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Authors: K. M. Walton

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Cracked

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Victor:

I have wished that Bull Mastrick would die almost every single day. Not that I would ever have anything to do with his death. I’m not a psychopath or some wacko with collaged pictures of him hanging in my room and a gun collection. I’m the victim.

Bull:

I fought my way through elementary school and middle school. My nose has been broken and my pinkie on my right hand has been snapped the wrong way and my lip’s been ripped open a bunch of times. But people leave me alone. I’m sort of over beating kids up.

Sort of.

Victor hates his life.

He has no friends, he gets beaten up at school, and his parents are always criticizing him. Tired of feeling miserable, Victor takes a bottle of his mother’s sleeping pills—only to wake up in the hospital.

Bull is angry,

and he takes all of his rage out on Victor. That makes him feel better, at least a little. But it doesn’t stop Bull’s grandfather from getting drunk and hitting him. So Bull tries to defend himself with a loaded gun.

When Victor and Bull

end up as roommates in the same psych ward, there’s no way to escape each other or their problems. Which means things are going to get worse—much worse—before they get better.

K. M. Walton

spent twelve years teaching and loved every minute. She has a penchant for reading
Entertainment Weekly
cover to cover, and she lives in Pennsylvania with her husband and two sons.
Cracked
is her first novel. Visit her at kmwalton.com or follow her on Twitter at @KMWalton1.

Jacket designed by
RUSSELL GORDON

Jacket photograph copyright © 2012 by
DAVIES AND STARR/GETTY IMAGES

Author photograph by
TODD WALTON

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Walton, K. M. (Kathleen M.)

Cracked / by K. M. Walton. — 1st Simon Pulse hardcover ed.

p. cm.

Summary: When Bull Mastrick and Victor Konig wind up in the same psychiatric ward at age sixteen, each recalls and relates in group therapy the bullying relationship they have had since kindergarten, but also facts about themselves and their families that reveal they have much in common.

ISBN 978-1-4424-2916-1

[1. Emotional problems—Fiction. 2. Family problems—Fiction. 3. Bullies—Fiction. 4. Self-esteem—Fiction. 5. Psychotherapy—Fiction. 6. High schools—Fiction. 7. Schools—Fiction.] I. Title.

PZ7.W177Cr 2012

[Fic]—dc23

2011010340

ISBN 978-1-4424-2918-5 (eBook)

“Everything’s Not Lost”

Words and Music by Guy Berryman, Jon Buckland, Will Champion and Chris Martin

Copyright © 2000 by Universal Music Publishing MGB Ltd.

All Rights in the United States and Canada Administered by Universal Music-MGB Songs

International Copyright Secured All Rights Reserved.

Reprinted by permission of Hal Leonard Corporation.

To my mom, Mary Anne Becker-Sheedy, this dedication is a drop in the bucket.

An ocean full of drops wouldn’t be enough to thank you for your unwavering belief in me.

Contents

Chapter 1: Victor

Chapter 2: Bull

Chapter 3: Victor

Chapter 4: Bull

Chapter 5: Victor

Chapter 6: Bull

Chapter 7: Victor

Chapter 8: Bull

Chapter 9: Victor

Chapter 10: Bull

Chapter 11: Victor

Chapter 12: Bull

Chapter 13: Victor

Chapter 14: Bull

Chapter 15: Victor

Chapter 16: Bull

Chapter 17: Victor

Chapter 18: Bull

Chapter 19: Victor

Chapter 20: Bull

Chapter 21: Victor

Chapter 22: Bull

Chapter 23: Victor

Chapter 24: Bull

Chapter 25: Victor

Chapter 26: Bull

Chapter 27: Victor

Chapter 28: Bull

Chapter 29: Victor

Chapter 30: Bull

Chapter 31: Victor

Chapter 32: Bull

Chapter 33: Victor

Chapter 34: Bull

Chapter 35: Victor

Chapter 36: Bull

Chapter 37: Victor

Chapter 38: Bull

Chapter 39: Victor

Chapter 40: Bull

Chapter 41: Victor

Chapter 42: Bull

Chapter 43: Victor

Chapter 44: Bull

Chapter 45: Victor

Chapter 46: Bull

Chapter 47: Victor

Chapter 48: Bull

Chapter 49: Victor

Chapter 50: Bull

Chapter 51: Victor

Chapter 52: Bull

Chapter 53: Victor

Chapter 54: Bull

Chapter 55: Victor

Chapter 56: Bull

Chapter 57: Victor

Chapter 58: Bull

Chapter 59: Victor

Chapter 60: Bull

Chapter 61: Victor

Chapter 62: Bull

Chapter 63: Victor

Chapter 64: Bull

Chapter 65: Victor

Chapter 66: Bull

Chapter 67: Victor

Chapter 68: Bull

Chapter 69: Victor

Chapter 70: Bull

Epilogue: Victor

Epilogue: Bull

Acknowledgments

Victor

I HAVE WISHED THAT BULL MASTRICK WOULD DIE
almost every single day. Not that I would ever have anything to do with his death. I’m not a psychopath or some wacko with collaged pictures of him hanging in my room and a gun collection. I’m the victim.

Bull Mastrick has tortured me since kindergarten. I’m sixteen now, and I understand that he’s an asshole and will always be an asshole. But I wish a rare sickness would suck the life out of him or he’d crash on his stupid BMX bike and just die.

Lately, as in the past two years of high school, he’s been absent a lot. Each day that he’s not in school I secretly wait
for the news that he’s died. A sudden tragic death. As in, not-ever-coming-back-to-school-again dead. Then I’d have some peace. I could stop looking over my shoulder every five seconds and possibly even digest my lunch. Bull has a pretty solid track record of being a dick, so death is my only option.

Last year Bull pantsed me in gym. Twice. The first time was—and I can’t believe I’m even allowing myself to think this, but—the first time wasn’t that bad. It was in the locker room and only two other guys saw me in my underwear. And they’re even more untouchable than I am. They’re what everyone calls “bottom rungers.”

Fortunately, the bottom rungers just dropped their eyes and turned away.

But a few weeks later Bull put a little more thought and planning into it. He waited until we were all in the gym, all forty-five of us, and when Coach Schuster ran back to his office to grab his whistle, Bull grabbed my shorts and underwear and shouted, “Yo, look! Is it a boy or a girl?”

I’m not what anyone would categorize as dramatic, but it seriously felt like he grabbed a little of my soul. I remember standing there like a half-naked statue—not breathing or blinking—as wisps of
me
leaked out of my exposed man parts. I heard a snort, which unfroze me. I slowly bent down,
pulled up my underwear and shorts, and walked back into the locker room.

And puked in the corner like a scolded animal.

He got suspended for it, which earned me two guaranteed Bull-free days in a row. You think that would’ve made me feel better. But each time I walked down that hallway in school or thought of the forty-five fellow ninth graders—eighteen of them girls—seeing my balls, I would gag. Then I’d run to the closest bathroom and regurgitate perfectly formed chunks of shame and disgrace.

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