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Authors: Vivian Lux
I leaned forward, careful of jostling him. "I'm not going anywhere. I love you."
He choked a little, then cleared his throat. "I'm not trying to save you anymore. You are capable of saving yourself. You're strong enough; you don't need me." I started protest, but he held his hands up. "And I'm glad. I am so fucking glad." He settled his huge hand over his chest, pledging his heart. "I get it. I don't need to fix you. I'm not even going to try to fix us anymore. I just want to be with you. That's it. I'm happy just to hang out, so long as I can hang out with you. I don't need anything more than that."
I ran my hand down his arm, tracing the hills and valleys of his bicep before winding my fingers through his.
"But what if I do?" I asked, leaning in to brush my lips against his. "What if I need something more?"
I felt his lips spread into a grin against mine, and I was laughing before he even said it. He didn't need to say it, but he said it anyway. "You know I'm a sucker for you," he sighed. "Whatever you want, Scar. You know I'll always do whatever you want."
Epilogue
Scarlett
Some things can change completely.
But other things seem never to change at all.
Mrs. Soule bustled around the circulation desk, her iron-gray hair in exactly the same coiled braid as she wore six years ago, tight to her head with nary a strand out of place. I recognized the purple skirt that swished around her calves, and her glasses swung from the same silvery chain around her neck.
"Scarlett Sawyer." She smiled, kind eyes crinkling, and I swore there were no new wrinkles on her face. "It is absolutely lovely to see you again."
I returned her hug, emotion welling up in my throat, rendering me speechless. "It's so good to see you too," I finally managed to choke out. "Where do you want me to set up?"
"We've had an overflow crowd, dear," she clucked. "We are going to have to put you in the community room downstairs. It's not where I wanted to have you…"
"It's absolutely fine," I reassured her. "I'm ready whenever you want to start."
"I'm just going to say a few words, introduce you, thank you for your generous donation to the library." She winked at me, and I blushed. "Are you certain you are ready to go?" I swallowed and nodded.
When Kelly floated the idea of turning my piece on Ruthless into a full-blown memoir, I initially scoffed. Never would I have thought that someone would be interested in my story.
Turns out millions of people were interested, including a standing room only crowd at Kenmore Public Library, just down the street from the house where I grew up.
Mrs. Soule led me into the community room with her head held high. There were a few whispers, then a smattering of applause that turned thunderous. I felt myself standing up straighter and even managed a few waves.
So this is how Keir feels
, I thought.
No wonder he loves playing in front of a crowd.
The famous author lifts her chin....
I startled for a second, closing my fists tightly. The old tic of watching and narrating my life caught me by surprise. I hadn't done that since...
Since I left to go on tour with Keir fourteen months ago.
Ever since then, I hadn't needed to watch myself from the outside. The careful cautiousness had fallen away and left just...
Me.
I kind of liked being me, now.
I sat down and flipped through the pages of my manuscript until I landed on the portion I had highlighted to read tonight. Mrs. Soule introduced me as one of her favorite patrons, then bragged about being the one to teach me shorthand, which made the crowd give an appreciative chuckle.
And then it was time for me to begin.
I cleared my throat.
"Music saved my life," I began. "Those four words have been said so often that they could almost turn into a cliché, but for me, they are the absolute truth. Music saved me, music gave me life, and music taught me the true meaning of what it is to be loved." I blinked several times, willing the tears not to fall. "It was pure luck that let me grow up next door to one of the greatest musicians of my generation. But it was music and love...and love of music that brought us together."
I looked up and out into the crowd. "My name is Scarlett Sawyer. I don't expect you to know me. If you saw me on the street, you would probably glance at me then keep going. I'm not famous, but my story—this story—makes me special. And I would have never known that until Keir made me believe it."
As I looked out over the crowd, I saw the smiling faces and nodding heads, and I began to smile. I looked down at my page, tracing my finger past the few paragraphs I wanted to skip before picking up at the end of the chapter. A hushed, expectant silence fell over the crowd.
Just then, a voice rang out, cold, clear, and terrifyingly familiar. "It's all lies, you know," she called.
I stiffened. I knew that voice.
Whispered questions buzzed through the audience, and several heads turned to find the source of the interruption.
But I didn't look at her.
Maybe she thought I would agree? That was probably her expectation. Maybe she thought I would duck my head, mumble apologies and allow the attention of the room to go to her. That's what she wanted, of course. To make a scene. To tear my triumph away from me and make it about her. Her. It was always about her.
Except today, it wasn't.
"Caleb?" I called.
He stepped forward smoothly.
"Caleb, would you please show my mother the door?"
The whispers rose to a hum. My mother stood up, and for one terrible moment, we locked eyes, her eyes so much like mine it was like looking into a mirror, except mine could never be filled with so much hate. "You selfish, ungrateful little…"
"Okay, ma'am. Time to go," Caleb said smoothly, grasping her by the arm.
I saw her eyes narrow. She was debating. Should she make a scene? But wouldn't that be letting me win?
She couldn't have that.
"I'll go," she said, smoothing her hands down her front. She lifted her head and raised an accusing finger in my direction. "My own daughter doesn't want me here—you see it. I come out to support her, and this is how she treats me."
"All right, ma'am, that's enough. Let's go." Caleb hustled her out the exit.
From the back came one single clap, then another, then another. I smiled in the direction of whoever it was that started the applause.
And saw Keir.
He had snuck in, slouching in the very back row with a knit cap pulled low on his head and sunglasses obscuring his face. The face I loved more than anything in this world. One by one, the rest of the audience joined in with his applause, drowning out my mother's strident voice as she heaped abuse on Caleb from down the hallway.
And then she was gone.
When my reading was over, I shot a grin over the crowd at Keir. "Love you," I mouthed silently.
"Love you too, Scar," he said.
He was there, just like he said he'd always be.
He kept his promises. And I was going to keep mine.
THE END
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Jax:
A Rockstar Stepbrother Romance
Vivian Lux
Copyright 2015
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This book contains adult themes, explicit language and sexual situations. It is intended for mature audiences.
NOTE: All characters in the book are 18+ years of age, non-blood related, and all sexual acts are consensual.
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DEDICATION
To B., first always.
To N. and E., Mama's so proud
To TTT, thank you for the letting me have the title, if I could have only used it! Oh and for everything else, too.
To Megan, my rockstar, for helping me out with the finer points of the music biz. I miss you ladies. Love to Team Manlis.
To Kaylee Song and Honey Palomino, both of whom were instrumental in getting me back on my feet and back to writing. Thank you for all of the help.
To the whole incredible community of indie authors to which I am fortunate to belong.
And
To my wonderful readers. I hope you like it.
Prologue
"Bit?"
"Hmm?" I was almost asleep. In the pitch dark of the studio, I could almost believe his voice was something out of a dream.
Until I heard his little snort of laughter. "Asleep already, Bit?' Did I wear you out that bad?"
I groaned and shifted. His naked body was pressed up against mine, warm and heavy and solid. I was as limp and floppy as a wet noodle after what we had just done, but I would never tell him that. He didn't need the ego boost.
"I'm not asleep," I huffed.
He pressed his lips to my shoulder. "Good. Because my arm is completely dead. Can I have it back?"
Muttering, I flopped onto my back. He yanked his arm out from under me with a sigh of relief. It felt like he was leaving. I almost panicked.
Until he immediately shifted out bodies even closer together, pulling me flush against him. "There,” he murmured against my forehead. "That's better."
I was pressed up against him on the narrow, beat-up sofa that hulked in the far corner of the studio. I couldn't see him—not in the close, thick darkness—but in my mind's eye I could perfectly picture his long body as I ran my hand along his side and down to his hips. "Did that just happen?" I whispered.
Now it was his turn to sound asleep, He sighed, stretched, then stroked his hand lazily along my stomach to cup my breast. "Yeah Bit," he chuckled. "It happened. This isn't one of your stories; it's real."
Damn right it wasn't one of my stories. It was better. Better than I could have ever imagined, really. I thought we'd be trading tender embraces. But no, it was so much more than that. Raw. Urgent. Primal, even. Instead of sweet words to remember it by, I had the marks of his fingers on my skin. And I liked it that way.
It made it so much more real.
"So, what you're saying is…" I trailed off. I needed him to say something else. About what this meant. To him. To me. For him and me… together.
He must have heard the edge in my voice, because he didn't rise to the bait. Instead he somehow pulled me in even tighter. "Yeah. We had sex, Liliana," he said, using my real name for once. "Made love. Whatever you want to call it, we did it. Don't you go freaking out on me now."
But I was already way ahead of him. Wide awake now, I stiffened and pulled back. Don't go freaking out? How could I not? I had just had sex with—no, worse than that, I had just lost my virginity to…
Jax.
Jax!
Jaxson fucking Blue.
"Lily, shh, I can feel you spazzing out. Stop." Jax somehow found my mouth in the dark, brushing his lips against mine.
"How the hell am I supposed to stop?" I asked him. I honestly wanted to know. "I can't believe we did… that I let you… that you did…" I blushed at the memory.
Jaxson smoothed my hair in the dark. I could feel the guitar callouses on his fingers. The ones I had been so recently suckling and kissing as he thrust himself inside me. "Why can't you believe it?" he asked. "I fucking love you, Lil Bit."
My heart stopped. Time stood still. I floated in the pitch dark in the warmth of his arms. I listened, waiting for him to laugh, to take it back, to say he got me and it was all a joke.
Instead I heard his breath deepen and quiet.
Holy shit, he had fallen asleep. Right after he dropped that bomb in my lap.
It was the most arrogant, cocky, Jaxson Blue thing he could have possibly done.
I couldn't help but laugh. "Goddammit, Jax. I love you too. Asshole."
And then I fell asleep in his arms.