted small talk. Ruby spoke quickly and fired questions about Marian and Keith, and Babs and George told her a couple of amusing but completely irrelevant anecdotes about the surgery. It was all very superficial as the three of them all skirted around the most important subject of all. The baby.

It had been a perfect pregnancy and an easy birth, with Ruby feeling fit and well physically, and more than ready to leave the hospital when the time came. All she had to do was actually set the wheels in motion to arrange the adoption of her daughter.

When the plan had been formed all those months ago for her to go to stay with George's sister, Leonora, in Essex, Ruby had accepted she had little choice but to go if she were to have the support of the Wheatons so she had persuaded herself it was another evacuation.

Being sent to Melton had turned out OK so she was determined that a stay in Southend would be equally satisfactory if she just focused her mind on the end result. A few months in exile, then she would have the baby adopted and could start her life again, hopefully back in Melton with her friends. But whatever happened she knew she could never go back to the overcrowded terraced house in Walthamstow, where she wasn't wanted and which was just a stone's throw away from Johnnie Riordan, the love of her life and the father of a beautiful baby daughter who looked just like him.

She tried hard to block him out of her mind but she often wondered what he was doing and whether he missed her. However, she knew he had to be part of her past, just as her family were now. Pregnant and in exile, all she had had was Aunt Leonora, who, despite her honorary title of aunt, was really just another total stranger.

Leonora Wheaton was the spinster of her family, the oldest child of four who had never married because she had become the carer who stayed at home and looked after her ailing mother. After she died Leonora had inherited the family home where she had lived all her life, but instead of staying there she had sold everything and fulfilled her long-held dream of running a seaside hotel. She had bought a run-down seafront property near Southend and turned it into a quiet upmarket establishment for genteel single and widowed ladies, who may otherwise have found having a holiday impossible. It meant Ruby fitted in there perfectly and no one asked any embarrassing questions about her condition.

She was a kind-hearted woman and a natural-born carer, so she was good to Ruby and went along with the deception because she loved her brother, but she hadn't been completely able to hide her dismay at the young girl's situation.

As they reached a deserted area of the hospital grounds Babs stopped and faced Ruby.

‘This is really important, dear. Uncle George and I have been talking and we think we have a solution.'

Ruby turned away. ‘I'm not changing my mind. I can't look after a baby, I don't want a baby and I'm not going to marry Johnnie. I'm sorry.'

‘We understand that. But the solution we're offering may well suit everyone,' George said. ‘Babs and I think, well, we wondered—'

But before he could finish his wife interrupted, ‘You're beating around the bush, George. Let me tell her. Ruby, we want to adopt your baby. We want her, we want her so much …'

Stunned, Ruby looked from one to the other. It was the last thing she had expected them to say, and something that had never even crossed her mind.

‘I don't understand. You're saying
you
want her? You never said before. Why would you want to take my baby?' Ruby could feel her warning antennae on alert.

‘It's not that we want to take your baby, Ruby dear – that sounds so cruel – we want to adopt her, to have her as part of our family and give her a good life. We feel attached to her already because she's yours, and we hate the idea of her going to strangers.' Babs said quickly and intensely.

‘Why didn't you say that earlier? Why wait until now?'

‘Because neither George nor I dared to consider it as a possibility. We didn't want to pressure you into anything, you had to make your mind up yourself; but if you're determined to give her up then surely it's better that we take her home with us, to bring her up as ours. Better than her going to strangers. We were never lucky enough to have a child of our own; you were the nearest we came to parenthood …' as Babs' voice broke George took Ruby's hand in his.

‘Ruby, no one need know anything apart from us; no one will know she's yours. I have contacts who can arrange the adoption. Then you can get on with your life, knowing your baby is truly loved and well looked after.' George held her hand tighter. ‘And you know we'd do that, don't you?'

Ruby looked from one to the other as she tried to take in just what they were saying to her. Was the couple who meant so much to her ready to push her aside to have the one thing they had apparently always wanted? A child of their own?

She tried to get this new notion together in her head. When she had gone to visit them with Johnnie, Babs had been insistent that it was wrong for Ruby to deceive her mother, yet when she became pregnant they had whisked her off and hidden her away. Had they done that because they knew from the start that they wanted the baby? Would the baby replace her in the Wheatons' affections?

She walked over to the low wall that separated the lawn from a wide paved footpath and sat on it very gingerly, at the same time wrapping her dressing gown tightly around her still swollen body. She chewed her lip and looked into the distance as she determined not to cry. George and Babs followed her.

‘So you don't want me to come back to Melton then? You just want my baby.' Ruby could hear the whine in her voice, the childish challenge, but at that moment she felt like a child again. She could taste the betrayal.

Babs and George Wheaton moved simultaneously to either side of her, and Babs, too, sat on the wall. George took her hand again and gripped tightly.

‘No, it's not like that. Of course we want you – we want both of you – but you said you were giving her up anyway so it makes sense to let someone who loves both of you take care of her. Ruby, we love her because we love you. You can be her big sister, her guiding godmother. We're both getting on a bit now and you can be the younger influence for her.'

‘Just think about it, Ruby,' Babs said. ‘We're not going to make you do anything you don't want to do, but you could stay here for a couple of months and then come back to live with us eventually, and no one would be any the wiser. Think about it, at least.'

Frowning, Ruby looked from one to the other, feeling their expectation.

‘No, it's OK, you take her. I suppose she'll have a good home.'

‘No, no, Ruby, you have to think about it. You can't make such a big decision just like that,' George said with a distinct note of caution in his voice, but Ruby wasn't interested.

‘Yes I can, I'm leaving hospital tomorrow morning and I'm not taking her with me. I'll just leave her here. You can take her in the morning when we leave here and I'll go back to the hotel. If Aunt Leonora'll still have me, that is.' Ruby bit her lip, determined not to cry.

‘Of course she will; and don't worry about anything, we'll arrange it all … if you're sure. We'll come back and collect you as soon as the interest in the village has died down, as soon as there's no way they can make any connection between both of you.'

‘OK.' Ruby shrugged but she knew it would never happen. If they adopted the little girl then things could never be the same, however much they all wanted them to be. ‘Have you heard from Ray? Or Mum?'

‘No, nothing since Ray telephoned all those months ago being obnoxious, but there's something else we need to tell you. Johnnie Riordan visited a few weeks ago, looking for you. He just turned up on the doorstep out of the blue.'

‘You didn't tell him, did you?' Ruby's head turned from one to the other. ‘I don't want him to know anything.
Anything!
'

Ruby felt sick as she once again brushed away the picture of her and Johnnie with their baby, which kept invading her thoughts. It wasn't going to happen, so she had to live with it.

‘No, of course we didn't, even though he seemed very determined to find out about you. He was very polite, of course, but that's his way.'

‘Did he say anything about Mum or Nana?'

‘He said he'd spoken to your grandmother and that she was well.' Babs answered. ‘She told him everything was much the same apart from Ray, who was still behaving very badly. I have to confess we felt really uncomfortable lying to him, knowing that you were having his baby. I wish you could have married him, Ruby, kept the baby …'

Ruby shrugged. ‘I have to get back now. I'll see you tomorrow.'

She stood up cautiously and, without looking at them again, turned to walk back to the ward and her last day with her baby.

The next morning Babs and George Wheaton collected Ruby and her baby daughter from the hospital and they all went back to the hotel where Ruby had been staying during her pregnancy.

It was a four-storey terraced building right on the seafront on the borders of Thorpe Bay, and had been tastefully and expensively renovated. The ground floors housed the communal lounges, dining room, kitchen and reception area, two more floors were single guest rooms, and the top floor was Leonora's spacious private flat where Ruby had been staying. There were just two live-in staff and their quarters were down in the basement. The hotel was Leonora Wheaton's life and she spent most of her time in the office behind the small reception desk on the ground floor.

Because of George's wheelchair they couldn't go up to the flat so they were all cramped into the office on the ground floor in an embarrassed silence as Babs gave the baby her first bottle away from the hospital and carefully got her ready for the drive back to Melton with Babs at the wheel.