A Wicked Snow (3 page)

Joanne wore a halter top with black-and-white cows printed on it, blue jean shorts that were doing battle with her fleshy thighs. Hannah didn't doubt that the fabric--that odd kind of denim that looks too thin to be the real thing--and the woman's increasing girth would be fighting to the finish. She led Hannah into an overloaded family room separated from the entry by a turned-knob room divider resembling Early American furniture. A spider plant spilled variegated green-and-white foliage over the salmon-colored laminate counter-top. A shiny yellow Tonka truck positioned on a shelf served as magazine holder. Old issues of
Dirt Biker
filled the back end of the toy.

"Sit here," Joanne said, pointing to a pillow-strewn sofa. "But only for a minute. Like I said, I don't have anything to say."

Photos in Plexiglas frames lined a shelf behind the fake log fireplace that served as the focal point of the small room. Hannah recognized the face of the little girl with corkscrew pigtails. All of the photos were of Mimi.

"She's a very pretty girl," Hannah said. "How is she?"

Joanne made a face. It was a hard, angry visage, and it made her look older than her years. "How
should
she be? You've taken her from her home! Her father is in jail!"

The words were familiar to Hannah. A few said them with more conviction than Joanne Garcia did that morning in her mobile home. Some recited the words as though they'd rehearsed them in front of a mirror and knew that practiced indignation and outrage were but a small and necessary step in the direction toward a defense of some kind.

"How in the hell should she be? Her daddy didn't do nothin' and you've taken her away, lady!"

"To save her life."

Joanne's face was now blood red. "Her life didn't need saving. It was an accident."

"I'm sorry, but I don't think so. Listen to me very carefully," Hannah said, fixing her eyes on Joanne's. "Woman to woman, mother to mother--I am a mother, too--your daughter's life is in danger. Your job is to protect her."

Joanne stood and spun around, grabbing a photograph of her daughter.

"You don't know me, my husband, or anything about us." She punched her empty fist into the air and held the photo to her bosom.

Hannah felt her stomach flutter slightly as though the woman was going to hit her. Instead, Joanne started to cry and held out a picture of the little girl that had brought Santa Louisa criminal investigators into her life.

"She is all I have. All
we
have! Don't do this to us. Do not ruin this family. People like you are always trying to judge people like us."

She set the picture back on the top shelf of the room divider.

"We're not trying to ruin anything. We're trying to help you and your daughter."

"Right. Like I'm going to believe anything you say," she said. "Get the fuck out of my house! Now!"

Hannah let the front door swing open on its squeaky spring and returned to the car. Her heels clacked on the cracked and patched sidewalk.

"Handled that one real smooth, Hannah," Ripp said. His words dripped with his own brand of malevolent sarcasm. "Maybe I could coach you sometime?"

Hannah didn't want Ripp to know that she'd been unnerved by the encounter in the trailer. She didn't want to him to know what was really on her mind, what she had boxed up in her trunk.
Eat shit.
She didn't say the words, but she thought them. And she smiled back at him once more.

"Glad I got out of bed today," she muttered.

The Santa Louisa County sheriff had been dispatched to Mucho Muchachos Daycare Center on the south end of Valle los Reyes the day before. An employee there had indicated a little girl had showed evidence of abuse. It was reported around noon, though the telltale signs of abuse had been evident at six in the morning. Mimi Garcia's bottom had been hemorrhaging; a bloom of crimson had spotted her panties. The little girl paid it no mind, but a caregiver--a girl of seventeen named Nadine Myers--had noticed the bleeding when she served her breakfast snack.

"Did someone hurt you?" asked Nadine, a high school dropout with a smile that begged for braces and hands scarred from filing ragged edges while working in her father's sheet metal shop.

Mimi shook her head as she picked out the shriveled black fruits in the raisin bran growing soft in a pink Tupperware bowl. Two other kids, a boy and a girl, both four, argued over the sugar bowl, and Nadine went to settle the dispute with promises of a frosted Pop-Tart.

A couple of hours later, Nadine was up to her neck in acrid disposable diapers when she returned to Mimi. She sat on the floor, Indian-style, crying. When Nadine pulled her to her feet, she revealed a small smudge of congealed blood.

"We have a problem with Mimi," she called over the din of the TV.

Fifteen minutes later, a uniformed deputy and a Child Protective Services worker arrived, and Mimi Garcia was off to the Valley Medical Center. She was the possible victim of abuse, possibly sexual.

Hannah and Ripp arrived at the day care center just before 4 p.m. to talk with Nadine Myers, but the young woman was of little help. Her ignorance/evasiveness made Hannah angry, and after a few rounds of pointless responses, Hannah turned it around and beat her up with the questions. At least they wouldn't leave any marks.

"If you were so worried about her,
worried enough to ask
, why didn't you report it to someone?"

Nadine narrowed her eyes defensively. Dry skin creased her tight little mouth.

"Excuse me," she said. "But if you had to report every little problem that comes in the front door every morning multiplied by twenty-eight kids, you'd find you were reporting every bump and bruise."

"But this wasn't just a bump, Nadine," Hannah said.

Nadine bristled. "What do you expect me to be, a doctor? God, I don't even make as much money as two of my friends who work at McDonald's."

"That's all for now," Hannah said. "We'll be in touch."

The girl seemed surprised. "Do you want my number or something?"

"No, thanks," Hannah said as they turned to leave. "We know where to find you."

"Did someone say McDonald's?" Ripp asked. "I could use a burger about now. Maybe we could pull a drive-thru on our way back to the office?"

A drive by, maybe,
Hannah thought, but said, "All right. If you must."

"Need to gas up, too."

Hannah shook her head. "Do you mind if we hold off on that? I have to get back. I can't stop everywhere and you, you know, you need that burger."

The truth was the smell of any petroleum product could send Hannah to near retching. The lawn mower had to be electric, because a more powerful gas one sent off fumes that made her ill even if Ethan did the work, or later, when they could afford it, a gardener. Vicks Vapo-Rub made her sick. Forget pumping fuel at a service station. Hannah loved Oregon more than any state because it was one of the few that didn't force people to fuel up their own cars; in fact, a state law prohibited anyone from self-service. This, like so many of her phobias, came from that terrible Christmas Eve.

When they suffered a power outage earlier in their marriage, Ethan produced a kerosene lantern and Hannah nearly went berserk. She caught herself before her rant went too far--first it was a safety issue, then she said it would be more romantic if they burned candles or just sat alone in the dark. Ethan took her to be in a romantic mood, but as they made love, the images of that night played in her mind. And though sex with her husband was the last thing on her mind, she was grateful for the diversion, but felt guilty that the moment held no more for her than a way to try to forget that night.

Her car still smelling of Ripp's fast-food binge, it was after seven o'clock when Hannah returned to 1422 Loma Linda Avenue, the single-story stucco home she shared with her husband and daughter. It was a pretty little place with a thicket of bird-of-paradise by the front windows, twin date palms on the property line, and a sand-box made of old oil-soaked railroad ties that had somehow morphed into a cat box in the backyard.

A ten-year veteran of the Santa Louisa County P.D., Ethan Griffin had parked his police cruiser in the driveway, leaving the garage open for his wife. Ethan was thoughtful that way. He was loading the dishwasher when she came inside. French fries and ketchup marked two plates. Ethan had brown eyes and black hair that had just started to fleck silver. His mustache ("part of the uniform," he joked) was a bit of a problem. It turned somewhat skunk striped the year before, and rather than shave it off or live with the indication that, at forty-two, he was growing older, he dyed it black with one of the so-gradual-no-one-will-detect products.

"I promise you," he told Hannah then, "I'm not run- ning out to a gym or a tanning spa. I don't have a girlfriend, and I don't really care how I look. I could live with a little padding in the middle. It isn't any of that. I just want to compete."

Hannah smiled and warned Ethan not to let the concoction foaming above his lip drip onto the linens she kept folded by the sink.

"Stains like murder," she had told him.

The Griffins had lived in the house on Loma Linda since Hannah's first pregnancy, which, sadly, had ended in a miscarriage at a devastating twenty-one weeks. Amber, now eight, was conceived the year after her sister, Annie, had died. Despite their seemingly all-involving careers as a cop and a CSI, they made plenty of time for Amber. The little girl was never overindulged, but neither did she go without. Hannah was not among the growing group of mothers who sought to make her daughter into a "better me," but she did want her child to have the opportunities that had eluded her.

Amber was engrossed in a television program when Hannah swooped down and pecked her on the top of the head. In her mind, Hannah repeated a phrase as she always did,
"I'm sending all my love to you."
Amber murmured approval, but kept her eyes glued on the screen. A moment later, having heard his wife come in, Ethan emerged from the kitchen.

"Hungry?" he asked.

"Not really. Ripp made a stop at McDonald's. I'm still dealing with the fumes." She rolled her eyes.

Ethan thought his wife looked pale. "You okay?" he asked.

"Tough day, I guess."

Ethan had heard about the Garcia mess over the weekend. Hannah, as always, was obsessed about nailing someone--the mother, the father--for the abuse of a child. The Garcia case was the most recent in a long line of cases that consumed her. She was tired; her eyelids hooded, and her smile was plastered on. Ethan served her a slice of pizza and a glass of wine.

"I just need to unwind," she finally said. She wanted to tell her husband about the special delivery someone had made to her office, about the box she carried in her car trunk. But she couldn't. The time didn't seem right. Amber needed to be tucked in and there was a chapter of
Oz
to read.

It wasn't that Ethan Griffin with his kind and expressive brown eyes and massive, prickly haired shoulders wasn't a smart man. He
was
. He'd advanced several rungs up the ladder at the sheriff's office, and although no longer a
wunderkid
once he hit his fortieth birthday, he was still seen by many around the department as an up-and-comer. But what Hannah loved most about her husband had nothing to do with his ability as a cop, his intellect, or his wit at a social service fund-raiser. It was that above all, Ethan was passionate man when it came to his family. His wife and his daughter were his world, the only world he needed. She admired Ethan for his total devotion. Sometimes she was even jealous of her husband's capacity to be so devoted. She was always on the run.

In part, Hannah chose Ethan for her husband and the father of her children because she knew his family history was built on love and stability, things that despite the valiant efforts of her aunt and uncle, she had lacked for much of her growing years. Even so, though Ethan knew nearly everything about her life, there were still things she felt unable to share. Some things, she felt, were not to be disclosed. She did not view her refusal to tell him everything a betrayal or unjust secrecy. It was solely an issue of personal privacy. If things got difficult for her to deal with on the inside, she could always keep Ethan at bay by telling him that it was a case that was eating at her like a battery-acid drip. Now, following the receipt of the box in her office, Hannah found herself using such subterfuge. She was jittery and laconic whenever Ethan inquired about her frayed nerves.

Ethan saw that Hannah was preoccupied. But, he told himself, it was the Garcia case. He'd felt the brunt of such frustration over the years--be it the case of a seventeen-year-old slashed with a box cutter and raped in the back of a bookmobile. Or the time Hannah broke her seemingly ceaseless string of sex cases with the prosecution of a man who walked into a dry cleaner and forced two of the women facedown on the pressing machine while he robbed them at gunpoint. He knew that when a certain case came along, the kind in which an advocate was needed to work the details and press for justice, she'd be gone. She was the only one in Santa Louisa County who could do it.

"I know the Garcia thing is getting to you," he told her as they slid under the covers. "Amber knows it, too."

"I'm fine," Hannah said. She kissed him and snuggled in his arms. For a second, she no longer seemed unsettled. She even appeared to relax. Hannah was somewhat adept at hiding her feelings. It came with practice.

This time Ethan wasn't buying it completely. "You don't look fine. You look like you've been drained. I'm half expecting that you're going to keel over from stress or something."

Hannah forced a slight smile. "You're more likely to go into cardiac arrest than I. Twenty-to-one chances I'd say."

"I'm worried, that's all."

"I know. Me, too."