Crazy in the Kitchen
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Authors: Louise DeSalvo
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C
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Food, Feuds, and Forgiveness in an Italian American Family
L
OUISE
D
E
S
ALVO
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DeSalvo, Louise A., 1942
Crazy in the kitchen : food, feuds, and forgiveness in an Italian American family / Louise
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1. DeSalvo, Louise A., 1942 Childhood and youth. 2. DeSalvo, Louise A., 1942 Family.
3. Italian Americans— New Jersey— Biography. 4. Italian Americans— New Jersey— Social life
and customs. 5. Italian American families— New Jersey. 6. Italian Americans— Ethnic identity.
7. Cookery, Italian— Social aspects. 8. Food— Social aspects. I. Title.
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for Edi, for Ernie, for Craig, for my father,
and in memory of my grandparents
And might it not be . . . that we also have appointments to keep in the past, in what has gone before and is for the most
part extinguished, and must go there in search of places and people who have some connection with us on the far side of time
. . . ?
W. G. Sebald,
Austerlitz
CONTENTS
There were wild things in my grandparents' stories about the Mezzogiorno, the South of Italy, the land that they came from
so many years ago, always wild things. Wild jackasses that tossed you off their backs if you dared to mount them, that wouldn't
let you ride them through the sun-scorched fields in the heat of day to get to the field where you had to work. Wild wolves
that came into villages at night to carry babies away to eat them, which was one reason why it was necessary, always necessary,
to close up a house at night, even in summertime, even here in America, even on the fourth floor of a tenement in Hoboken,
New Jersey.
There were wild, raging seas that surrounded the land my grandparents came from, wild seas that drowned fishermen, that spun
overloaded ferryboats around and around and then swamped them so that they sank to the bottom of the sea. There were rogue
waves forty feet high that engulfed seaside villages, that left no trace of buildings or of people when the waters receded.
Rainfalls so powerful they made the land slide away, down hillsides, or into the sea. Rainfalls so relentless in some years
that they washed away all the good earth and made it impossible to grow anything to eat.
And even the earth was wild. There were earthquakes that came without warning, that opened deep gouges in the earth's crust,
earthquakes that swallowed people, animals, houses, entire villages. Earthquakes that made buildings crack and crumble and
come crashing down on families eating their suppers, praying together, tangled together on the floor in sleep. There were
volcanoes that erupted, covering villages with lava, volcanoes spewing deadly gases that suffocated people as they were arguing,
gathering food, working in the fields, sweeping steps, cleaning houses, cooking supper, baking bread.
There were wild sandy winds that came up from Africa that could rip the stubble off your face if you hadn't shaved in the
morning, or, if you had, could leave your face as scratched and scarred as if you'd had a ferocious argument with a wild woman.
There were bitterly cold winds that came down from the north in winter that could turn a person in a field into a frozen statue.
There was the sun in July and August, about which my grandfather always shook his head. The sun that baked the ground, that
took every droplet of moisture from it, that raised blisters on your body, that made working in the fields in summer a purgatory,
that turned people like my grandfather who worked the land as dark as the land they worked. And, my grandfather said, those
who worked the fields in summer in the land where he came from would go straight to heaven no matter how many evils they had
committed because, by doing this work, they had already atoned for their sins.
In my grandparents' stories, there were swarms of mosquitoes that could engulf you, give you a hundred mosquito bites, and
malaria, which could kill you. Dangerous vipers that fell out of trees and wound themselves around your neck and choked you
to death. Vipers that slithered out from under rocks and struck you and poisoned you. There were tarantulas that could bite
you and drive you crazy. And the only cure, my grandfather said, was to dance and dance and dance until you fell to the ground,
exhausted, and then you would be cured, because the dancing had used up all the poison.
There were feral cats that ate their babies, my grandmother said, which was all right, because the babies would die anyway—
there wasn't even enough food for people in the land where my grandparents came from. There were bands of wild dogs, even
more dangerous than wolves, my grandmother said, because wolves tra- veled at night, but dogs traveled during the day, and
in packs, so you could encounter them while you were in the fields and this was why you needed a stout stick, when you worked
outdoors, to beat off the dogs.
There were parents wild with grief because their babies had been taken away by wolves and eaten, or because their children
had died of malaria, or of starvation, or for no reason at all. There were wild gangs of children without parents, roving
the streets, living in alleyways, under bridges, in railroad tunnels, wild gangs of children, stealing money, stealing clothing,
stealing newspapers for bedding, wood for fires to warm them, stealing food or garbage so they would not starve, and these
gangs of wild children would crawl all over you if they caught you, and take the hat off your head, the boots off your feet,
your overalls, your money if you had any, your long underwear even, my grandfather said. There were wild gangs of bandits
hiding out in the countryside, living in caves, who would beat you and steal from you and maybe kill you if you were unlucky
enough to encounter them.
There were men wild with rage at their wives or sisters who disgraced them, who dragged their women into the piazzas of villages
to beat them so that all would see they were men who could keep them in line, my grandmother said. And there were men wild
with rage at their children who had to be beaten to make them obedient, and children so wild that no amount of beating would
make them behave. There were wild girls who would become wild women no decent man would marry, roaming the streets after dark,
going with any man, for a coin, for a meal, for a place to sleep, disgracing their families, making it impossible for their
sisters to marry, getting old, getting ugly, getting diseases, dying alone.
And there were ferocious invading armies as far back as anyone could remember— armies of Romans, Lombards, Greeks, Arabs,
Germans, French, Spanish. Some would murder everyone in a village, burn the buildings to the ground, leave no evidence of
life. Others would force the people to become slaves, would work them to death or move them to faraway places. And none of
these invaders, my grandparents said, had ever helped the poor of the South. And the people from the North, my grandfather
said, they were invaders, too.
And this was why there were men and women who joined wild bands of peasants and brigands and anarchists who fought the invaders,
who rebelled against the conquerors (and I imagined my ancestors among them), and this had been going on for as long as anyone
could remember. And, my grandparents said, many of our people— men, women— fought for their right to a crust of bread even
though the government called up armies to fight our people when they rebelled.
But there were wild vegetables more delicious than any in America, and some you couldn't even get here. There were
lampascioni
(bulbs of the wild tassel hyacinth),
cicorielle
(wild chicory),
acetosella
(sorrel),
radicchielle
(dandelion) that you could find in the fields, and cook and dress with olive oil and a little salt, if you had any. But you
needed permission from the landowners to scavenge, which wasn't often granted, or you could steal them, which is what my grandmother
did when she was hungry, but stealing was dangerous.
And there were wild fish in the lakes and streams and in the sea, but you could not fish without permission because it was
against the law. The rich, my grandfather said, owned everything. The poor, my grandfather said, owned nothing in the land
where he came from, they did not even own their own shit, which was taken from them by the landlords for fertilizing the fields
where the poor, like my grandfather, worked for almost nothing.
But there were wild flowers in spring everywhere— asphodel, mustard, orchids tiny as a fingertip, scarlet poppies— and these
flowers were the earth's gift to the poor, my grandparents said, and they were so beautiful they could make you cry. The flowers,
I liked to hear about, because there were very few in Hoboken, mostly pots of geraniums on fire escapes. But one summer, my
grandfather showed me a flower growing between the cracks of the sidewalk on our block, and he told me that this flower, the
cornflower, also grew in the land where they came from.
My grandfather said that except for the flowers, it was hard to live with all these wild things, but that it was hardest of
all to live with the wild things— the fish and the vegetables— that could have appeased your hunger but that you couldn't
have.
Then one day, my grandfather told me, there were wild gangs of people rushing up gangplanks to steamships in all the ports
of the land where my grandparents came from, clutching suitcases and packages and babies, for their trip across the ocean
to America. And one of these people was my grandfather, and then, later, one of these people was my grandmother. This was
how my mother's parents had come to America, my grandfather said. And this was how my father's parents had come to America
too, and their story was similar but not the same.
And, no, my grandparents said, they would never go back to that place, they spit on that place, they said, though not because
of the wild things that were there. They spit on that place because there, no matter how hard you worked, you stayed poor.
The place they came from, my grandfather said, was like a parent who wouldn't feed its hungry children, a parent who cast
out its daughters and sons to scavenge for food in other places. Wherever you could earn your crust of bread, wherever you
didn't go hungry, my grandparents said, is where you should call home.
After my grandparents died, I forgot what they had told me about the place my ancestors came from. Years later, I began to
remember their stories. And then I learned that their stories, which I believed were fabrications when I was young, were true,
all true.