Who Is My Shelter? (47 page)

“Sorry to bother you, Mrs. Fairbanks, but I came to Manna House to pick up Lucy, you know, for Thanksgiving dinner at our place, and she's not here!”

“What? Are you sure? Maybe she's up in her room, or . . . or down in the dining room. Maybe she got confused and is having turkey dinner there at Manna House.”

“She's nowhere in the building. Miss Williams and Mr. Bentley are both here, hosting the dinner for the residents, and they helped me look. Nobody's seen her today. And another thing—her cart is gone.”

I closed my eyes and groaned. Lucy took off ? Disappeared?
Oh God, not now!

“Will, I don't know what to say. I am so sorry. She probably got scared. Someone from her family showing up after so many years, the whole idea of coming off the streets and living in an actual apartment . . . it's probably overwhelming to her.”

Will was silent for several moments. Then he said, “Yeah, I know. I just hate . . . hate having to go back to the condo and telling Nana that her sister's disappeared again. She's been cooking for two days. It's going to break her heart.”

“Oh, Will.” My own heart felt like it was breaking for them. But I took a deep breath. “Will, listen to me. Are you listening?
Don't give up
. Keep looking for her. I can't help you look for her right now, but we'll find her. Or she'll show up. She always does, eventually. If anything, I know one thing is true.
Lucy needs you
. She may not know it. But God does. He's the one who helped you find her, and He's not going to let you down.”

I was rattled by the news about Lucy, but it was already two thirty and the kids were clamoring to eat. So we all crowded into Celia and Shawanda's apartment on the second floor to begin our progressive Thanksgiving meal with salad and bread—everyone except big-bellied Sabrina, that is, who refused to climb
any
stairs.

Holding hands in one big mob that only slightly resembled a circle, Josh welcomed everyone to the First Annual House of Hope Thanksgiving Dinner, joking that he was being allowed to say the blessing on the food, since as the lone adult male living in a building full of females and kids, it was the only time he got a word in edgewise. As the laughter died down, Josh gave thanks to our heavenly Father “. . . for the House of Hope, for the moms and kids, present and future, who will find a home here, and for our families, who give us the support we all need to make it through.”

“Don't forget the food!” Sammy shouted.

“Amen!” we all added amid laughter and a few teary faces.

After taking the edge off our appetites with Shawanda's layered Jell-O salads and Celia's hot rolls with apple butter, Precious herded everybody down to the first floor, where we'd decided to open up both apartments at the same time, since we had the main course dishes—turkey and dressing in my apartment, side dishes in theirs. “Don't save your paper plates,” Precious admonished. “We got new plates for each course—just like in them fancy buffets, 'cept ours is paper.”

I shanghaied Philip to carve the turkey, and he seemed grateful to have something to do as he wasn't too comfortable with small talk. He served it elegantly from the beautiful mahogany table, even though our plates were Chinet, not china. The idea was for people to get their turkey and dressing in this apartment, then go across the hall to get their mac-an-cheese and greens. I had just helped Sammy and Keisha with their plates and was ushering them over to the other apartment when we ran into Sabrina standing stock still in the hallway holding her plate and a large plastic cup of fruit punch, staring in horror at a puddle at her feet.

“Ha ha, Sabrina spilled her punch!” Sammy sing-songed and dashed into the open doorway beyond her. Keisha giggled and followed.

“Oh, honey, it's not a prob—” I started to say. And then I read the expression on her face. “Sabrina! Your water broke?”

The teenage girl nodded frantically. I quickly took her plate of food and cup, set them on the stairs, and guided Sabrina into her own apartment. “It's going to be fine, honey. Just relax. We have time . . .” I ran into their bathroom, grabbed a towel, spread it on a chair, and helped her sit down. Then I ran back into my apartment. “Precious! Somebody get Precious!” I hollered. “We're having a baby here!”

Josh and Edesa volunteered to accompany Sabrina and Precious to the hospital, so I gave them my keys to the Subaru, and Grandma Jodi said of course she'd stay with Gracie until they got back home. As Josh and Precious were helping Sabrina down the steps of the six-flat, they passed a bewildered middle-aged black couple who looked as if they'd come to the wrong address.

“Are you Tanya Smith's aunt and uncle?” I asked from the doorway. When they nodded, I said, “Come in! Come in! We just had a little bit of excitement, that's all. Baby's deciding to come into the world on Thanksgiving Day.” I laughed and beckoned them inside. “But I know Tanya will be happy to see you. There's still plenty of food left.”

It was hard to concentrate on food and guests and cleanup knowing Sabrina was at the hospital having her baby and Lucy was still unaccounted for, but we managed to do justice to the pies the two Baxter families had baked for the party—pumpkin and apple and banana cream and mock mince.

Finally, at seven thirty that evening, we got the call. “Baby boy!” Precious crowed into my ear. “Six pounds, seven ounces. Looks just like me, I think. An' Sabrina doin' fine—though she screamed bloody murder pushin' him out.”

“His name, Precious! What's his name?”

“Sabrina still deciding. But right now, given the day he picked to make his grand entrance into the world”—she snickered—“we callin' him Lil' Turkey.”

Jodi and Denny and their college daughter, Amanda, were the last to leave, waiting until Josh and Edesa finally came home from the hospital. Which meant Philip, who'd come with them, also stayed into the evening, playing video games with the boys and talking to Denny.

When Josh and Edesa came home around nine—Precious was spending the night at the hospital with Sabrina and “Lil' Turkey”— we all gathered in the Baxter apartment on the third floor to hear a play-by-play recount of the birth. But at one point Philip beckoned me aside. “Mind if I go down to the basement and take a look at the stuff I've got stored there? The apartment I'm renting is a lot smaller than the penthouse, and I want to get an idea of what's going to fit where.”

“No problem. I'll go with you.” I led him out the Baxters' back door and down the outside stairs to the basement, pulling the light chains after unlocking the door.

Philip walked among the boxes, desk, chairs, china cabinet, bedroom and living room furniture stacked on wooden pallets, then turned to me. “No way all this is going to fit into the apartment I've rented. But maybe you can use some of it here. You should take what you want, Gabby—like the china and china cabinet. The cabinet is really a set with the dining room table. And you've got two more apartments to furnish here at the House of Hope, don't you? Those ladies could probably use anything you don't want or need.”

I stared at him. Philip was offering some of this expensive furniture and furnishings to homeless moms like Cordelia Soto? “Are you sure, Philip?”

He nodded. “I'll take my desk and personal stuff, but I certainly don't need three TVs.” He gently kicked a box marked “Bedroom TV” and grinned, looking like the teasing twenty-five-year-old who'd swept me off my feet that summer beside the Fountain of Three Graces in Montpellier, France.

“I'm sure we can use it somehow . . . though I don't know about the, um, king-size bed. That won't fit in these apartments either.” My face suddenly felt aflame.
Our marriage bed
.

Philip didn't say anything for a few moments. Then, “You know what day tomorrow is, don't you, Gabby?”

I nodded but couldn't speak. November 24, 1990 . . . our wedding day sixteen years ago. I'd been trying
not
to think about it.

He stuffed both hands in his pant pockets—gray Dockers with a casual gray-and-black pullover sweater—and leaned against the king-size bed frame. “Feels weird to be moving into my own apartment on our sixteenth anniversary. But . . .” He shrugged. “I've accepted that's how it is right now. Still, I was wondering, would you be willing to go out to dinner with me tomorrow night for our anniversary? After the move, I mean. I'd like that.”

I almost gasped at the bizarre scenario. Six months ago our marriage had crashed and burned . . . I'd ended up in a homeless shelter . . . he'd ended up a casino junkie and victim of a beating by a ruthless loan shark. But here we were, standing in the basement of a vintage Chicago six-flat where
I
lived and that had become a House of Hope for several homeless moms and their kids, surrounded by the boxes and furniture of our old “penthouse life” together, with plans for him to move into an ordinary apartment where
he
was going to live . . . asking me to go out to dinner because it was our sixteenth wedding anniversary.

I was close to laughter—or tears. Wasn't sure which. But I nodded. “Yes. I'd like that.”

chapter 45

I wasn't scheduled to work at Manna House on Friday because of the holiday weekend, but I did promise Will I'd help him look for Lucy for a while. Another moderate day in Chicago—some clouds, some sunshine, a sprinkle now and then, upper fifties— which meant she could be anywhere.

And this time she was alone, without Dandy. An old bag lady with a yellow dog was easily remembered—but an old bag lady alone tended to be invisible. Realizing she didn't have Dandy also sapped some of my confidence that she'd show up back at Manna House sooner rather than later. As long as she had the dog, I knew she'd be back to refill her bucket of dog food every week or so from the Hero Dog stash we still had at the shelter.

“I'm so sorry, Will,” I said when we finally came back to Manna House without finding her. “Some miracles take a little more time than others. I'll get in touch with you the moment I know anything.”

He shrugged. “Yeah. Except, now I don't know whether I should move my stuff up to the Baxters' in Rogers Park or not. I'd planned to do that today, but now . . . don't want to leave Nana alone if we don't find Lucy.”

I didn't know what to tell him. “Just don't give up hope, Will. One of these days she'll realize she needs shelter and she'll be back.”
Oh please, God
.

A trip to Weiss Memorial maternity ward that afternoon to see our new House of Hope baby, however, lifted my spirit. Sabrina looked so young lying in the hospital bed, worn out from the delivery, her creamy chocolate skin and black braided hair a stark contrast to the white sheets. But her eyes shone as I peeked into the Plexiglass bassinet beside the hospital bed where “Lil' Turkey” slept, swathed in a receiving blanket cocoon, a knitted blue cap perched on his tiny head. “Oh, Sabrina, he's beautiful,” I breathed.

Precious came back just then, carrying a large coffee and bag of doughnuts. “Gabby Fairbanks! Whatchu think? Ain't he beautiful? You want to hold him?”

I'd been too shy to ask. But she practically pushed me into the recliner in the corner of the room and placed the baby in my arms, a small warm bundle that snuggled against my chest, his tiny bow-shaped mouth sucking in his sleep. “Have you named him yet?” I asked Sabrina, touching the soft black hair that escaped from the little blue cap and curled onto his smooth brown forehead.

“His daddy's name be Dontrell, an' I was thinkin' he could be a Junior, but Mama, she don't want no part of him.” Sabrina stuck her lip out in a pout, using a tiny mirror to apply lipstick to her pretty face.

“
My
daddy's name is Otis—Sabrina's granddaddy. If she wantin' a family name, Otis would be fine with
me
.” Precious sounded just as petulant.

I decided to stay out of this one. One way or another, the baby would have to have a name for his birth certificate.

As I laid the baby back in the bassinet, I kissed Sabrina goodbye and said, “You remember Carolyn at Manna House? She's heading up our afterschool program now. But I think if you asked, she'd be willing to tutor you so you can keep up with your studies and graduate with your class next year. What do you think?”

Sabrina brightened. “Really? Yeah . . . yeah. I wanna graduate high school and maybe go on to community college. Don't wanna just pop out babies.” Then she grinned. “Though Lil' Turkey's pretty special, don't you think?”

I shook a finger at her. “You watch out, young lady, or that name'll stick.”

Laughing, Precious walked me to the elevator. As the door dinged open, I suddenly turned to her and said, “Today's our sixteenth anniversary.”

“Anniversary? Whose—yours an' Philip's?”