Authors: Thomas Williams
Wood and Sally De Oestris finally arrived, and Sally came slowly in on her canes, her deep voice merrily booming. Her fur coat was removed and she was ensconced in the high oak chair David vacated for her, and given a glass of sherry. She shook out her beads and adjusted herself and the brilliant folds of her blue dress, grinning all the while. She noticed Peggy and said, “Margaret Mudd! What's this? A little
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come for Christmas?”
Peggy nodded shyly, and Sally said, “I knew it. Wood told me in time to include something for you, Peggy Mudd. You'll find it under the tree in the morning.” She looked fiercely about her and said, “Well!”
Wood and David had brought her packages in from the car, and now, as was their custom on Christmas Eve, they began with great mock secrecy, and lies as to which present was for whom, to put all the presents under the tree.
“A case of Lifebuoy for Kate!” David said, tucking a package far back under the tree. “Beee-oooh!” he said, imitating the radio.
“The keys to Davy's new Plymouth convertible!” Kate said as she came back from the hall closet with one tiny box in her hand.
Peggy sat basking in their energy. Mr. Whipple said something to Sally and she roared, though her white head barely moved. Her carefully set white hair glinted all the colors of the tree. Mrs. Whipple took a glass of sherry and came to sit on another wicker stool next to Peggy.
“I saw another present for you in the hall closet,” she whispered, and her hand came over to lie warmly on Peggy's arm.
Soon the presents were all partly hidden beneath the tree. Their shiny bows and flowered wrappings could be seen, precious and powerful shapes in there in the colorful dusk. Even she had bought presents for them all, because of Wood, who'd insisted on lending her five dollars. He'd ordered her to take the five dollars. When she said she couldn't, he said she must, and frowned at her from such a stern height she trembled, and couldn't refuse. She bought Wood a wallet, the most expensive thing, handkerchiefs for Kate and Mrs. Whipple, a boondoggle and steel key ring for David, a pair of knit gloves for Horace and, in consultation with Mrs. Whipple, a little pipe-reaming tool for Mr. Whipple, who occasionally smoked a pipe. All this came to four dollars and eighty-five cents. In spite of her happiness at having bought these things for all the Whipples, it seemed like such a lot of money she could never pay it back.
Just then Tom, evidently having finished his milk, stepped quietly into the center of the room, sat down, stuck one hind leg out straight as a Nazi saluting Hitler, and began to lick himself. Peggy watched Wood, and then, as Wood's eyes opened in surprise, she turned to Kate. Kate was bubbling inside and grinningâthe only girl Peggy knew who could make faces and still look pretty.
“Look who came home for Christmas!” Kate said.
“It's Tom!” Wood said.
“Back from the wars, with a Purple Heart,” David said.
Mrs. Whipple's hand tightened on Peggy's arm, and Peggy looked up at her. She was staring unhappily at Wood. Was it what David had said about the war? Wood was going into the Army soon, going away to danger. Suddenly her heart gave a great push, almost as if she'd lost her breath. How could he go from this house out there where her father was made sick with fear of the shells and bullets? It was more dangerous for Wood. Someone would take care of her father and tell him what to do, but Wood would choose to do what other people wouldn't dare to do. For him the war would be too dangerous. He was too valuable, and somehow he shouldn't be allowed to go. With this thought, which seemed to carry in it all the truth in the world, she saw at once the horror and injustice of the war. Nothing could be done about it. Wood was not going of his own free will, even though he might give that impression because he was resigned to it. It was by force that he had to go, and that force came suddenly right into this room in spite of the beautiful tree and these Whipples who were being happy and good to each other. These moments of Christmas now became, in her new knowledge, infinitely pitiful and valuable.
Not hearing their talk, now, she began to make an accounting of this place in time, as if for future reference: the few pretty Christmas candies on waxed paper, Kate's beauty and grace, the angel singing its unknown hymn from the top of the tree, the dark strength of the high room looming over them, but now brushed gently with the kindly light of Christmas. There in the corner sat Horace with his blunt awkwardness, and in the middle of the room Sally De Oestris glittered like a funny little queen on her throne, while Mr. Whipple drank and joked like a slightly dangerous clown. Mrs. Whipple, who was always kind but sometimes distant, as if she'd been called away in her mind to some other place; David, who said quick things that might be funny yet might be cruel. And Wood, whom she loved with all her heart and because of this deeply feared. He reminded her ofâ¦God. From across the room his great warmth pressed against her with nearly as tangible a force as the fire at her side.
Horace watched Peggy through his crisp new glasses, seeing to his horror that tears were in her eyes. She was crying. He had to do something for her right now. Later, after all the excitement caused by this flash of need on his part had died down, he could not remember the idea of urgency at all; he merely acted. If only he could have made one intermediate step of some sort between the thought and its translation into actionâif only he could leam to do thisâsuch disasters might not always happen to him.
He did not remember getting up from the floor. As to what he intended to give Peggy, he was never certain; the nearest real object might possibly have been a candy cane hanging on a branch of the tree near a blue ball with a red light deeply refleeted in its delicate, complicated panorama of reflections. But more than this, perhaps, was a kind of wonderful aura he crazily thought he might grasp out of the very air next to the treeâits calmness, its serenity before which they had all lost their crueltyâand bring this in his arms to Peggy. But then everything turned into slow motion; their horrified faces passed his dazed regard as slowly as great masses gather momentum. He had stepped on the cat, whose scream contained all kinds of judgments and bad information. He stepped off the cat into what seemed to be a slow yet irresistible wind. Their faces turned like moons, like the Herpes watching his total responsibility. He could make no explanations. His next step would, he realized, be upon a green-wrapped box he happened to know contained a present for his motherâa fragile lamp for her sewing table. So he did not take that step, and the wind, or whatever force it was, moved him toward the tree. Branches delicately touched his cheeks; lights and the glowing balls, icicles and strings of tinsel moved like galaxies toward and past his still wondering eyes as he passed remorselessly out of the room and into nightmare, the final, totally familiar crash and glassbreak of disaster.
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Later, after Horace's groaning cries had stopped, the tree had been set straight again and the broken decorations picked up and swept up, they all sat quietly and listened to carols. Henrietta had her arm around Horace, and quieted him. Harvey searched for a way to make it less than it was, but could find no way to make it funny and small. The boy's sheer terror had even frightened him, and his first ironic comment now echoed cruelly in his ears. “God bless us, every one!” he'd said in the first shocked silence before Horace bawled.
Peggy sat on the other side of Horace and held his hand. David and Kate still looked rather stunned.
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Silent night, holy night,
All is calm, all is brightâ¦
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the radio voices sang. After a while Kate made hot chocolate, and the disaster faded into less than tragedy. After a long time, when Horace was even seen to smile, all their faces instantly imitated his.
There were few memories of Christmases, just memories of Christmas. In the Whipples' castle the great tree of one year faded into all the trees of all the years. But they would remember more clearly than most the Christmas Horace fell into the tree. The snow would stop, the roads would open out again from their house and from Leah, and the colors of Christmas, its familiar intimacies, its quality of truce, would change into the celebration of someone's return. In their memories this would be the last real Christmas of childhood.
Amerika, du hast es besser
Als wiser Continent, das alte,
Hast keine verfdlene Schlösser
Und keine Basalte.
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Goethe:
“Den Vereinigten Staaten”
Harvey learned in February that one of his out-of-town clients was planning to set up a new metal-working plant in Leah which would train and employ over two hundred workers. This, he foresaw, would change the whole economy of the town, and immediately he began to consider ways in which he might turn this development to his own profit. The factory was going to take over the complex of brick buildings that had been the home of the long defunct Leah Woolen Mills, and within walking distance was a large wooden tenement that had long been half-heartedly for sale. Of its nine apartments, four were vacant, and the others now rented for twelve dollars a month. The asking price was $8,500. Taxes on the building were at present $250 per year. With the advent of the factory and its wartime salaries, he figured he could rent eight of the apartments for $60 and give the other rent-free to a part-time janitor. This would give him an immediate return of $480 per month on an investment of $8,500, plus an outlay of $1,500 for needed repairs, which would constitute the down payment on the loan. Five-percent interest on $8,500 would amount to $425 per year. Say the total amount of his investment was $10,000â$8,500 of which he'd borrow from the Leah Savings Bank. His yearly income from rents would be $5,760. Deducting interest on the loan ($425), oil, electricity and water (about $480), taxes ($250), insurance and repairs, he'd make at least $3,000 to $4,000 a year, if he counted equity, on an initial cash investment of $1,500.
At first he thought of selling some common stocks and not dealing with the bank, but this would lose him 1 to 1½ percent in earnings. Gordon Ward, Sr., was, in dealings such as this, a fairly honest and very reasonable fellow, so he went ahead through Gordon's bank. The owner of the building was a rather senile old Jew who lived in Summersville and came to Leah once a month to collect his rents and have a shouting fitâhis standard reaction to complaints about disrepair. Harvey knew most of this because he'd carried the insurance on the building for years.
Even if he could rent the apartments for only $50, or $45, he'd still be making money. Lots of money. In fact, there was another tenement nearby in better repair and thus more expensive, that he'd also decided to look into.
“Nothing ventured, nothing gained,” he said thoughtfully. In a little while he got into the habit of saying this. He would hear the words echoing in his mind, just after having said them unconsciously. “Nothing ventured, nothing gained.” In theory, at least, it seemed quite a good way to begin to get rich.
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On Monday, March 15, Wood reported to Grenier Field, Manchester, New Hampshire, for his preinduction physical. His blood, bones, joints, heart, sight and hearing all seemed to be in order, and upon his avowal that sexually, he liked girls not boys, he passed. He was then directed to report to the Reception Center at Fort Devens, Massachusetts, for classification and assignment in fifteen days, on Tuesday, March 30, 1943. Transportation coupons were provided.
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When Wood left on the Peanut for Manchester and his preinduction examinations, Horace began to believe that he might actually go away from their house and away from Leah. Horace couldn't go to the station with him because he had to be in school, and when Wood came back that night, saying that he had passed, Horace began to count the days. Fifteen days seemed at first a long time. He couldn't divide it into weeks because it was longer than two weeks.
At dinner his father turned to Wood and said, “So he's going to be a doughboy.”
Wood frowned slightly and nodded.
“They don't call them doughboys,” David said. “They call them GIs now. âGovernment Issue.'”
“Government Issue,” Horace's father said. “The government issues about everything these days.” He thought for a moment. “Well, it's a hell of a war, I'll say that.” There seemed to be some grudging admiration in his voice. Usually he got impatient and even angry if anyone brought up the war.
“I don't want to talk about it!” Henrietta said.
“It's not something I want to do,” Wood said. “I
have
to do it. Everybody has to do it.”
“We can't lose the war,” David said.
“I suppose you'll be wanting to go, next,” Harvey said, looking straight at David. David shrugged proudly.
“You would,” Harvey said. “I can see that.”
They sat around the big table for a while after they were through eating. No one knew exactly what to say, but no one got up. It would be like leaving Wood to the war, now that he had to go. It was like a farewell party, or ceremony. Their regard of Wood chilled Horace, and went to prove that soon Wood would not be there.
Kate brought more coffee to her father and mother and Wood, and sat down again herself. She said to Wood in a low voice, “We'll miss you, Wood. We really will.”
“Why shouldn't you?” Henrietta said.
“I didn't say we wouldn't!” Kate said, nearly crying.
“All right. All right,” Henrietta said, patting Kate's shoulder.
Harvey suddenly rolled his chair back from the table, his white balloon face quivering from the effort. He snorted, swung his chair around and wheeled himself out into the living room. No one followed.
“David,” Wood said. “You're going to have to take over the furnace altogether.”
David groaned. “Until next fall, anyway,” he said, and they all looked at Horace.