Dragon Actually (9 page)

Instead, he let her go as abruptly as he’d grabbed her. And she couldn’t stop the whimper that escaped her throat when he broke off contact. He stared at her for a moment longer, than he stormed off. Just like that. Leaving nothing but the dull ache between her legs to keep her company.

Morfyd placed food in front of Annwyl and watched the girl ignore it. In fact, she hadn’t spoken since her return. Morfyd glanced over the girl’s body. She wore only her bindings and leggings, and for the first time Morfyd noticed the bruises, bloody nicks, and deep cuts that covered Annwyl’s body.

“Annwyl.” The girl’s green eyes flickered toward Morfyd. “Where did those bruises come from?”

“My training.” She made the statement as if Morfyd were supposed to know what the hell she spoke of.

“Your training?”

“Aye. With the knight.”

Morfyd’s eyes narrowed. “What knight?”

“The one who was here when I was healing. The dragon’s friend.”

Morfyd couldn’t hide her surprise as she took a sudden step back. Her brother with a knight friend? Not in this lifetime. Or any lifetime for that matter. And suddenly his recent desire to traipse into the village as human made sense.

“Ah, yes. His
knight
friend. And he’s done this to you?”

“You could say that.”

Morfyd nodded. She needed to find out what was going on. Now. The curiosity was killing her!

“Is the dragon here?” Annwyl asked hopefully.

“As a matter of fact, no. He’s not.” The girl went back to staring at the wall. “Eat, Annwyl. I need you to keep your strength up. Understand?”

The girl nodded but made no move to eat and continued to stare at her fascinating wall.

He looped around the glen, moving past a large boulder, heading for the back way into his den. He’d gone into town, running all the way, to order a few things and hopefully work the girl out of his system. It didn’t work. If he stumbled across her now, he’d have a hard time not taking her up against a tree. So, again, it looked as if his cold lake would be his only respite.

But as he came around the boulder he stopped. Morfyd stood waiting for him. Her eyes narrowed in anger, her arms crossed in front of her chest, one foot tapping sharply against the grass.

She glared at her brother for several moments. “I’m telling!” she barked. Then she was off.

“Morfyd!” He charged after her, snatching her around the waist before she could get away from him. She slapped at his hands. But when that didn’t work she slammed her elbow into his face. He released her and she spun around to face him.

The two siblings stared at each other. “Keep your mouth shut, sister.”

Morfyd hissed just before she latched onto a handful of Fearghus’s hair and pulled.

“You little . . .” He winced in pain and wrapped his arm under his sister’s leg, tossing her on her back. She didn’t let her grip on his hair go though, and instead reached up and punched him in the head. “
Ow
!” He slapped her hands away. Could this be more ridiculous? They were dragons. The mightiest killers in the known world. What the hell were they doing?

“Hold it! Just hold it!”

Morfyd stopped. “How could you lie to her like that?”\

“I’m not lying.”

“Did you go up to her and say ‘It’s me. Fearghus.’”

“Well, not exactly . . .”

“Liar!” She dragged herself off the ground by using her brother’s hair to pull herself to her feet.

“Stop yelling!”

She finally released her hold on Fearghus’s hair. “What are you up to, brother?”

“Getting her ready.”

She raised an eyebrow. “For what exactly?”

Dirty little . . .
“That’s not what I meant. Soon she will face her brother, and I’m making sure she’s ready to do that. I won’t watch her die.”

“That’s admirable, brother. But I still don’t know why you haven’t told her the truth. Told her who you are.”

“Our power to shift is one of our most sacred secrets. Do you think I’m going to reveal it to some little girl?” He motioned to his sister’s scarred face. “You even kept our secret while they cut your face.” For a moment, even Fearghus believed that excuse. Morfyd however . . .

“Ha! That’s a weak excuse, brother. If they’d known what I was they would have killed me or at least tried to. And I’d rather not be like old Terlack with only one wing. And I’m sure she wouldn’t harm a hair on that big, thick head of yours. So why don’t you simply admit the truth?”

“And what truth is that?”

“That you’re afraid. Afraid that once she knows who and what you are you don’t stand a chance with her.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I’ve seen how you look at her, brother. I’m not blind.”

“No, but you are insane. I have no interest in some human girl.” If he wasn’t careful, his lies would choke him. He wanted that girl more than life itself. He’d tried to walk away earlier, but he couldn’t. He just had to taste her again. And it took all his strength to stop himself from going further. From ripping off her clothes and burying himself inside of her until morning.

“You’re afraid that if she finds out her knight is really you . . . really a dragon, she won’t give you another look.” His sister stood in front of him now. Her blue eyes boring into his head. “You desire her, brother. And you don’t want anything to jeopardize that.”

Fearghus looked down at his sister. “Are you done?”

“Aye.”

“Then hear me well, sister. I don’t have to explain myself to you.” He leaned into her. “You just keep your mouth shut. I’ll tell her when I’m ready.”

“Fine. But you best hope it’s not too late, brother.” She punched him in the chest—hard—and walked away from him.

Fearghus sighed—he had too many damn females in his life.

Annwyl just started eating when Morfyd stormed back in. She stopped and looked at the witch. Watched her pace in front of her. “Is everything all right, Morfyd?”

Morfyd looked at her and Annwyl put her spoonful of food down. Based on the expression Morfyd wore on that scarred face of hers, Annwyl wanted to make sure she could sprint to the door if necessary.

“What’s going on with you and that knight?”

“What? Uh . . . nothing?”

Morfyd pulled a chair over, sat in it, and stared at Annwyl.

She’d always heard it was a bad idea to lie to a witch. “Well, he’s kissed me a few times.”

“And?”

“And nothing.”

“Nothing else has happened between the two of you?”

“No.”

“But you want more, don’t you?”

Annwyl’s face got hot. A blast of the dragon’s flame couldn’t make it any hotter than it was at this very moment. “I . . . uh . . .”

“Annwyl.”

“Yes. All right. I do want more.”

“So why has nothing more happened?”

Annwyl shrugged.

“Are you afraid? I know he’d be your first.”

“No. I’m not afraid.”

“Is it because you might become with child? Because as long as you keep drinking the wine—”

“No. No. That’s not it.” Morfyd waited for her to continue, but she didn’t think she could speak the full truth. Not out loud. “You’ll never understand.”

“Annwyl, I’m a witch. I understand much more than you could ever conceive. Just tell me before you shred my nerves.”

Annwyl looked into those clear blue eyes as she found herself wringing her hands. “I . . .” she swallowed, “I feel guilty.”

Morfyd tilted her head. Her brows pulled together in confusion. “Feel guilty about what?”

Annwyl closed her eyes and rushed forward before she lost all nerve. “I can’t help but feel I’m betraying the dragon.”

Silence followed her admission. She slowly opened her eyes to find Morfyd still staring at her. But her expression of anger and confusion were gone. Instead, she smiled. A smile of such kindness that Annwyl felt her heart warm for the scarred witch.

“I want you to do me a favor, Annwyl.”

“Anything.” And she meant it.

“If you want the knight, take him.”

Annwyl blinked. That wasn’t the response she’d expected.
Ever
. “What?”

“I’m sorry. Was I not clear? I said if you want him. Take him.”

“But . . .”

“Do not worry about the dragon. Just promise me. If this is what you want, you’ll take him.” She reached out her hand and ran it along Annwyl’s cheek. “Trust me, my friend.”

Annwyl watched Morfyd leave. Her confusion continued to grow by the day. The minute. The second.

She pushed her chair away from the table, slowly standing on wobbly legs. She needed to see the dragon. The one calming thing in her life. He was what he was and she loved him for that.

Fearghus, his head resting in the palm of his claw, sighed. Again.

“How many times must we do this?”

“Until I get it right.”

“Aren’t you tired? You had your training today, didn’t you?”

“Yes. But all we do is sword train. This hones my reflexes. Now do it again.”

Fearghus again sighed and swung his tail. Then he swung it back. He heard her squeal, but unlike before he didn’t hear her lovely bottom hit the ground. “Annwyl?” He turned around but she’d disappeared. His confusion lasted only a moment. He felt the weight on his tail. Slowly, doing his best not to laugh, he brought his tail around. The tip of it caught under her shirt and there she hung. “Are we done now?”

Her face took on a charming beet-red color. “Yes. We’re done now.”

“You sure? I mean, we can keep going if you like.”

She growled at him. “Enjoying this, are you dragon?”

“As a matter of fact, yes I am.”

“Down.” He carefully lowered her to the ground and watched her struggle to get untangled from his tail. She finally had to yank off her shirt and Fearghus took in a shaky breath. She wore no bindings.

She really needed to stop getting naked around him.

“I should be faster than that.”

“Annwyl, you’re tired. You had a long day. As did I.”

Annwyl raised an eyebrow as she pulled the shirt back on. “And what did you do all day?”

“Many things. Dragons are very busy higher beings.”

Annwyl smirked at him, her arms crossing in front of her voluptuous chest. “Higher beings, eh? It must be nice.”

“You need not feel jealous. You are much better than most humans.”

Annwyl laughed outright. And Fearghus realized how much he loved to see her smile. “Why thank you, oh mighty dragon.” She curtsied low.

“Now. Now, Annwyl. No need to curtsy. A simple nod of your head and absolute worship will be more than enough.”

Annwyl liked Fearghus more and more every day. At some point she began to think of him as
her
dragon. As if the great beast belonged to her and her alone. Ridiculous, of course. The dragon belonged to no one, but she found the feeling comforting.

She laughed now when she thought of how afraid she had been of him. Afraid of him and all his kind. That feeling seemed like ages ago. Now she found herself almost dreading the day she would have to leave. he and the dragon never spoke of it. They spoke of everything except her leaving.

And Annwyl did love talking to her dragon. She loved to hear the history of his kind. The stories of his family. She loved to hear him. Just the deep, rumbling sound of his dragon voice calmed her. Eased the rage that always pulsated just beneath the surface.

“Absolute worship? That’s a very tall order.”

“You are a very tall girl.”

Annwyl chuckled as she knelt before the dragon and held her hand out to him.

“I thought you knelt before no man.”

“You are a dragon. And don’t get your hopes up. I only want to see your talon.”

“I’m under such scrutiny,” he grumbled in annoyance, but laid one of his talons into her palm nonetheless. Coal black and smooth, its tip sharp and quite deadly. She closed her hand over it, marveling at the fact that her long fingers could barely reach around.

“What’s it like?”

“What? Being a dragon?”

“No.” She smiled as she released the talon. “Flying?”

He laughed. “Fine.”

“Fine? Just fine? That’s the best you can do?”

“Well, I’ve been flying most of my life so it’s not as interesting to me as it seems to be to you.”

“You take your gifts for granted, dragon.”

“As do you.”

“And what gifts do I have exactly? The ability to have my own brother trying to kill me?”

“The ability to inspire hardened warriors to follow you into battle. I know few who have such a gift as that.”

Annwyl shrugged. “They were desperate. No one else knows much about my brother.”

“If they were desperate, they would have sent you back to him with a ribbon around your head.”

Annwyl smiled at the dragon. He possessed the uncanny ability to make her feel as if she could challenge the entire world and win. And after a long day of being thrown on her back and told her rage would only get her killed, it was nice to come back to the lair and have the dragon make her feel like she was worth something.

She sat down on his front claw, leaning back against his forearm. She let out a deep, contented breath and felt her sore body begin to relax. She put her hands behind her head and looked off into the dark cavern, amazed at the size of the dragon’s home.

With mild sarcasm, “Comfortable?”

She wiggled her rear against his scales. “Yes. As a matter of fact, I’m quite comfortable, thank you.” She let his chuckle wash over her and her body relaxed even more.

“Annwyl?”

“Aye?”

“Did you get those marks on your back from your brother?”

Annwyl didn’t even have to look to know which marks he spoke of. There were scars from battle all over her body. But the ones her dragon spoke of were brutal whip marks that covered her back. Those scars had belonged to her for more years than she could remember.

“No.” Annwyl cleared her throat, and she admitted something to the dragon that she never admitted to anyone ever before. “I got these from my father.” She still hated the man. Even though he had been dead for so many years, she still hated him. She lowered her arms and laid her hands in her lap. “My brother has the same marks. One of the few things we have in common.”