Wanted (40 page)

OH. MY.
GOD.
NO!
He didn’t think I was going to sleep with him did he. Before I could even open my mout
h Gunner had me in his arms.

“Don’t think that Ellie sweetheart. I only brought you in here to give you a proper kiss in private. His
ran his hand through my hair and then
brought it up to the side of my face.
He to
ok
the
back of his hand
and moved it
up and down my face. All I could feel was a tingling sensation every where his hand touched. He then to
ok
both
hands and cupped my face. He tilted
my face up and smiled that
cro
ok
ed smile at me. I swear I felt my knees wobble. He leaned down and lightly br
ushed his lips against mine
four
t
imes and it was driving me mad.

“More….”

I fel
t Gunner smile against my lips.

“More huh?”
He asked as he let out a small laugh.

“
Yes Gunner please…..I need
more.”

The next thing I knew Gunners lips where back on mine and his tongue was seeking entrance into my mouth. I opened and allowed him in. He moved his hand to the back of my head
and deepened the kiss so much it
felt like all the air was being sucked out of my body. He slowly backed me up against the wall. Thank God because I needed something to assist me with standing before my legs buckled out from underneath me.

God I never wanted him to stop. The way he made me feel was unbelievable. I felt….cherished. When he finally pulled his lips from mine I
slowly
opened my eyes to lo
ok
at him. His beautiful blue eyes w
ere
lo
ok
ing down into mine. He slowly
let a smile creep across his beautiful face. I couldn’
t help but smile back at him
.

“
Was that
better Ms. Johnson?”

I let out
a
giggle. “Yes…yes it was Mr. Mathews. You have
successfully bewitched me.”

Gunner to
ok
his index finger and traced my jaw line and then ran it over my lips. My whole body trembled and the ache between my legs grew stronger. All I wanted to do was squeeze my
legs together to ease the ache.

“I’m glad to hear I have you bewitched sweetheart. I thought for a moment someone else might be trying to do the same thing.”
He said as he tapped my nose with his finger.

He did notice and th
at was
why he brought me in here! I wanted to throw myself into his arms again and beg him to kiss me once more. I wanted to forget all about some guy flirting with me right in front of him. All I wanted to see was Gunner’s beautiful eyes lo
ok
ing into mine.

“You ready for a party?”

“Only if you promise to keep your dance card open for me all night.” I said with a smile.

“Done!”
Gunner grabbed my hand and led me to his bedroom door. He spun me around and slammed
me
back against the door and kissed me deeply again. He pulled his lips from mine and
I
gasped for air.

“That is so you
don’t forget
who has you bewitched.” He said with a wink. I stepped away from the door so he could open it. My head was spinning
again but this time in
a good way. As we walked out from Gunner’s room and through the living room I felt eyes watching us. I lo
ok
ed over to the kitchen and Jon was watching Gunner and I walk by.
The way he was smiling
felt like he was trying to lo
ok
into my soul
and it sent a shiver down my back
. I quickly turned my head and lo
ok
ed up at Gunner who was
smiling from ear to ear and l
eading us outside to the music.

Once we stepped outside the fresh air felt amazing. I lo
ok
ed around and saw Amanda, Ari and Heather all dancing. They all lo
ok
ed happy and that made me smile. Jeff had walked out the back door and pointed at some chairs for Gunner and me to sit at. I still had yet to take a drink o
f the beer that was in my hand.

“Do you want to go dance with you
r friends Ellie?” Gunner asked.

“Nope, I just want to sit here with you.” The next thing I did was probably the boldest thing I have ever done
in my life
. Especially since my brother was sitting right here. Gunner sat down and I sat down on his lap
before I chickened out
. I think Gunner was just as surprised as my brother. I went to take a swig of my beer and then felt something….oh….oh wow…was I making that happen? I stopped my beer right at my lips as I felt Gunner adjust me in his lap. Jefferson was busy lo
ok
ing at everyone dance so he didn’t notice Gunner lean in and whisper against my ear.

“I’m sorry sweetheart. I was not expecting you to do that and he
kind of has a mind of his own.”

I snapped my head and lo
ok
ed at Gunner. Did he just say that to me? He just told me I gave him
a
hard on? I started to laugh and leaned down and kissed him right on the lips. Jefferson or not….I wanted Gunner to know how I felt
about him
every second of the day.

“Jesus Christ…can you stop Ellie….I can take you sitting on his lap but not sucking his face at the same damn time!”

CHAPTER THIRTY

Jefferson
…….

Holy mother fucking shit. I could not sit here and watch my baby sister suck face with
my best friend while she sat on
his goddamn lap. Christ a guy can only take so much. I lo
ok
ed back out to the dance floor and scanned for who I was lo
ok
ing for.

Ari…..

She was dancing with Amanda and Heather to
Usher’s
“
Yeah
”
. Fuck she could move. I wanted to know what she felt like in my arms dancing. They lo
ok
ed like they were heading over to get something to drink. I got up and walked over to Jack and asked him to play a certain song next. He nodded and I went and sat
back down. Ari was drinking a b
eer and some of it ran down her lip onto her chin. Mother fucker……this girl has been get
ting my dick hard since I was 16
years old. She lo
ok
ed do
wn at me as she wiped her chin.

“
You been
drinking long?” I asked as I smiled at her.

“Think you could teac
h me a better way to do it
dick
wad
?” She said back to me with that damn sexy smile of hers.  I didn’t care how many times she called me names….as long as she was talking to me. I lucked out with douche bag Jason Reed out of town. Jack started up Rascal
Flatts
’
“
What Hurts the Most
”
right then. I jumped up and to
ok
the beer out of he
r hand and handed it to Gunner.

“Dance with me…..please.”

She lo
ok
ed stunned but nodded her head yes. I to
ok
her hand and led her out to where a few other people were dancing. I pulled her into my arms and goddamn if she didn’t fit perfect up against my body. I had not held Ari this close to me since she was 11 year old a
nd fell trying to roller blade.

I put my face into her hair and to
ok
a deep smell. I had to memorize every detail of how she felt,
and how she
smelled and lo
ok
ed right at this moment. I felt her relax more and more in my arms.
I prayed that she was listening to the song…
.she wouldn’t
ever let me apologize for my behavior and this was the best I could think of last minute. I pulled her closer to me as the words to the song played that I wished so badly I could say to her
.

I felt her grip harder onto me and all I wanted to do was kiss her. God I wan
ted to kiss her so fucking bad
…..s
he smelled like vanilla. Had she
always smelled like that?
I just held her tight against me while we danced.

The song was going to end soon so
I leaned
down and whispered in her ear.

“
I’
m so sorry I hurt you baby.
If I could take it all back I would do it in a heartbeat. I never want to hurt you again Arianna…..ever…….It kills me you didn’t get your special moment. I will never forget that I to
ok
that away from you. I’m sorry.”

I pulled away and lo
ok
ed down into her face.

Fuck…she was crying…….

“Jefferson I need to tell you something and you are probably going to hate me after I tell
you.” She said in between sobs.

“Baby I could never hate you.”

The song ended and we were just standing there. I reached up and tried to wipe away the tears that were falling down her face
like rain
.

“I….I never slept with Jason. I just told you that because I wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me. I’m….
I’m
still a virgin Jeff. The moment I left that message I wanted to call you back but I was so angry still. I’m so sorry.
I just wanted to hurt you as much as you hurt me.
”
Ari sp
ok
e so fast I hardly was able to process what the hell she was saying.

Holy moth
er fucking shit…..I spent almost a damn month
punishing myself for
something that never happened.

I closed my eyes silently thanking God she didn’t sleep with that asshole. Then I opened them and saw her staring up at me. I just smiled at her.
If she had set out to hut me, she did a good job of it.

“Well squirt, it worked.
I um, I need to go check on the food and everything. I’ll talk to you later
okay
.”

I turned an
d walked away from the one person
I would always lo
ve…. but never be able to have.

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE

A
ri……

The moment Jeff turned and walked away I wanted to go after him. Oh god…I just wanted to shout out MOTHER FUCKER as loud as I could! I didn’t want to draw attention to myself so I just stood there because
you know…….
standing in the middle of their backyard with tears running down my face was n
ot going to draw any attention.

FUCK ME!

Oh holy hells bells
….the way he was holding me so close during that song….I knew the moment he asked me to dance what he was trying to do. It was
his way of saying he was sorry.

I’m so sorry I hurt you baby………
Baby I could never hate you
……

I have waited eight
fucking years for this…
….
eight
years for him to call me something other than squirt, to hold me like he never wanted to let me go.
Son of a fucking bitch!

Oh.my.god
. I just fucked up everything……I lo
ok
ed over at Ellie who was now getting off of Gunner’s la
p and walking over to me.

“OH MY GOD
Ari what did he
say
to you? I’
ll kill him for making you cry again that bastard!” Ellie shouted as she lo
ok
ed back towards the door Jeff
just
walked through.

I started to laugh. Why I have no idea….I found none of this
shit
funny.
Ellie lo
ok
ed at me confused as hell.

“Ari what the hell
is going on?”

“Oh nothing Ells….you know…
…
Jeff just did the most fucking romantic thing anyone has ever done for me…..and I blew i
t. I fucking blew something I’
ve been wanting for so long.” I started to cry again. GODDAMN it….the second time I have been to one of their parties and
I am crying! JESUS MARY AND JO
SEPH!