Authors: Jessica Stirling
âOddly enough, I do.'
âWhat time is it?' said Lizzie.
âJust after nine.'
âIf you want to listen to the newsâ¦'
âYou sure you don't mind?'
Lizzie shook her head. âNo, I don't mind.'
And just as Bernard reached out to switch on the wireless set and Lizzie kneeled to pick up his cup and saucer the first wave of German bombers swept down the Vale of Leven and the Clydeside blitz began.
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The house shook and shook again. Dougie tumbled out of his armchair. He heard the aeroplanes roaring overhead. He thought: north-east, they're in coming from the north-east. A flare lit up the yard, a brilliant yellow flash so bright that it penetrated the fabric of the curtains. He heard the thump and chuckle of an incendiary container striking the roof. Frobe leaped screeching from the window-ledge and hid under the table. Dougie flung himself belly down on the floor, groped under the table, grabbed the cat by the tail and dragged her out. He clutched her in his arms, claws digging into his chest, kicked open the pantry door and tossed her inside. He slammed the door and latched it, trying to blot out her screams. He hoisted up the bucket of sand from behind the kitchen door and dumped the contents on to the coal fire for there was more risk of losing the farmhouse to carelessness than to German bombs.
He had been listening to the BBC nine o'clock news bulletin when the planes arrived. The night was clear as crystal with a near-enough full moon. He had been out at the field gate only fifteen minutes before, sniffing the sweet spring air and had come back indoors only to catch the news.
The kids had just gone upstairs to bed. Margaret was with the girls. Angus would probably be pottering about his bedroom, playing with his toy soldiers or reading a comic by the wan light of the ceiling bulb. The paraffin stove was still lighted, though: the bloody paraffin stove! Dougie took the stairs two at a time, crowding into Margaret and the girls as they stumbled out of the bedroom.
âGus,' Dougie shouted, âturn off the stove.'
Another blast shook the farmhouse, not so violent this time. He heard the whistling
pop
of something coming down near the house, a parachute mine, perhaps, or another bloody incendiary.
Cursing the ineptitude of German pilots who couldn't tell a sheep field from a shipyard, Dougie grabbed May, lifted her over his head and put her down on the stairs behind him. She was as slippery as an eel inside a bath towel and squealed more in modesty than fright. June, in pyjamas, came next. He swung her over and past him on the narrow stairs then plunged up into Angus's room.
The paraffin stove glowed with soft blue light. He dived at it, screwed frantically at the tap and killed the flame.
He looked up and round.
The ceiling light had been extinguished.
Angus had flung open the blackout curtain and was leaning out of the open window. Little dabs of red and yellow tinted the silvery-blue air. Balanced on his belly, Angus shook his fists at the sky.
Dougie grabbed the boy by the leg.
âWhat're you doin' son?' he shouted. âWhat the hell are you doin'?'
âLook at them,' Angus shouted back. âHeinkels. Hundreds of them. The bastuds, the bastuds. What're they bombin' us for?'
âThey're after the shipyards,' Dougie said. âIf they don't get the shipyards, they'll make damned sure they get the shipwrights. They're tryin' to scare us into submission.'
âThey won't scare us, Dougie,' said Angus. âWill they?'
âNo, they won't scare us,' said Dougie. âCome on, son, it's high time we got out o' here, don't you think?'
âYeah, you're prob'ly right,' said Angus.
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Kenny had Rosie halfway downstairs when a bomb fell on the tenement in St Aidan's Street. You could feel the blast rivering through you and the rumble of falling masonry was deafening. At first it was only noise and vibration, then like a fist punching into the back of the building, the stair window exploded inwards. Rosie buckled at the knees and clasped a hand to her face. Kenny hoisted her into his arms, tucked her head into the folds of his overcoat and headed for the patch of moonlight that marked the street below.
Smoke billowed in from the backs, not smoke but dust, a great gritty cloud of dust. Kenny pressed his tongue to the roof of his mouth, trying not to breathe. Behind him something came crashing down, a chimney-head or guttering. Two small girls huddled against the wall at the close mouth while their mother, a soldier's wife, tried to resurrect her baby.
The baby, caught by flying glass, looked as if it had been flayed.
It made no noise at all as the woman tried to breathe life into it.
âRosie,'
Kenny shouted. She couldn't hear him, of course.
âRosie?'
He lowered Rosie to the step and propped her up.
There was blood on her cheek and one eyebrow hung on a little tatter of skin but she was fully conscious and quite aware of what was going on.
She cupped a hand to her eyebrow and squeezed.
âYes,'
she said, very loudly.
âYes.'
His face an inch from her face, he said, âCan you walk?'
âYes.'
âTake the girls to the shelter.'
âYes.'
âDo you know what you have to do?'
âYes.'
âI'll stay here.'
âOh-kuh-kay.'
She took her hand from her face and let blood flow into her eye, winking at him.
âI've got them. Don't worry.'
She lifted the younger child as easily as she might have lifted a kitten, pulled the other child against her skirt and hurried down the steps to the street and the shelter.
Kenny kneeled by the silent woman and the silent little bundle on the steps and very quietly said, âLet me.'
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âSure an' I don't mind if you watch,' Doreen Quinlan said. âIt's a natural thing an' nothing to be ashamed of.'
The child looked big, almost gargantuan, nestled on the girl's lap. He seemed to be eating his mother's breast rather than sucking on it. He was clad in a short-sleeved vest and flannel bodice, the lower half of his body bare.
The electric lamp flickered.
Christy had brought in a packet of wax candles, two boxes of matches and a bundle of other necessities, including bottles of gin, whisky and tonic water. He had put them on the little folding table by the cot.
The girl was seated on the cot, her head resting against the wall.
She was totally unfazed by the air raid and had moved swiftly downstairs to the larder shelter while Christy had gathered pillows and blankets from the nursery and, thoughtfully, one large chamber pot.
If it hadn't been for Master Davy and his mother, Polly might have found it exciting to be locked up with Christy in the middle of an air raid. As it was, she was crushed into a corner with a blanket round her knees, drinking gin and tonic and smoking a cigarette. She couldn't even bring herself to sit on the bed with the girl from Belfast and her baby.
âYou're taking it very calmly, Doreen,' Christy said.
âBeen through it all before,' the girl said.
Polly sipped gin and tonic water and watched the lamp flicker.
âWhere?' said Christy. âIn Belfast?'
âDown the Smoke.'
âLondon? When were you in London?'
âBefore the war,' the girl said.
Christy laughed. âThey weren't bombing London before the war.'
âWent back there after it started too.'
âWhat were you doing in London?' Christy said. âLooking for work?'
âLooking for his daddy,' said Doreen Quinlan, unabashed.
âWhom you didn't find, of course?' said Polly.
Crockery rattled on the dresser shelves and something smashed on the stone-flagged floor. The adults, and Master Davy too, watched the larder door shake.
âUmm!' Doreen said. âBit close for comfort.' She pressed a forefinger against Master Davy's fat cheek and guided his mouth to her nipple again. âNothing for you to worry about, boy, just get on wi' what you're doing.'
Polly was more afraid of the girl and the baby than she was of the bombs. She had encountered Doreen's type before and knew that girls like Doreen Quinlan invariably prospered. There would always be some man eager to take care of a girl with fair skin, dimples and a wide-eyed expression.
Polly said, âJust how old is Davy?'
âEighteen months, thereabouts.'
âThereabouts? Don't you know?'
Doreen gave Polly a sweet smile and a shrug by way of an answer.
Christy said, âDoes that mean he was born before the war began?'
âMust have been, I suppose,' Doreen answered, âjust about.'
âIn which case,' said Polly, âyou were never in the ATS at all.'
âHe's a year,' said Doreen. âBirthday last month.'
âHe's a heck of a size for a one-year-old,' said Christy.
âWe're all big in our family.'
âHis father,' said Polly, âwas he a big man?'
âWas he not now?' said Doreen. âHe was big all right.'
âWhat was his name?'
âGarry.'
âWas he your sweetheart?' said Christy.
âYea.'
âWhat happened to him?'
âDone the bunk.' Doreen shrugged again. âHis old man wanted to murder him for puttin' one in me.'
âWhy?' said Christy.
âGood Catholic boy like Garry, set to be a priest, and me a Proddy.'
âWhat about your family?'
âNo family. Just Auntie. She tossed me out on my ear.'
âIs all this true, Doreen?' said Christy, frowning.
âTrue as I'm standin' here,' the girl said.
âI don't think it's true at all,' said Polly. âI think you're making it up. I think it's some story you read in a book.'
âDon't read books,' said Doreen. She transferred Master Davy from one breast to the other and dabbed perspiration from his brow with her sleeve.
âHave you no idea where Garry is now?' Christy asked.
âTold me he was going to the Smoke but I didn't find him where he said he'd be, staying with his mates in Fulham.'
âWhat sort of mates?' Polly asked.
âWorkin' chaps,' Doreen said. âThey've joined up now, most o' them.'
âWere you really in London during the raids?' said Christy.
Doreen nodded. âIn Fulham. Daylight raids as well as nighttime. Never got no sleep for near a week. Wore out, I was.'
âHow long did you remain in Fulham?' said Polly.
âSix months, thereabouts.'
âWaiting for Garry to show up again?'
âYea.'
âBut he never did?'
âNever did,' said Doreen.
âHow did you support yourself?' Polly said.
âNot the way you think.'
âAnd what way is that?' said Polly.
âI never done nothin' bad.'
âWhat did you do for money?' said Christy.
âWorked for the woman who ran the boardin' house. Mrs Duggan looked after me an' Davy. I cleaned an' cooked. Mrs Duggan was still taking in Irish but more girls than men was comin' over an' she never liked doin' for girls.'
âWhy did you leave Fulham?'
âThe house got blowed up.'
âWhat happened to Mrs Duggan?'
âWent back to Belfast. I went with her. But it was no good.'
âWhy was it no good?' said Christy.
âLabour Exchange couldn't do nothing for me, not wi' a kid.'
âIs that why you came to Scotland?'
âYea, I heard a rumour Garry was on the boats. Heard he'd signed wi' the Clan Line an' was sailing out o' Glasgow. The Clan Line never heard o' him, though, and the Merchant Seaman's Union never had him registered. So there I was, stuck for work in the Port o' Glasgow, until your sister brought me here for to work for you.'
âWork?' said Polly. âI don't have any work for you to do.'
âI can cook,' the girl said. âI'm reliable.'
âHah!' said Polly.
âWhat about Garry?' Christy said. âYou won't find him here, you know.'
âI'm coming round to thinking he doesn't want to be found,' the girl said.
âOh, really!' said Polly. âI wonder what gave you that idea?'
âPolly!' Christy said, not quite chidingly.
To Polly's dismay the girl suddenly detached her son from her breast and held him out like an offering.
âI'm not thinking about Garry now,' she said. âI got him here to think about and that's enough. It's all right for you, missus, you got a fine big house and a car and a man in your bed, but what about them empty beds upstairs. Where are they then, where are
your
kiddies?'
âDo not be impertinent,' said Polly.
âThey've gone, ain't they? They ain't here no more.'
âIt's none of your damned business.'
âGot rid o' them, did you, missus? Well, I ain't getting rid o' Davy, not now and not ever.'
Polly flung the gin glass to the floor and got to her feet.
âFor your information,' she said angrily, âmy children are in America.'
âYea,' said Doreen, undaunted, âbut they ain't with you, Missus Manone, are they? They ain't with their ma where they should be.'
âEasy, Doreen,' Christy warned. âTake it easy.'
âYou don't â don't know whatâ¦' Polly stammered, â⦠what you're talking about, you stupid woman. My children â my children areâ¦'
âYea?'
âPolly,' Christy said, âsit down, please sit down.'
âDon't you tell me what to do.'
âSit down, goddamn it,' Christy said. âWe're in the middle of an air raid.'