Dancing with a Rogue (42 page)

Her legs went around him, drawing him even deeper inside as sensations cascaded through her, even as she knew that this was but a prelude, that together they were rushing toward some paradise.

A cry escaped her and his mouth came down on hers, his kiss snatching the sound from her even as he made one last thrust and erupted inside her, sending waves of shuddering warmth through her, then explosions that rocked her body and cast a rich, mellow glow in its wake.

He collapsed on her for a moment, then rolled over on his side, carrying her with him. He held her tightly, and she heard the beat of his heart, the sound of withheld breath.

Her body still quaked with aftershocks of pleasure as she felt him move and withdraw from her. She felt him shudder as he held her for a long time, his hands moving possessively but gently over her. She, in turn, explored his back with her hands, her fingers catching in crinkly sandy tendrils at the back of his neck.

“I never knew it could be like this,” she whispered.

“It is usually not,” he said. “This is rare.”

She was pleased at that. “Truly?” she asked.

“Truly,” he confirmed with that deep, husky drawl.

“Are you going to leave again?” she asked, hating the question but having to know the answer.

“No, not now.”

“Then later?”

He wrapped his arm tighter around her and pulled her closer. He leaned over and feathered kisses across her cheek. “You know we might have a child.”

She stiffened slightly. She knew. She had known nights ago when he had first taken her to bed. She of all people knew the dangers of such a liaison. Yet, she had closed her mind to the possibility.

She did not answer, only opened her eyes to look at him. “You must have … made love before,” she said. “Did you not worry about it then?”

“I was careful,” he said, his fingers drawing hair from her face. “The women knew what to do.”'

“And you do not think I do?”

His lips crooked at one side in a half smile. “
Non
,” he said, mimicking her in an oddly warm way. “I did not know you were a virgin the other night. Had I but known …”

“Is that why you left? You did not want responsibility?” She forced the words out.

“No, pretty lady. That is not why. I take responsibility for what I do. But I realized then …”

She waited for him to continue.

“That I felt far stronger than I wanted to feel,” he finally continued, his eyes intent on hers. It was one of the few times he'd allowed any emotion to show. “What I am doing is dangerous, Monique. I did not want you involved in it.” He took her fingers, catching them in his hands, which only now she noticed were hard with calluses.

“Perhaps you did not notice I was already involved,” she said.

“I did not know that you could also break into a safe.”

“I did not know you were a thief.”

He watched her carefully. “Perhaps it is time for more honesty between us.”

She stiffened.

“Why?” he said. “Why are you risking your life to steal something Stanhope would give you? Especially if you did not intend to keep it.”

She looked at him straight in the eyes. “The same reason I started the contest between the three men. I wanted them to turn on one another.”

“Why was that so important?”

“I told you Stanhope hurt someone I cared about.”

“Who?”

“My mother. Stanhope ruined her, then tried to have her killed. She had to flee England but had no funds, no talents, no references. She was English in a French city. She ended up going from man to man, each a little poorer, each a little more brutal. From what you said, he had done that before.”

His eyes never left her, but his fingers touched her chin. “And you … how did you escape the same fate?”

“One of my mother's friends was an actress. She saw me mimic someone in the streets and took me to her theater company. I helped with makeup and costumes and studied. There was one small part and then another.”

“And your mother?”

“She died of pneumonia. Not enough food. Not enough heat. Not any hope. She just … faded away.”

“She was English?”

Monique nodded.

His hand tightened around hers. “You cannot let it go?”

“Can
you
?” she asked.

“I am not sure what you mean?”

Disappointment, even anger, filled her, making the sense of euphoria fade. She had told him her secrets—at least part of them and he was still playing the fool.

She withdrew her hand and moved away. “I do not think you stole those jewels, or even came to England, to save an impoverished estate.”

He caught her hand again and pulled her to him. “My father,” he said in a voice ragged with emotion. “Stanhope and his friends framed him. He was to be charged with treason. He shot himself minutes after asking me to clear his name someday. He wrote down the three names of the men responsible.”

The smile was gone now. Agony was in his eyes. She wondered whether the same grief had shone in her own eyes minutes earlier.

“I heard the shot,” he said in a cold hard voice. All the warmth was gone. “I saw him lying in a pool of his blood. It killed my mother as well but it took her several more years to take her final breath.”

She slowly exhaled. She hadn't realized the breath was caught in her throat. “How old were you?”

“Ten.”

“He asked that of a ten-year-old boy?” Horror edged her voice.

“There was no one else,” he said. “My mother …” He stopped. “But that is something else …”

He worked his fingers between hers, then clutched them tightly.

“I had the same idea as you did,” he said, changing the subject away from his own pain. “Turn them against each other. But I have something else in mind as well. I need his confidence first. I have to be his partner in a venture, then there will be papers … I do not want to kill him. I want the government to do that for me. I want him disgraced. Then I want his government to punish him. They have ways … that I think would be worse than death for him.”

She was silent, shifting through the words. Bitter words. As bitter as her own had been. They were both here for the same reason. It astounded her. And it broke her heart.

And the past few hours she realized she loved him. She loved the gentleness that was counterpart to the hardness she also saw in him. She loved his quiet competence and grace.

“What are you really?” she asked.

The severity of his face eased slightly. “When I am not an impoverished lord?”

“
Oui
.”

“A sailor,” he said simply.

“More than that, I think. A captain, perhaps?”

He hesitated, and she knew that he wondered whether he was saying too much. He must have some secrets left of his own. Just as she did. And if she pried into his, he might well pry into hers. What would he think if he knew she was Stanhope's daughter? The daughter of a whore and a murderer?

She shuddered and he pulled her back down next to her, holding her tightly in his arms.

Despite his warmth, though, she felt a chill. She loved him. But she did not altogether trust his ability to accept her. They had made love, but they had been brought together by hatred. What kind of future could that possibly bring?

I
can forget about my mother.

But she could not. She had started something that had taken on a life of its own. She had worked toward justice since her mother died years ago. And then there was Pamela. What would happen to her if she left?

Manchester's hand turned her face so he could see it. “Will you leave? Go to Boston and wait for me there? I can make the arrangements.”

“And you?”

“I will take care of Stanhope.”

“No,” she said. “It is my battle. You can leave and I will join you later.”

“Do you really believe I will leave you to finish what I started? Leave you in danger?”

“Then we are at a stalemate,” she said.

“What if we left together, leave Stanhope to his own fate?”

“What about Pamela?”

“We can take her with us.”

Her eyes glowed for a moment, then the brightness faded. “I do not think she will come. Her young man …”

“As long as Stanhope lives, she will never have him. Not if she stays here,” he said. “And what would you say to her? Run off to America with us. She does not really know either of us. We can offer her little.”

She bit her lip. “We can … work together here, you and I. We did well at Stanhope's manor.” She had summoned all her courage to make that offer.

“There is too much risk.” There was no give in his statement. It was a denial plain and simple.

“Then I will do what I have been doing,” she said defiantly. “With you or without you.”

His finger traced the bones in her cheek, then went her neck and rested there. “It is a lovely neck,” he said. “I do not want to see it hurt.”

“You cannot frighten me. I have considered all the consequences.”

“Has Dani? If she had been caught the other night, neither of us could have saved her.”

He had found the one consequence that concerned her the most. “I did not want her to come.”

“My Smythe is quite taken with her,” he said.

She wondered why he was changing the subject.

“She likes him,” she replied cautiously.

“They could get a new start in America.”

“And his family?”

“They, too. I am associated with a shipping company. I can arrange passage for them all. There are many opportunities there for willing hands. He would do well.”

She shivered slightly and his right arm went back around her. “Think about it,” he said. “Think about leaving with them. I will be there soon after.”

He pulled her to him and his lips met hers and reason fled. Tomorrow. There would be time tomorrow to make decisions.

That was her last rational thought before their bodies met again, and his lips rained kisses on the nape of her neck. Her body started tingling again, and she felt the complete wanton as she wrapped her arms around him and brought him even closer to her.

Her fingers ran around the back of his neck, and she heard the soft groan. “Ah, Monique,” he said.

“Merry,” she corrected softly.

His lips left hers, and he nuzzled her earlobes a moment. She wondered whether he had even heard her.

Then he looked at her, a half smile on his lips. “Merry.” It was as if he were rolling it on his tongue. “A pretty name.”

“A whimsical name,” she said. “My mother always yearned for things she could not have, but she had high hopes for me.” She heard the sadness in her own voice. For a moment she was back in the dark, cold room where her mother had died.

Then Gabriel ran his tongue along the back of her neck and the momentary melancholy faded. She needed his warmth, his comfort, his strength. She'd never realized how lonely she'd been until these past few days.

But so many words were still impossible between them. Her secret had been held so deeply all these years that it was locked inside. Her mother had told her over and over again that revelation and discovery would mean death. She had lived with a fear that had been so locked into her soul that she did not think she could ever share it.

She had told Dani, only to make her understand how dangerous this journey was, and why she'd needed certain skills that Dani and her acquaintances had.

And now Manchester had asked her to go to America. But he'd said nothing of love, or marriage. He had kept a part of him detached from her just as she had done.

For a moment an iciness in her soul counteracted the heat kindled by his body. Then his lips captured her mouth again in a long, smothering kiss, and she felt the same tormenting need that had racked her body earlier. It was painful, yet so exquisitely new and compelling and wonderful that she felt she couldn't breathe.

“Merry?” She noticed he was still tasting the name on his lips.

She raised her eyes to meet his. They were intense and brooding.

She had never seen them like that before. In the past they had been clear, revealing little, or amused.

He was asking her a question. Should he continue? She wondered why he was asking now.

But then she felt desperation of her own. Uncertainty. Would she—could she—forgive herself if she left undone a goal she'd had nearly all her life? Could she ever live in peace knowing Stanhope was alive and probably seeking new victims?

He was waiting for an answer to the unspoken question. It hovered in the air.

She swallowed hard, then touched his face with her hand. This might be one of the last times she saw him. He would not like what she was considering.

“Do not leave me,” she said. “Not now.”

He leaned toward her and kissed her with a tender violence. Every movement of his body made hers hum with feelings. His breathing was ragged against her hair, and her body moved toward his, hungry, so very hungry.

This time their bodies merged with a violence and need that eclipsed everything else.

“Gabriel,” she cried out.

His lips quieted her but she felt the fierce hunger in both of them, the need that neither could control. He drove deeper inside her as if claiming her for his very own. Her body pulsed with his, danced in his, each giving in a way they had not before.

And then there was a shattering burst of ecstasy, a pleasure so strong she wanted to remain in his arms forever. They lay there together, their hearts beating in rapid tandem, their bodies damp with sweat.

Her body shuddered with the marvels of aftermath, ripples of sensation continuing to flow through her as she relaxed in his arms, trying not to think it could be the last time.

Chapter Twenty-four

They had a late supper. A very late supper.