Whistlin' Dixie in a Nor'easter (44 page)

So instead of putting off the inevitable and saying that I’d ask Peter about the sous chef position and get back with him, I took Kissie’s body language into account, mustered all my courage, and said, “That’s so nice of you to ask about that, Riley, but Peter already has a sous chef.” It was technically a lie, I realize that, but I like to think of it as a harmless little fib meant to spare his feelings.

The news seemed to take him by surprise. “Oh. Well, hmmm. I didn’t wealize you had alweady hired someone.” The creases in Riley’s forehead deepened as he considered his options.

I didn’t say a word. “The less said the better,” as Mama used to say, a quote she often borrowed from Jane Austen.
Emma,
I think it was.

“Never mind, then,” he said, disappointment in his voice. “Well, good luck with your new hire.”

“Thanks, Riley. Talk to you soon.” I backed behind the door and waved as I slowly pushed it to.

With relief oozing from my pores, I bolted the lock and turned around in a rush, bumping noses with Kissie. “What’d you go and tell him that for?” she asked in her indignant tone of voice, the one she’s become famous for—at least in my mind. Her right hand alternated between pointing her finger in the air and resting on her large hip. “He gone find out the truth as soon as you put an ad in the newspaper,
hm hm hm.
Lawd knows that man reads every word in it. Even the circulars.” Kissie chants little
hm
s when she’s disgusted at something or someone. She also does a variation of it when she’s happy. This was not one of those.

I sighed loudly. “But this way I won’t hurt his feelings.” Shifting my weight from one foot to the other, I reached around and knotted my long, curly (ofttimes frizzy) red hair into a bun, something I do whenever I’m nervous. Or whenever Kissie is about to lecture me. I really and truly thought what I said was just the kindest thing.

“That may be, but in the long run, your fib gone get you in trouble. And even if you get out of that tall tale, what you gone say about outfitting your new restaurant with all Pampered Chef products?” Now both hands were back on her hips. “He ain’t gone stop there neither. He’ll want you to use Cutco, Tupperware, and Amway, too. Wait and see if ol’ Kissie ain’t right. He’s over there thinking he’s hit the jackpot. You better nip this in the bud while you still can.” After enduring eight months of maddening encounters with my meddlesome next-door neighbor, my other mother was flat done. From the very first day I rented this house, Riley had had “his nose in our business,” as Kissie put it. Incidentally, Kissie had been giving me “the look” with her hands on her hips since the day I learned to walk. And now she was continuing the tradition with my two little girls. Clearly a person’s age had nothing to do with it. I was just short of thirty-six but to Kissie, that was irrelevant.

Twenty minutes later when two consecutive doorbell chimes interrupted our morning a second time, Roberta, my little two-year-old mutt my girls and I found at the pound, hurled himself into a barking frenzy. After sticking him in the kitchen so he wouldn’t run off down the street once I opened the door, two more chimes had followed in the space it took me to make it to the foyer. This not only got Roberta going again, but Kissie—who was taking what she called “a breather” to watch Saturday-morning cartoons with my Sarah and Isabella—sprang out of her seat (she’s nearly eighty-four) and beat me to the entrance hall. She knew exactly who was on the other side. “May I help you, Riley?” I heard her say while flinging the door open. Her voice could possibly pass for polite but there was not a bit of a happy-to-see-you lilt in it at all.

“Good morning, Kissie. May I talk to Leelee again?” Riley, on the other hand, was full of enthusiasm.

“All right. Leelee,” she hollered behind her, with
no
enthusiasm, “Riley’s back.”

I strolled up and shyly peered over her shoulder. Panic about my fib had started to take root.

This time Riley wore one of his black sweatshirts with
TUPPERWARE ROCKS
embroidered in large red letters clear across the front. Until meeting Riley, I had no earthly idea that Tupperware clothing even existed. “Hi again.” He waved at the two of us. “I just had a bwilliant idea.” Riley’s exuberance was made obvious by the way he rocked back and forth on his heels. “I was just looking awound my kitchen when the thought popped in my head that the Peach Blossom Inn will have all kinds of food-stowage needs. I could stock your kitchen with any kind of Tuppa’ware pwoduct you could possibly imagine. And Kissie, you could host the pawty!” He reached into his back pocket and handed her a rolled-up Tupperware catalog. “You won’t believe the kinds of wewards you can earn. Why I’ve nearly outfitted my entire house.”

Awkwardness hung heavy in the air. Hosting a Tupperware party would be the last thing eighty-three-and-a-half-year-old Kissie King would ever add to her bucket list. Just as I was pondering another little white lie to relieve us all of this misery, Riley piped up again. “And wait till you learn about the sharp world of Cutc—” The daggers in Kissie’s eyes could have cut that poor thing’s face in half. As for me, I just stood there expressionless, not knowing what to say. Riley backed down the steps and onto the walkway. “Uh, why don’t you take your time and think about it; I’ll get back with you later.”

Kissie put her hand on the back of the door and shoved. “Sure, Riley,” I said before it swung shut.

Even though I didn’t want to, I met Kissie’s glare straight on. I’d seen it a thousand times. Tight, pursed lips with eyebrows arched like upside-down crescent moons and coal black eyes staring straight into mine. “Don’t say a word,” I told her. “I knew you were right the minute I heard the second doorbell chime.” As she turned and ambled back to the den to join the girls, a peeved “hm hm hm” was the only sound she made.

Kissie is one of the loveliest people who ever lived. It’s just that Riley crawls all over her. She puts it like this: “Sometimes that man sits on my very last nerve.” As irritated as he makes her, though, she doesn’t stay that way long. In fact, she spends much more of her time laughing than glaring. If she finds something funny—anything at all—she’ll tee-hee herself into a full-blown laughing attack quicker than anyone I know. Tears will stream from her eyes and pretty soon her entire face looks like she just stepped out of the shower. The sound of her laughter is the most contagious thing you’ve ever heard and it’s virtually impossible not to join right in with her. When she’s finished—with the laughing attack, that is—she’ll end by saying “oh me,” or “oooh-wee,” however the mood strikes her.

Without question, she’s the most wonderful person I’ve ever known, and that’s been since the day I was born. My grandparents shared her with Mama and Daddy the minute I popped into the world. She was considered one of the best cateresses in Memphis when Granddaddy stumbled upon her at a cocktail party. He popped one of Kissie’s cheese dreams in his mouth and knew he had to hire her. She cooked for them for ten years before my birthday and all of a sudden she was both a chef and a nanny. Times were different back then. Most everyone I knew in Memphis had a black lady working in the home. Some families had a cook, a maid, and an ironing lady. Not many, but a few. Mama and Daddy had a maid who doubled as both an ironing lady and a superb cook. And I had a black mama.

Sometimes I’m surprised she stayed with us. Mama had a tendency to be jealous of my affection for Kissie. As far as I’m concerned, the reason for that is as simple as two plus two. Kissie was the one taking care of me. Running my bath, cleaning my behind, and making sure my tummy was full; kissing my elbows and knees when I fell off my bike and bundling me up in the winter. Kissie worked in our home
at least
five days a week. Children bond to their caregivers whether they are blood or not, and that’s exactly what happened with me. I fell in love with Kissie King like she was my own mother.

There was never a birthday party where Kissie didn’t do most of the work or a dance recital when Kissie didn’t help me get ready. Of course, Mama helped. I would be remiss if I didn’t give her part of the credit. I know she tried. But something else in her life seemed to always claim the front seat.

My white eyelet dress with Juliet sleeves and an empire waist came from Goldsmith’s, Memphis’s hometown department store. The cutest thing I’d ever seen and just perfect for my first Junior Cotillion dance. Mama took me shopping and I couldn’t wait to get back home to try it on for Kissie. Since I attended an all-girls school and Junior Cotillion was an all-girls organization, I had to invite my own date. All year my eyes had been set on Danny Weaver, a boy from the boys’ school down the street. Sandy blond hair, a spray of freckles across his nose, big blue eyes—I had set my sights high. From the moment I spotted him at my first boy–girl party, one year earlier, I pictured us a couple.

Calling him on the phone, God as my witness, took five years off my life. It was a Friday afternoon; I’ll never forget it. I’d never called a boy before and as an eighth-grader with no brothers, I was scared to death to dial the number. His mother answered the phone and with Mary Jule, one of my three best friends, sitting right next to me, I said, “May I please speak to Danny?” That was before the days of caller ID and I could have hung up right then and there if I wanted to but Mary Jule held my hand and urged me to “just get it over with.” Once he said hello, Danny sat there on the other end of the line, barely saying anything until I finally blurted out the question. After an excruciating pause, he finally said yes but hurried off the phone. It’s a wonder I survived.

The night of the formal, Kissie helped to straighten my hair and made sure my dress was pressed. Of course, Mama took all the pictures once Danny picked me up at the door, and that was an even more uncomfortable moment, since it was seven o’clock by the time he got there and, well, that’s two hours past five. Without fail, no matter what day of the week it was, cocktail hour in our house commenced with the five o’clock whistle.

The evening could scarcely be described as romantic. Once we got to the dance, the girls clustered around the tables while the boys huddled around one another at the far end of the room, no doubt talking about basketball, football, or who knows what else. It could have been my frizzy-turned-straight red hair. The parental chaperones urged us to dance but Danny and the rest of the boys just sat there like toads, never uttering a word. Four hours later Danny and I slithered into the backseat of his father’s Lincoln Continental for the long ride home. Thank God for Mr. Weaver. At least he made conversation.

Mama was three sheets to the wind and slurring her words the minute we stepped inside the front door. To say I was embarrassed would be a lie. I was mortified. Daddy stepped in to say good-bye to Danny after Mama attempted an inebriated farewell, nearly tripping over her feet when she went to
hug
him. Danny looked at me, then the floor, back at me, over to Mama, and finally shook Daddy’s hand before hurrying out to his father. I hid behind the front window and watched him bound into the front seat of his father’s Lincoln. The thought of their conversation sickened me as I ran up to my room. Hours passed before Kissie came into work the next morning and I could fall into her arms. She never ever said a single unkind word about Mama no matter what Mama did. All Kissie would say was: “She’s your mama, baby. You need to love and respect her no matter what.”

Scotch was Mama’s cocktail. I can still picture the green bottle with the red top—Glenlivet 12 with the ivory-colored label. A bottle always sat atop our bar, right next to the small sink. Most of the other liquor bottles, Jack Daniel’s, Tanqueray, Smirnoff, Bacardi, and several different liqueurs, were stacked on the shelves above the bar glasses, but the fifth of Glenlivet was always within reach, easy for Mama to grab. The sound of the silver tongs tinkering in the ice bucket (that Kissie had filled, incidentally) and the clinking of the ice cubes echoes in my mind even today. One, two, three, four, Mama dropped each one into her Waterford crystal highball glass as soon as the clock struck five. Ah yes,
the cocktail hour
. Mama would be finishing her second by the time Daddy got home, around six o’clock. She’d leave her chair in the living room and mix him one as soon as she heard his car engine enter the driveway. But only one. That’s all Daddy ever wanted.

He never took the first sip until he kissed me hello. When I was little he’d make it a point to find me, throw me in the air, and blow funny raspberry kisses into my face and down my neck. By the time I turned into a teenager I was usually on the phone when he got home. Still he’d knock on my bedroom door and kiss me before Kissie served our dinner. I always knew my daddy loved me. Maybe it was because of the way he covered me when Mama was on a bender or the tears I saw in his eyes the day I graduated from college or the ones he wept on my wedding day. I suppose that’s why I became a daddy’s girl. Who could blame me?

It wouldn’t have been a surprise to me if Mama died of liver damage had she lived to a ripe old age but instead Mama died of breast cancer when she was only forty-two and I was only eighteen. It was a terrible time for a girl to lose her mother, only six weeks before leaving for Ole Miss. We were in that awkward phase; the one where mothers and daughters have a hard time getting along. No doubt the hangover from her alcoholism had already inflicted my soul with nausea, but even so I was devastated—heartsick when she died. Seventeen years later I’m just now dealing with it all. Thanks to Alice, one of my other BFFs, I finally started seeing a therapist a few months ago.

Maybe Mama’s beauty was her downfall. It was certainly her identity; that I know for sure. She was called beautiful from the day she was born and it became the main component of her self-worth. After graduating from Ole Miss she went back home to Greenville in the Mississippi Delta and spent the next year planning her wedding. She was born to be a wife and mother, all the while looking like a Miss Mississippi on the arm of my father, a dashing Southern gentleman from Memphis, Tennessee, named Henry Beckworth Williams, Jr.