Wyatt (Lane Brothers #1) (57 page)

Being without friends sucks ass. I’d never given much thought to my lone wolf status before, thanks to my hectic life and the fact that I had no time to nurture a friendship with another woman—or anybody, for that matter.

Now I hate it because I have no one to talk to about what’s happening between me and Lucian. I need a freaking sounding board, a vagina monologue confidante to tell me what the heck is happening to my previously reasonable mind.

As it is I’ve been skipping around and singing—
singing,
for God’s sake—since we made love. It’s been over a week, and I still feel like I’m walking on marshmallows or something.

Just tragic.

“I need your help with homework, Ash,” Ben whines from the kitchen table, bringing me back from my misery.

I stir the homemade spaghetti sauce before going over to him and looking down at his reading card.

“What’s the problem?”

“Mrs Baxter said I have to read this book, but the words are too hard.”

“Difficult,” Lucian corrects, breezing into the kitchen and planting a kiss on my lips before turning back to ‘his son’, as he now calls Ben.

I go back to the stove and check the pasta as they put their heads together and get to it. It makes me all tingly knowing that he takes such an interest in Ben.

Since we’d gotten into a rhythm with each other I’d started cooking dinner and taken over weekends, much to Maria’s chagrin, and I love knowing that Lucian likes my efforts as far as the home and hearth thing goes.

Everything’s still up in the air as far as our relationship is concerned, but for once I’m not going all psycho control freak and demanding answers.  I‘m just enjoying this time of happiness and freedom.

“We’re just about done, love. You can start serving,” Lucian calls ten minutes later, sending Ben to put his books away.

As soon as he’s gone I find myself enfolded from behind as his wicked mouth glosses wet kisses over my neck before stopping at my ear.

“I want you.”

Just like that I heat up and melt into him, wanting nothing more than the chance to take him upstairs and do all the things I read in that steamy romance novel Maria gave me.

“Hey, Luc, can I swim after dinner?” Ben yells, breaking us apart as he comes bounding back into the room. “
Ash
wouldn’t let me ‘cause I had so much homework to do,” he gripes petulantly, making me feel terrible for denying him.

“Tone,” Lucian warns, levelling a hard stare his way.

It always amazes me how he can get Ben into line so easily, whereas I can’t say one thing right without the kid throwing a sulk. A few weeks ago I would have been subjected to God alone knows what sulky punishment if I chastised him.

Not Lucian though. Nope, all it takes is one word or stern look and Ben snaps back into line like a little soldier.

“Sorry, Ash.”

“Good, now sit down for dinner, and then we’ll see about swimming later.”

He lauds my cooking all through dinner, and I practically glow with the praise, feeling like a million bucks when Ben perks up and seconds the approval.

“I’ll clean up while you guys swim.”

“No. Leave it for Maria. I want you with us.”

“Uh…”

My words stall and I grimace, closing my eyes tightly as he takes the dishes from my nerveless fingers and pulls me along behind him, up the stairs and into our bedroom.

“I purchased a wide selection of swimwear for you. It’s in the bottom left drawer of your closet.”

I nod dumbly and go to change, selecting a modest black tank style bikini with boy short bottoms. My uneasiness and embarrassment multiply when we go downstairs and make our way outside, watching as Ben flings himself into the air and crashes into the pool with a shriek of joy.

Lucian follows suit, splashing water all over the place and horsing around like a kid before he looks back and sees me tentatively dipping a toe into the water.

“Come on, love, the water’s perfect.”

I don’t doubt that, seeing as the pool is one of those expensive heated things. That’s not the problem. The big issue is the fact that I can’t swim and have been terrified of drowning since the water I’d fallen through— thin ice—at the cabin we used to go to for short vacations.

My mom and Wesley had saved me from an untimely watery death and then assured me that water is not the big evil monster I thought it was. It hadn’t worked, though, so I’d refused to even try learning, no matter how much they’d bribed me.

“Uh, I think I’ll just sit here on the edge.”

“What? No, don’t be foolish, love.”

“Aw leave her alone. She’s too chicken on account of she can’t swim.”

“What?”

“Okay, no need to look at me like I’ve just landed all the way from Mars,” I gripe, throwing Ben a withering glare. “Thanks a lot, hotshot. You couldn’t keep that to yourself?”

“Naw. I told ya, ya need to try,” he says, throwing himself back and into the deep end.

I’m almost brittle, I’m so tense. Just having my feet submerged—baths are not my thing unless I’m sick or freezing, and then even then, I won’t do it without a buddy.

“Seriously? You can’t swim?” he asks, stroking over to where I’m sitting.

“No.”

“Why?”

“I almost drowned when I was like, seven, so when Wesley finally got around to wanting to teach me I was not in the mood for bullshit,” I huff, flicking at a non-existent mosquito.

This is seriously embarrassing and not what I had planned for tonight. Oh, why did Ben have to go on about this crap on the night I wanted to test those things from that book?

Just my luck.

“Makes sense, love, but you have nothing to fear, not when you’re with me. Now come on over here and let me teach you.”

“Um. No.”

He rolls his eyes at my silence and grabs hold of my arm, yanking me in and onto his chest before I can scramble loose and run away. I freeze when the water hits my body and envelops me from the chest down, its silky coolness flowing over my skin in a caress.

Of course I do what all hysterical idiots do and jump my ass all over him, clinging like a vine as cold, stark terror takes me over.

“Shh, love, I have you. See? I won’t let anything happen to you. Just relax and let the water surround you,” he soothes, kissing my brow and cheeks till my breathing calms long enough for me to open my scrunched eyes.

I know, closing my eyes in this type of situation is silly, but if I’m gonna die I don’t want to look that crap in the face.

“I’m going to let you go—”

“No!”

If possible I cling harder, almost drowning us both in my bid to climb him like a monkey.

“I’ll have hold of you the whole time. Just lie back. I’ll keep my arms under you the whole time. See? That’s not so bad, is it? Now spread your arms and let your muscles unwind. I have you, love. That’s a good girl.”

As I lie back in the water, his arms supporting me, and let the cool liquid drift around me, I close my eyes and huff out a breath of annoyance.

The dratted man, he went and did it.

I’m in love.

“I am so pleased with the improvement Benjamin has made in only a few short weeks, Miss Munro. He’s almost a completely changed child from the boy who walked into my office that first day.”

I nod my head and beam at Dr Glen, sucking up the praise she’s been heaping on me since I walked through the door twenty minutes ago. As per our talk, she doesn’t share anything too personal with me. She is Ben’s shrink, after all, and respects his privacy, but she’s been keeping us updated about his progress and shares some of the things my brother has given her permission to tell us.

“Yes he has, Doc. His teachers are really pleased with his progress, and there haven’t been any incidents at the new school. I’m just relieved he hasn’t hit anyone so far.”

Her soft brown eyes smile kindly at me before she sits up straighter and gives me the stare I’ve come to know since this all began, the one that says I’m in for another counselling session whether I like to or not.

Which I hadn’t, in the beginning. I’d pointed out that she was Ben’s shrink, not mine, and that I wasn’t into sharing my gross feelings with perfect strangers.

She’d gone all stubborn on me and forged ahead anyway, dragging the shit out of me no matter how hard I tried to deflect. Now I have the gal pal I’d been searching for, and the weirdest part of it is that she’s not so much about giving me advice as she is about making me see what I need to about my emotionally stunted self.

“We need to speak about one of the central issues regarding Benjamin’s behavior toward you.”

Gulp.

“He hates me.”

“No, Ashley dear, he really doesn’t. The fact is, he loves you as the mother he lost, more even, since he’s intelligent enough to recognize the love and sacrifices you’ve made for him. The issue is not you; it’s your continued defense of his father.”

Huh?

“What?”

“Simply put, he feels as if you’re betraying him every time you defend your father and his actions. Telling the boy that Wesley isn’t bad just because he left enforces his belief that you value him more than Ben.”

“But I only say that so that he doesn’t end up hating him. I don’t want him to hate Wesley, or anyone,” I croak.

Shit. Lucian had told me this weeks ago, and instead of listening I’d told him to mind his own business unless he had some fancy Psychology degree I didn’t know about.

Now I’m going to have to apologize and eat freaking crow because it seems the man is once again right.

Drat.

“I know, and under normal circumstances I would laud that sentiment. Hatred should not be encouraged, but in Benjamin’s case it’s having a negative effect.”

“What should I do?”

“Don’t encourage him to badmouth Wesley; just do not rush to his defense when Benjamin says something negative. Right now he needs to feel like you’re in his corner. When he feels secure enough he will open up to you, and then you can explain your feelings to him.”

Seems easy enough, except for the fact that I’m terrified that opening up, letting anybody know my real feelings about the douchebag, will only make them think I’m a loon.

“And as for the other.”

Ah, crap.

“I’m not going there with Lucian. This whole situation is already so strange. We’ve reconnected for all of two seconds, and I’m living with the guy and playing happy family. Risking Ben’s heart in the process. I don’t want him knowing because…”

“You’re afraid it will shatter the happiness you feel now,” she finishes for me, giving me that kind stare.

This chick is worth every penny Lucian is paying her. She’s not only managed to get me out of the bomb shelter that is my psycho head, but she knows my messed up feelings. Maybe better than even I do.

“Damn, I wish you weren’t my shrink. You’re the perfect gal pal,” I mutter, grinning when she winks.

“Well, technically I’m not your shrink, since you’re not paying me. We’re just talking, you and I.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Well, in that case, how do you feel about drinks Friday night?” I ask, crossing my fingers that the possessive brute will let me out of the house without a hassle.

“First round’s on me, Doc.”

“Call me Mary.”

“Ash.”

And just like that, I am no longer the lone wolf.

***

Luc

I’m feeling great for the first time in a long time. I have a son who is shaping up to be everything I could have ever wanted in a child, my woman is toeing the line beautifully, and I’ve just closed the deal of the year.

Everything’s perfect.

“I want to meet her. We should have a family dinner. Oh, and invite Brody, would you? The arse is playing harder to get than I’d anticipated.”

“Cammy, really, the man can damned well make up his own mind whether or not to claim you,” I mutter, watching my sister pick at her lunch.

We’re in my office, eating lunch, something that has become a routine for us in the last years since I’d dragged her from her mother’s clutches and taken her under my wing.

Before this Cammy had been a withdrawn wreck with no compass other than what her fink mother expected from her. I’d put paid to that and brought her to the States with me, putting her to work immediately and setting her up to find her feet and live her own life.

I’d created a bloody monster.

“I don’t care what he says. He’s mine and we both know it. He’s just being a mug because he’s afraid of commitment. I’ll get him over that,” she cackles confidently, smoothing her midnight black hair with a flick.

“Fine. Just don’t scare him off; he’s the best bloody VP on this side of the pond, and I won’t lose one of my best mates because you’re barmy.”

“Leave him to me. Now, tell me about my soon-to-be sister-in-law. And my nephew.”

I spend the next minutes trying to talk her out of descending on my woman. Ashley is already so skittish that I can’t risk the nightmare that is Cammy scaring her away, and I say so.

“Bollocks. Surely any woman you choose to be yours is made of sterner stuff, Jas. Just ring her and tell her I’ll be over for dinner and that’s that. Oh, and I want a movie night with my nephew.”

Bloody hell.

***

I’d say the dinner went perfectly, because damn, can my filly cook when she wants to, but I spent half my night pinning Brody to his seat with a look because Cammy can’t control herself for a bleeding minute.

The only thing to save those two hair brains was Ashley’s continuous amusement at the debacle that is Cammy’s love plan. Ashley’s smiles had kept me in my chair just for the simple fact that I’d been entranced by her laughter.

“I love her. She’s a total nut.”

I snort at her as she goes through her nightly routine, brushing her hair out and using the thousand pound products I’d bought her. The woman is pure perfection, from the top of her stubborn head down to her pink little toes.

“She’s out of her bloody mind. Now stop talking about her and come here. There’s something I want to give you.”

She quirks a brow and laughs outright, her eyes straying to my erection, barely caged behind my boxer briefs.

“You’re such a mook.”

It’s my turn to grin as I wag a finger at her, biting my lip to stifle the laughter I feel bubbling to the surface. Cheeky baggage.

“Not that, you nympho,” I chide, crooking a finger at her. “Come over here.”

When she reaches me I take her mouth in a deep kiss, distracting her enough to slide the five carat diamond onto her finger. No, I’m not bleeding asking the woman to marry me. I’m no fool.

As with everything about her, I know that asking will only get me in trouble, and that’s not on my agenda.

I’m telling her what’s going to happen, and that’s that.

“There. Get into bed. I need to check on Benjamin.”

I’m halfway down the hall when I hear a feminine shriek. My mouth almost cracks, I smile so wide.

Deal closed.