Duplicate Keys (3 page)

Alice didn’t say anything. Noah lit up another joint and said, “I didn’t think Craig was doomed for a moment. Crazy, yes, doomed, no. Yeah, he did all that stuff, especially cocaine, and I bet none of you knew that he tried heroin that time he was in California.” Alice remembered when Craig was in California. “But he was always looking. Never missed a trick. Once he had me on the back of his motorcycle, that BMW, and we must have been doing about ninety, and he bent down and lit his cigarette on the cylinder casing. I never felt in danger for a moment, but I can’t tell you why. That same trip, a bug flew into his sunglasses and broke the lens. We just laughed about it and taped it up.”

“Just because you’re a fool,” said Ray, “doesn’t mean he wasn’t.”

“I don’t know about that. I will say, though, that I’d rather be on the back of that motorcycle doing a hundred than in almost any cab in New York.” He inhaled deeply from the joint that only he and Ray were smoking and went on, “It just always seemed that if there was anyone with eyes in the back of his head and the reflexes to get out of trouble, it was Craig, you know?”

“That’s what was so weird about this,” said Alice, realizing it for the first time. “I think the reason I couldn’t believe what I saw was that there didn’t look like there had been any trouble. That’s just the word. Something more subtle than no struggle, no trouble of any kind, as if nothing bad had taken place. When you’re little, sometimes other kids have these rubber spiders and things, and you get shocked before you know it. Well, this was just the opposite. I couldn’t believe that it wasn’t a joke. I couldn’t get shocked, even with the smell. And then, this afternoon, I felt funny, but as if I had the flu. Maybe I should have touched one of them.”

“There wouldn’t have been any smell,” said Ray. “Not so soon.”

“Well, there was.”

“After, what, eight hours? You’re imagining things.”

“Well, I’m not going to argue about it.”

“Oh, God,” said Rya. The conversation died.

Taking the last spoonful of bean curd, Noah said, “Just the other day we were rehearsing for this gig. Just setting up, really. That new guy, Zimmerman, the one Craig hired for percussion a few weeks ago, spilled a glass of water on the stage. No one saw but me. He hit it with his sleeve or something. Craig went over to fiddle with the amps. His guitar was on, and he had one hand around the neck, and he reached for one of the dials and lifted his foot. I opened my mouth to call out to him, and shit if he didn’t step just to one side of the water, and then he put his other foot just in front of it. I mean, you don’t know if he would have gotten a shock, but I thought to myself, there’s a lucky guy, there’s the classic example of a lucky guy.”

“And then he chewed Zimmerman out and practically fired him on the spot, didn’t he?” asked Ray, who hadn’t been there.

“You know Shellady. Patience wasn’t exactly his middle name.”

“Not hardly,” agreed Ray.

“I just think it’s the most awful thing.” Rya had thrown herself back against the giant gray pillows of Ray’s sofa. “We all do,” said Noah. “Shhh.”

“Did anyone call Zimmerman?” asked Alice.

“He’s been in the studio all day with some guys from the Coast. He probably knows by now, though.”

“Did you call Jim?” Noah dropped this rather tenderly into the conversation while Ray pretended to be busy cleaning off the table. Jim Ellis was as long a friend of the others as she was. “I should, shouldn’t I?” She glanced around.

“Do you want me to?” asked Ray.

“No thanks. Jim is so determined to be amicable that if I didn’t call, he’d assume I was too prostrate to talk to anyone.”

“I don’t see how you can put up with this by yourself,” whimpered Rya.

“Better one than three. I mean, what if he came and brought her? I’ll call him tonight. It’s only six there now.” She looked at each of their sympathetic faces and added, “I don’t mind talking to him, really. It’s been almost two years, you know.”

“Has it been that long?”

“It’s been that long since the final split, really and truly.”

“Amazing,” exclaimed Noah, holding another joint up in front of his face and admiring it, then putting it carefully with the others in his breast pocket. Watching him, Alice felt suddenly giggly, perhaps because after such an odd day, their evening meal hadn’t been odd at all, but familiar, usual, with each friend so much himself. They hadn’t forced any description out of her and the scene, having not been described, seemed to recede. Other people were dead and she was not. The fragrance of the trees on Riverside blowing in through Ray’s window reminded her fiercely
that it was good not to be dead. She pursed her lips to stop a giggle, and said, “I’d better go.”

“Not alone,” said Noah. Rya stood up. “Let’s call each other tomorrow,” she said. “We should know what’s going on first thing, especially about Susan.”

“By the time Rya gets up,” Noah put his arm around her shoulders, “most first things have happened long since.”

“That’s not true!”

T
HE
double row of stoplights and streetlights tapered to the vanishing point somewhere downtown, and the few vehicles on the broad expanse of West End Avenue seemed to Alice to roll with the deliberation and elegance of barouches in a park. It was a pretty sight, down the long slope toward Eighty-ninth Street, but there were no cabs. Noah and Rya, who lived nearby on Riverside, discussed walking Alice over to Broadway. Another man, about twenty yards away, appeared to be waiting as well. “Something will come along,” said Rya.

“Look. Two just went by going downtown on Broadway.”

“Just another minute or two,” said Rya.

“Why?”

“I just have a feeling something will come along.”

The man had edged closer. Alice didn’t mind waiting forever, the western breeze off the river was so gustily warm, practically as firm as another body against hers. “Now,” said Noah.

“Just wait a little longer,” said Rya. “The longer we wait, the sooner it’ll be until a taxi comes.”

“That’s ridiculous.”

The man was almost upon them. Alice stepped closer to Noah. The man said, “Waiting for a cab?”

“Yeah,” said Noah, surly.

“Me, too. Going downtown?”

“Only fifteen blocks or so,” demurred Noah.

“Me, too. How about sharing?”

By the streetlight Alice could see that he was about their age and dressed in a plaid shirt and jeans, just as Noah was. Noah glanced at her and she shrugged. Noah said, “Might be easier,” in a voice of studied doubtfulness.

“I’ve been waiting ten minutes.”

“Why don’t you go over to Broadway?”

“Lazy. Prettier here, anyway.”

Noah looked for a long second at Alice, then back at the man. “Let me see your driver’s license or something,” he said.

Unhesitatingly, the other man brought out his wallet, opened it, and presented the license to Noah. Noah said, “Henry Mullet. Remember that, Rya, Henry Mullet. We’re not going. It’s just Alice. Alice, this is Henry Mullet.” Right then a cab appeared around the corner of 106th Street. Henry waved it over, Rya embraced Alice, Noah gave her a kiss and told her to buck up and call him when she got home and any other time, absolutely any other time, they had to stick together, and suddenly she was in the cab and Henry was wiggling around to put his wallet away. Alice said “Eighty-fourth Street” to the cabbie and they sped away.

Henry Mullet smelled wonderful, as if he had been in the sun all day, tanning with coconut oil. Unable to resist, but as impersonally as possible, Alice said, “Have you been to the beach?”

“I was, actually. Fire Island.”

“Was it hot enough to sun?”

“It was out there. How did you guess?”

Alice didn’t answer.

“How did you guess? I put on clean clothes at my friends’ place.”

“I’m embarrassed to say.”

“Tell me.”

“You smell terrific.”

Henry Mullet grinned. Doing a perfect twenty-seven miles per hour, the cab made light after light, reds turning to greens like doors opened by footmen. Henry said, “You’re Alice? Alice what?”
Alice told herself that she would remember to tell Noah that he had asked her name. “Alice Ellis,” she replied.

“Are you kidding?”

“Not kidding a bit.” Henry Mullet chuckled with frank enjoyment. They were passing Ninetieth Street. “One of the pitfalls of early marriage.”

“It’s a nice name. It goes trippingly on the tongue.”

“No one could spell my maiden name, so I kept it.” They were passing Eighty-seventh Street. The cabbie said, “Where on Eighty-fourth, lady?”

“Halfway to Riverside, but you can drop me at the corner.”

“Me, too.” As Henry spoke, a little reflexive fear rose in Alice’s chest. How could she have been so foolish after all? She crossed the fingers of the hand away from him. But after all, he had heard Noah tell her to call him. And Noah knew his name. Alice coughed. The cab stopped and Henry had the fare; even as Alice was reaching into her purse, he was thrusting it into the cabbie’s box, opening Alice’s door for her, helping her out. As the taxi squealed away, he said, “Let’s walk in the middle of the street. My building’s that gray one with the awning, down there.” It was just across the street from hers. Suddenly trusting, she said, “Mine’s right there. Funny, huh?”

“Maybe.” He took her elbow and propelled her down the center of Eighty-fourth Street. “More light, less dog-do,” he said.

Alice laughed at the word. At a spot just between their buildings, he said, “I’ll stay here till you get in.”

“Thank you.”

“Wave to me sometime from your window.”

As Alice fit her various keys into the front doors, she turned and looked back at him. He was standing gravely in the middle of the street watching her.

2

J
UST
as Alice stood up from talking to Noah, already formulating in her mind how she was going to greet Jim, what tone of voice she would strive for, what she would say if Mariana answered, whether it would be better to call now, when it was eight o’clock their time, or wait an hour until nine, the phone rang, startling her so that she just stared at it for two more rings. She thought of Detective Honey, and wondered if he might be checking up on her. It was Ray. She thanked him for their generous dinner.

“Don’t thank me,” said Ray. “Whenever I go into that place, I can’t stop ordering.”

“It is good.”

“Someday I’d like to order a bit of everything on the menu.”

“Well, anyway, th—”

“What did you think?”

“Of what?”

“Of the way they were.”

“Noah and Rya?”

“I love your innocence. It’s so librarianly.”

“If I’m so innocent, then you tell me what you’re talking about.”

“Nothing, sweetie. I’ll call you tomorrow, all right?”

“Ray, when did we first meet?”

“Eleventh grade.”

“You were dating Julie Zimansky, right? Julie Zimansky was my second best friend. I know you put your tongue in Julie Zimansky’s mouth. Don’t pull this gay shit on me, Ray. Don’t call me ‘sweetie’ in that tone of voice.” She made a little circle with her finger in some crumbs on the table. There was a silence on the other end of the line. Ray was smoking a cigarette. Finally, he said, “It’s not shit.”

“I’m sorry, Ray. I just think you forget who you’re talking to sometimes.”

“Maybe.”

“Will you tell me what’s going on, then?”

“You really don’t know?” “Do I ever?”

“You did in eleventh grade.”

“I don’t know.”

“If I hadn’t thought you knew, I wouldn’t have brought it up.”

“But you did.”

Ray puffed a couple more times, then said, “Rya’s been sleeping with Craig for over a year now.”

“Says who? Ray, you always think that about everybody! Is that the big secret?”

“It’s not a secret.” He spoke briskly, stung.

“Is this something you’ve intuited or something you know?”

“Both.”

“I really can’t believe that Rya has even registered any other man since Noah. In the first place, she wouldn’t know how to keep it a secret, and in the second, they are an advertisement for passion, which is why they seem so simple minded.”

“In the first place, it was never a secret, or at least, wasn’t for long, and in the second, I don’t know that they do maintain the hottest fever.”

“You’re telling me that Noah knew?”

“He found out. I’m not sure when.”

“And she kept it up? And Craig kept it up? Noah’s been Craig’s bass player from the beginning! This is simply preposterous! Did Denny know? Did Susan know? The mere fact that I don’t know, and I would if Denny knew, is evidence that this is all a figment of your imagination. Did Noah or Craig or Rya tell you?”

“No.”

“Then I don’t believe it. I really don’t.”

“Ask Susan when she comes back.” He sounded so distant and cold that Alice purred into the phone, “Are your feelings hurt?”

He said only, “And there couldn’t have been any smell. Rigor mortis, yes. But decomposition wouldn’t have set in.”

“There was lots of blood. It smelled. It was hot. The windows were closed.”

“I still think—”

“Why do we have to argue about this? I know—”