Wanting You (4 page)

CHAPTER 5

Decisions

Tamia

              As soon as Kellen left, I head to my bathroom to take a long shower. I'm standing under the shower spray letting the water cascade down my body hoping it would wash away all thoughts of Kellen out my mind. I know he has a girlfriend but I couldn't help but to wonder what it would be like to be his. Then there was tonight. The way he looked at me with those blue eyes, to the way he touched and kissed me while we danced.

I let out a deep frustrated breath and tried shaking my thoughts of him.
Tamia he's taken. He did those things not
knowing what he was actually doing.
I think to myself, trying to rationalize the situation.
He did have a few beers tonight. Maybe that could explain his behavior, right?

Deciding not to put too much thought into it anymore, I finish washing my body, rinse off and get out. After drying off, I brush my teeth, then I put on my favorite button down pajama shirt along with some boy shorts. After applying my face moisturizer and body lotion, I switch the bathroom light off and head back into my bedroom and I'm startled when I see Kellen sitting on my bed.

“Shit you scared me.” I say holding my chest.

“Sorry.” He says with a sexy smirk. “I didn't mean to scare you.”

I'm standing in the middle of my room staring at him. “What are you doing here?”

He looks down at his hands contemplating his answer. When he looks up at me, I can see the look in his eyes, and at that moment I knew I was in trouble. I begin to move towards my dresser, but when I do Kellen stands, grabs my arm and pulls me to him, until he's sitting again and I'm standing between his legs. 

“Tamia.” He says my name, forcing me to look directly into his eyes.

“Kellen, what do you want?” I ask trying to pull away. He releases my arm, and wraps both of his arms around me, until he's hugging me to his body.

“You Tamia. I want you.” He whispers. “For some reason I can’t get you off my mind.”

I begin to squirm in his arms, trying to get away but all he does is tighten his hold on me.

“Kellen, stop. You have a girlfriend.” I say breathless.

“Do you really want me to stop Tamia?”

“Kellen your sister is across the hall.” I say trying to persuade him that this wasn't the time or place.

“Well I guess we'll have to keep it down, won't we?” He whispers.

Releasing his arms from behind me, he places his hands on the back of my thighs then moves them up until he's cupping my butt.

“Damn Tamia, I want you so bad.” He says leaning his forehead to rest on my chest.

“Kellen this isn't right. We shouldn't be doing this. You have a girl...”

“Tamia, I know, but I need you. We don't have to do anything you don't want to. All you have to say is stop and I will. Just let me touch and kiss you.”

He looks up at me, awaiting my answer. After a moment of silence and no response from me, Kellen makes the decision for me and begins to unbutton the top button of my pajama shirt, then the next. I knew in the back of my mind that what we were doing wasn't right, but I didn't stop him. After undoing the third button, he leans in a places a kiss between my breasts, causing a moan to slip from my lips, then he continues unbuttoning every single button until he gets to the last one. He pulls me forward by my hips, forcing me to put my knees on the bed one at a time until I'm straddling him.

He opens my shirt until my breasts are free, then he leans forward and flicks my right nipple with his tongue, then slowly circles his tongue around it before sucking it into his mouth, causing me to arch into him. Another moan escapes my mouth and I can't help but to run my fingers through his hair bringing his head closer to my breast. He continues to lick and suck on me. Causing me to throw my head back moaning his name. He takes that opportunity and releases my nipple and kisses his way up my neck until he captures my bottom lip with his teeth, tugs it lightly, then he soothes it with a lick before invading my mouth with his tongue, kissing me slowly and thoroughly like he has all the time in the world.

He breaks the kiss and we're both panting and breathing each other’s air. Planting a sweet kiss on my lips, Kellen gently picks me up and turns around and lays me on my bed. I scoot further up my bed and watch Kellen remove his shirt. I can't help but to stare at his tan lean body. He has ink tatted on his right side near his rib that I never knew he had, and he had a nice set of abs along with narrow hips that showed off his V cut.

Kellen unbuttons and unzips his jeans and climbs up the bed to me until his body is hovering over me. He gently nudges my legs apart with his thighs until he has better access, and settles between my legs, allowing me to feel his erection, then he begins to grind against me. Leaning forward Kellen licks my upper lip before drawing it into his mouth, then he nibbles and sucks my lower lip kissing me once again. I take that opportunity and begin to run my nails down his back causing him to moan into my mouth, and I begin grinding against him. 

Kellen slowly pulls his lips away from mine and begins kissing his way down my body. 

“Kellen.” I say in a breathless warning.

“Tamia, please don't make me stop.” He whispers against my body.

He continues to kiss his way down my body. And when he gets to my navel, he dips his tongue inside then he lifts my hips up slightly and slowly removes my boy shorts and tosses them to the floor.

“Tamia open your legs for me sweetheart.” He says with lust in his eyes.

I'm so far gone at this point that I obey and slowly open my legs wide, exposing myself to him.

He positions his head between my legs and begins to trail kisses starting from my left knee all the way down until he reaches my pussy.

“I can’t wait to taste you Tamia.” He whispers against my thighs.

Using his fingers he opens me up exposing my pink center, then he slides two fingers inside of me and begins to work his fingers in and out, and in all different angles. “Damn you're so wet and tight.” He says.

I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like I was about to explode it felt so good. I lift my hips off the bed and begin moving against his fingers trying to relieve the pressure he was building up inside me.

Kellen slowly removes his fingers and begins to lick small circles around my opening, before dipping his tongue inside me.

“Aaaaah!” I scream, failing miserably on trying to be quiet.

“Sweetheart you have to keep it down.” He whispers, and continued exploring me with his tongue, alternating from sucking and tonguing my opening.

“You taste so fucking good Tamia.” He says while French kissing my lips down below and all I can do is take it and love every minute of it.

“Come for me Tamia.” Kellen orders then he captures my clit into his mouth and sucks. I feel my body start to jerk, then I scream and explode into his mouth. He continues to lick and suck on me until I have nothing left to give.

Kellen then crawls up my body and places a loving kiss to my lips, then positions himself behind me and gathers me into his arms, pulling the blankets over us, then places a kiss to my bare shoulder.

“How do you feel Tamia?” He asks, then places a kiss to my neck.

“Exhausted.” I respond with a yawn.

“Good. Get some sleep.” He says pulling me tighter against him.

“Okay.” I whisper, then yawn.              

That's the last thing I remember saying before falling asleep in Kellen's arms.

CHAPTER 6

Ashley?

Kellen

              As soon as I knew Tamia was asleep, I gathered all my clothes, got dressed and headed back to my apartment. Several hours later I'm laying in bed thinking about how I just cheated on my girlfriend.
How was I supposed to
tell Ashley about Tamia and me?
What I should have done was left Tamia alone last night, then I wouldn't be in this situation now. I've never been the type of guy who cheats on his girlfriend, but last night I couldn't help myself, and I refuse to blame my actions for the number of beers that I had, because deep down my feelings for Tamia have been building up since that day I first met her. Then last night at the party, I couldn't take my eyes off her or stop touching her.

All last night, all I could think about was how bad I wanted to fuck her. After dropping everyone off last night, I should've headed home to my own bed, but instead I headed back to Tamia's apartment, went to her bedroom, and waited for her to finish up in the bathroom,  and when she came out I took and claimed what I wanted from her, and I wanted more.

Ashley is great and I really care about her, but I can't help that I want Tamia too. I know I have some decisions to make and I needed to make them soon. Ashley wasn't expected back for a couple of days, so I have time to figure out how to explain this situation to her.  I've really fucked up, and I need to figure my shit out.

We were all meeting up at Jay and Tasha's apartment later to discuss our plans for Thanksgiving break, so I knew I would see Tamia tonight. I grab my cellphone off my night stand getting ready to send Tamia a text, when I see three missed calls and five text messages from Ashley. Deciding to read and respond to Ashley's messages later, I search for Tamia's name and send her a text.

Kellen:
Tamia we need to talk. Can you meet me after we discuss Thanksgiving break? 

Then I press send and toss my cellphone back on the night stand, and I get out of bed and head to my bathroom to release myself and brush my teeth. When I'm done I throw on a pair of sweats and my East Florida hoodie and head out for my morning jog. After jogging 3 miles I head back to my apartment and shower. Since I had nothing planned until this evening, I hop back into bed, watch some TV, then eventually I fall asleep.

I'm having a dream starring Tamia. I'm sitting in a chair and she's standing between my legs looking down at me with a sexy look on her face. She's wearing the same pajama shirt from last night and she's slowly unbuttoning it for me. My eyes stay focused on her the whole time anticipating a glimpse of that soft brown skin underneath. She opens her mouth and whispers my name and smiles. Then she says my name again, and that's when I realize that the voice isn't coming from my dream, but someone was actually calling my name.

“Kellen, baby wake up.” I hear the female voice say.

The voice sounded familiar to me.
Ashley?
At that moment I slowly open my eyes trying to focus. When my vision adjusts I look down and see her staring up at me with a sexy smile on her face. She begins to pull my boxers down and starts giving me a blow job. She looks up once again to make sure my attention is on her, then slowly starts to stroke her hand up and down my length, while sucking the tip of my dick into her mouth.

“I've missed you so much Kellen.” Ashley whispers, then takes me all into her mouth.

“Fuck Ashley!” I moan. “H-how are you back so early?” I ask breathless.

“Shh, we'll talk later. Let me take care of you Kellen.”

I relax my head on my pillow and I look down again and watch Ashley. I'm so close to coming, but before I can she pulls away and reaches over and pulls a condom out of my night stand. At that moment I see Ashley is already naked. She tears the condom wrapper open with her teeth, and slowly rolls it down my dick. She then straddles me until I'm inside of her.  She starts to slowly slide up and down on me, and we moan out in unison.

“Kellen you feel so good. Mmmmm. I've missed you so much.” She moans then leans forward while still riding me and takes my nipple into her mouth and sucks hard.

“Shit Ashley, I'm going to come!”

Ashley begins to rotate her hips up and down on me harder. “Then come for me baby.” She says.

“Fuuuuck!!!!” I shout and release into the condom.

Ashley lifts off of me with a satisfied look on her face and lays her head on my chest. “That was amazing!” Ashley says and plants a kiss on my neck.

I'm laying there staring at the ceiling trying to catch my breath and get my thoughts together, when my mind travels back to Tamia.
What the fuck am I going to do?