Bella Baby (6 page)

They awakened late in the afternoon the next day.  Chaz was sure to fuck Bella in the shower before allowing her to dress in the jeans and a cute top. He loved the feel of her wet body in his hands as she begged for mercy. Something he was never keen on giving. When she managed to pull away from him dropping to her knees, he was the one begging for mercy. Chaz almost lost his man card when he came in her mouth yelling her name in a high-pitched voice. Redeeming himself, he licked and teased her body allowing her to shower after providing her with several orgasms. As Chaz drove Bella to her car Sunday afternoon, he felt sadden about what he had to do next to ensure that she felt the same way.  Chaz kissed her repeatedly and explained that he was going to be tied up with work and would not see her for at least three days. He promised her plenty of explanations for his return.

“I am missing you already,” she admitted. The glassy look in her eyes was tears. She didn’t want to let him go. Having to go days without seeing him was going to be difficult. Bella knew that the call he missed while out with her had been important. Chaz had business he had to handle that she would not be privy too.  She kissed him repeatedly not wanting to let him go, reluctantly getting in her car with new clothes and a newfound happiness.

Chapter 4

“You scared me to death.  Where have you been?  I kept calling your apartment and your cell phone and no answer,” Kennedy spat. Kennedy’s hair was pulled into its normal chignon, and her face was laced with worry. Kennedy folded her arms waiting for an explanation.  Bella smiled as she hefted the laundry basket on her bed.

“I met a guy at the Cherry Pit. Remember the guy that was standing at the valet? His name is Chaz,” she explained. Kennedy took a seat on the bed as she searched her internal memory finally coming up with a face.  “That cute thug guy?  You left with him?”

“Yes I left with him.” Bella laughed as she folded her clean laundry.

“You fucked him didn’t you?  Of course, you did! You spent the whole weekend with the guy. I can’t believe you didn’t even hint around that you were leaving with that guy.”

“He didn’t want me to say anything.  So I didn’t. It made the sex super hot.” 

“Bella this is so unlike you.  What’s up with you?  What does he do? Is he good for you? Did you fuck him the first night?” Kennedy asked barely taking a breath.

“Slow down!  He’s just so different from what I am used too.  I mean no suits, no briefcases, and he’s just so fucking cool and very confident.  The man is too sexy for his own good Ken. I was so powerless to stop the attraction.”

“So that means you fucked him on the first night? Bella!”

Bella slowly recounted her weekend to Kennedy and explained why she was so enamored with Chaz.  Kennedy tried to understand but was afraid to stand idly by and watch her friend get hurt again.  The two of them had been through so much together that they leaned on each other for strength.  Neither of them had any family worth reporting.

“Just wait until you meet him Ken, I am telling you he is so nice.” Bella gave an exasperated sigh as she flopped on the bed. Kennedy could see Bella was in love.

“Bella, I just don’t want to see you get hurt again.  I mean it just seems so rushed, and I can see it beginning again.  You have jumped in with your whole heart.”

“I know how I am, but Ken this feels real and right.  I can’t explain it in words what it is like to be with him.  He was right we were meant to be together, and I know we will.” Bella nodded her head in agreement to her statement as she took out her phone. Bella proudly showed Kennedy the picture of Chaz kissing her at the after hours party. Using her memory, and the features she could make out on the phone Kennedy agreed he was very attractive. “I hope you are right Bell.  I just don’t want you being the only one in love in this relationship.”

“I know Ken and I appreciate your concern.  I know it won’t be easy, but I am so willing to try to make it work,” she said.  “Don’t worry.”

Three days later Bella could barely contain herself, as she dialed the number to Chaz’s cell phone.  The phone rang and voicemail picked up, she left a message and hung up.  Later on that same night when she tried to reach him again it went straight to voicemail. Bella thought nothing of it and made excuses for him in her head.  The nagging sensation was that something was wrong. This encouraged restless sleep for the next few nights.

Chapter 5

Bella walked to her walnut desk and sat quietly in her ergonomically designed leather chair and contemplated the events of the past two weeks.  She had smiled at the thought of meeting Chaz in the beginning, but now the smile slowly faded to a frown as she buried her face in her hands.  She had not heard from Chaz in the last two weeks. The thought, of being used, caused her mental anguish.  She wanted to see him and touch him on the other hand she wanted to slap him for using her.  The deception he had wrought overwhelmed her double time because she knew in that short time that she had completely fallen in love with him.  As she sat at her desk a steady stream of tears trailed down her quivering cheek.  The mind games he had played were forever engraved on her soul, and she thought recovery was impossible. 

A few days prior Kennedy tried to reassure her that what she felt was not love but lust and that a real man would never have treated her with such callousness.  Bella refused to believe that Chaz had thrown what they had away because she knew it was real.  She stayed indoors for the next couple of days going over their relationship in her head.  What she felt for Chaz was real, and she wouldn’t think about it any other way.

“Kennedy something has to be wrong.  I am telling you he wouldn’t not call,” she explained through tear soaked eyes.  At this point, it had been almost two weeks, and she hadn’t heard one word from Chaz.

“How would you know what it is like for him to do or not do Bella? You haven’t known him that long to even say that,” Kennedy added with a hint of sarcasm Bella didn’t appreciate.

“You just don’t understand what I mean.  I know him. He is just incapacitated right now.” Bella lay across her bed and hugged her pillow as the tears streamed down her cheeks.  She wished he was hurt or delayed just to prove Kennedy wrong. She didn’t want her to be right.  Bella had begun crying after one week, and it continued into her weekend, prompting her to call in sick for the rest of the week.  Kennedy knew better and immediately arrived at Bella’s apartment to shake a knowing finger.  Bella continued to protest with excuses for his behavior. Kennedy thought for sure that Bella was missing the real picture.

“I knew this was going to happen.  I hope you can still respect yourself and didn’t do anything too crazy with this man,” Kennedy said.

“We just fucked if that’s what you mean. We fucked and made love in so many different positions it was baffling Kennedy. There has to be something wrong. You just don’t feel the kind of connection we shared and then poof it’s over.”

“You have got to get up, shower, and move on.  This was a fling. This man is not worth all this attention.  Could you even pick him out of a lineup?”

“Yes!  And I don’t want to shower,” she said while smelling her shirt.  “Okay, maybe a shower, but that’s it.

“Thank you!  If I have to choose, take a shower.  I will get you some fresh pajamas and order a pizza okay?” Kennedy felt bad for her harsh words and tried to rein in her anger on Bella’s behalf. She hated seeing her friend hurt or worse used. They were like sisters and her happiness meant the world to Kennedy.

“Thank you.” Bella replied as she trotted off to the bathroom. Bella stood under the water and let the last of her tears fall. Kennedy was right it was a fling, nothing more.

Kennedy tried to avoid the Chaz discussion for the remainder of the day, and the two vegged out on movies and pizza.  Kennedy could see the pained expression that remained on Bella’s face, and it weakened her hopes of finding the right man for herself.  The fight was just too great.  She resolved to have the casual but safe affair, never involving her heart.  She deemed it too precious to risk when attempting to find the right guy.

Bella’s episodic denial stage had officially ended and turned to blinding anger.  She cursed herself for being a fool in love and for allowing it to happen so fast.  Repeatedly she went over their time together and critiqued her actions during the entire weekend she spent with Chaz.  Over and over she contemplated going to the restaurant, the strip club, or to his house to see if she could catch a glimpse of him.  However, the thought, of seeing him with another woman, was just too excruciating.

Bella sat in her car staring at a “this way to exit” sign on a cool Thursday morning.  She wondered if she could really head in that direction to “exit,” just forget about the past two weeks.  But she couldn’t and insisted upon putting herself through the pain again by trying to reach Chaz on his cell.  The phone rang four times before going to voicemail.  She sobbed silently as his voice mail instructed her to leave yet another message, and decided she would have to “exit” this way. Bella made up her mind to put Chaz out of her life and get back to the life she had before Chaz turned her life upside.  She would not let her job and her soul suffer because he was a liar and a user. 

Chapter 6

Bella dragged her tired body to her apartment carrying three shopping bags planning her weekend. It was time to get back to some normalcy. Working out with her friends had resumed and that provided her with a way to take out her frustrations.  Kickboxing gave her the opportunity to kick Chaz’s ass if only in her fantasy world. As she entered the building, a familiar voice called out to her.

“You need some help with those groceries,” Chaz asked.  Completely shocked, Bella turned and said, “No, now fuck off”.

“Let me help you so that I can explain,” he said smiling.

“I don’t see shit funny.” Bella explained to the security guard that Chaz was not her guest.

“Stop acting like that Bella.  Let me just talk to you. I can explain I promise.”

“Fuck off!” Bella yelled and entered the elevator.  Before the doors closed she put her bags down with just enough time to give Chaz the finger before the elevator doors shut. Chaz walked towards the elevators, but the guard stopped him.

“Sorry.  You heard the lady.  You do not have a resident’s permission to be in the building.  I am going to have to ask you to leave sir,” he said placing a firm hand on Chaz’s shoulders.

“Look man, that’s my girlfriend and we had an argument. I didn’t call when I said I would and now she’s pissed.  C’mon man you can’t let me up just this once? I guarantee you that you will be seeing a lot of me in this building.” Chaz knew Bella wanted to see him just as bad as he wanted to see her.

“Sorry son. You are going to have to try and get her on the phone although it doesn’t look too good for you.” The guard escorted Chaz to the door.  Chaz reached into his inner coat pocket and removed a stack of bills.  He carefully placed the neat stack of bills into the security guard’s hand.

“Now do I have access to enter the building?” Chaz asked.

“You are giving me this to let you up to her apartment? I could lose my job. Is this enough to take care of my family?  How do I know you won’t go up there and hurt her if she continues to reject you?” The security guard stared at the large sum of cash in his hand.

“I have never put an angry hand on her and I never will.  If she won’t let me in, then you will have profited. Please sir I haven’t seen her for two weeks,” he explained.  “I’d rather you have the money and do this the easy way.”

Ernest scratched his head as he slowly counted the bills in his hand, growing weaker with each hundred counted.  In total Chaz handed the man fifteen hundred dollars. Earnest had no choice but to let Chaz up on the elevator. This was too much money to let pass, and he relented.

“Son, don’t make me regret this decision,” Ernest begged.

“You won’t, trust me.  Believe it or not we’re in love.” Chaz smiled while entering the elevator car.

Chapter 7

Bella curled up on the bed with her favorite stuffed animal, Mr. Whiskers.  She pulled the blanket over their bodies with tears streaming down each cheek.  She couldn’t believe he just showed up and didn’t immediately throw himself on the ground begging for her forgiveness.  Instead, he laughed and made her feel even more stupid. 

“Bella, open the door,” Chaz said knocking hard. She was shocked when she heard him pounding on her door.  Quickly she jumped out of the bed and ran to the bathroom, splashing water on her face.  As fast as she could she brushed her hair and changed her food-stained shirt. Bella chugged a cup of mouthwash before exiting the bathroom.

“Get away from my door you son of a bitch.  You don’t look dead to me,” she yelled.

“Let me in so I can talk to you please,” he pleaded. 

“About what?” Bella folded her arms over her breasts wanting to hit him.

“Can I come in, damn? Bella I need to talk to you but not through this door.”

“Why should I let you into my apartment?”

“I need to talk to you about us but not in this damn hallway.”

“Why should I let you into my apartment?  You left me hanging for the last two weeks.” Bella was infuriated. He wasn’t taking her anger seriously.

“I had to do this. Let me in so that I can explain why I did this to you.” Chaz begged leaning against the door. Just hearing her voice made him want to touch her. Bella opened the door and crossed her arms knowingly.  Chaz smiled and said, “Stop acting like that Bella.  Let me just tell you what happened, okay?  Can I come in?”

“No!  Say your peace from the hallway.  You made a joke out of me and had me thinking I was in love with you.”

“Can I come in, I don’t want our business in the hallway?”

“Come in but don’t go past the door because you will be leaving out of it shortly.” Bella unable to control her anger greeted Chaz with a left hook to the nose.  The punch caught him off guard, and his nose started to bleed lightly.

“Ow!  Why did you hit me?” Chaz was shocked but laughed it off.  That was all he needed to know she really did love him.

“That’s for treating me like some third-class skank.”  Bella comforted her now hurt knuckles then grabbed a tissue from the box nearby. Hastily she gave the tissue to Chaz and smiled when she saw the small amount of blood. He wasn’t the only one that could be lethal.

“Damn girl!  You are violent.  I had my reasons for doing what I did.” His voice was nasal as he applied pressure to his septum to stop the blood. 

“I have been going crazy Chaz. This shit wasn’t funny.” Bella felt the tears well up in her eyes and fought letting them fall. Chaz explained that there was a part of his life that he kept secret from almost everyone, except Horatio. He wanted to make sure that she felt the same about him.  Chaz hated being so secretive, but this was the first time he ever wanted to reveal that part of his life to another person.

“Why didn’t you just ask Chaz?  I have been here going through it, missing you and blaming myself,” she said tears flowing down her face.  “I couldn’t understand how we could have what we have and not both want it”.

“I am sorry Bella, but trust me you will understand later why I had to do what I did. I just had to be sure,” he said wiping the tears from her cheek.  Bella held his hand to her cheek to make sure it was real.  Chaz kissed her lips softly and stroked her hair. He had missed her so much in such a short time that it amazed him. “I missed you so much you know that don’t you?”

“I missed you too.  Don’t ever do that again, you can always talk to me.” Bella hated caving so easily, but she couldn’t help it.  She happily hugged his neck and breathed in his sent. Chaz wrapped her up in his arms loving the feel of her body.

“I promise baby, the truth from here on out,” he replied.

Chaz continued to kiss Bella. He began to slowly move her in the direction of her bedroom, but he couldn't be sure of its location.  Sensing his movements Bella took his hand and led him to her bedroom.  Delicately Chaz removed Bella’s clothes kissing her softly on the neck as she whimpered.  Bella eagerly snatched his shirt off running her hands over his soft skin. She couldn’t believe he was in her apartment. When he stripped her naked, she happily wrapped her legs around his waist. Chaz held her in his arms gorging himself on her ample breasts. Slipping his hand down, he pushed inside her wet body. Bella gasped and began to move with his rhythm. Chaz’s strong legs managed to hold their bodies. Together they moving in perfect unison. Bella wrapped her long legs and arms covering his body completely as he sat down on the bed.

“I told you I was coming back for my pussy,” he whispered.

“I missed you so much baby,” Bella wailed. Chaz was moving beneath her body driving her crazy. She felt so full and raced towards her first orgasm. Extending her head back Bella moaned loudly. Chaz took this opportunity to kiss her elongated neck.

“Fuck Bella,” Chaz croaked. The internal squeezing felt so wonderful. Chaz lifted their conjoined bodies and then lowered Bella onto the bed. He surveyed her sexy naked body. The soft tan of her skin and the apex of her thighs called to him.

“The lovemaking is over Bella,” Chaz informed. He pulled her legs apart and repeatedly plunged deep into Bella as she cried. These were tears of pleasure not tears of pain. He wanted her to know how much he missed being inside her sweet body.  Chaz’s face contorted as he fought the urge to come. He wanted more. He wanted her begging and screaming before he came. “You like that Bella?”

“Yes baby, please,” she said her voice childish and whiny.  Chaz found her mouth as the beginnings of his orgasm took shape. Thrust after thrust and he erupted coming loudly, “I love this pussy. This is my pussy.” 

Chaz kissed her face wildly having missed her more than she missed him. He was sure he faired worse than she had during their two-week hiatus. The wild passionate kisses led to another round of intense lovemaking.  Chaz cradled Bella in his arms stroking her hair. She could not believe sex could be this wonderful. Just being next to him wiped the last two weeks away.  Bella wanted to be tough and get down to the news. She would need ample time to process this news.

“So do we talk secrets now or later?” Bella said rolling onto her belly.

“Not now baby! I am still in the zone,” Chaz replied. He ran his fingertips along her back watching the goose bumps appear on her skin.

“I really missed you, you know that?” Bella felt so emotional after the excellent sex.

“I know. I saw you,” he said.  Chaz kept touching her this reassured his brain that she was really here. He never wanted to leave her again. He knew that was a promise he could never make.

“You saw what?” she asked sitting up.

“Nothing, I rode past a couple of times and saw you sitting in your car.”

“You mean you were watching me lose my mind?  I was in utter misery and you just sat and watched happily.” Bella’s brow began to furrow as anger permeated her face.

“Calm down Bella.  How else would I know if you felt the same, besides I had to see you?” Bella was off the bed with super speed.

“So you watched me wallow in misery knowing that your presence would have stopped my wallowing?”

“Come on Bella.  I was just making sure that you were really feeling me.  I didn’t want you to wallow.” Chaz could smile now but he didn’t think it was funny watching her cry. Angrily she put on her robe and in disbelief she said, “That smile is going to get you slapped, better yet punched again.”

Chaz exited the bed quickly cutting off Bella from heading to the living room. 

“Do you think that was easy for me? I hated seeing you so upset and knowing it was me that was causing that pain. I was dying without you. I missed you so fucking much.”

“I don’t know what to think. I was going nuts thinking that these feelings I was having after one weekend with you were crazy.”

All traces of a smile were erased from Chaz’s face. “My life is complicated and I had to be sure.”

“Do you think my life has been a cake walk?” she asked quizzically.

“I am a green beret in the U.S. army, under a Special Forces division with Top Secret level clearance. That’s all I can say,” he blurted. Bella’s ears could barely register what he was saying let alone process the information. She stuttered unintelligible words as the bewilderment registered on her face.

“I put in a request just to say that sentence to you. I know it sounds crazy but it’s true. I have assignments that vary in length and location. During my down time I manage my businesses.”

Chaz explained that he had been in the army from birth. “My father had been an important General in the army which made my choice of profession pre-determined.”

He talked more about his family and less about his “other” job. Chaz had grown up under the overbearing weight of his demanding and physically abusive father. Often he suffered his father’s wrath while his older brother, William, basked in his father’s undying attention.  Chaz’s mother, Emily, had done little to protect her youngest son out of fear.  He would attack her on a whim and therefore very rarely ventured to protect Chaz when her husband was on a warpath. Sometimes William would do the abusing in their father’s absence. It had been a constant struggle for Chaz to please his father and stave off the bullying from his own brother. This subject was pretty hard on Chaz to discuss and seeing this Bella pulled him near to her as his words trailed off.

“We are family now,” she said kissing him lightly on the cheek. 

“I need you Bella. I am sorry I had to do that to you,” he whispered. “Tell me what I need to hear.” 

Bella gave a shy smile as she hugged a still very naked Chaz. Kissing her neck Chaz urged her to speak.

“I love you Chaz,” she murmured softly. Chaz couldn’t help the huge grin on his face. Lifting Bella’s legs around his waist once more Chaz slid into his woman.

“I love you too Bella,” he groaned. Chaz refused to allow Bella a chance to catch her breath as he frantically made love to her on the oversized sofa in her living room. Bella hoped her neighbors didn’t hear the passion erupting from her apartment. She could not control the volume of her voice. Chaz most certainly loved coming inside her once more. On the couch Bella pulled the crocheted blanket around their bodies.  A soft knock at the door interrupted their cuddling. Bella assumed it was a neighbor and pulled on her robe to apologize for the noise.

“What the fuck is going on in your apartment? It sounds like someone was being murdered!” Kennedy exclaimed with Julie standing behind her. Kennedy did not wait for a response or notice that Bella was wearing a bathrobe. Chaz sprang from the couch with the effort of a ninety year old man. He was still recovering from his most recent orgasm. Quickly he grabbed the crocheted blanket wrapping it around his hips. Kennedy and Julie stopped in their tracks taking in the sight of Chaz.

“Uh Kennedy, Julie, this is Chaz,” Bella said giggling. The blanket was doing very little to hide Chaz’s modesty. When all eyes fell below his waist he tried adjusting the blanket.

“Nice to meet you ladies,” Chaz gave them a panty crushing smile. Both ladies faltered a little and recovered quickly.

“So you are the bastard that devastated our friend for two weeks?” Kennedy asked trying to keep her eyes above his waist.  Chaz nodded his head and gripped the blanket.

“Yes I am that bastard.” Chaz made to walk to the bedroom.

“We are past formalities so you need to answer our questions right now.” Julie indicated wanting to know if he had any friends or brothers.  Chaz turned to the side and without an ounce of embarrassment re-wrapped the blanket around his waist. Both ladies sighed and Bella allowed the huge grin to spread over her face. Chaz took a seat on the couch and waited for the barrage of questions.

Kennedy shook her head to clear her thoughts. “Why did you abandon our friend?”

“My primary job is with the government and I have top secret clearance. It requires me to be uh discrete. I had to know she was really feeling me before I could tell her this.”

“You really expect us to believe that?” Julie hoped he wasn’t running game on her best friend this seemed too far-fetched.

“I hope you do but I only need Bella to believe it because it is the truth.”

“What are your intentions towards our best friend?” Kennedy was still remembering her crying best friend.  Chaz did his best to present his answer in a tasteful manner.

“My current intentions were to hit the magic number four.” He gave that panty-crushing smile. “Long term, Bella will be moving out of this apartment and into our home in the suburbs. What number Bella?”

Bella blushed holding up three fingers as Julie gave her an incredulous look. Kennedy was not swayed by his sexual prowess.

“Is it just sex? You two haven’t known each other for much else.”

“No it’s not just sex but that is fantastic. Given my choice of profession time is irrelevant to me. I do not operate by some preconceived clock or calendar. I love Bella plain and simple. I do not need months or days to know this.”

Bella did her best not to swoon in regards to his choice of words.

“Love or lust?” Kennedy was a dog with a bone. Bella was her only family and she fiercely protected her. There had been a time when Bella had fiercely protected Kennedy and she would be forever grateful.