A Wicked Snow (18 page)

Wheaton, wrapped in shackles and wearing XXXL coveralls the screaming orange color of a hunter's cap, was shipped off to the prison at Cutter's Landing, and everyone else went home. Leanna Schumacher took Hannah back to Misery Bay. Bauer returned to Portland. Veronica Paine celebrated her win with her husband at their beach house in Cannon Beach on the Oregon coast. And though the years would pass, the people touched by what happened at Icicle Creek Farm would forever remain connected. They would not be able to forget what happened because Claire Logan could not be forgotten by anyone. She was the nightmare that didn't go away even when the lights went on.

Bauer continued to work the case on the limited time allowed by the FBI. He clipped whatever he read about it and continued to run Logan's Social Security number to see if she was living somewhere under a new name. She likely masterminded the murder of twenty, and the idea that she was using any of her old I.D. was the longest shot of many.

Bauer made a couple of trips to Rock Point, and he always went to the site of the fire. He felt sorry for Jim and Dina Campbell, the Portland couple who bought the Logan place from the bank a year after the trial. They were in their late thirties, refugees from the city with dreams of creating an income in the country. Jim had been a personnel manager for a frozen food company in Beaverton; Dina, a driver's license examiner for the Department of Motor Vehicles. Their dead end brought them to Rock Point. Their finances brought them to Icicle Creek Farm. It was, Jim told his wife, too good a deal to pass up. They could overlook the tragedy and notoriety and build a new house and start over. Their dream was not out of line, but their hope that things would be restful was lost. By the time the Campbells had assumed ownership (paying only the balance owed and not market value), the Logan story had passed into a near mythical state of infamy.

The landowner next door cleared a two-hundred-foot-wide strip along the fence line and stuck up a sign advertising the place as a campground for RVs. For power, he went cheap and ran extension wires from the house to the pads. Water was provided through a garden hose. And, as if further proof was needed to affirm the bad taste of those with beer-can hats and crocheted toilet tissue covers, the RV crowd came. When a newspaper ran a story on the campground with a "front row seat to the nations' most grisly mystery," all slots--twenty in a row--were perpetually filled through the spring, summer, and fall. Only winter brought a reprieve.

Campsite No. 21 was cordoned off with a yellow plastic rope. A sign made out of a routed piece of cedar proclaimed the place permanently reserved.

"In case Mrs. Logan comes back," the park owner said. "She's gonna need a place to stay."

Outside his window, summer weather flirted with Portland, Oregon. Lilac blooms were faded and turning brown, and grass everywhere needed a good shearing. It was a half year after the Logan farm burned to the ground. Downtown in the offices of the FBI, a voice cut through a tinny-sounding speakerphone and Special Agent Jeff Bauer set down his tepid cup of coffee, an oil slick of powdered creamer swirling inside. He leaned forward and strained to hear. The sound resonated like a cheap citizen's-band radio, and he shook his head for the thousandth time.
The federal government could afford a four-hundred-dollar hammer
, he thought, swallowing the last gulp of oily brew,
but Uncle Sam couldn't get the bucks together for decent communication equipment for the FBI.

"Bauer, there's someone here to see you," a female agent's voice cracked for the second time. It was Special Agent Bonnie Ingersol, a twenty-five-year-old with a master's degree in criminology, who begrudgingly filled in to work the phones during lunch when the "front-desk girl" was off to lunch with her boyfriend. The front-desk "girl" was fifty-six and more a grandmother than an in- genue. Ingersol hated the duty, but was too nice to fight it. Paying dues was part of the drill. Being pleasant was fine with her, as long as it wasn't forever. She was as shrewd as she was beautiful, with long dark brown hair and ice-blue eyes.

"Says her daughter's missing," Ingersol said. "Might have something to do with the Logan case."

"Huh?" Bauer responded, staring at the squawk box.

"The woman says her daughter worked for Claire Logan," Ingersol said. "She hasn't seen her in almost a year." She lifted her finger from the "talk" button and waited for Bauer to respond. "Are you there? Jeesh, Bauer, she thinks her daughter's Number 20."

This time Bauer muttered back into the box that he'd go out to the lobby to meet her
. Not again. Not another.
It was only a few months after Marcus Wheaton had been sent to run the license plate paint-drying tunnel at the penitentiary in Cutter's Landing. Liz Wheaton's calls to the FBI had stopped by then. She no longer threatened to picket the front steps of the Spruce County Courthouse with her claim that her son had been railroaded by a conspiracy of local and federal cops. All but one of the military men had been identified and their bones returned to the earth in family cemeteries across the nation. Only two mysteries remained. Was Claire Logan really gone? And, if she was, just whose body was under the piano?

Bauer smiled at the woman in the waiting room. Peggy Hjermstad was thirty-nine and very pretty. Her eyes were the color of Navajo turquoise, and her skin was thin, milky white, almost translucent. She stood in front of the FBI--
FIDELITY
,
BRAVERY
,
AND INTEGRITY
--plaque that was the sole adornment of the waiting area, wearing a faded batik skirt from an import store. Silver-and-peacock-feather earrings fluttered from her earlobes. Bauer introduced himself and offered her coffee.

Peggy Hjermstad grimaced. "Tea would be better," she said. "Herbal would be best. If you have it. Honey would be nice, too."

He smiled and led her to a waiting room while Bonnie Ingersol, a woman smarter than two-thirds of the men in the office, scuttled off to look for tea. Just as Ingersol turned the corner with tea bags flailing and an enamel hot pot to heat water, Peggy started talking. As she spoke, her arms moved and her silver charm bracelet tinkled like small wind chimes.

"You know I had an inkling,
a feeling
, about this for some time. When my daughter didn't call me on my birthday, well, that was the first clue she was in trouble of some kind. But I dismissed it from my mind."

Ingersol, thankfully relieved of her phone duty, took a seat next to Bauer. "When was that?" she asked.

"February 2nd. Groundhog's Day. Oh, I know the jokes, but that
is
my birthday. Serena didn't call and unless she was strung out on something, I just couldn't fathom
why
. It wasn't that we even had a falling out. Not really."

"Let's back up," Bauer said. "Tell me about your daughter."

She reeled in her sodden teabag like a miniature anchor, rolling the string around a red-and-white plastic stir stick.

"It's all here," Hjermstad said, rifling through her purse. "I made a flyer to post around town. Saw one up on the way over here. Still up. I know it should have made me sad to see it, but you know, I actually smiled. There are still decent people in this world. They left it up!"

Bauer and Ingersol reviewed the smudged flyer that had been folded so many times, it nearly split into quarters. Serena Moon Hjermstad was nineteen, five-foot-six, and 120 pounds, her hair was brown, and her eyes green.

"When the sun shines in her hair, she has--
had
--red highlights."

Hjermstad had come from her home on the Oregon coast to the FBI offices to discuss the possibility that her daughter was the headless corpse under the piano that had first been thought to be Claire Logan. In that case, the color of her eyes and her hair had little relevance; both agents thought it, but they didn't say so.

"Last time I heard from her," she went on, "she was hanging around a sandwich shop in Cutter--not far from Rock Point. Said she was going to get a job at a tree farm."

"Did she say it was Rock Point?" Ingersol asked.

She shook her head. "But she did say she could bike there. Rock Point is in biking distance from Cutter."

"Yes," Bauer answered, though he didn't want to be dismissive. By that time he'd talked to at least fifteen, maybe twenty, other mothers who thought their daughter might be the one pinned under the piano. He urged her to be specific. "You know, Mrs. Hjermstad, we have chased down a hundred or more tips from people who thought their daughter, sister, mother, cousin, neighbor, biology teacher...
someone
could be victim twenty."

Hjermstad put down her tea and faced Bauer.

"But I just feel it has to be her. She wouldn't drop off the face of the earth. She really did love her family. Didn't always see eye to eye, but she loved us. I just know it deep in my bones that she's gone. Her light has gone to heaven."

"Couldn't she have just gone off somewhere? Maybe met someone?" he asked.

Hjermstad wouldn't hear of it. Her body stiffened. "No, I don't think so. Serena had no reason to do that. We accepted all of her soul mates--every one of them," she said, forcing a smile as she realized the irony of her words. "She'd have no reason to run off and leave us to worry."

Bauer could tell she was beginning to tear up. "How do you know she worked for Logan?" he asked.

"I don't know for sure, but she did send me a beautiful holiday swag. Spruce and balsam, I think. It was in a gift box from the Logan farm. I just know she had to have bought it because she worked there. Maybe had an employee discount? You're the FBI. Can't you find out if she worked there?"

"Wish we could, ma'am," Bauer said. "But there are no records left. Everything burned up. And there's no paper trail, either. Claire Logan didn't pay taxes for her employees. No record. Nothing."

Mrs. Hjermstad finished her tea and got up to leave. Her hands trembled slightly, and for the first time Bauer understood something that had eluded him in training: Peggy Hjermstad, like so many mothers, would rather know that her child was dead, and
where
she was, rather than not know anything at all. She didn't want her to be a Bundy girl, dumped like roadkill on some mountain-side; bones scattered by animals and bleached by the filtered rays of a Pacific Northwest sun. Peggy had lived with that image every night when she closed her turquoise eyes to sleep. Sleep, she found in the months after Serena stopped calling, would never came easily until she had answers.

"I just want to know," she said. "You understand?"

"I'll let you know," he said, catching Ingersol's eye and corrected himself, "We'll let you know if we, if I, can tie her to the crime scene."

"Thanks. I just want to know that she's gone. Gone for sure."

With that, she pressed a slip of paper, the flyer she had folded like a Chinese fan, into Bauer's open hand.

"Call me if you find out anything. I mean
anything
."

He nodded once more.

"Mr. Bauer," she asked timidly, as though she was treading in a private area, "has Hannah Logan ever said who she thought was Number 20? I was thinking maybe she knows my daughter."

"I'm sorry. She believed the corpse was her mother's in the beginning. She couldn't even guess who it was if it"--he stopped and corrected himself--"if
she
was an imposter, a stand-in."

Ingersol offered to walk Hjermstad to the door.

"Thank you, dear. And thank you so much for the tea. It was delicious. How old are you? You look about my Serena's age..."

A moment later, Bauer cornered Ingersol to let off steam. Serena Hjermstad's mother would never get the final word that she needed because Spruce County had screwed up and the body was cremated before processing for forensics. There had been so much finger pointing, even an FBI agent couldn't pinpoint
who
exactly had made the blunder of all blunders when the headless body was cremated before autopsy.

"I'd like to have those fools in Spruce County face Mrs. Hjermstad and tell her that they are sorry for what they did, and if the body was her daughter's--and no one will really know for sure--well, sorry about that, too."

Ingersol noticed Bauer's face redden. His ears, the bridge of his nose, even his lips grew darker as his anger and frustration swelled.

"From what I heard," he said, "they don't own up to anything."

Bauer was mad as hell and knew that he and Peggy Hjermstad would both be cheated because of the incompetence of a couple of buffoons from a small town no one cared about until twenty people were found dead there.

"We're never really gonna know," he said bitterly, "if the victim is Serena, some other girl, or Claire Logan."

Ingersol disagreed. "We'll find out. It might take a while, but we'll get there. I have faith in us. You know, the whole concept that got us to the academy in the first place, good over evil?"

"Catching the bad guys and carrying the badge, I remember," he muttered. "I just think Claire Logan was a lot smarter than we imagined. Maybe even smarter than us."

"Smarter than you? Stop a second. I need to write that one down," Ingersol said.

For everyone involved in the Logan case, back then and the years hence, there would be no concrete answers. Only lingering questions, spiraling mysteries, and leads made of mirages. If alive, Claire Logan was the cleverest of fugitives. She left no tracks. Not a single one. Not ever. The fall of 1980 brought cold weather and gales of wind to Misery Bay. It also brought reality home to Hannah Logan. As she sat staring at the newspaper, she found herself back in the journalism classroom at Misery Bay Senior High. She had been a junior then with ambitions of becoming a magazine editor, perhaps in New York. Anywhere, she had thought, anywhere, but Oregon. Far, far away.

A headline stopped her heart for just a moment:
WOMAN ARRESTED IN MILWAUKEE
,
COULD IT BE CLAIRE LOGAN
?

Hannah's eyes bulged. She looked around, self-conscious that others were staring at her. Could they see the flush on her face, the blood draining into a pool in her stomach? No one, it seemed, paid her any mind. The school paper's editor flirted with the photographer, a girl, about going into the darkroom to "see what develops." Hannah put her head down and read. The article described a food service worker who had been picked up for writing hot checks in several Wisconsin towns. She'd used the name
Claire Logan--
"the name of the notorious serial killer from Oregon"--on a phony bank account. The article went on further to describe the woman as dark-haired, about five-foot-five and 155 pounds. Hannah knew it was not her mother. This lady had
brown
eyes. As resourceful as Claire Logan had been in her life, dying her eyes was not something even she could do.

The periodic jolts brought by seeing her mother's name in print had a strange and unique rhythm. Like a rope swing caught in the crotch of a tree, the wind would come and drop it free to swing once more. The news accounts were like that. Every now and then the rope would fall from the sky and Hannah would be there to face her mother's name. She wasn't the only one who had to live that way, and she didn't feel sorry for herself because of that.

In her own way, Hannah shared a bond with many she had never met. There was the little girl who had been trapped in a Vermont storm drain and had been rescued by neighbors after a six-day ordeal. There was the boy from Pittsburgh who had escaped Dante Richards, the serial killer, and testified against him. And the four-year-old girl who had been the sole survivor of a 747 crash in Bogota in 1969. All of them were children of scandal or circumstance.

Because they made good copy, reporters would not leave them alone. The obligatory five-years-after stories turned into ten years after, then fifteen... all the while reopening sores with the hot and dirty knife of the media. None of the children of notorious events could be allowed the freedom to forget. Of course, Hannah knew well that forgetting was utter fantasy. Nothing so terrible can be forgotten. But all she wanted--all the others had wanted--was a chance to get on with their own lives. They deserved and hoped for a chance at being normal. But that was never to be, though in time the headlines would shrink, the interest would ebb. But it could not be completely disregarded. There was always the angle.
Always and forever.

When the phone rang late at night or when the answering machine was a staccato recording of hang-up calls, Hannah felt certain it was a reporter. It almost had to be. They called to get the story. They called to see how she was. The woman who had written the book
Twenty in a Row
had been the worst offender. She had cast herself as an expert on the Claire Logan case. Marcella Hoffman had parlayed Hannah's family's tragedy into a livelihood, and for that, Hannah Griffin hated her. For that, if there was a choice between writers who would get to update the story--if, in fact, there was no stopping it--Hoffman would not be the one.

Hannah had seen Hoffman on a television morning show the week before the tenth anniversary of the nightmare. By that time she and her aunt called the author "Dog Face" or "DF." She was being asked the whereabouts of Claire's daughter--Hannah--as though she had some claim on her.

"Where her daughter, now twenty-three or twenty-four, has gone, I can't really say," Hoffman said.

"Can't say, or don't know?" the flashbulb-eyed interviewer probed, obviously annoyed at the evasiveness of the author.

"Let me put it this way," she said with supreme self-assuredness. "When Hannah Logan wants to come out and greet the world with her recollections of what happened in Rock Point, Oregon, it'll be in response to my request."

Hannah couldn't believe the puffed-up Hoffman's remarks.
Over your dead body,
she thought
. Add another number to your book title and make it
Twenty-
One
in a Row
. I will never talk to you
.

When Hannah finally broke down and purchased a copy of Hoffman's
Twenty in a Row,
she hid it from her aunt and uncle. She kept the paperback in the bottom drawer of the jewelry box they had given her for Christmas the year after it happened.
It.
She didn't even like to refer to what it was. But after
it
happened she had braved her way into a used bookstore to buy a copy. The saleswoman was a pretty, though somewhat pointy-nosed, woman nearly waist deep in romance novels that evidently another patron had brought in to sell or swap. She paid little attention to the pretty teenager who had come inside to browse.

Hannah found the book and gingerly removed it from the shelf. It had a slight musty smell, and the pages had swelled slightly as though the previous owner had brought the book to the bathtub. Hannah didn't even hold the book, but rather pinched a corner as though it would electrocute her. The words
Twenty in a Row
were written in an incongruous, delicate Roman lettering. Small drops of red blood clung to the letters' baseline. A photograph of what someone thought could pass for the Christmas tree farm was placed at a forty-five-degree angle; its edges ripped to roughness that implied great haste, ruin, or a designer's hackneyed sense of cleverness. It didn't look like their house, and that brought Hannah a small measure of comfort. As far as she knew, the only photos that remained of the Logan's farm--pre-fire--were those taken by families who had visited the holiday wonderland, sat on Santa's lap, fed the "reindeer," and the like. None of those, at least none of what surfaced, showed the house beyond a few way-off-in-the-distance shots. The other photos of the house that were known to exist at one time belonged to the files of the Spruce County tax assessor. Those disappeared six months after Marcus Wheaton's trial. Souvenir hunters, probably.

"You like true-life mysteries, do you?" the bookseller said while the pretty teenager nudged the paperback on the counter.

Hannah said nothing at first. She fished through her front pocket for a five-dollar bill. "I guess so," she finally answered.

"I prefer Agatha Christie," the clerk offered as she rang up the sale. "I take great comfort, great personal assurance, in reading material that's not going to give me nightmares because it's true."

"My aunt's the same way," Hannah said. She had wanted the book so bad, for so long. It was a peculiar kind of desire, and she knew it. She was drawn to the book and repulsed by what it represented at the same time.

The woman counted out the change. "Four dollars and fifty cents back at you."

Hannah feigned a smile. It was a robotic response, one that she'd perfected after her world collapsed. At times she was an automaton. She used automatic response for Christmas, for birthdays, when babies were born. Whenever the moment called for a smile, when she had none to give.
But this?
This smile was part of a mask. Masks were necessary. She was certain it was a defense mechanism designed to save her from her past. But the book, the book brought back so much. It was strange.
Twenty in a Row
cost fifty cents.
Fifty cents?
Half a buck was all the tragedy was worth?

"Enjoy the book," the woman called out.

Hannah said nothing more as she slipped past the fetid stack of paperbacks waiting to be shelved and hurried to the bus stop. She wondered if she'd ever be able to read the book or if she had even really wanted to. A trash can five steps from where the bus door swung open caught her eye. She felt herself loosen her grip on the book. It was slipping from her fingers. And, she almost threw it away. But she didn't. She'd have to read it. How could she not? In some small way, she knew it was
her
story. She flipped through the book and the word "cyanide" leapt off a page:

C
LAIRE
L
OGAN STOOD
at the counter of Elements, Inc., a chemical supply company in the industrial area just outside of Eugene. Her hair was up, her lips painted a dark red, and her eyes flashed intelligence and authority. Her perfume was jasmine.

"I have gigantic mole problems," she said without a trace of irony. "Big ones. And I want to take every goddamn one of them out. They are ruining my garden."

The young man at the counter turned down his cassette player and Elton John's voice went to a whisper.

"We can recommend some pesticides for that. Rid-it-Fast is a good one."

Claire shook her head. "That won't do," she said, putting her purse down on the counter and pulling out her checkbook. "I want a pound of sodium cyanide."

The young man made a face. "That's enough to kill every mole in Spruce County," he said. "You sure you need that much? I mean, there are other ways, to kill 'em, you know."

"Look," she said, her demeanor suddenly shifting to extreme irritation. "I've tried everything. I've poured gas on them
.
I've flooded their burrows with the garden hose. I've even driven spikes through their velveteen bodies. I want something that will kill them fast, once and for all."

The young man nodded. He felt uneasy, but he didn't say so. "Okay, I guess. Though I think you're overreacting."

She pointed to the sign hanging behind him.

ELEMENTS, INC., THE HOMETOWN CHEMICAL COMPANY. WE'RE HERE FOR YOU

She no longer smiled. "If you're here for me as your sign proclaims, then you'll tell me how much a pound of the poison will cost me?"

The young man took out a records book and thought that the woman was a complete bitch.

"Name?" he asked.

"Mrs. Logan. Claire Logan."

"You know, Mrs. Logan, you really need to be careful with this stuff. Even the slightest bit can kill a man in about five minutes. Suffocates him at the cellular level."

"Thanks, but I know what I'm doing." She got out her checkbook. "Five minutes, you say?"