After the Downfall (40 page)

Hasso needed a while to realize that question had two possible answers. The one he wanted was that the Bucovinans would do fine after they got the hang of things. But the other one was also there. Maybe they wouldn’t get the hang of it at all. Maybe they were too primitive. The Lenelli were somewhere close to the level where Europeans had been when they started making guns. The Bucovinans... The Bucovinans were trying to pull themselves up to that level by their own bootstraps. How far below it had their several-times-great-grandparents been when the Lenelli first landed on these shores? A thousand years below? Two thousand years? Something like that. They’d started working iron, and they’d had kingdoms of sorts. The Lenelli had smashed a lot of them to confetti. Bucovin survived. Because it lay farther east, it had had more time to absorb what the Lenelli brought with them before they actually bumped up against its borders. And, for whatever reason, magic didn’t work so well near Falticeni. Hasso scratched his head. He wondered why that was so. But he had more urgent things to worry about. “This isn’t just like the thunder weapon you had before,”

Rautat remarked.

“It sure isn’t,” Hasso agreed. With a couple of dozen Schmeissers and enough ammo, he could have gone through all the Lenello kingdoms and Bucovin without breaking a sweat. But he didn’t have them, so no point getting wistful about it.

“I know you say you can’t make anything like that,” Rautat said. Hasso nodded. The Bucovinan went on, “Well, how close can you come?”

“Not very.” With a lot of work, Hasso figured he could eventually make a smoothbore matchlock musket. That wouldn’t happen soon. It also wouldn’t be that much more deadly than a bow and arrow, though it would be a lot easier to learn.

“Too bad,” the underofficer said, and then, “You’d better not be holding out on us.”

“I’m not, curse it!” Hasso said. “Why would I show you this much and not the rest, if I could do the rest? It makes no sense.”

Rautat fingered the graying tendrils of his beard. “I guess so,” he said, but he didn’t sound a hundred percent convinced.

Wonderful. Just what I need,
Hasso thought.
Even the guys who work closest with me don’t trust
me.
But he’d had that unhappy thought before. Nobody trusted someone who changed sides. You got what you could from a turncoat, but trust him? He’d already thrown away one loyalty. Why would he worry about another?

And Hasso knew he would go back to Bottero’s kingdom in a flash if he got the chance. The Bucovinans had to know it, too, because they made sure he never got a chance. They didn’t go into the garderobe with him when he needed to take a leak - not usually, anyhow - but that was about the only time he wasn’t watched except when he was alone in his room. Lord Zgomot didn’t get watched over the way Hasso did.

Well, why should he? Zgomot had no reason to light out for the tall timber. Hasso damn well did. Would Velona take him back? He could hope so, anyhow. And even if she decided he was a racial traitor, Bottero would still think he was useful, wouldn’t he? Sure he would. Hasso found himself grinding his teeth, which wasn’t the smartest thing he could do in a country where the dentists had never heard of laughing gas. Yeah, Bottero would think he was useful. But the Lenello king wouldn’t fully trust him anymore, either. He’d worked for Bucovin, for the contemptible Grenye. He was screwed any way you looked at it.

A couple of evenings later, he told Leneshul not to bother coming back any more. “All right,” she said, and left with no more ceremony than that. She’d given him what he wanted, but she hadn’t wanted anything from him. To her, he was just a job. Now she could go do something else. The next morning, Drepteaza said, “Shall I find another woman for you?”

“In a while, maybe. Not right now,” Hasso answered.

She frowned. “Even if you get no more bad dreams, it’s not healthy for a man to go without a woman too long. You’ll get grumpy and grouchy.”

“If I have a woman I don’t care about, it’s not much better than no woman at all,” Hasso said.

“I’m sorry Leneshul didn’t please you as much as I hoped she would,” Drepteaza said. “But I don’t know what to do about that.”

“You could - ” Hasso broke off.

“What?”

“Nothing. It’s nothing.” Hasso buried his nose in a mug of beer.
Me and my goddamn big mouth,
he thought.

“What is it?” Drepteaza persisted. “If it is anything reasonable, we will do it for you. You do seem to be helping us. We pay our debts.”

Reasonable? That was funny, or would have been if only he were laughing. He took another pull at the beer. Even in wartime Germany, it would have been pretty bad. By local standards, it was pretty good.
If
only I knew something about brewing. If only I knew something about anything.
“Nothing,” Hasso said again.

Drepteaza looked severe. “You say it is nothing. Then you will get angry because we can’t guess what it is and deliver it to you without being asked. We know how these things go - we’ve seen them before.”

She wasn’t going to leave him alone. He could see that coming like a rash - or like a salvo of
Katyusha
rockets from a Stalin Organ. Well, maybe the truth would shut her up. She couldn’t get
too
mad - he hoped - not when she’d asked for it. “If I wanted any woman in my bed, it would be you.”
Any
Bucovinan woman.
Yes, he had to make the reservation even after Velona tried to kill him. If that didn’t say he had it bad, what would?

He didn’t shock the priestess. To his immense relief, he saw that right away. He saw no answering spark flash, though.
Damn!
“It is a compliment. I ought to thank you for it. I
do
thank you for it,” she said slowly.

“But.” Hasso packed a world - two worlds - of bitterness into one word.

“Yes. But.” Drepteaza did him the courtesy of not misunderstanding, and of not beating around the bush the way he had. “I am very sorry, Hasso Pemsel, but when I look at you I see a Lenello. I don’t know what else to say. I don’t think anything else needs saying - do you?”

The Lenelli looked down their noses at Grenye. That the Grenye might look up their noses at the Lenelli

- they weren’t tall enough to look down them - hadn’t crossed Hasso’s mind. The Lenelli, after all, looked like Aryans. Of course they were better than these little swarthy people ... weren’t they?

Didn’t he himself want to sleep with Drepteaza more in spite of her looks than because of them? Well, yes and no. Yes, she was small and dark. But she was also very pretty and, as he knew from the baths, made just the way a woman ought to be. Maybe she was built no better than Leneshul. Even so, she was a hundred times as interesting - which had nothing to do with looks.

“You don’t say anything,” Drepteaza remarked.

“What am I supposed to say? I already say too much,” Hasso answered. She sent him a wry smile. “You’re no Lenello, regardless of how you look. If you were, you would be telling me how wonderful you were and what an honor it would be for me to open my legs for you.”

Hasso’s ears felt on fire. Well-bred women in Germany didn’t talk about opening their legs even after you propositioned them. They might do it, but they didn’t talk about it so baldly. He tried to match her tone: “If you don’t already know I am wonderful, what can I say to make you believe it?”

“Probably nothing.” Few German women had Drepteaza’s devastating honesty, either. She went on, “I look at you, and I see things like Muresh. I see a countryside full of massacres like that, from here all the way west to the seacoast. And I should be
honored
to sleep with you?” She shuddered.
She might as well be a Jew looking at an SS man,
Hasso thought. He did some shuddering of his own. The SS was bound to be out of business now. The Jews who were left in Europe, and the Jews from America and Russia, were having their turn. Hasso didn’t - couldn’t - know what was going on in the
Reich
now in the aftermath of a lost war, but he wasn’t sorry not to be there to see it. Hard times: he was sure of that.

And if the Jews were taking revenge, could the Grenye of Bucovin do the same? The Jews hadn’t had to worry about magic. Oh, some of the Nazi bigwigs dabbled in the occult, but it sure didn’t do them a pfennig’s worth of good. It was real here, though - no doubt about it.
And I’m helping these dark little
mindblind..
. ?

If I want to keep on living, I am.

Besides ... “No matter what I look like, I am not a Lenello,” Hasso said carefully.

“Yes, so you keep insisting, and it seems to be true. But you still look like one, so it helps you less than you think even if it is.” The skin at the corners of Drepteaza’s eyes crinkled; the ends of her mouth turned up the tiniest bit. “And we both know a man will say anything at all to coax a woman into bed with him.”

“What?” Hasso did his best to look comically astonished.

It must have worked - Drepteaza burst out laughing, which didn’t happen every day, or every week, either. She wagged a finger at him. “You are a wicked man. Wicked, I tell you.”

Most of her was kidding; she made that plain enough. But down underneath, at some level, she had to mean it. And so Hasso couldn’t just go on with the joke and say something like,
At your service.
Instead, he said, “Well, the Lenelli think so, too.”

“Yes.” The priestess sent him a hooded look. “And it could be, couldn’t it, that all of us are right?”

A blizzard roared in that afternoon. If anything, it came as a relief to Hasso. It took his mind off the foot he’d stuck in his mouth, anyway. Listening to the wind wail, watching it blow snow past almost horizontally, reminded him there were bigger things in the world than his own foolishness. For a while that morning, he hadn’t been so sure.

Then his nose started to freeze, so he quit watching the blowing snow. It wasn’t anything he hadn’t seen before - that was for damn sure. Next to some of the blizzards he’d seen in Russia and Poland, this one was no more than a plucky amateur.

He wondered how soon he’d regret telling Leneshul to get lost. Then he didn’t wonder any more: he’d regret it as soon as he got horny again. That was as plain as the - chilly - nose on his face. But, dammit, she wasn’t what he wanted. Yeah, any pussy was better than none, but he missed Velona. There was a woman and a half - well, more than a woman and a half, when you got right down to it. A woman and a goddess.

Drepteaza wasn’t a woman and a half. She was so short, she hardly seemed one whole woman. But she was, and then some. And so? So
she
didn’t want
him.

“I can’t win,” he muttered. Maybe she was a lousy lay. Maybe she’d think
he
was a lousy lay. Maybe they just wouldn’t work.
Maybe I’m trying to tell myself the grapes are sour because I don’t get to
taste them.
Aesop was no dummy. He knew how things worked, all right. A Lenello woman came in with his supper. Mutton stew, it smelled like, and heavy on the garlic. He didn’t much care for garlic, but the Bucovinans put it in everything this side of beer. The pitcher of beer wouldn’t be anything to write home about, either - as if he could write home from here. Then again, the natives could have boiled him in beer and shoved garlic cloves up his ass, so how could he complain?

“Good day,” the serving girl said in Lenello.

“Good day,” Hasso answered in his bad Bucovinan.

“You have heard about the trouble?” she asked. Most of the people who dealt with him here knew more Lenello than he did. Back when the German tribes bumped up against Rome, how many Goths and Franks would have spoken Latin? Quite a few, probably.

“No. What trouble?” Hasso stuck to Bucovinan - he needed the practice. He was also out of the gossip loop. No surprise - he was a foreigner who didn’t speak any known language very well. Still in Lenello, the serving woman said, “Your people attack our border villages again. Much burning. Much killing.”

“My people? I have no people here,” Hasso said.

She looked at him as if he were an idiot. That had to be what she was thinking, too. “King Bottero’s people,” she said, speaking slowly and plainly. “You are from King Bottero’s kingdom, yes?”

Hasso couldn’t even say no. That had been his local address till the Bucovinans captured him. Even so, he told the serving woman the same thing he’d told Drepteaza: “I am not a Lenello.”

Drepteaza listened to him. Drepteaza appreciated subtleties. Even Rautat recognized the possibility that he might be different from the rest of Bottero’s men. The serving woman just sniffed. “You look like a Lenello. You come from Bottero’s kingdom. What are you supposed to be, a parsnip?” She walked out of the room without giving him a chance to answer.

“Ja.
A goddamn parsnip,” he said in German. “What am I supposed to be? God, I wish I knew.” He poured beer from the pitcher into a mug. She hadn’t given him enough to get drunk on. The Grenye of Bucovin didn’t get smashed every chance they could, the way so many Grenye in the Lenello kingdoms seemed to. These natives didn’t have to measure themselves against the big, blond, magic-using invaders every hour of the day, every day of the week. They still kept some sense of their own worth. He ate the stew. Damned if it didn’t have parsnips in it. So now he was part parsnip, anyhow. He put more charcoal on the brazier, crawled under his furs and blankets, and went to bed. What else did he have to do when he wasn’t making gunpowder? He hadn’t taken a woman: not Leneshul, not Drepteaza, not even this snippy servant. He hoped Aderno and Velona wouldn’t hound him in his dreams. After everything else today, that would have been too much, even if he lived through it. They didn’t. He got a full night’s sleep - or most of one, anyway. Somebody banged on his door before the sun came up the next morning. When he opened it, Rautat stood in the hallway. “Can you use your gunpowder against the Lenelli?” he asked. The German word sounded odd in his mouth. “Have you got enough?”

“Do I have a choice?” Hasso said. “If I do, I’d rather not.”

Rautat scowled. “You better talk to Lord Zgomot. He sent me.”