Authors: Nicole Alexander
Kate glanced at the partially consumed tea, took a sip and then another before reluctantly sitting the cup and saucer on the table. If milk were to be served up every day, she would be happy indeed.
âJelly-belly will show you to your rooms. Tea is at six sharp.' Their hostess waved a hand in farewell as the pointy-nosed maid reappeared.
Kate waited in the hallway while the maid escorted the Reverend to his bedchamber. It was an airy space and the portraits lining the walls were of two men and a woman, all suitably smug in the way that only the high-born can appear. On the maid's return, she led Kate to the rear verandah, past a trellis covered in vine, which Kate guessed provided a pretty aspect during the warmer months for those occupants fortunate enough
to be sitting at the breakfast table. A French door fed into another passageway and then to a small room. Plainly decorated, Kate wondered if this was to be her personal domain for the bedchamber had a narrow wardrobe, washstand and mirror but no desk or chair. From the curtained window above the bed there was, however, a fine view of the mountains. They sat like a smudge of pale blue ink against a washed out sky while in the foreground the green wheat fields, which she'd seen on their arrival, swayed gently in the breeze.
As Kate surveyed the cold room, the maid hovering behind her, heavy footsteps announced the arrival of her trunk. Two convict men dumped the chest in her room and left without a word.
âMrs Kable mentioned tea was to be served at six. Might I have water to wash, please?'
The maid looked at the water pitcher on the washstand. âI'll have some brought directly, but Mrs Kable said you're to have tea in your room on account of your journey.' The maid lowered her voice. âThey've got guests and the Missus keeps a first class table, she does. They're good people and fair, if you know your place.' The maid pressed her lips together, aware she'd been outspoken.
âYour name isn't really Jelly-belly, is it?'
âYou don't know much about how big houses run, do you, miss?' The question hung. âI'm the head maid, every one of us has been called that,' she announced. âThey can't be expected to remember our names. If you don't mind me saying so, I think you're terribly brave, miss.'
Kate smiled. âBrave? I'm probably the least brave of anyone I know. Besides, I can't see how being employed in the capacity of companion to Mrs Kable could be anything other than pleasurable. I'm yet to be acquainted with her in full, although she seems like a charming lady.'
The maid's brow knitted together. âI'll get you that water, miss. But I'll not be waiting on you while you're here.'
âI wouldn't expect you to.'
With the rules of their relationship established, Jelly-belly gave a satisfied nod and left.
Kate opened her trunk. From it she retrieved her mother's bone-handled hairbrush and cream woollen shawl. Pressing the bristles against her palm, she placed it on the beige coverlet of the sagging bed, then, shawl in hand, Kate walked along the hall and onto a rear porch, open to the elements. Wrapping the stole about her shoulders, she stepped from the verandah out into the garden. The area at the rear of the house held an extensive vegetable garden behind which sat grapevines. A convict woman was bucketing water onto rose bushes, rubbing at the small of her back and straightening as she moved to the next plant, while another rushed in the direction of the kitchen carrying a basket filled with herbs.
The sun hung low above the mountains, turning the pallid sky bright as it crested the tops of the hills in a white halo. Kate had always been in the kitchen with Madge at this hour. It had been many years since there'd been a quiet moment to watch the day merge into night, and with myriad chores to attend to, the arrival of night had become an almost insignificant event. But now the moment held Kate transfixed. You're becoming sentimental, she mused, as the landscape softened under lengthening shadows. Prettiness was never a word she'd used to describe her surrounds, the bush was changeable, mysterious. But here in this place Kate witnessed what could be created with money and labour. And all of it sat beneath the gaze of the blue hills and a softening sun.
It was the quietness that surprised her. There were no convicts talking or arguing, no children fighting, no Madge busily ordering her about, no Reverend with his demands. The hush was both strange and pleasant for a late afternoon. Sheep were calling to each other as convict men converged uphill to their barracks. There was birdsong and the chopping of firewood and the sounds of a household readying for darkness, but everything was muted,
ordered. Beyond that it was as if the very countryside watched and waited. For what, she had little idea.
âYou'd notice the quiet, coming from Syd-e-ney and all.' A man stepped out from behind a tree. He carried a musket and wore a brace of pistols at his hips. âYou'd be Miss Kate Carter.' He tipped his hat. âWe've heard all about you.' He walked towards her and was slow in running his eyes across her body. âYou're a little thing. I expected a big bonny lass.'
âYou have the advantage, sir.'
âGeorge Southerland.' He was tall and lean, with a thick, ragged beard. There was a distinct smell about him. Pipe smoke and rum and wet earth mixed with the scent of a body long past bathing. He was not averse to staring and beneath his gaze Kate found her fingers tightening on the shawl. âThey say you've not been married. It's a wonder, out here, looking the way you do.' He rubbed at the mat growing from his chin. âYou came with the Reverend.' It was a statement. âHe keep you under lock and key, did he?'
Kate stiffened. âOf course not.'
He chuckled, and began to scratch at his beard, and kept on scratching until he'd circumnavigated his chin like some ancient explorer. âBest we get on, miss, don't you think, seeing as you'll be depending on me over the coming weeks. And don't be a-feared, I have no liking for skin and bones with attitude, no matter if it comes with a pretty face. Out here a man wants something to hold onto at night. I'd just as likely squash you flat.'
Kate clutched at the shawl and turned to leave. She hadn't travelled all this way to be spoken to so brazenly by a rough stranger.
âDon't stalk off on my account. I mean no harm. I've lost some of me niceties on account of being out bush for so long, but we'll get on, you and I, as long as you follow the rules once we get under way.'
âUnder way?' Kate faced the man. âI think you have me confused with another, Mr Southerland.'
âNot if you're to be a companion to Mr Kable's cousin's wife, Sarah.'
âCousin?' Kate repeated. She didn't understand.
âShe's a fine woman, Sarah Hardy is. Tougher than most. She'll be pleased to see you, lass. Female company is less than scarce.'
Kate had seen no other dwelling nearby.
âWe thought to leave within the next few days so you best be prepared. Mr Hardy is waiting on a load of stores.' He cocked his head. âI wonder at your going. Still, you can be grateful we're not herding 1500 Saxon ewes and rams up-country, let alone the twenty head of cattle and two drays that were part of the initial expedition.' He looked briefly skyward. âThe weather's holding. Best we make the most of the fine days, although I doubt there will be a break in the season just yet.' He looked her up and down for a second time. âYou best be prepared for there'll be weeks of hard travel along rutted tracks, creeks and rivers to cross, mud and sand to get bogged in and broken axles to mend. It's a distance and there's not much between here and there apart from shanties and bushrangers and blacks.'
âI think there must be some confusion,' Kate began but Mr Southerland had already taken his leave of her without a backward glance. She wrung her hands. If indeed it was Mr Jonas Kable's intent for her to be sent elsewhere, Kate had a right to know where. Voices carried from the front of the house along with the familiar noise of horses on gravel. Kate wanted to see who the visitors were but she was neither maid nor guest. It occurred to her that with her new position she didn't quite fit in on either side of the household. And now she wasn't even sure who she was to work for.
Jelly-belly reappeared and called her indoors. âMrs Kable says you're to dress for dinner on account of Mr Kable wanting everyone present. The Missus is none too pleased so if I was you, miss, I'd be as quick as you can and quiet as a mouse once the dining begins.'
Sitting a jug of water on the washstand near a large blue and white porcelain bowl, she handed Kate a candle. âIf you've got a decent gown, now is the time for it. As for me I've me own problems what with Mrs Ovens having two extra at table and Molly not being presentable enough yet to serve. That's the worst of them factory girls, they're always stirring up trouble. Had her head shaved she did for nicking outside after dark. Heavens, miss, I still think you're terribly brave.'
Kate was still digesting George Southerland's revelation as she lifted each layer of clothing inside the chest. Eventually her fingers touched the creamy cotton, lace and muslin her mother had shown her so excitedly all those years ago. The gown had been altered over time. The cream bodice with lace collar was now boned in the seams and the gauzy muslin fell prettily from the waistline. It was true it lacked the quantity of material in the skirt and sleeves that the current styles favoured, but it was still of fine quality, albeit slightly old-fashioned.
Stripping off her clothes, Kate washed her face and hands with a cloth and a sliver of soap, then proceeded to sponge the remainder of her body. She turned once or twice during these ablutions to glance out the window towards the hills. She had the strangest sensation that she was being watched, and finally she drew the curtain against the failing light.
Stepping into her drawers, Kate pulled the two separate leg pieces over damp skin and tied the cord at her waist then tugged a shift over her head. Once dressed in her mother's gown, only then did she remove the cloth cap covering her hair. The oval mirror reflected wide almond-shaped eyes and dark hair, which she quickly smoothed into a bun at the nape of her neck. Three ringlets, slightly droopy from the day's travel, framed either side of her face. Wetting her fingers Kate coaxed the messy curls into more uniform spirals, patting the ones on her right temple in an attempt to hide the scar. The old injury was now a reddish blemish, which curved
like a question mark from above her eyebrow around her eye. By day the cloth cap she wore beneath her straw hat helped to conceal the wound, but it was impossible to hide other wise. Her mother had suggested a little flour would lessen the slight discolouration but there was no disguising the jagged edge of Lambeth's fury.
âThis will have to do.'
Kate didn't have the looks of the âcurrency children', those born to convicts. Most of the native born were tall, slender and fair. Instead she resembled her mother. Of middling height, with a lithe figure, she bore the mark of a Scottish heritage that Lesley once told her was mixed with Spanish blood.
A clock chimed from somewhere within the house. Kate heard muffled footsteps, conversation and laughter and the irritable whine of a child. This was a busy household and by the brief attention granted her and the Reverend on arrival, its mistress ran it efficiently. It would not do to be late. Kate took a final look in the mirror, smoothed the tightly fitted bodice and, with a steadying breath, thought of what lay before her. The truth of the position that the Reverend had so
kindly
sought on her behalf.
1837 August â on the western side
of the Blue Mountains
Winston Lycett was sitting in his usual spot, a flat rock at the base of a tree split in half by a lightning strike. The branch on the ground angled down to a narrow trickling creek and on the other side of the gully was a patch of grass frequented by kangaroos. Bronzewing moved through the timber silently. It was already late. Having spent the morning hours searching for the light wooded trees that were used for spear-making, the sun had overtaken him and no shadow trailed his progress. He'd not seen his old friend since he'd left with Archibald Lycett last year and he'd missed his company. Winston was usually drawing at this time, his sandy head tilted to one side, lank hair falling across his brow, a piece of charcoal hovering over paper. Still some distance away from his friend, Bronzewing lifted a hand to yell
coo-ee
in greeting, but halted. Today there was no scatter of drawing materials. Instead the usual artist supplies were stacked to one side.
There was an Aboriginal with him, a woman. Winston had been fond of girls from an early age. The Codbolts with their three
daughters, who lived ten miles away, had all appealed. Although they were hard to look at with their round, bland faces and overly large foreheads, Winston was not put off. All three girls had shown interest in Winston, a fact that he delightedly announced shouldn't be dismissed in a place where women were scarce â and were also willing if it meant there was a chance to snare a good husband. Clearly nothing had changed in Bronzewing's absence.
The girl sat side on. Winston lifted the woman's breast in a hand and lowering his head began to suckle like a baby. The young woman rested her hands on the ground, arching her back and drawing him closer. Finally Winston lifted his head, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. The girl laughed and offered him the other nipple, which he groped at enthusiastically.
Bronzewing's approach startled a mob of kangaroos. Raising their heads from the herbage they'd been nibbling, their ears pricked. The movement alerted the girl. She turned towards the narrow creek and then, jumping up, ran through the timber. He was too far away to see the girl's face properly, but not so distant to recognise the movement of a man buttoning up his trousers. Winston, having dressed himself, leant back against the tree and feigned sleep.
â
Coo-ee
.' Bronzewing lifted a hand in greeting and the kangaroos hopped away.
Winston yawned. âBack to give my work another one of your negative assessments?' he replied. There was a musket and canvas waterbag at his side.
âShould it be negative?' The only thing recognisable in Winston's pictures were trees. âYou should come hunting with me, Winston. You'll grow dull spending all your time here.'
âStay where you are, Adam. I'm ill.'
Bronzewing took a hesitant step forward, the sound of his white name always jarred.
âI'm serious.'
âWhat is it this time?' He doubted there was much wrong with Winston other than the usual array of ailments that beset him, and his desire to keep his meeting with the girl secret. He wandered along the trickle of water that awaited replenishing from the spring rains that were yet to arrive, finally squatting opposite Winston beneath a spreading tree, the narrow waterway between them.
Winston scowled and then tapped his head â once, twice â against the knobbly bark. âThe pox, the sickness that comes to your lungs or head, who knows?' He coughed heavily, the action wracking his long, thin body. He wiped at his mouth. âOne of the ticket-of-leave men came down with it a week ago. He's bedridden now. One minute freezing, the next burning up. It started with a cough. And yes, my mother has forced a number of preparations down my throat. None of which have helped.' He coughed again, and stretched out his legs. âBut you're not here to visit me. Father's at the house. I expected you here sooner. It's been a year. We knew you'd returned.'
âThe warmer weather will help what ails you,' Adam responded. âThe winter's been cold.'
âFather says I shouldn't complain. That London is bitter cold, with a dank fog that covers the city like a shroud. Well, the cold is bad enough here. It takes hold of your bones and won't let go.' He began mounding the leaf-litter at his side, piling small twigs and leaves. âYou shouldn't have fired the grass you know.'
âAnd you and your family should have stayed on the other side of the mountain,' Adam countered.
Winston gave a weak smile. âThen who would have dragged you to the bench under the tree so you could be educated instead of remaining a heathen?'
âSometimes I think your mother suffered more than me.'
Winston sat a little straighter and, pulling his knees up, wrapped his arms around them. âThere is more to learn, you know. There are many books to read, countries to understand, theories to unravel.'
His face grew animated. âLike how far the land extends to the west, whether there is a great inland sea. Don't you wonder what lies out there, in all that undiscovered vastness? What people are there, what riches, what opportunities?'
The silhouettes of the timber surrounding them lengthened across the ground. âMore of the same, I hope. Although Bidjia says that those tribes that roam in the direction of the setting sun speak of lands that are flat and dry.'
âThat's hardly a description.'
Adam shrugged. âActually I thought it pretty accurate.'
âSo, tell me where you've been this last year. Father said you joined an expedition of settlers a month or so after the wool was delivered to market. What was the country like? Did the natives attack? Is it better land than here?'
Adam jumped the gully between them and squatted some feet from where his friend sat. âSimilar, yes, and in places.'
Winston frowned. âI envy the explorers. What makes them, do you think? How does a person come to be born with such grit while others are rendered useless by overbearing fathers and familial duty?'
âChance perhaps?'
âThen it is a bitter pill knowing that life is so random. Sorry, I'm sounding positively maudlin.' He slumped back against the tree trunk. âI would do better in Sydney.'
âA scholar's life?' Adam suggested.
âWe both know it would suit me. But Father has other plans and my opinion counts for nought.'
âYou could have come with us, Winston, at least to Parramatta.'
âI know my father, Adam,' he replied matter-of-factly. âHe is one for choosing favoured company,' he said pointedly, âand for making the best use of a person's abilities. He did entrust his wife and land to me in his absence so that is one point in my favour I suppose. Besides, while you were away I took the time to study the ledgers.
There is money to be made out here, there is no doubt of that. My father makes a great fuss of a person needing to be hands-on, but he has done the hard yards. You only need to oversee the running of these holdings, for there are convicts to do the work.' He gave his friend a warm smile. âI will bide my time until his is over and then I will take my place as his heir. Anyway, I'm glad you're back. There's no-one to argue with, at least about anything worthwhile. Did you know that a German astronomer named Bessel has managed to measure the distance from the sun to another star? Isn't that the most marvellous thing? I wondered about it myself, you know. He did it using two different lines of sight and measured the angle between the two lines. Don't look at me like that. You used to be interested in these things.'
âAnd I still am, but I should say my respects to your father.'
âAnother day then. I do miss our time together, as does my mother.'
Adam rolled his eyes theatrically. Mrs Georgina Lycett was a kind woman who would have been prepared to raise him as one of her own, if Adam had been so inclined. âReading, writing and arithmetic â I don't have much use for such learning now.'
âYou will,' Winston assured him. âOne day you will. All the things you find so trifling now will one day become vitally important. You will need your signature to sign the deed to the land you will one day own, and your sums will help you count your coin, while the skills we learnt in map reading could lead you to your wife, if you remember the King's English, or should I say Queen's, and don't scare her off with your Godless ways.' He chuckled quietly at his own humour, while waggling a chastising finger. âEventually you will marry and have children and settle down. It is what all men want. Oh, we may come and go from the house we provide for them, but women are the hinge on which life exists. You are no different. Heathen or not. And even your blessed clan can't exist without a pretty smile.' His voice had tightened.
âYou are full of advice today, my friend.' In spite of Winston's kindly intentions such talk meant little to Adam. The stars were his ceiling, the warm earth his bed and he was subject to no-one. The bush was his natural home. And although he both enjoyed and appreciated the learning that he'd been favoured with, the Lycetts could not draw him further into their world. Learning the extent of England's power, the breadth of her colonies or the many commodities transacted by the East India Trading Company would not keep him alive in this world.
Winston sighed. âI offer it while I can and hope it's not disregarded.'
Adam never had been partial to his friend's melancholy moods. âYour life is your own, old friend, I'll see you married yet and before me.'
âI've no doubt of that, but I know I will not make old bones so do me the courtesy of not arguing with what I know to be true. None on my father's side has lived past fifty-five years.'
âWell, if you keep talking he'll be dead before I see him.'
âDon't cross my father, Adam. He's a fair man, it's true, but we both know that when it comes to his business and the care of his family anything and anyone else is secondary. None of us have forgotten 1824.'
Adam well recalled the attempt by the Wiradjuri to expel the whites from their sacred sites and hunting grounds. The ongoing struggle had led to increased hostilities from Mount York to Bathurst and beyond, with deaths on both sides. âI hardly think the presence of Bidjia's clan warrants martial law.'
Winston had the disinterested appearance of someone who had already moved on from that topic. âWill you do something for me? Deliver a message?'
âTo whom?'
His friend began to re-pile the mound of leaves by his side. âI've a penchant for women, as you know, but I must break ties with this one.'
âOut of your depth, are you?'
âYes and no,' Winston wavered. âIt's Merindah.'
âMerindah? Bidjia's woman?'
Winston picked at the leaves on the ground. âI promised her things,' he said awkwardly, âthings that were not mine to promise. I would not like her to think ill of me.'
Adam was stunned. âShe does not belong to you.'
Winston's eyes grew in size. âI was only talking about helping her, but frankly, she doesn't belong to Bidjia either. They are not married and she is desperately unhappy. Besides, the blacks trade women like we trade wool at the markets. I hardly think Bidjia has the right to any fuss.'
âAs far as their customs are concerned, they are married.'
âI see why my father would do you the courtesy of speaking to you first rather than hunting down the natives that fired our land. You're like him. You would put your ways and your native family first before your friends, before your true life. It is a misplaced loyalty.'
âMerindah belongs to another.'
âUntil she is traded or passed on.' The comment hung. âI see by your hesitation, Adam, that some things don't sit so easily with you.' Winston flicked at the leaf litter he'd been piling by his side. âWhy do you stay with them?'
âYou mean why do I return to them? I have been away this past year.' Adam hunched his shoulders. âI am used to the life, their ways. I doubt that I would be suited to any other.'
âReally? Look at you with your blucher boots and palm-leaf hat, your hair tied back like a dandy.' Winston slumped back against the rough bark of the tree.
âI've chosen a life that suits me, Winston. Anyway, I best go and listen to your father lecture me.'
Lifting a sketch pad and charcoal, Winston studied the blank sheet. âLecture? It's our livelihood. Your blacks are burning our land.'
Adam trudged the half-mile to the Lycett farmhouse, an unwanted image of Merindah in Winston's arms ruining the day â he could only assume it had been her. This was a problem he'd never foreseen; his friend with Bidjia's woman. If there was more than friendship between them and the relationship was discovered, the tribe would only have one form of revenge. Such a liaison could never be revealed.
The homestead was situated amidst the undulating countryside that rolled westwards toward the Bathurst Plains. The house was a squat building of timber and bark with a low-slung verandah situated close to sheltering trees on the western side, while to the east the great divider between the inland and the coastal areas, a range of blue-tinged mountains, loomed down at the isolated farm. The positioning ensured some relief from the summer sun and also shaded a vegetable plot, which showed tufts of green sprouting up from the damp earth.
Georgina Lycett, a grey-flecked, brown-haired woman with the type of overly joyful disposition that at times rang untrue, was sewing beneath the schooling tree, as he and Winston had named it, a basket of threads on the bench. She looked up on his approach and waved. âAdam, at last. We have all missed you. Winston especially has bemoaned your long absence. You must save us from his morbid mutterings and eat with us.'
Adam waved back. âHe is ill?'
âA fever, we have all had it, although admittedly Winston has experienced the worst of it.'