Deceived (20 page)

She had lulled him into a false sense of security, of course, by her vague references to the
Belsyres
and to the fact that political dinners bored her. She had seen the horror on Marcus's face when he had finally realized that these were people with whom she was closely acquainted. He had been wondering what she might do to extract her revenge. And she could not deny that the moment had been sweet She had seen his shock and the way he had braced himself for whatever she was going to say. Turning the tables on him, feeling that power, had been heady.

Even so, she would not use it. That was not her way. If she could not have Marcus's good opinion—if she could not have Marcus's
love
—then she wanted nothing else from him other than that he would leave her alone. That was what she would bargain for.

By the time the ladies withdrew, Isabella would happily have kicked off her evening slippers, curled up on the sofa and gone to sleep, were it not for the fact that Princesses de
Lieven
and Esterhazy were intent upon discovering the reasons behind her hasty marriage to Marcus. Parrying their questions, she mentioned a past attachment and tried to turn the conversation. The
Belsyres
were such old family friends that they knew that she had been set to marry Marcus before Ernest had upset her plans. Isabella knew it was only a matter of time before the story of her original engagement to Marcus circulated, and then everyone would assume, as Rose
Belsyre
had already done, that this was a highly romantic reunion. They would think it a love match. How very ironic.

As soon as Marcus came into the room, she knew that he wanted to talk to her. She could read it in his face. She delighted in frustrating his efforts by engaging in animated conversation with everyone else and keeping her shoulder firmly turned toward him.

But she knew it was only a matter of time. Marcus was hardly a patient man. And then Princess de
Lieven
sabotaged her by patting the seat beside her and summoning Marcus over with a gesture that could not be ignored. Isabella thought that he complied with alacrity.

"We have been asking Lady Stockhaven what it was that prompted this whirlwind wedding, my lord," Princess de
Lieven
said. "It sounds remarkably romantic. A past attachment . . .old flames. . ."

Marcus looked at Isabella. His smoky dark eyes held a gleam she mistrusted. "Oh, it has been most romantic, ma'am," he agreed smoothly.

Isabella shifted. "Unimaginably so," she said.

The ladies sighed in unison at such a vision of loving bliss.

"And you have been wed for. . ." The princess paused, her gaze inquisitive.

'Ten days, ma'am," Marcus supplied.

"Each day more special than the last," Isabella said.

Marcus gave her a dark, direct look. "I am happy you should think so, my love."

"But then," Isabella said gently, "I do not have much to compare it with, do I?"

There was a slightly awkward silence while the princesses sensed that something was not quite as romantic as they had thought it.

"It said in the papers that it was a marriage of convenience," Princess Esterhazy put in, "but one can see from merely looking at you that such a notion is fair and far out."

"It could not be further from the truth, ma'am," Isabella agreed. "No marriage has ever been less convenient. Pray excuse me. I am sure that Lord Stockhaven will be happy to give you his own version of the match."

She had wanted to have a little time on her own in the peace of the ladies' withdrawing room, but she knew it was unlikely Marcus would give her that opportunity. She was quite right. He caught up with her before she was halfway across the room.

"A moment, madam."

He caught her wrist in a grip that was not tight but that she could not have broken without an undignified tussle.

"I do not care for this game of cat and mouse," he said softly. 'Tell me what you intend."

Isabella tilted her chin up. "I shall tell you nothing. I suggest that you accept the situation you are in—as others have been obliged to do before you."

"I accept nothing."

"You have no choice."

Marcus smiled at her. "Oh, I have a choice, Isabella. My one aim now is to get us both out of here and have this matter out with you once and for all."

Isabella moistened her lips. "I refuse to leave at your behest, my lord."

"Then I shall have to take extreme measures."

With a jump of the heart Isabella saw that Marcus's gaze, very dark and very intense was focused on her lips. The concentrated desire in his eyes shocked her even more deeply than the fact that he was about to kiss her in public.

"You would not dare." It came out woefully lacking in conviction. Of course he would dare. He would not even hesitate.

"
Tell me to stop, then." His lazy tone held a wealth of challenge. He was calling her bluff and God help her, she could not resist him.

Slowly, very slowly, he bent his head and captured her lips with his.

His mouth incited a heated response that she felt all the way down to her toes and then she was incapable of stopping him, incandescent with the passion that ripped through her as uncontrollably as fire. Time ceased to exist. Isabella was aware of nothing except the sensation of the kiss. Her lips trembled and then parted to the thrust of his tongue. Her head spun. When he released her, the room was still spinning.

"I
was about to ask Isabella what had determined her upon becoming Lady Stockhaven," Princess de
Lieven
said, very dryly, from her place on the sofa. "The question seems somewhat superfluous now."

Marcus's touch on her arm was triumphantly possessive. Isabella could feel it in every fiber of her being. He smiled at the room in general. "My apologies, ladies and gentlemen. Please excuse us. We have not been married very long."

There was some indulgent laughter at this.

"Do not let us keep you, Stockhaven," Henry
Belsyre
said. "Politics can wait, whereas some things cannot. We must arrange a meeting to discuss business soon."

"Thank you, sir," Marcus said.

Keeping Isabella pressed close to his side, he bent and spoke for her ears only. And his words sent a shiver of chill through her that she could not repress.

"It is time that you and I came to terms, my lady. I am coming home with you. Now."

CHAPTER TWELVE

I
t was not late but the house
in Brunswick Gardens was silent. Two lamps shone in the hall. The footman who held the front door for them was not as accomplished as Belton at hiding his feelings; his eyebrows shot up toward his hair before he diverted his incredulous gaze away from Marcus Stockhaven and fixed it on the highly polished marble floor. Under other circumstances, Isabella might have laughed. Her servants were not accustomed to her bringing gentlemen home.

It had been a hot night and they had traveled under a summer moon. It should have been romantic but Isabella had merely felt shaken and wary, and suddenly very afraid. Across from her, Marcus looked expressionless. He had already shrugged himself out of his jacket and waistcoat, and undone his neck cloth. Isabella had hoped profoundly that the heat was the reason for his state of undress rather than an imminent intention to ravish her in the carriage. She could not be sure. In the moonlight he'd looked both elegant and ruggedly virile in his shirtsleeves and she'd turned her face away from the sight.

"Why did you not turn to your friends when you were in debt?" Marcus had asked her suddenly. "They would have been wilting to help you."

Isabella had sat up a little straighter. "I do not borrow money from my friends," she said.

"Pride is an expensive commodity," Marcus had said.

"It is not pride, Stockhaven," Isabella said quietly. "It is self-respect."

They did not speak again until the carriage had drawn up in Brunswick Gardens and Marcus had helped her inside.

As Belton came forward to greet them his step did not falter nor did his discreet facade waiver at the sight of the Princess Isabella Di Cassilis arriving home on the arm of her husband. He merely bowed.

"Good evening, Your Serene Highness, my lord. . ." His nod was stiff and proper. "I trust that you enjoyed the dinner? May I fetch you any refreshment?"

"Thank you, Belton," Isabella said, stripping off her gloves. "I shall take a glass of port in the study." She flicked a glance at Marcus. "No, better make that a bottle. Lord Stockhaven?"

Marcus had come forward to help her remove her cloak, cutting out the butler whose expression became, if anything, even more wooden. Isabella felt Marcus's hands on her shoulders, slipping the garment from her. It felt extraordinarily intimate and she moved from under his touch as quickly as she could.

"Brandy, if you please," Marcus said.

"Certainly, my lord," Belton said
starchily
and withdrew.

The footman threw open the doors of the study and closed them softly behind them, leaving the pair in silence.

Isabella crossed to the window and pulled back the long curtains, welcoming the cool draft on her hot face. She felt tense and edgy. Neither of them seemed anxious to be the first to speak.

Marcus was standing with his back to the fire, hands in pockets, looking both relaxed and fully in command of himself and the situation, and suddenly Isabella was tired. Tired of the pretence and the struggle and the sheer misery of estrangement. She turned to Marcus and held his gaze very directly.

"You are trying to break me, Stockhaven," she said, "but you will not succeed."

Marcus came across to her and took her by the shoulders. He stared down into her defiant eyes.

"No," he said, and a slight smile curled the corner of his mouth. "I do not believe that I shall."

"Then. . ." Isabella made a slight gesture. "What do you want from me?"

"I want to come to terms," Marcus said again. "I want an explanation. I want a reckoning, and I want a wedding night. What do
you
want?"

Isabella took a deep breath. "I want you to let me go."

Marcus's gaze flared. "Then it is a bargain. If you give me what I want, I shall fulfill my side of the agreement."

Isabella stared at him, frozen. The room was shadowed and warm, a place for intimacies and confidences. Except that she did not feel like confiding in Marcus Stockhaven. She felt cold and betrayed and unhappy. Before she had understood the extent of his mistrust of her she might have given him the explanation that he craved. Now it felt like a hopeless waste of time. She would lay the past bare and still face his scorn and she was not sure that she could stand that.

As for the wedding night . . .

The thought made her whole body tremble. A part of her wanted it passionately, desperately, but she knew she could not give herself to a man who hated her. She was hopelessly drawn to Marcus. She always had been. A stubborn part of her told her that it was not too late, they could be lovers again. But cold reality made it impossible.

Marcus came across to her and took her arm in a light grip that nevertheless held her still. The icy cold was seeping through her whole body.

"I do not pay my debts in that way," Isabella said. She lifted her chin and looked at him in the eye. "Make no mistake of it, Stockhaven. I do not want to have to explain myself to you. That is bad enough. I cannot see what good it will do now, after all this time, and I believe I owe you nothing. But—" she gave a tiny shrug "—if you insist, then talking to you is the lesser of two evils, is it not?"

Marcus stared down into her eyes for a long moment and she was afraid that he would see everything that she was keeping so tightly locked within—all the misery and the long-held secrets and the love and the fear. After a moment his grip on her arm loosened and he stepped back, but his face did not soften.

"It is all or nothing."

All or nothing. The reckoning. The wedding night. And in return, freedom. . .

The future seemed to spread before Isabella like a tantalizing web. The peace and freedom to live as she wanted, not as someone else dictated. She had waited such a long time for that opportunity. Her father had denied it to her by forcing her to marry Ernest. Ernest had denied it to her by dictating her every royal move and Marcus, unbearably, had also sought to make her live as he wanted.

She ached to be free. Liberty was so close and yet so tantalizingly beyond her grasp.

"I want Salterton," she said.

"It will be yours."

"And the means to keep it."

"Of course."

"I want . . ."

An annulment would be out of the question if the marriage were consummated. Isabella took a deep breath, willing herself not to think about that, not yet.

"I want a legal separation."

She thought for a moment that Marcus was going to refuse. A muscle tightened in his jaw.

"Very well," he said. His tone was rough.

"I do not trust you," Isabella whispered.

Marcus shrugged.
"I
am not a man who breaks his word. And if I did break it, you could swallow that pride of yours and go to the
Belsyres
and tell them whatever you liked about me. You know you could ruin my ambitions for the future ten times over if you chose."

There was an ache of tears in Isabella's throat. "I do not want it to be like this."

"This is how it is." Marcus's face was as hard as stone.

There was not a great deal of choice. Isabella knew she could either live this half life, an estranged wife in love with her husband and with no hope for the future, or she could buy her freedom and escape an intolerable situation.

Marcus was watching her.

"Very well." She cleared her throat. "I agree."

"Oh dear, oh dear
," Penelope Standish said unhappily. She was sitting with Alistair Cantrell in the Lime Street Coffee House. It was scarcely appropriate for a spinster to be taking coffee late at night with a gentleman alone, but Pen was not concerned that she was in any danger from Alistair Cantrell. She had seldom felt safer with anyone. They had met in the doorway of the offices of the editor of the
Gentlemen
's
Athenian Mercury.
Pen had been mortified. She had spent the evening working on a scandalous piece about Isabella that drew on old gossip as well as current speculation and, once it was written, she had hurried to deliver it to the newspaper, as though getting it off her hands quickly would somehow lessen her guilt. Morrow, the editor, had been delighted with it. Pen's blood money, a sovereign, was even now weighing down her reticule. She had already started to think of all the things she would spend the money on. And then she had collided with Alistair in the doorway and he had looked at her in the perceptive way of his and the wretched coin felt as though it was bursting into flames in her bag, a sign of her treachery. She had stuttered some greeting—goodness knows what—and tried to scuttle past, and then Alistair had put his hand on her arm, obliging her to stop.

"Miss Standish, might I have a word?"

And Pen had known that she was lost.

They sat in a quiet corner of the coffeehouse while the raffish nightlife of the city spun unnoticed around them.

"Miss Standish," Alistair Cantrell repeated. "You may tell me to mind my own business, of course, but I do wonder what you can be doing at the offices of the most scurrilous newspaper in Town."

"Oh dear," Pen said again. In her agitation she put another spoonful of sugar in her coffee and stirred it with quick, spiky gestures.

Alistair looked at her very directly. "You seem very fond of your sister," he said. "It makes me curious as to why you would then sell stories about her to the press."

Pen's shoulders slumped. She could lie, of course, but somehow the necessity of lying to Alistair seemed impossible.

"How did you know?" she asked in a very small voice.

Alistair smiled. "By logical deduction. The person selling the information had the kind of knowledge of Princess Isabella's life that only a confidante would know. It had to be someone very close to her. And then I met you coming out of the editor's office—" He shrugged. "Well, it seemed fairly conclusive."

"Yes," Pen said. "Yes, it was me. I feel very ashamed."

There was a pause.

"Forgive me, Miss Standish, but you do care for Princess Isabella, don't you?"

Pen's face twisted. "Yes. Oh, yes of course! Bella is the dearest creature and I love her very much." She sat forward. Would it be possible to make Alistair understand? He seemed a very loyal man and not one to condone this sort of deception. Pen found that she wanted his good opinion.

"You see, Mr. Cantrell—" she gave him an appealing look "—I have absolutely no money and I have to do something in order to survive." She hesitated, anticipating his next question. "The reason why is not important. But when I thought about it, selling scandal about Bella was the only thing that I could do. At least," she amended as she caught sight of a painted courtesan leaving the
coffeeshop
on the arm of a gentleman, "it was the only thing I wanted to sell."

Alistair's lips twitched as he followed her gaze. "I understand you, Miss Standish. It is a melancholy thing for a lady to be in such reduced circumstances and be obliged to look about her for other means of support, but even so. . ."

"I know," Pen said. "You cannot despise me any more than I do myself, Mr. Cantrell. I kept telling myself that I would stop, but I could not. It was too tempting. And Bella did not seem to mind very much when she read the reports—" She broke off. "I know it is no excuse."

Alistair touched her hand briefly. Pen was shocked and more than a little intrigued.

"I worry about Bella," she said, to cover her surprised reaction. "I know that may sound absurd under the circumstances, but I do care for her."

Alistair nodded. "I understand."

Pen found the urge to confess further was all too strong.

"Despite the fact that Bella is my elder sister and so. . ."
She groped for words. "So experienced—oh no, I do not mean in that way, more that she has seen a great deal of the work!—" her blue eyes met Alistair's hazel ones briefly "—despite all that, I sometimes have the most disturbing feeling that she does not entirely know what she is doing."