Breaking Hollywood (14 page)

‘You’re right.’ Calm. Matter-of-fact.

‘When was the last time you had any contact with her?’

Mirren replaced her mug on the table, and Sarah noticed that her hands were steady. There was a strength in this woman that came from somewhere deep in her core.

‘The last time I saw her was that night. She was sitting there, in her kitchen, splattered in Jono Leith’s blood.’ Mirren paused, still staring straight ahead, her voice low
and calm, as if she was reciting a story that had no emotional connection to her whatsoever. ‘Do you know what I remember so vividly? Her face had black mascara tracks down her cheeks. She
was wearing a ridiculous baby-doll nightdress, pink, smeared with blood. But one of the straps had broken and her tit was hanging out. She didn’t even realize.’

Sarah wanted to reach over, to put her hand on Mirren’s, but she didn’t want to overstep the boundaries, didn’t know if the physical touch would be welcome.

Instead, she stayed silent. Just listened.

‘She left that night and I never saw her again. I heard she went down south, hooked up with some dealer who was importing drugs and shipping them north, but that was it.’

‘You haven’t heard from her since?’

‘A couple of letters a few years ago.’

Sarah’s eyes widened with surprise.

Mirren carried on without prompting. ‘She said she wanted to meet my kids and she wanted money. I sent them back to a PO Box. They stopped.’

‘Nothing recent?’

‘No.’

Mirren reached over, placed her hand on Sarah’s, initiating the physical contact Sarah had so badly wanted to offer.

‘Sarah, you know what my mother is capable of. She is an evil bitch who has no conscience, no values, no loyalty to anyone but herself. Her only obsessions are money and the men she loves.
You say her husband—’

‘Boyfriend.’ Sarah interjected. ‘I don’t think they were married. Although, from what I’ve learned they’ve been together for many years.’

‘So you say he was arrested?’

Sarah’s talent for storing facts flipped the relevant details to the forefront of her mind.

‘Yes. He’s on remand, but the charges are comprehensive and the cops are pretty sure they’ll stick. Apparently he was caught in a massive cross-agency sting operation that was
trailing the drugs from Algiers. They’d been after him for years and they’ve got no doubt he’ll go down.’

Mirren listened, absorbed. ‘Then she’ll have lost her source of income, her love and her obsession. That’s how it works. It’s all she cares about. When she was fucking
Jono Leith, she thought about him from the minute she woke, pined for him when he wasn’t there, came alive when he was – all this despite the fact he was an evil bastard whose wife
lived a hundred yards away.’

Sarah couldn’t even begin to imagine what that had been like. Mirren’s mother and Zander’s dad, an affair that lasted more than a decade, one that came close to destroying them
all.

‘Have you told Davie?’ Mirren asked.

‘No. I wanted to speak to you first. And to be honest, he’s got his own stuff going on just now – I didn’t want to freak him out.’

Mirren’s expression softened from steel to understanding. ‘I think that was the wise thing to do. This wouldn’t be good for him right now. For Zander either. You know, even
Jack and Logan don’t know that she’s still alive. For twenty years I’ve told everyone she was dead. Seemed easier. Less painful than explaining . . .’

‘I get it,’ Sarah assured her.

‘So is it OK with you if we keep this between us for now? I’m not asking you to lie, and obviously if you feel you have to tell Davie at some point . . .’

‘Then I will. But not yet. I don’t want to worry him when this could all turn out to be just rumour and nonsense.’

‘Thank you. I’ve got a private investigator whom I trust. He’s worked for me before. He would track down Chloe when she went AWOL, and then I used him again when Jack was off
screwing around. I’ll bring him in on this and see if he can find her.’

‘You want him to go to the UK?’ Sarah asked, confused, before continuing, ‘Because I’ve got some people over there I worked with who would be far more familiar with that
world. They’d have a better chance of finding her.’

Mirren shook her head. ‘I think it’s too late for that. A few things have happened over the last couple of weeks that have made me uneasy. I thought I was imagining stuff, just still
a bit off balance, but now it all makes perfect sense.’

‘It does?’

Mirren exhaled slowly. ‘I think my mother is already here.’

No one understands how it feels when everything is taken away. Everything.

It’s like a blade has ripped through your flesh, gouged it wide open, then reached in and torn out the very part of you that makes you who you are.

I know.

I’m still bleeding from that open wound, and there’s no way to stop it. It’ll kill me. I know that too.

But not yet.

I have to make it right first. Isn’t that what love is? A promise that you’ll never let go, never give up, will right the wrongs that have been committed against you and the
person you’re bound to forever? Even when you can no longer touch them, feel them next to you, hold them at night.

Even when that person is gone, the love is still there, and so is that obligation.

So I’m not ready to die yet.

Not until I’ve made them understand what they took from me.

Not until I’ve made them see how it feels to be me.

Not until I’ve made them bleed.

‘Man In the Mirror’ – Michael Jackson

Davie

‘Daddy, she’s got my phone,’ Bray raged, his face red with fury as he pointed at the device in his sister’s hands. ‘Give it back, you little
fucker.’

‘Hey, hey, hey . . . that’s enough,’ Davie warned him.

Bray rounded on him. ‘No wonder Darcy says she’ll kick your ass.’

And there it was. It had been a whole, oh, ten minutes or so since the kids had tried to play one parenting set off against another. Not that it bothered Davie. Water off a daddy duck’s
back. But then, it could be worse. There was a legendary story about the child star whose mother sent him to his room for misbehaving.

‘
My
room?’ he sneered. ‘They’re
all
my rooms.’

For now, it was all about pacifying and keeping it real in a world that couldn’t be more surreal.

‘I’m sure one day she will. But for now, watch your language, son.’

‘Or what?’ Bray fronted up to him, while his twin sister, Bella, watched with amusement.

‘Or I’ll give your courtside ticket for the Clippers game to Justin Bieber. Don’t make me do it.’

As if by magic, Bray clamped his mouth shut, and Davie fought down the urge to laugh. It was hard being eight. Especially when you were already a household name across the country, thanks to
lead roles in
Family Three
, the sitcom his children, red-haired twins Bella and Bray, had starred in since they were three.

These two were fast becoming the Mary-Kate and Ashley of their generation. They lived in an adult world, were schooled on set, recognized everywhere they went. They had a manager and an agent, a
publicist and – no shit – a brand manager. Yep, his kids were a brand. A brand that came with a USP – they’d made gingers cool.

How had that happened? How had he taken his eye off the ball for so long he didn’t notice that his kids had become brands?

The truth was, his eye had never been on the parental ball in the first place. It mortified him now to admit it, but the kids had always been Jenny’s department. He’d been too busy
out there, making a buck, building his own brand, to build a relationship with them. He was trying to make up for it now. Since the divorce, and since Jenny had gone off to shack up with the woman
who was apparently threatening to kick his ass, he’d been totally committed to dad duties. It wasn’t easy, but at least the kids knew he was making an effort. That had to count for
something, right?

There was a knock at the door; then their male nanny appeared. Yep, a male nanny. Another statement in the world of Jenny and Darcy, another attempt to squeeze his balls until he squealed. And
shallow as it was, it worked. Davie tried not to mind that it was pretty obvious the kids preferred Zac to him. Zac was twenty-four, he was cool, he hung out with them all day, played football with
Bray, had mani-pedis with Bella, and according to them both, he just knew ‘stuff’. Jenny and Darcy had employed him four months ago after interviewing a dozen candidates from the
childcare agency. It was Zac’s job to get the kids where they were supposed to be, organize their schedule, oversee their schooling, mediate with the on-set studio rep and make sure all their
needs were catered for. So far it was working out great. Davie wasn’t sure whether that pleased him or irritated him.

‘Right, guys, time to get going. Got all your stuff?’ Zac asked, looking around for anything that had been left behind. ‘Davie, see you later, bud.’ OK, it was official
– Zac irritated him. Bud? This guy didn’t lack confidence, that was for sure.

‘Dad, promise you won’t give my ticket to Justin Bieber?’ Bray asked, suitably chastised.

‘I promise. See you Monday night for the game, OK?’

‘OK.’ He put his hand up for a knuckle-bump and Davie matched it, before hugging Bella. At least that bit came naturally now. He didn’t have the answers to all this fatherhood
stuff, and he was pretty sure he was fucking up on a regular basis, but at least the kids knew he existed. It was progress.

He waved as he watched them head down the driveway, then wandered into the kitchen, where Ivanka was singing along to Carrie Underwood while she sliced fruit on the granite worktop. He
considered it a blessing that he’d got custody of Ivanka in the divorce. The Russian housekeeper, 38-23-38, peroxide-blonde hair, pneumatic tits, lived in tiny skirts and six-inch mules,
loved country music, cleaning, cooking and her Ukrainian husband and Davie’s gardener, Drego. They’d both been with Davie for over a decade, and they ran his home like clockwork. If
only he could have someone to do that for the rest of his life.

‘Ivanka, I’m off. Get me on my cell if you need me.’ She barely looked up. What she lacked in warmth and conversation, she made up for in loyalty and domestic skills. It was a
fair trade.

Traffic was light, so it took him twenty minutes in the Veyron to reach the studio. He parked in one half of his double space – the other half being reserved for the portable canopy that
kept the Veyron shielded from the sun. It wouldn’t do to burn one’s arse on one’s monogrammed leather seats.

It was Tuesday, so that meant a solid twelve hours at the studio in rehearsals for tonight’s
American Stars.
Last week’s ratings had been the highest ever, and baby, it felt
good. It made the ridiculous hours and the stresses of juggling two primetime shows, plus production on another three worthwhile.
Beauty and the Beats
was off air at the moment, but he was
making a financial killing on the reruns. He was going to have to make a decision on that show’s future pretty soon, but it wasn’t looking great now that the Beats himself was only
playing for an audience in the rock stadium in the sky.

In the office, Mellie was waiting for him, expression thunderous. ‘Where the fuck have you been? Everyone is waiting and Princess is about to throw a diva strop that will take out everyone
within spitting distance.’

‘Morning, darling,’ he replied in a sing-song voice. ‘Lovely to see you.’

‘You are such an asshole,’ Mellie replied, rolling her eyes, unable to mask completely the smile that was playing at the corners of her mouth.

‘So what’s up with the problem Princess today?’ Davie asked, taking the double-shot latte that had materialized right next to him in the hand of Debs, the latest in his long
line of assistants, with a quick ‘thanks’.

‘Mr Johnston, Carmella Cass has called four times for you.’

‘No problem. I’ll get back to her.’

He returned his attention to Mellie and waited for the update.

‘I’ll give you three guesses.’

‘Lauren?’

‘And that cutting insight is why you’re the boss,’ Mellie teased. ‘She says she’s had enough of Lauren getting all the attention when she is – and I quote
– “a two-bit slut with a voice like shit going down a drain”. She’s refusing to go on set if Lauren sings the opening number again tonight.’

Davie didn’t even realize that he was running his hands through his hair. It was his automatic reaction in times of stress, irritation and unreasonable bitches. Especially ones he had no
intention of humouring. Lauren Finney was his biggest find, a girl who’d wandered into auditions a couple of years ago with only a guitar to her name. His show had made her a star, and there
was no limit to what she could and would achieve now. She was sweet, talented and – a fucking miracle in this industry – still completely unaffected by the tsunami of fame that had
crashed over her. Princess was a stage-school brat, from wealthy parents who’d bought her way through every stage of the music industry, creating a spoilt monster on the way. She was only
here because she was big right now, but it was a stardom that wouldn’t last, because she was a performer, not an artist. When it came to which side Davie was going to back here, there was no
contest.

‘Where is she?’

‘In her dressing room, but she’s refusing to come out until she’s spoken to you. I hope you’re feeling bulletproof.’

‘Always,’ Davie replied, heading off down the corridor. This shouldn’t be his battle to fight. Princess had managers, agents, lackeys for everything from putting on her shoes
to carrying her gum. Surely her people should just call his people and sort it out?

But that wasn’t how she operated. This was the third time she’d refused to go on set. There wasn’t going to be a fourth.