Close Enough (High Rise Novella Four)
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Authors: Harper Bliss
HARPER BLISS
CLOSE ENOUGH
High Rise Novella Four
Copyright © Harper Bliss 2013
Cover picture © Depositphotos / zastavkin
Published by LadyLit Ltd - Hong Kong
All rights reserved. This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorised duplication is prohibited.
Warning: This title contains graphic language and f/f sex.
Please note: This is the fourth and last novella in the
High Rise
series and the sequel to
Fool for Love, Undisclosed Desires
and
No Ordinary Love
.
Other books by Harper Bliss
Fool for Love (High Rise Novella One)
Undisclosed Desires (High Rise Novella Two)
No Ordinary Love (High Rise Novella Three)
ISABELLA
Isabella did not have a good feeling about this. She cradled the bag with two of Nat’s favourite egg sandwiches from The Bean in one hand and stabbed the elevator button with the other. She’d stayed at the after-party at Volt following Nat’s book launch until two a.m. before giving in to fatigue and, frankly, the overwhelming feeling that Nat didn’t want her there. She’d ended up going home alone, leaving Nat with a slew of giggling admirers.
She had wanted to be the bigger person, a mature woman immune to bouts of jealousy. She had wanted to act her age—a wise almost fifty—but she’d had enough. And it had hurt like hell. Still, she felt as if she had to make up for it now.
She pushed the button for the forty-second floor while her heart thundered in her chest. Knowing Nat, she’d probably ignore the fact that Isabella fled her party, shoot her a crooked smile and gather her in her arms. Nat was really good at pretending things never happened. Isabella was starting to get the hang of it as well, despite it not being a quality she wanted to possess. No matter Nat’s state of undress or the seductiveness of her glance, Isabella had to stand her ground. They had to talk.
She rang the bell, but nothing happened. Immediately, Isabella suspected that Nat hadn’t come home. It was almost noon. That must have been quite a night. Anguish tightened Isabella’s chest. She pressed the buzzer again and its piercing ding-dong caused her stomach to contract. Isabella turned on her heels and made for the elevator. Just as she pushed the button, the door to Nat’s flat flew open.
“Where’s the fire?” Nat looked like death warmed up. Her complexion was so pale it nearly blended in with the white walls of the hallway. She wore nothing but a long t-shirt barely covering her privates. If she was happy to see Isabella at all, there was no trace of that on her face.
“I brought you lunch.” Isabella stepped closer and the smell of digesting booze hit her nostrils. She handed the bag of sandwiches to Nat, who accepted it with a look of bewilderment in her eyes.
They stood there for a few seconds like half-strangers, not a whiff of romance between them. Isabella couldn’t help but wonder what the hell she was doing with the likes of Nat.
“Thanks.” Nat shifted her weight from one bare foot to the other. “I’d invite you in, but the place is a mess. Why don’t I come up later—”
The sound of footsteps behind her startled Nat. Isabella peered inside, believing it was Alex. Nat shut the door behind her as much as possible without locking herself out, but Isabella had seen enough. The woman inside Nat’s flat was Asian, but it certainly wasn’t Alex.
Anger flashed through Isabella’s bones. She inched closer to Nat, ignored the stale smell on her breath, and stared her straight in the eyes. “If you don’t want this to work, it won’t.” She spun on her heels and marched toward the elevator bank. She jabbed the button frantically. Of course both elevators had to make their way up from the ground floor.
“Wait.” Nat pulled the t-shirt down as she followed Isabella, but it was too short to hide anything. Isabella could hardly stand to look at her. Did she really love this person? Was this what her life had become?
“Don’t bother.” She shot Nat an icy glare. “I know what you’re going to say and I’m not interested.”
Thankful to live in a new building with speedy elevators, Isabella ignored Nat’s defeated face and slipped inside the steel cabin as soon as its doors opened. As the doors slid shut, Nat slipped out of view.
Isabella blamed herself mostly. Nat had turned to her in her darkest moments and what had Isabella done? She had given in. While Nat wasn’t a client and, technically as well as ethically, Isabella had done nothing wrong, this whole outcome had been so predictable.
It’s not as if Isabella didn’t know that Nat was doing the very thing she’d just witnessed. It’s not as if, in the weeks they’d been seeing each other, Isabella hadn’t counted the ways in which their affair was doomed.
She entered her flat and glanced at the clock. Her only appointment today was at five p.m. so she had plenty of time to compose herself. And beat herself up about what had just happened.
NAT
The first thing Nat did after Isabella left was kick Cindy out. She couldn’t stand to be around her corny smile and Hello Kitty ways one second longer. After taking a shower, she stared at the egg sandwiches Isabella had brought her as if they held the answers to all her prayers.
She knew she’d gone too far. She’d hurt the one person who had truly understood her, the one woman who’d had the nerve to call her on her bullshit. Excuses and half-assed explanations wouldn’t work, but maybe a massive and long overdue mea culpa would. Either way, losing Isabella was not an option.
Nat made her way up to the penthouse and, heart hammering furiously in her throat, rang Isabella’s bell. Her heart nearly stopped when she heard Isabella’s heels approach, the click-clacking sound making her palms sweat and her blood pressure spike.
Isabella opened the door without saying anything. She spread it wide and walked to the sofa, where she sat down and waited for Nat to enter. She always looked so well put together, her make-up applied immaculately, her hair brushed to perfection and her skirts expensive.
Despite the shower and the clean jeans and t-shirt she’d put on, Nat felt scruffy, dirty even.
Nat closed the door and chose an armchair across from Isabella. She couldn’t look her in the eye just yet. What would she say? I’m sorry? And how could that ever be enough?
“I’m sorry,” she said, “that you had to see that.”
“Tell me something, please. Because I’m dying to know.” All compassion had drained from Isabella’s voice. The compassion Nat had craved so much. “I waited for you last night, for hours I stood by your side, which should have made it pretty clear that I wanted to end the night with you.”
“I know. I—” Nat pleaded.
“Let me finish, please.” Isabella crossed one leg over the other. “How long did it take you before you went home with that girl?”
“I don’t remember, really. But that’s not the point.” Nat squirmed in her seat.
Isabella shook her head. “I know we are very different and I’m fully aware that some things have become second nature to you. I also know that you are scared out of your mind because of how you feel about me, but I won’t be disrespected like that. No matter your motivations.”
“If you want us to be exclusive, we can talk about that.” Nat felt like a right douche-bag for saying that. Frankly, she had no idea what to say. It was so much easier to spend the night with a girl who barely spoke her language and didn’t have the words to question her integrity.
“Exclusive?” Isabella puffed some air through her nostrils. “Give me a break.” She uncrossed her legs and leaned her elbows on her knees. “Do you think I’ve been running around with other women since we started dating?” She stared Nat straight in the face. “Do you?”
“No.” All Nat could do was shake her head.
“Let me break this down for you.” Isabella sighed, but still wore her poker face. Nat had hoped to see a little bit more devastation. “This thing between us has absolutely no way of working. You’re not ready by a long shot and I should never have confused my desire to help you with…” She paused. “With whatever it is I’m feeling for you.” She glared at Nat and she looked achingly beautiful. “And in case you’re wondering… Yes, you hurt me. And that’s what we’ll end up doing to each other if we don’t end this now.”
“Can I say something?” Hearing the word
end
stirred something in Nat’s gut. “I’m well aware of my flaws and I fully realise I’m not an easy person to be with. I’m not making excuses for what I did and I’m sorry that I hurt and disrespected you. I really am.” Nat hesitated. “But, damn it, we are good together and I won’t give up on you so easily.” Nat debated getting out of her chair and moving closer so she could at least touch Isabella, but thought better of it. “You didn’t confuse your desire to help me with feelings for me. What happens when we are together is not confusion, Isabella. It’s real and it’s beautiful and it’s the best thing that ever happened to me.”
Isabella leaned back in the sofa. She swallowed hard. “Words, words, words. I know you get paid a lot of money to string them together in sentences on paper, but honestly, at this point, after what I’ve just seen, after I waited for hours for you to come home with me, they don’t mean anything to me.” Isabella’s voice shot up. “I don’t need any more words from you. Sure, we have good chemistry. We’re good in bed together, but how dare you use that as an example when you just spent the night with someone else?” She half-shouted the last sentence.
Nat knew there was nothing else she could say. Isabella was right. The only way she could prove her love was by showing Isabella how she felt.
“I should never have let it come this far. That was my mistake.” Isabella fiddled with the hem of her skirt. “Yours was to take me for granted a little bit too much.” She fixed her gaze on Nat. “I’d like you to go now. There’s nothing left to say.”
“I’ll go.” Nat rose. “But this is not over, and you know it.” She made her way to the door, heart racing and legs wobbly. Before leaving she cast one more glance at Isabella, whose face had gone red with fury. “There’s no way I’m letting you go.”
Nat sounded much more confident than she felt. She had no idea how to go about winning Isabella back, but she’d make it up as she went along. It was what she always did.
ISABELLA
Isabella watched the door Nat had walked out of. Part of her was curious to see what kind of fight Nat would put up, but mostly she felt too deflated to believe anything Nat had just said.
Nat had never made her any promises. They had certainly not rushed into their affair the way Maddie and Alex had—everything all at once. They’d both kept a certain distance. Isabella figured Nat’s need for frequent nights by herself came from a place of self-preservation and fear. Isabella just deemed it normal. It wasn’t even that she had expected Nat to be faithful from the get-go. It was more the glaring impossibility of it all.
Two people can feel attracted to each other and still make each other’s life miserable. Isabella had seen it occur often enough. She’d spent hours listening to tales of misunderstood gestures and dashed expectations, because some people only want what they can’t have. Isabella refused to be one of them. She dug her phone out of her purse and called Maddie, hoping she’d still be on her lunch break. Maddie picked up after one ring.