Bedding the Bachelors Box Set (Books 1-3) (37 page)

“I don’t like to share,” she said.

So if not two women, then… “So what about being with two men?” he asked.

Instead of denying anything, her expression softened and her eyes twinkled. “Isn’t that every woman’s fantasy? One man inside, the other man tending to whatever needs tending to?”

“We’re talking about your fantasies right now.”

“Then sure, I suppose that would feel nice. To have two men devoted to me. To my pleasure. But somehow I don’t think it happens very often. Two hetero or even bisexual guys being comfortable enough to cross swords in bed? I bet you probably haven’t even done it.”

“You’d lose that bet.”

The flirtatious light disappeared from her eyes, which grew wide, and she swallowed convulsively. Ha. He’d shocked her yet again.

“I’m not saying that’s my thing—being with another guy and a woman. But my lover had a fantasy, and I made sure it came true for her. Part of that meant giving in to the fantasy myself.”

“And?”

“And I was so turned on by the fact
she
was so amazingly turned on I came hard enough to strain a muscle in my neck.”

“Are you saying you’d be willing to do it again? Because you shouldn’t let your mouth write a check it can’t cash.”

He thought about it. “Is that what you want?”

“Answer my question first.”

His chest tightened and he frowned. “I’m not certain I could do that with you.”

Her brows raised in surprise. “Why not?”

“I don’t know. You make me feel… possessive. I wouldn’t want to share you with another man.”

A hint of a smile formed at the side of her mouth.

“That doesn’t mean I wouldn’t ultimately do it. Or, failing that, that I wouldn’t work twice as hard to make sure you were completely satisfied.”

Grace took off the towel on her head, shook her hair out, then stepped toward him. “I have a confession to make…”

When she came close enough to stand before him, he deliberately didn’t reach for her. His breathing went shallow. “And what confession might that be?”

“I don’t want to be with two men. I—I just want to be with you. That would be fantasy enough, as far as I’m concerned.”

“Fuck, Grace.”

As if she realized just how vulnerable her confession made her, she laughed and stepped back. He instinctively followed her, and she held up a hand to ward him off. “Make-up. Hair. I’ll be faster than a herd of turtles and then we can head to your parents’ house, okay?”

Before he could respond, she high-tailed it back to the bathroom and he soon heard the blow dryer going. He fell back onto the bed with a groan and rubbed his palms over his face, then reached down to adjust himself inside his pants while her voice echoed inside his mind.

I just want to be with you. That would be fantasy enough, as far as I’m concerned.

Staring at the ceiling, he grinned.

He was no fantasy, and soon he was going to prove it to her.

Instead, he was hoping to be her dream come true.

“Light a fire under your ass, Dixie,” he yelled.

He heard her giggle.

He’d been right before, back in the gym. Her giggle was fucking fantastic.

Even better, she knew what he was saying.

He wanted her to hurry because the sooner they got to his parents’ house and back, the sooner they could get back to one another.

Max’s Magic Rule #9:

Do what it takes to make the audience clap even louder.

Nerves danced in Grace’s belly as she stared out the car window, watching the landscape fly past. Max had kept his foot on the gas ever since they’d left Vegas.

The farther they drove, the more nervous Grace became.

In a way, she felt like she’d be meeting Max’s parents for the first time. Especially because Max said he’d never brought a woman to meet them before. What was up with that?

Had he simply not wanted to introduce his parents to a woman he knew wouldn’t be in his life for long? Did that mean he’d never been in any kind of committed relationship?

She knew he was different with his mom and dad. Sweet. More loving. It simply emphasized in her mind all those layers Max had. And how she was pretty much disregarding those layers in her quest for an orgasm.

“So,” Max said, interrupting her thoughts. “We’ve made progress with one of your goals. Have you made any progress with the baby plan?”

Surprised by the blunt way he brought it up, Grace searched his expression for any hint of mockery. All she saw was genuine curiosity. Relaxing back into her seat and welcoming the distraction, she said, “A little.”

“Will you tell me about it?”

“If you’re really interested, sure.” Anything to take her mind off whether his mom would take one look at her and know she was using her son for sex. At that wince-worthy thought, she turned back to the window.

The desert shrubbery had switched from drab khaki green to something more verdant as they climbed into the foothills. Lovely. The elevation and vegetation reminded Grace a bit of where she’d grown up in Georgia. Different, but the same color green. For a moment, an image of her mama and daddy wrapped in each other’s arms, Mama’s head snuggled in Daddy’s shoulder, came to mind.

Hot tears forced their way to the surface and she furiously blinked them away.

What was she doing here with Max? She was enjoying her time with him, yes, but it was also serving to remind her what she didn’t have.

What she’d had as a young child had been precious. Her parents’ marriage had been amazingly strong and beautiful. She hadn’t been too young to forget how very much in love they were.

She could create her own memories with a son or daughter—she didn’t need love and romance for that. She just needed healthy sperm and a man willing to be a father.

That man wasn’t Max.

***

Max caught a glimpse of Grace out of the corner of his eye. She seemed withdrawn, lost in her own world. As much as he thought her plan to create a family was bullshit, he wanted to know more about her thought process, her plans. How else was he going to talk her out of them? “Grace?”

“Um… what is it you want to know?”

“I’m not even sure—this isn’t a conversation I’ve had before. How do you find a baby daddy?”

“I’ve connected with a surrogacy agency to set me up with someone who has similar values and desires. It’s essentially like a dating service, only…”

“Only instead of connecting with the intent of providing a baby and then walking away, you’re interviewing with the intent to create a fake family.”

“It’s not fake,” she said with frown. “The baby would have a real mother. A real father. They don’t have to be married to be a family. Look at all the divorced families that still provide their children with stability and love. Sounds like you’re implying anything other than a married man and woman isn’t a family.”

Max shook his head. “No way. That’s unfair, Grace. A family is a family, no matter what the structure is.”

“That’s my point. So long as the baby has parents who love it, what does it matter if the parents are married?”

“And what about agreeing on how to raise the child?”

“There are forms to fill out to ensure compatibility. Then contracts are created that specifically state major issues, such as to immunize or not to immunize, what religion the child will be raised with, private versus public schools, college savings plans, and so on.”

He jerked the wheel, avoiding a pothole. They’d turned off the main road a few minutes ago, and here the asphalt wasn’t as well tended. “Sounds like it will look great on paper. But what if the person you choose has the same compatible values as you do and follows the letter of the contract, but treats you distantly?”

She shook her head. “I’m still confused.”

That was understandable, given her whole baby plan inherently involved distance between her and the baby’s daddy. “What if the guy isn’t respectful of you? What if he comes to pick up the kid and ignores you, or makes some negative comment about the mud puddle in the middle of the yard.”

“What mud puddle?” she asked, her brow wrinkled up in confusion.

“When we were off tour, my mom would sometimes let Rhys and I dig a big hole in the front yard. We’d fill it with water from the garden hose, and play for hours. We’d end up coated in mud, our toys too, and there’d be a mud slick from the yard to the front door. Our dad would come home and see this gigantic mess. When my mom would come out to greet him, he’d wrap her in a big hug and ask her if we were having mud pies for dinner.”

“I’m still not getting it,” she said slowly.

He blew out a breath. “What happens if you make a mud hole and the kid’s dad comes to pick him up, then bitches you out for getting the kid muddy or for mucking up your own front yard? What if he admonishes the kid for destroying a perfectly good yard, clothes and toys?”

Grace sat in silence, staring out the window again.

“My point,” he said, quietly, “is you won’t know how this guy’s going to react when you build a mud puddle, and you certainly won’t have any say in how he treats you. In what kind of behavior he models for your child. Is that what you want for your kid? Is that how you see ‘family’?”

“People get married all the time without knowing everything about each other. There’s nothing to say I couldn’t be head over heels in love with someone who would bitch me out for getting the kids muddy someday. Having kids with someone is always a risk. I’m willing to take that risk even if you’re not.”

“Who says I’m not? You think I don’t want to be a father some day?”

Her whipped around to face him and she looked shocked, which pissed him off. Jesus, what was it about him that made women so easily dismiss not only his potential to be a father, but his desire to want to be one in the first place?

“You just seem okay with your life the way it is, Max. You can’t know what it’s like to feel an emptiness that can’t be filled.”

His chest squeezed tight.

She was wrong. He felt that emptiness. Every day.

It seemed ever since he’d started this whole thing with Grace, he felt it more than ever.
Except
when he was with her.

Wasn’t that what she wanted a baby for? To make her feel whole. Complete? No matter how true, that was a huge responsibility to put on a kid. She had to see that.

“So you think having a baby will make you happy, but what if it can’t? What if it’s missing a man’s passion and love that makes you feel empty, Grace?”

“There will be time for that. After,” she said. “But for having a baby? My time’s limited. Every woman knows that.”

“Usually they’re not twenty-nine year old women.”

“You know women, but you don’t know anything about
being
a woman. So please, let’s drop the subject.”

They drove in silence for a few minutes before Max placed a hand on Grace’s leg and squeezed. Thankfully, Grace placed her hand on his and squeezed back. He didn’t let go and neither did she. “So, what happened back at the hotel room…” he said, feeling her out.

“What about it?”

“I didn’t intend for it to happen, but it definitely was consistent with my plan to string things out and keep you guessing about O-time, don’t you think?”

“O-time,” she said. “What? Is that like circle time? Nap time? Snack time?”

He’d just learned something else about her that he liked—she didn’t hold on to annoyance very long. He’d done as she asked and switched topics, and rather than continuing to light into him, she could let it go and tease with the best of them. He waggled his brows. “Nap time? No way. Snack time?” He glanced at her and grinned evilly. “I’m definitely planning on getting my fill of you.”

She sucked in a breath. “Go on,” she said. “What’s your point? About the—” She waved her hand, making him laugh. “—stringing things along.”

“When people start exploring sexuality, they generally begin with fooling around. You did it in college, before you had sex, right?”

She cast a quick glance at him. “Yes. Second base. Third base. That sort of thing.”

“What did you consider pushing the envelope back then? What I did?”

“Kissing my breasts you mean?” She cleared her throat. “No. I’d say a guy touching my....” Her hand jerked, as if she was going to wave it, but she stayed the gesture, making him grin anyway. “Lady parts.”

“Fingering you?”

After swallowing, she nodded.

“Remember how that felt? Experimenting. Seeing how far you could push things. Going to the brink but then not letting either of you go any further. Didn’t you feel powerful? Did you have any doubt that when it happened, it would be incredible for you?”

She seemed to seriously consider his question before answering. “I remember feeling desperate. As if I was starving. Like if I didn’t get him inside me, I’d implode. Like I’d climax the minute he entered me. But also that I didn’t want it to end. I mean, I knew it would end. I knew we’d get there, but…”

“But it felt so good, to be on that edge. Because you could enjoy it all without fearing you’d get stuck there.”

“Yes,” she said. “It did feel good. Intense. But that was because I was inexperienced. I can’t go back in time. No one can.”

“You’re wrong, Dixie. We can get you back to that place, where you’re just feeling, not thinking. It’s where you’re in tune with my body and yours. When you’re so immersed in the pleasure we’re giving each other and an orgasm is a foregone conclusion.”

“That, or we get me back to the places I’ve been since then. Feeling a whole lot of frustration. Frustration you’ll feel too, by the way. Not just physical but...”

“But what?”

“You’ll get tired of trying, that’s all I’m saying, Max. But lucky for you, you have a deadline. One week. If you—if you find you’re tired of things before then, all you have to do is tell me. Please tell me. I’d hate the idea of you—”

Her voice broke and she looked out the window.

“I’m not going to get tired of trying, Grace. God, I don’t know how you can even think that.”

She laughed bitterly. “And I don’t know how you can say that with a straight face.”