After the Downfall (35 page)

The tapman held out his hand, palm up. Rautat crossed it with copper. Lenello coins were pretty crude, at least by the standards Hasso was used to. Bucovinan coins, being cruder imitations of crude originals

... But as long as the natives didn’t fuss, it wasn’t his worry.

“Here.” Rautat perched on a stool by an empty table. He waved Hasso to another one. A couple of the German’s watchdogs also sat down. The rest hovered over him. Like the rest of the men in here, they probably would have been happier to kill him than to guard him. But they followed orders. If they intimidated him while he drank, chances were they didn’t mind.

A barmaid brought the beers. She smiled at Rautat and looked at Hasso ... yes, as if he were a tiger out of its cage. The rest of the guards ordered beer, too, except for one who chose mead instead. The barmaid seemed glad to get away.

“To your health,” Rautat said to Hasso, raising his mug.

“To your health,” Hasso echoed, returning the gesture. They both drank. The beer was better than what they’d given him in his cell, but not much. To somebody used to good German beer, what the Lenelli and the Bucovinans made mostly tasted like sour horsepiss. You could drink it if you had to, though, so he did. Drink water here, as in Russia, and you begged for dysentery.

Why didn’t the damn wizards do something about that? Hasso’s guess was that if they tried they’d be too busy to do anything else.

One of the soldiers already in the tavern came up to Hasso and unloaded a torrent of gibberish on him.

“Sorry, not understand,” he said, and then, to Rautat, “What does he say?”

“Nothing you want to hear,” the underofficer answered in Lenello. “What a rotten dog you are and how he’d like to carve chunks off your liver and eat them raw.”

“Tell him I’m insulted,” Hasso said in the same language. “Tell him the least he could do is cook them first.”

Rautat translated that. Hasso wondered whether he would get a laugh or start a fight. He outweighed the native by close to thirty kilos, so brawling didn’t seem fair. But he didn’t intend to let the Bucovinan pound on him without hitting back.

The soldier stared at Rautat, then stared at him. “He said
that?”
the man said; Hasso had no trouble at all following him. Then the fellow started to chuckle, and he said something the
Wehrmacht
officer didn’t understand before going back to his own table.

“What was that?” Hasso asked Rautat.

In Lenello, Rautat answered, “He said you may be a big blond bastard, but you may almost be a human being, too.”

“Thank you,” Hasso said, deadpan, putting the polite particle at the end. Rautat broke up. Hasso took another pull at his mug of beer. The Grenye were recognizable human beings, too, even if they couldn’t work magic - maybe especially because they couldn’t.

When Rautat and the rest of the guards brought Hasso back to the palace, he got a surprise. While he was gone, the servants had cleaned up his cell and taken out the nasty straw pallet, replacing it with a wool-stuffed mattress on a wooden frame with leather lashings. They’d given him a stool and a basin and pitcher - and a brazier, to fight the freezing breezes that howled in through the window. Now it was a real room - almost.

He bowed to Rautat. “Thank you,” he said again, this time with the polite particle in front to show he was sincere.

“Don’t - it wasn’t my idea.” Rautat repeated himself till Hasso understood, then added, “If you want to thank anybody, thank the priestess. She’s in charge of stuff like this.” Again, he doubled back till the German got it.

“I do that,” Hasso said.

He didn’t get a chance till late in the afternoon. He spent some of the time in between asleep on the nice, new mattress. All too soon, it would be full of bugs, as the old one had been. He didn’t like that, but after more than five years of war in Europe he didn’t think it was the end of the world, either. He’d been lousy and fleabitten and bedbug-bedeviled before. You itched, you scratched, you killed what you could, and you got on with your life.

When Drepteaza came in - accompanied, as usual, by tough little Bucovinan guards - he bowed lower to her than he had to Rautat. “I thank you,” he said, the polite particle properly in front, and waved to show why he was thanking her.

The native soldiers laughed at him. Drepteaza smiled, “You say, ‘I thank
you
’” she told him, using the feminine form of the pronoun. Hasso swore in German, which made him feel better and didn’t offend anybody here, and thumped his forehead with the heel of his hand. Too goddamn much stuff to remember! Drepteaza went on, “And I say that you are welcome. You will be here a while. You may as well be comfortable.”

He doubted he would ever be comfortable in this world. The twentieth century had too much that simply didn’t exist here. Electricity, hot and cold running water, refrigeration, glazed windows, phonographs and photographs, radios, cars... But, again, he’d done without most of that stuff for years. You didn’t have to have it, the way so many people thought you did. Life was nicer with it, sure, but you could manage without.

“And you’ll earn these things,” the priestess said. “We do expect to learn from you, you know.” She repeated herself in Lenello so he could have no doubt about what she meant.

“I understand,” he answered, which wasn’t the same as promising to deliver. Whatever he gave the Bucovinans would hurt the Lenelli. The hope that he would give them things that would hurt the Lenelli was the only reason the natives hadn’t murdered him instead of taking him prisoner. Drepteaza eyed him shrewdly. “You understand, but you don’t want to do it. Plenty of real Lenelli do, and you aren’t one.”

You’re just as foreign there as you are here, so why not help us?
That was what she meant, all right. She wasn’t quite right, though. Hasso felt more at home among the Lenelli than he did here, and he doubted things would have been different had he landed here first. The Lenelli came closer to thinking the way he did. They were conquerors. They were winners. Bucovin was a land trying to figure out how not to lose. It wasn’t the same.

He couldn’t say that to Drepteaza without insulting her. So he said something simpler: “I swear - swore an oath to King Bottero.”

“I’ve heard about it.” The swarthy little priestess looked at him. “How much would your oath matter if you weren’t sleeping with that blond cow?”

“Velona’s no cow!” Hasso exclaimed: the first thought that sprang into his head. You could call her all kinds of things, but cow? If you called her a cow, you’d never met her and you had no notion, no notion at all, what she was like.

Drepteaza gave him the native equivalent of a curtsy; it looked more like a dance step. “Excuse me,” she said with wintry politeness. “That blond serpent, should I call her? That blond wolf-bitch?”

Those both came closer. Still, Hasso said, “I don’t insult you or your folk.”

This time, Drepteaza looked through him. “The Lenelli are not your folk. You said so yourself.”

And he had, again and again. “But - ” he began.

“But what?” The priestess sounded genuinely confused. Then her eyes widened. She said something in Bucovinan that he didn’t get. She must have seen he didn’t, for she went back to Lenello: “You really love her!” She couldn’t have seemed more appalled had she accused him of breakfasting on Grenye babies.

He remembered that Velona had sounded just as horrified herself when she realized the same thing.

“Well, what if I do?” he said roughly, doing his best to forget that.

“Moths fly into torch flames because they must. Do they love them when they do?” Drepteaza said - the exact figure Velona had used.

Hasso’s ears heated. “I don’t know. I’m not a moth,” he said.

“No, you’re not, which only makes it worse. You have a choice, and you choose to be a fool,”

Drepteaza told him.

The more she argued with him, the more she put his back up. “What am I supposed to do? Tell my heart no?” he asked.

“You would if you had any sense. If you had any sense - ” Drepteaza broke off and threw her hands in the air. “Oh, what’s the use? If you could show a fool his folly, he wouldn’t be a fool anymore.” She turned and spoke to the guards in Bucovinan: “Come on. It’s hopeless.
He’s
hopeless.”

Hasso understood that just fine. Yes, she was a good teacher. She just didn’t want to teach him anymore. The closing door and the thud of the bar on the outside falling back into place had a dreadfully final sound.

He wondered whether the Bucovinans would take away his small comforts again and remind him he was a prisoner. For that matter, he wondered whether he would find out how ingenious the local torturer was. If you told your captors things they didn’t want to hear, you had to expect to pay the price. Drepteaza really hadn’t wanted to hear that he loved Velona. For that matter, neither had Velona. It would have been funny if it hadn’t put his ass in a sling. Hell, it was pretty funny anyhow. They went on feeding him, and the food stayed better than the prison slop he’d had before. Somebody maybe Drepteaza, maybe Lord Zgomot, maybe just Rautat - was in a merciful mood, at least as far as that went. Not expecting any mercies, Hasso was grateful even for small ones. He spent the next several days wondering whether small ones were the only ones he’d get. The natives who brought him food didn’t speak to him, and didn’t answer when he tried to speak to them. Neither did the ones who emptied his chamber pot.

And nobody else showed up. Drepteaza didn’t come in to teach him more Bucovinan. Rautat didn’t come in with guards to escort him around Falticeni. They let him stew in his own juices instead.
I’m not going to stop feeling what I feel about Velona,
he thought.
I’m not going to forget my oath
to Bottero.
Some more time went by.
I hope I’m not, anyway.
He did what he’d done before: he slept as much as he could. The long, cold winter nights lent themselves to that.
To sleep, perchance to dream ...
If he wasn’t too hungry and he wasn’t too cold, why not? He couldn’t turn on the radio or even curl up with a good book.

At first, he didn’t dream much, or didn’t remember what he dreamt if he did. He’d never paid a whole lot of attention to his dreams, so that didn’t worry him. And even if he had been, the clout in the head he’d taken might have scrambled his brains worse than he knew.

When he
did
start noticing what he dreamt, that was enough to make him sit up and wonder what the hell was going on. All the dreams had the same theme: somebody was looking for him, trying to talk to him. He had no idea who or why. The dreams didn’t seem threatening. That was as much as he was willing to say about them, even to himself.

When, after a couple of weeks, Drepteaza did start giving him lessons again, he mentioned them to her. He tried first in his very basic, very bad Bucovinan. When that failed, he switched to Lenello. She heard him out with her usual thoughtful air. Once he finished, she said, “I will pray, and see if that does anything.”

It didn’t, not as far as Hasso could tell. She listened gravely when he told her so, then promised to speak to Rautat about it. The veteran underofficer came up to Hasso and winked at him. “
I
know what you need,” he said.

“Do you?” Hasso said. “I don’t.” Rautat thought that was the funniest thing he’d ever heard. Hasso found out why a couple of nights later, when a reasonably good-looking Bucovinan woman came into his room without any guards escorting her. “My name is Leneshul,” she said in fair Lenello. “They say you have been without pleasure too long. I can give you some.” As matter-of-factly as if she were going to wash dishes, she pulled her top off over her head and tugged her skirt and drawers down to the floor. “Do I suit you?” she asked, standing naked - and she
was
naked, not nude - before him. “You can have someone else if I don’t.”

Part of him wanted to tell her to leave and not to ask anyone else to come in her place. But he was almost painfully aware of how very long he’d gone without. It didn’t have to mean anything - just relief and, as she’d said, some momentary pleasure. “You’ll do,” he told her, and got out of his own clothes. He wasn’t sure she enjoyed it, but he wasn’t sure she didn’t. She was certainly limber and uninhibited. He rode her the first time. After they finished, she sucked him hard again and straddled him. He squeezed her small, firm breasts as she bucked up and down. She threw back her head and groaned. If she came, it was right then. He knew he did a moment later.

“There,” she said, leaning down to brush her lips across his. “Is that better?”

“Oh,
yes,” he said. She laughed throatily.

He slept without dreams that night. Drepteaza asked him about it at their language lesson the next morning. She seemed pleased at his answer. “Rautat was clever,” she said. “More clever than I was. You may have Leneshul any night you please - or another woman, if you’d rather.”

What about you?
Hasso wondered. Drepteaza was cool, almost cold, as if she had no idea how pretty she was. That made the prospect of heating her all the more exciting. But she looked at him as if he were a side of beef. If he offended her, she could do anything she wanted to him. He kept his big mouth shut ... about that, anyway.

“Leneshul is all right,” he told her.

“Then she will come to you again,” Drepteaza said briskly. And Leneshul did, two or three nights a week. On those nights, Hasso never had any of the dreams that disturbed him. He had them less often on other nights, too.

But when they did come on other nights, they seemed more urgent, as if whatever was behind them felt itself thwarted and so tried harder than ever to break through. That alarmed him; he felt pursued. He used the solace of Leneshul’s compliant body as often as he could.

No matter what he did, he couldn’t get it up every single night. He wished he were ten years younger; then he might have. But when he was ten years younger, the future stretched out before him with a broad and shining path. The
Führer
was turning the tiny
Reichswehr
into the
Wehrmacht,
restoring German pride, restoring German power. What could stand in the way of a proud, resurgent nation?