A Long Distance Love Affair (16 page)

I printed out the Woman in Fur you said reminded you of me and have it in my bedroom.  Looking at it again last night I think what Rubens has captured that probably reminds you of me is an air of shyness coupled with a strong undercurrent of willingness...You can see it in the pose, the one shy breast exposed, the fur off the shoulder, but the hands and arms protectively encircling the body holding the garments close.  The difference with me now is that my willingness for you is no longer a secret undercurrent but an in-your-face, bold, tempestuous storm.

Oh how I'd love to be making thunder and lightning with you just now.

Chariette

Dear Chariot

Wonderful to hear from you last night - brief but beautifully intense.  I so appreciate your calls.

I think so much of you (and think of you so much).  You have been so good for me in so many ways.  You make me feel so alive and optimistic and joyful and you give me such pleasure - the core of me is aglow with happiness because of you.  Oh I owe you so much and want so much to give to you in all sorts of ways - not just my body - but caring and friendship and connection.  I care very much about how you're feeling and want to make you feel good and great and wonderful and blissful and...

Speaking of blissful - the new poetry book is an absolute treat (without you I would never have returned to poetry and it has brought such great delight back into my life.).  Here's the first of many good bits that I will linger over choosing especially for you:

"None but a Muse in love, can tell
The sweet tumultuous joys I feel,
When on Chariot's breast I lie.
When I tremble, faint and die;
Mingling kisses and embraces,
Darting tongues and joining faces,
Panting, stretching, sweating, cooing,
All in the ecstasy of doing."  (1722)

With many mingled kisses, embraces and much cooing to you my beautiful Prince.

Chariette

Mon cher Coeur

So lovely to hear from you on Monday night.  I treasure the time you give me and don’t take your generosity for granted in any way.  Your voice sounded very tired though.  I would have loved to be able to stroke you to sleep, then secretly drink you in with my eyes so tenderly as you slept…

I hope you can find the Rubens and send it to me.  It seems important to you and I would love to respond to it with you. Oh you have changed my life so much.  You make me feel so feminine and full of soft feeling and wonderful fiery desire.  I was living an empty, soul-lonely, ghost of a life before you came into it.  You make my body sing with delight, you warm my heart and touch my soul.

Ton amoureuse amie

My beautiful Chariot

It was so wonderful to see you again.  Somehow you always manage to be more handsome than I remember or dream of.  I think the proximity of you does much to dilate my irises.. I want you to know, however, that I was quite prepared to act in a most dignified, adult and civilized manner knowing you had only a few moments - but then you started kissing me and your tongue started tantalizing me and I quickly descended (or maybe that should be ascended) into hot, and completely naked uncontrollable DESIRE for you - so it was all your fault!! (You were SUCH a lovely handful though!!)

I love my life just now!!

Your oh so tender and juicy one.

Prince of my passions

It's six in the morning.  I'm sitting at my desk looking over the back deck to the garden.  Magpies are making their beautiful noises; two kookaburras are sitting on the verandah railing and I'm filled with tender thoughts of you.  I truly think I must be in heaven. I love this little house and its location.  My two favourite places are here at my desk and also sitting on the top front step looking up at the beautiful changing sky or catching the city lights at night.

I feel as though I'm stepping back into life again after so many years in the wilderness.  I don't think I've ever been this happy and contented in my life.  And if only you knew what a significant role you have played in getting me to this stage.  I owe you so much (Wishing I could repay you over and over again...)

"Come in thy raven-plumage, Night,
   Sun, moon and stars withdrawn a'!
An' bring an angel-pen to write
   My transports wi' my (James-o)."
Chariette

My Most Beautiful, Most Adored One

Oh I hope you will be able to contact me this week.  I am missing your beautiful voice so much.  I know what addicts must feel like now...

All of my reading throughout my life never prepared me for the intensity of feeling and attraction I have for you.  Oh you are so special to me!

"Thou hast ravished my heart...
Thou hast ravished my heart with one of thine eyes"

How will I ever get through the day??

Your poor besotted one.

Oh My Running Bull

It was so wonderful to talk to you on Monday.  You probably picked up from my emails that I was feeling a bit on the desperate side at the thought of having missed you last week.  And I was feeling particularly intense and wanting to hear from you last week. So just now I’m back on the bliss train…

I love to talk to you.  You’re very easy to talk to. I feel so relaxed with you and you bring out the joy in me (which has been buried for a very long time and it’s so wonderful to have it surfacing now).  I feel such a lovely vigour for life now.  You make me feel wonderful and your interest in me is so very flattering and your friendship for me is so good for my emotional health.

I am also so very happy to have come back to Brisbane.  What I really love about the place is its lushness, its beauty, its interesting contours and the kind of ‘bush’ optimism about the place where nothing is too big a challenge.  There is such a lovely sense that life is all about enjoyment and I find the Brisbane people to be natural, happy, open and warm and there is a real sense of community here.  Although there is much more intellectual rigour and serious thought in Melbourne, it’s a dour place, with a huge population of lonely, disconnected and stressed people.

Oh I am so keen to bring pleasure and joy to your life too in whatever way I can. 

Your Crazy Horse

Oh King of my Realm (notice I’ve promoted you…) and of all of my associated undulating geography,

Your text message was a lovely surprise!  But what were you doing up so early on your holidays??  You’re supposed to be indulging in relaxing do nothing things like sleeping in!

Oh how I’d love to see, hear and touch you too. You make all of my senses just come alive and burn for you. I just need to think of you and my receptors wake up in delightful anticipation… I would so love to be on top of you and moving down on you and leaning over and kissing you on every beat just now with your hands stroking my breasts and your face turned up to me in desire and delight…  I would tantalize you with my movements, sometimes oh so slowly and sometimes hard and fast. At night when I’m alone, I imagine what I would like to be doing to you and you to be doing to me and the yearning becomes almost too much to bear sometimes. I would really like you to let me explore you with my kisses.  I love to kiss your beautiful mouth and want to suck your bottom lip and run my tongue all over your lips and in your mouth.  Oh God you excite me so much….I’d better stop this.  But you just thrill me so much and fill me full of lusty desire that I can’t help myself.

It’s not all just sexual passion though...I have very tender feelings towards you and would love just to look into your beautiful eyes and stroke your lovely cheeks and touch your hair.  In many ways I find the thought of these things more intimate and moving than all of the above….but I wouldn’t mind doing all of the above just the same…

 “Give me kisses thousand-fold,
            Add to them a hundred more;
            Other thousands still be told
              Other hundreds o’er and o’er.

None shall know to what amount
            Envy’s due for so much bliss;
            None - for none shall ever count
            All the kisses we will kiss.”

Your Chariette who is SO full of kisses for you she will implode if you don’t provide her with an outlet!

Dear Missing Chariot

Oh I'm missing you so much!  It's been SUCH a long two weeks.  It will be so good to hear your divine voice again soon.

I hope you've had a good time and that you feel relaxed inside and out.  I am not relaxed at all inside with wanting you and could do with some of your very special treatment!!

Oh I'm so looking forward to hearing from you next week.  You are my divine Adonis who has swept me off my feet.

Chariette